Saturday, August 28, 2010
I woke up Friday morning dreading getting on the scale knowing that I wasn't as careful food wise as I had been in the weeks before the wedding. I was eating when I was hungry and not always the things that I might have said were the best for me. I was totally surprised when I realized that I was down from where I was the last time I weighed myself before the wedding! I was super excited and realized that, at least for a while, probably the best thing for me is to eat the things I like, when I feel hungry. The key is stopping when I feel full. I also realized that if I lose a pound a week, by the time my one year wedding anniversary rolls around, I will be in a very healthy place, including a healthy BMI. That's even accounting for the fact that not all weeks will be perfect!
Since getting married, and well, I've lived an hour away from my previous doctor for over a year now, I decided to switch to a closer practice. In some ways, I also hoped that some of the problems the previous doctor found would go away. Sadly, the new one came up with more and I'm feeling it right now. My husband and I had some wine with our dinner tonight. At first, I fell right asleep, but when he came to bed later, he woke me up. I've been up since then with my heart going like crazy. I don't like this feeling! I've tried different breathing techniques, but nothing so far has helped. I decided to get up and stop tossing and turning and bothering the hubby. Needless to say, both doctors have really said that my problems have come from my weight. It's really tempting to say, "I'm going to drop 20 pounds in 4 weeks so the doctors will stop giving me a hard time and I can start feeling better." But I know that will just back fire! Although, at 1:30 AM, while my heart is beating and I can't sleep, it's tempting to want to think. If I lose a little bit at a time, I will feel better soon. And the more I lose and can keep off, the less I will hate going to the doctor. They always say they're not trying to embarrass you, but when I told him I knew what my BMI was and that I was working on it, I still get the lecture that I'm over weight and need to work on it and blah blah blah. I realize that I would probably be sleeping right now had I been able to realize that losing weight can be done slowly a while ago, but I didn't, so here I am. I hope I can sleep soon!
Monday, August 02, 2010
Yesterday was a success! I fell a little below my calorie range, even though I was able to eat a small roast beef sub and a bowl of popcorn with my fiance. Today, hopefully I'll be able to make it! My lunch today is leftovers from dinner last night:
1 serving of garlic shrimp (I sauteed shrimp in olive oil and garlic)
2 servings of rice
(last night I also had a bowl of salad with 2 tbsp tomato and bacon salad dressing)
My snacks include:
1 Yoplait light yogurt -- cherry cobbler
1 bunch of red grapes
2 stalks of celery
12 Nut-rition almonds which I will eat about 20 minutes before lunch to try to keep me full longer
(if I fall below my range after dinner tonight or I'm still really hungry, I will have 1/2 of a serving of dry Multi - grain Cheerios)
Sunday, August 01, 2010
Cassie and I'm a habitual over eater! There, I said it! I was talking with the fiance last night (again) about my weight; however, this time, it was him asking me what my "plan b" was for when school starts again. After a lengthy discussion, we realized that my real problem is that I over eat all the time. I think I've known that for a while, but I've worked really hard at avoiding that because it's hard!
During the last week and a half, I have torched around 600 calories in each workout and for the most part, I've been up and doing house work and other activities. In short, I haven't been sedentary. I haven't been tracking my food because that's hard for me, and, especially after working out like that, I'm hungry. So, I've been preparing SparkRecipies, and eating lots of healthful things, but I'm still overeating. I need to try to find a way to work past my over eating. Really, the problem, I think, is that my stomach has become so used to being over full and thinking that's what full feels like, I don't know what just being full does feel like. In fact, that just being full feels like I'm still hungry. As soon as I get a shower, I'm going to go to the store and buy a food scale to help with my portion control. I'm also going to borrow an idea from a Sparkfriend of mine and take photos of my food to help myself remember that portion control is a problem. The fiance is going to help me work on portion control, too. I guess I'll be chewing a lot of gum and hoping that my stomach shrinks quickly so I don't have to feel not full all of the time. I can eat the things I love and really live a normal life if I can learn to eat portions that fit in my calorie range. I don't want my future husband to have to change his whole life. Tracking food is hard, but really, it's the only way I'm going to do this....
So... here's my breakfast for today:
1 CocoPop (Wegman's rice cake)
2 tbsp peanut butter
8 oz skim milk
1 bunch of red grapes
I'll try not to get ridiculous about this and do all meals & snacks at one time, but as I'm trying to get myself started, I may be doing this often.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Background information: My wedding is 16 days away as of today!
Last Wednesday, my Mom called me and said she could take the afternoon off of work so she could come to my bridal fitting with me. This was really important to her since I bought my wedding dress (as the shop was going out of business) one day after work. When I bought the dress, it was a size too big for me, so when I hadn't lost any weight since then, I didn't worry too much about it. However, when I tried the dress on, I realized that I may not have changed weight, but I sure have changed shape! I really didn't like that my stomach stuck out farther than my bust. When I got home and my mom left, I had a major melt down. I called my maid of honor and she told me all of the things I knew already. However, I haven't had my fiance's support. So, we talked about it once again.
He wasn't sure how me asking him for help one day, rather than day after day after day, that I wasn't really asking for help. I was thinking that if I asked for help one day, that would last for a while. We finally got on the same page and I've been planning meals and he's been helping me work on my portion control. He's also not offering me wine, which is a down fall for me, or ice cream or other things that I would love to eat, but won't help me with my goals. He's also not complaining about light items I bring home (like light sour cream for taco salad). And, he's helped me with my workouts and is encouraging me to get my butt in the basement and do my workout videos.
It's been a week, and I've been doing my workouts every single day. I've been eating well and it's been showing. My stomach is getting MUCH flatter, thank goodness. My fiance even commented this morning as he was getting dressed that thanks to just the meals I've been cooking (he hasn't been working out like I have since he's working right now and I'm not), that his pants are actually starting to fit better, too. (I weighed myself on Tuesday and Friday of last week, but I'm waiting to weigh myself again until Friday of this week so I have more of an idea of how I'm doing.)
Needless to say, I have been doing this for one week and I can see a major difference in my stomach, without my girdle. I'm going to keep this up, even though next week will be interesting since I have school stuff to focus on next week, but I am going to do it! I'm going to look fabulous on my wedding day!!
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Last week was a rough week to say the least! My fiance's job was shaky, and I got three rejections from the three schools I applied at, even the two that I had worked at before. One was even where I graduated from high school! Seriously, I was really worried about our future. I didn't do a very good job of working at reaching my goals and I got into a funk. Needless to say, I knew I needed to get out of that funk, but I wasn't quite sure how. Well, I woke up this morning with a completely new attitude. I'm feeling so much better. I know that even though I have a co-worker's bridal shower this afternoon, I can take a walk today. And, since buying the jump rope which has been great, I can get a workout in in just a few minutes a day. Wow, does that feel good! I know it's not easy and I know it's extra work, but I'm going to put forth an honest effort to really track my food for a while, even measuring it out. What I found is that I was counting my peanut butter on my English muffin as 2 tbsp when it really was only one. If I do that, I know I can make mistakes going the other direction, too!
Also, I really thought about why I want to do this. Here are some of my reasons:
We may end up honeymooning somewhere tropical
I want off the blood pressure meds
I want to be able to wear skirts and dresses on hot day w/out rubbing thighs!
I want to have children some time soon
I want to feel less tired all of the time
I don't want to feel winded after walking up the stairs
I want jeans to be comfortable again
I want to look good in my wedding dress
I don't want flabby arms when I'm wearing tank tops
I know there are many more, but I need to finish getting ready for work now! :)
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