Tomorrow I head out with my 4th grade class on our annual field trip to St. Augustine to supplement our studies of Florida history. Everyone is really excited but the only damper is that the weather has made a turn for the worse (Florida style) and it is raining and cool. Tomorrow is suppose to be cooler -low 50's-which is great but raining. The kids are all so excited that I have had a hard time keeping them focused. This our big trip that they all look forward to in 4th grade and all week all they have done is talk about it and ask questions. I love to see them so excited and full of life.
So my day tomorrow will involve lots of walking and fun with a wonderful, enthusiastic group of 4th graders. m
Let's just hope that the rain does not spoil our day!! and that I can survive so much energy!
I have been feeling quite down this month and I know this has a lot to do with my weigh loss not going in the right direction. I have been reading the motivational articles and things are starting to make sense.
I think I have been to hard on myself and this has slow down my progress. I read this article " Going Through the Emotions: Why It's Worth the Trouble" and it really hit home for me.
I know it is ok to be sad, to have bad days, and to blame myself for everything...but now I must let that go and move forward. The results may not be fast but I know it will happen. mm
So today I start to find myself and work my way back to where I was before I fell into this "funk". Let's go I can and will move towards a better me for me!!!!!!
Angelina - Today 2/17 is your is your birthday! Happy 23rd. birthday my beautiful daughter! Celebrate in heaven and know that we will be celebrating with you!! Tears of joy will be shed for you and your dad, your brothers and I remember you dearly and we will send a special prayer your way!!
This is a wonderful month where we express our love for all in our lives. Everyone is excited about St. Valentine's Day! Don't get me wrong so am I. I bought some cards to send my boy that are away in college. I will spend the day with my husband. I will email, call or text my sisters, family and friends.
So what is the problem!! Well 3 days after Valentine's day on Feb. 17 would have been my beautiful daughter's 23rd birthday!! She is my special Valentine and angel in heaven. So this year my heart feels heavy thinking of her and what her life would have been. I have come to accept this reality, but only those that have lost child know the feeling.
Angelina, which means little angel, I miss you, your brothers are young men and they talk about you as if you were here. Your dad and I will always remember our first born and only daughter!!
Then to add to this heaviness in my heart the fact that my mom is in a nursing home after her stroke. It is so hard to visit with you mom and you not recognizing it is me. The few moments that you do remember me are so few and precious!! I sit here thinking of you tears streaming down my face. I miss you mom and I love you.... I found this Betty Boop picture and it reminded me of you, so I posted it on my page == you made me one for Christmas which I put out every year.
Happy Valentine Angelina and Mom!! You are both always in my heart!!
Well it happened my weight went up this week!!! Why I don't know! I do know that I have not been able to make to the gym due to personal problems but I have made sure to get in at least 30 minutes of walking or movement. I have been tracking and watching my intake so what happened!!! m I was so disappointed when I got on the scale that I did not want to post my weight but I know I can't let down my team so I just took the walk of shame.
I am feeling very down because of this but I did make it to the gym today and I will continue with what I am supposed to do and maybe if I let go of some of my stress I might do better this week.
There is no excuse -- so sorry to all my teammates -- and I will try my hardest this week!! m