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Slightly Discouraged

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

So, I went to the gym after working 4-midnight tonight. I felt good about going, and started off with an hour on the elliptical. The longest I had done before that was 30 minutes. Then I went a did some strength training (I had an hour session of strength training earlier in the day), then I finished off with 30 minutes on a stationary bike, and some time in the massage chair :P
I hadn't checked my blood pressure since I started working out, so I figured I should do such. I have high blood pressure, which is one of the things I hope to improve with the weight loss. I found an iPod app to log my blood pressure, so that I could keep an eye on it. It also asked you to input your weight. I hate scales. That may be a sentiment you share. The idea of standing on a scale anywhere that wasn't my own bathroom is terrifying. The gym had 2 other people in it at this time though, so I thought it would be safe. I thought to myself, "At least you know you haven't gained any weight". I had my weight taken last week as part of an assessment at the gym. Well, turns out I have gained weight! I couldn't believe it. I haven't eaten fast food in 12 days, which is amazing for me because it was a staple in my diet before. I haven't eaten fried food, and have been eating healthier than I have in a long time. I'm eating breakfast every morning for the first time since I was young enough to have breakfast made for me, and have been to the gym at least once a day every day for the last 12, excluding two Sundays, one of which I worked out outside of the gym. I can not understand how I have gained 4 pounds.
At first I was really bummed. I felt like all the work I had been doing was pointless, and I really was going to be stuck being the "fat girl". Then my mind told me that I needed to try harder, a concept that is good on paper, but one that while running through my head at this time went to some unhealthy options. That's not what I want to do. The fact is, I feel better. I can't believe it has only been 12 days, because the changes I feel are incredible. I have more energy, I sleep much better than before, my stress has gone down an unbelievable amount, I feel stronger, more motivated, and just better about myself. Yes, it was a bit of a downer to see that number on the scale, but it isn't all about the numbers. I feel proud of myself for committing to going to the gym as often as I have been, eating breakfast, staying away from fast food, and steering my life in a healthy direction. Yes, I want to lose weight, but it isn't all about the numbers on the scale. It's about being healthy, and feeling good.
Also, if you're interested, my systolic blood pressure is still slightly high, but not nearly as much as it was! My doctor will be happy :)

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JILLSMYTH 11/22/2011 9:49AM

  Why you Gain Weight when you START to Excercise:

When someone starts a new exercise program, they often experience muscle soreness. The more intense and "unfamiliar" the program, the more intense the muscle soreness. This soreness is most prevalent 24 to 48 hours after each workout. In the first few weeks of a new program, soreness is the body trying to "protect and defend" the effected or targeted tissue.

This type of soreness is thought to be caused by tissue breakdown or microscopic tears in muscle tissue. When this happens the body protects the tissue. The muscle becomes inflamed and slightly swollen with fluid retention.

******* This temporary retention of fluid can result in a 3- to 4-pound weight gain within a few weeks of a new program. ******

Keep in mind that muscle soreness is not necessarily a reflection of how hard you worked. In fact, some people feel no signs of muscle soreness, yet will experience the muscle protection mechanisms of water retention and slight swelling.

Most people are motivated enough to put up with this temporary muscle soreness. Yet, many, especially those who really need immediate weight loss to keep them motivated in those first couple of weeks become discouraged and quit!

Don't be discouraged! You are doing fabulously! Keep concentrating on all the good things you've done for yourself.

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PLSOCK 11/22/2011 7:32AM

    Measure yourself, Bean! You're going to see a difference there, even if you don't on the dreaded scale. Plus- you've been working out a lot, and I believe our bodies sometimes hold on to a little water to cool down muscle, so keep that in mind if you had just worked out. And- you're building muscle, which weighs more than fat. You're doing such a good thing! Your body will reward you- I promise! I'm so proud of your committment to a healthy lifestyle! Good work :)

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PAULAAUTUMN 11/22/2011 5:18AM

    Well done emoticon you have done such a lot, keeping away from fast foods and eating a heakthy diet is such a challenge all on its own. To keep the exercise going at the gym as well is brilliant.
You have also acheived something else, you have not given in to the negative voice that often tells us no change on the sccales why bother.
You have turned that around to be positive as it is not all about numbers it is changing things for life and to be healthier.
Have you tried measuring yourself you may have lost inches, also as you are going to the gym you can lose fat but gain muscle weight.
Keep up the good work emoticon emoticon

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Proud of Myself

Saturday, November 19, 2011

I made it to the gym tonight for a half hour workout, which is the least amount of time I have ever spent there. The gym closed at 7 though, and I made it there at 6:30-just enough time for a jog! I slept until 4pm, because I was on midnights last night, so I was beat when I got home this morning. I am on midnights again tonight, so while I was eating dinner I was thinking to myself, "Do I really have to go to the gym tonight? It won't hurt to miss it just once. I have been every other day this week..." I could have easily justified not going to the gym. It's all the way across town, and I'd only be there for half an hour. Not today though! I probably won't make it to the gym tomorrow, because I work until 8am, then I am back again at 4pm, so it doesn't leave a lot of workout time. I knew that I would regret not going if that's the decision I made.
This has always been my problem. I make excuses do something "Just this once", and I end up spiraling out of my diet, exercise and healthy choices. This isn't the first time in the last week or so that I have done this, and it makes me feel really good knowing that I am sticking to it, and putting myself first, in a healthy way. Plus, I really do enjoy going to the gym. It makes me feel great!

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SWEETLIPS 11/20/2011 2:51PM

    I am proud of you too!! I know how it feels, this past week, I had not worked out actually for the past two weeks, and like a road runner commerical, I was around here, getting on my swimsuit, flip flops, and sweatshirt with some flimsy capri's to get to the pool in time for a wate aerobics class - I made it, oh, btw the way, it was so cold outside, I could not fathom why I did not know that, but I went anyway and it was the best!!

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ZELLAZM 11/20/2011 11:06AM

    Hey, new friend - WTG on your determination! Give yourself a pat on the back!

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PLSOCK 11/20/2011 8:20AM

    Good for you, Bean! I'm proud of you, too!

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6000 Calories Today?!

Tuesday, May 03, 2011

Okay, so not really. But that's what my Nutrition Tracker said, and I had a slight panic attack! I went out for brunch with a friend, but I didn't think it was THAT bad. Turns out, I put that I ate 25 cups of diced ham, instead of .25 cups. LOL. So, I took that out, and I fit nicely into my calorie target for the day! emoticon

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ERICACEAE 5/4/2011 12:16PM

    Ha, I'm just imagining 25 cups of diced ham on a platter now. So not appetising! :) Thanks for the funny story!

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JBJAKUBEK 5/3/2011 9:36PM

    Funny! I've done that too.

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The Final "Last Time"

Monday, May 02, 2011

So, here I am again, trying to lose weight. I have struggled for several years with my feelings of worthlessness. I now know that I have worth, and I should start to live like it. I am an emotional eater, but no more! I have put myself down, and not cared about myself, but no more! I have found my worth in God, and I know He doesn't want me treating myself this way. So, this is it. Healthy and happy. Here it goes.

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PLSOCK 5/3/2011 7:19AM

    I knew what you were worth the very first time I held you in my arms. I'm so glad you're starting to see it :) I love you very much, Bean.

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