Tuesday, July 16, 2013
Well, one year later, another six month absence. At Christmas, I realized that the program I've been on, here has been maintaining my weight, not helping me lose any more. No matter how I try to change my settings, because I'm in step four, the program is designed to keep me at 130. I was frustrated. When I stopped counting my daily calories, I had an instant four pound loss. I left the spark confident that I had done the right thing.
Six months later, I'm no closer to my goal. My four pounds have come back. The spring was stressful with a new school, a new grade and a suffering class. I also suffered from familial sabotage , as my husband stopped allowing me to cook. We started eating out so much more, and I didn't have many healthy choices. I'm lucky in that my dancing was constant, and sometimes grueling, as we prepared for our most important, and difficult, performance.
Now, I'm within a month of turning 40, and I don't like what I see. My eyes are puffy, my hair seems to be getting duller and wiry, and my complexion looks like I'm constantly sunburned, when I'm not. I was able to bring my medical levels closer to normal in the fall, which was a great mood booster. However, lately, when eating, my ever present sweet tooth has returned with a vengeance, and I can't seem to eat enough pasta. That's always been my favorite food. I'm to see my endocrinologist next week. I'm perfectly prepared to see that all of my blood levels have gone up. This burns me up! I don't want my mess to increase in dosage, but I'm afraid my endo will recommend just that.
I have always lacked in daily protein, and now I'm looking at protein powders to help myself out. I just don't know if that's the right thing to do. im also looking at astaxanthin. I feel that I can't possibly eat right unless I eat nuts and beans all the time (yuck). I'm supposed to stay away from meat, soda, and high fats, so I find that I'm eating mostly carbs. I really wish that the spark had the tracker differentiate from simple and complex carbs. But the real problem is the lack of protein.
I'm back again to see what I can do for myself. It seems that each time I stop the spark, my progress stops. But, when I restart, my weight and measurements don't change either.
Sunday, September 23, 2012
There are so many things I do that it's hard to imagine one thing taking precedence over another. I think what I do need is to find an even-ness for my workouts. I'm great on strength training, but it's the cardio that's killing me. Some weeks, I work out 30 minutes. Some weeks, like these past 4, I have hardly enough energy to work out one night at dance class. And, we PERFORM! I HAVE to do it right. But, if I can find a way to keep my cardio consistent without burning myself out, maybe I'll be able to blast those last 15 pounds by Christmas. I'm still wondering if that's a reasonable goal. For a person of my height, 5'2", and a small build, I should be around 115....which hasn't been a reality since 10th grade. By the time I left for college, I was 125. And, that was waaaay before the PCOS was active. Now, I'm sat at 130, not budging an ounce from that since I restarted my journey in June. What if I'm not supposed to?
But, I know I'm not doing everything I could do. I'm skipping a lot of cardio, but I honestly feel exhausted from work, and it's not feasible for me to work out in the morning. I have the perfect time: 8:30 PM each night. I do the weights and flexibility stuff, but the thought of jumping around after my kids have gone to bed isn't appealing right now. Do not fear, though. I'm still working on myself and I don't plan to rest on my bum. I'm just really burned out, right now.
So, moderation for me must concentrate on how to make my cardio consistent so I can see progress toward my bloodwork and my weight and measurements. I'll never get rid of PCOS, but I sure hope to never have to face Diabetes. Yeah, I can skip that and feel great about it. :)
Monday, September 17, 2012
I'm a small person: 5 foot, 2 inches tall, 130 pounds. But, I also have high cholesterol and high triglycerides and high blood sugar. I have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome with Insulin Resistance. I'm on medication for these things--luckily two meds do the trick.
This, my friends, SUCKS!
I have visceral fat in my tummy area and on my thighs (totally a female thing), and I only need to lose 15 pounds to put me in the middle of my BMI. So, since i joined Sparkpeople in 2005, I have managed to take off all my baby weight and get back to 130, but I can't seem to get any further. I'm beginning to wonder if my goal is at all reasonable. What if this IS my ideal weight--where I am, now? What if toning is all I should strive for, since I can't seem to get rid of the fat. I am a dancer, a public performer, yet I can't dance enough to get rid of the fat that rounds out my tummy area.
So, yeah, I'm stressed! My A1C MUST be below 5.7 in order for my endocrinologist to be happy. My cholesterol must be below 200 (it's not), and so must my triglycerides! My goal is to reach my bloodwork goals by Christmas--the next time I see my doctor. I've already changed a few things:
--no more soda, except as a treat once in a while (like tonight at dinner)
--eating food from home
--very few foods from cans, bottles, or boxes
--watching my portions
--not adding sugar to things, like cereal. That's very, very hard!
--WATER ONLY!! Unless there's some decaf iced tea handy--unsweetened, of course.
--loads of fruit and vegetables to snack on. Less cheese, but 1 oz at a time to satisfy a craving.
--some kind of workout every day. Right now, it's been the Bootcamp workouts, but I need better cardio and to be more consistent with it.
--better sleep! 8 hours most nights, with the occasional 6 or 7 accepted, if need be.
--stretching! You have no idea how Qi Jong has helped my injured shoulder!
--deep breathing just slows me down when I most need to. It's great!
--journaling every day at least a little. I keep an online diary, as well as a paper diary.
--plant-based, whole-foods diet (very little, if any, animal anything. This has been super hard, and I must admit to failing on it. Being Vegan is HARD!!
So, I'm doing stuff and I do it all the time. I just get frustrated when I feel that all I'm doing is maintaining my weight instead of trying to lose my final 15.
I don't want to be rail thin. I don't want to be a model. Heck, I'm 39! I'm too old to be trying to look like a pin up model! But, for my health, I must lose these pounds and bring my blood levels back to normal.
It's frustrating that I'm at such a standstill.
Sunday, August 26, 2012
Hmm... I know that the object of this lesson is to realize that I hold myself back from my goals by deciding not to work out when I should. However, I feel that my reasons are more to do with logistics, and that sometimes, there are just not enough hours in the day.
I'm an elementary school teacher, and our first day of school is tomorrow. Today, we leave for church in 30 minutes. We'll be home within an hour. That part is good. BUT, then, I have to get my daughter's school uniforms laundered and put on hangers, I need to go grocery shopping for lunches and dinners. This includes planning the meals, themselves. Finally, I need to be able to plan my lessons for Monday--ONLY Monday. My school district uses a teaching model called Direct Interactive Instruction, and it has certain components that are non-negotiable. These components take soooo much longer to prepare than other methods, and that eats up time. My family CAN help, some. My husband is great with laundry, and my daughter is learning how to hang up her clothes. We'll have to help with the trousers--they're hard to hang up. :) My family helps with meal planning, but I'm most efficient at shopping, so that's my part. The lesson planning part is purely on me, as I'm the only teacher in the house. LOL
I hope to have all these things done by the time the kids go to bed at 8 PM. If I can swing this, I should be able to do the Bootcamp video in peace around 9 PM.
I find that things like this take coordination, and that if I work at it, I can get everything done in good time. I've been working at not letting time to work out get me down, but there are at least two days within the week that are so jam-packed that it's hard to find any time left over for working out.
My new challenge will be to keep up my momentum, which I've created over the past month, to continue my program. My ultimate goals are to lose 15 pounds, gain muscle, strength and flexibility, lower my cholesterol and triglyceride levels, as well as my resting 3-month blood sugar average, known as the test: A1C.
If I keep these goals in mind, and my goal date of Christmas, i should be able to fit everything else in.
Here we go...
Saturday, August 18, 2012
Home made veggie pizza
Baked Tilapia--Chef Meg's recipe--it's GOOOOD!!
Pork Stir Fry
Bean and Cheese Burrito
Stuffed Bell Peppers
Soup and Sandwich
Tuna Noodle Casserole
Baked chicken breast with rice and veggies
Kraft Macaroni and Cheese with salad and hot dogs
Steak kabobs with bell peppers, cherry tomatoes and rice
I'll be adding to this list as time goes on. :)
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