Thursday, July 24, 2014
Always find time to take Turkey out for a good run and play on the field. Didn't take much to tucker him out, and just in time.....monsoon thunderstorm~at least the lightening and thunder part are here! So far Turkey isn't terrified, but still resting at my feet. From the looks of the flashes, out the corner of my eye, it could get scary :P
Tuesday, July 22, 2014
When I was fifteen, crushed on my now honey HARD!! I would never have guessed after a decade, we would actually be dating. I actually got married for a two month brief period before we got together with an on again, off again high school boyfriend. Looking back, it wasn't the right thing to do and grateful don't have any children to tie us together. I did miss the friendship, but his wife had a whole set of rules for him......not so much for her, and with some bitterness on his part, we don't talk.
About seven years ago, one of the three Davids I used to hang out with in high school randomly got my number through an old mutual friend. I almost lost him once to drugs......and now just recently, his kidneys failed....and almost lost him AGAIN!! He lives maybe a few hours away from my sister in law(ex)....I had re connected with her a year or two later.....and now we are all connected on Face book. All but the ex.....he's still a little hesitant, but his now ex-wife was basically using him this whole time. I don't mind mending fences.....I was never out to hurt him, or his relationship with her, I feel bad he got used the way he did. She did give him something I wasn't willing to~three girls, she even took that away. I don't expect us to have a friendly reunion anytime soon, but at least we are talking. Just have to give it a little more time.
I can't say what the future holds......but I'm hopeful and excited to see. The documentary is still in the works and that means the band plays one more time. Honey got paid from the gig, in itself a surprise~and more than would think punk band would bring in......but the show was epic. Still get chills thinking about it, watching the videos of the show and pit.
My body isn't doing much in the way of changing lol I guess that is a good thing, not getting worse, but not as fit as I could be. For now, happy to be where I'm at.
Our princess kitten has kind of thrown a fit when adopted our new older cat, Brutus. She now wants to spend all her time outside, and catching her sleeping in my honey's car *like our missing cat Spazzy used to. I usually scoop her up and bring her inside. I want her to feel like she is still part of the family......
Brutus has turned into the lover I had hoped Tilly *our princess would be. He even loves up on our Turkey dog....who is not quite certain what is going on lol He has also adopted my girlfriends crafty pillow blanket as his own
such a curious cat!
Saturday, July 05, 2014
It was my 20yr Highschool Reunion along with my honey's punk band Reunion/ Benefit show.....scheduled for the same night!! My best friend and his fiance were flying across the country~and couldn't bare the thought of not getting to see him. Luckily my boss needed me to do a decorating shift~so I was able to head down the mountain a day early! I was sooo excited~my honey already in Phoenix for week of rehearsal with the band and filming/interviews for the upcoming documentary.
We went to a couple of the "gay bars" we used to go to~but on a Thursday night, things were kinda dead. Can't be with Jason, my bestie, in Phnx without stopping by the "adult shop" Castle boutique and another little shop where the clerk was a definite "hottie" .....can't believe we were talking about Caligula! Oh, and had fried chicken and waffles for the first time~delicious!
Friday, we caravaned down to our military "hometown" and did the touristy trip to Tombstone....not far away. Matter of fact, my ex's graduated from Tombstone High a year after me lol We even stayed in the same "suites" my ex's parents gave him for "crashing in" after his graduations....ahahhaha good times! Anyway....that night was the Mixer for the high school get together, pre reunion dinner the next night. It was kind of weird being hugged by people who didn't give two craps about me in high school....and now we really have little in common. Kind of sad...because I'm so freakin happy and alot of them just seem tied down. I was there to have a good time and I did~hope my bestie and his fiance also had as much fun at the dinner and checking out the rest of our "growing" hometown.
The greatest night was yet to come~the Malignus Youth show! 20 LONG years waited to hear my honey play again.....along with a ton of other fans I went up early in the afternoon to make sure I got into the show~I feel mega cheesy saying "I'm the drummer's girlfriend" lol The opening bands were all bands had heard or new bands created from old band members, even my honey was in the small pit before they played. Backstage before they went on.....kiss for good luck! and then told him going back down front where I will be able to see him. It was AWESOME! I was almost right upfront, short chic in front of me kept looking at me all funky when the Pit pushed us against the stage.....even the 7ft giant standing next to me at one point was being pushed....lol it's just a hazard of being upfront. Eventually I was right upfront, the only casualty was some rubbed skin near my pinkie against mesh part of the stage......and my sandals and toes survived! The director of the movie all over the stage and then did a stage dive......my honey not too far behind him.
The afterparty, just chilling~drinking beer, sharing and snapping more pictures. My honey and I had water, awesome to be outside at 2am and have the weather still be 85 degrees! We were going to stay at an Econolodge up the highway a bit.....but were offered a free room in the booked solid, historical Hotel Congress~which just happens to be Club Congress until 2am.....holy cow! the whole building was rattling~so it was nice when the party downstairs was over. My honey definitely liked the random placement of mirrors in the room...I mean we hadn't seen each other in a week, after all
The craziest part is my honey's getting paid for the gig.....and are going to play again for the release of the documentary next year. Still buzzed with excitement of the weekend~and probably will be for awhile.....at least until we approach the release date! I also got one of the shows shirts, and a couple of bumper stickers can't wait to put on my car.....and send some to my sister.
Tuesday, July 01, 2014
Article: 10 Things I Have Learned About Calling Everyone Beautiful & The Body Positive Movement In One Year
Posted by Jade Beall on July 01, 2014
Today is my 35th birthday, but more important, to me at least, is the celebration of the one year anniversary completion of my Kickstarter Campaign for my book which launched me into an unexpected euphoria of blessed attention and a slightly frantic Body Positive Stardom. Because I took some images of myself nude and 50lbs heavier than I had ever been in my life, breastfeeding my 5 week old perfect baby boy as an attempt to redefine what beautiful means to me. And because I then proceeded to photographed over a 100 women who reached out to me wishing to redefine our concept of what is gorgeous, celebrating the skin that we are are in, I became the body love expert for a spell, a particular memorable moment was the BBC calling me up for my thoughts on Kate Middleton's post birth body. This surprising attention I most definitely adored but was not fully prepared to receive. But I did my best receiving that incredible blessing of some amazing global press, love and hate emails from strangers all over the planet, raising my toddler and yes, photographing, completing and publishing my first ever book. Today I write these words from a rustic cabin in the very secluded mountains of northern New Mexico at about 10,000 feet with very slow satellite internet connection and my toddler playing at my feet with two toy airplanes I bought him as a gift that he likes to call helicopters. This is my first "time off" besides a few Sundays here and there since this radical ride I have been on over the last year. I have had some time to reflect about what I have learned in the last year and I wanted to share it with you, the gorgeous folks who have made my dreams come true.
10 Things I Have Learned About Calling Everyone Beautiful and The Body Positive Movement In One Year
1. Feeling beautiful about one's precious self can dramatically improve one's successes in life.
This I know from experience. Now that I no longer waste hours and hours a day hating myself and my reflection in the mirror, I have so much more time to do really awesome things like empower women through a simple gorgeous photograph. I still have days of wishing I fit into my old jeans and I wonder where my jaw line has disappeared to, but those thoughts no longer paralyze me and I still feel worthy of calling myself beautiful which makes me walk with more self-confidence and love.
2. When we share vulnerability, it inspires a whole lot of healing for people and helps heal our own wounds of not feeling beautiful enough, smart enough, lovable enough, successful enough.
When I shared a photo of myself with dark circles under my eyes and rolls and cellulite and (gasp!) called it beautiful, I was sharing a vulnerability that thousands of other women unknowingly to me were yearning to see, to feel that empowering human desire known as: a sense of belonging. The images we are dominated with are almost ALL photo-shopped to make a rendition of what the beautiful model looks like. We have been trained to think that people in magazines don;t have pores and wrinkles and cellulite. They do, and it's beautiful.
3. Anyone who wishes to feel and be called beautiful damn well deserves to be called and feel BEAUTIFUL!
Obvious to me and most of you I am sure, but you all would not believe some of the emails I receive and the articles people send me going on and on about how not everyone is beautiful just like 'not everyone can climb Mount Everest.' Sure, there are some cruel people on this planet who I hope I never meet who I probably would not jump to call beautiful. But all, yes ALL of the people I have ever met and who I photograph are and will always be BEAUTIFUL is they so wish to be. And people with things like tumors and arms and legs missing and cancer patients and mothers with gorgeous birth stripes are nothing but irreplaceable beautiful and precious.
4. Photographing diverse body types people does not equal promoting obesity.
I have learned this year that yet another way people discriminate and shame fat people is to call them unhealthy. Here is the truth: the ONLY thing that is unhealthy on this planet is unkindness. Think about it, all of the truly dangerous things on this planet that are a threat to our health came about from a need to be more kind. If you are worried about someone you don't know or do know's health, give them a hug and some wild harvested flowers instead of telling them that they shouldn't celebrate the beautiful skin that they are in today. Tell them they are worthy and precious. I promise that will be much more healthy then blaming them for being unhealthy.
5. Photographing women nude in the name of celebrating and helping women feel empowered in the skin we are in does not equal objectifying women.
This feedback that my project and my book are yet another way to 'objectify women' has really hurt me in the deepest parts of my soul because objectifying women is something I am not and never will be friends with. However, this feedback has pushed me to do some deep reflection on the work that I do and how I offer it to the world. Do I think that there is primarily bare and nude women everywhere in the name of selling something and do I thing this is objectifying? Oh heck yes I do! I mean, how many scantly dressed or nude men do we see in the name of selling a car? (If you are watching the World Cup like I am, you prob have noticed the commercials in question). I am NOT DOWN for objectifying women and nor do I think all women should share nude images of themselves in my book or elsewhere to celebrate our beautiful vulnerabilities. I honor my sisters wearing their sacred burkas just like I honor my own self getting nude to show you that I am like you: perfectly human and in no need of photoshopping out my God-given cellulite!
6. ALL bodies yes ALL bodies are gorgeous and worthy of being photographed and loved wether that body be covered or nude.
It's just the plain ol' truth.
7. Being impeccable with my words has helped me feel beautiful for the first time since I was 10 years old.
I no longer say/use negative words out loud. Sure I still battle with internal "you are not worthy" dialogue that I then practice shining love on. I do not, however, use negative words about myself aloud. Not in front of my toddler, not in front of my mother or sister or friends. When someone says, "Jade, you look so beautiful today!" I say thank you and smile and force my old habit of wanting to reply, "Oh no I look like crap today" away and let the compliment nourish my soul. I also use my words with kindness to deliver honest compliments and words of support to people I randomly meet and with my friends and family alike. The less we put ourselves down, the less our children will do it. Plain and simple. PLEASE, if nothing else take away this simple practice form this post: Be free from saying you look ugly/too fat/too thin/too unstylish/old/worthless in front of your precious children. Practice loving yourself in entirety so that our little ones can learn to love themselves!
8. I no longer believe in the "I will be happy when... I am thinner/bigger breasted/ less pimply/un-wrinkly/have better hair and more money.
Life is shot dear friend my age just told me an hour ago she has terminal cancer. I want to in-joy my precious self today, not in some pre-determined thinner/fatter/more apple booty future. I no longer own a scale to compare myself to yesterday or tomorrow. I am not saying you shouldn't own one, I am saying we must be free from being a prisoner to anything that disempowers us, for me one of those things was owning a scale.
9. Being kind and feeling beautiful about myself directly enables me to be kind and see all my sisters as irreplaceably beautiful.
We have been taught since we were ridiculously little that we are in competition with one another. This consumes precious time and energy with terrible feelings of jealousy, envy and being just flat out un-kind. When we 'hate' another woman because we think she is more beautiful/successful than we are, we are directly hurting our precious being when we could be more abundantly impecable with our words for empowerment, love and BEAUTY making :)
10. A Body Positive and Self Love Movement Is For Everyone and We Need Lots of Cooks In This Revolutionary Kitchen!
One thousand and ninety two people backed my book project on Kickstarter and that single campaign has completely changed my work and my path so that I can dedicate my time to empowering my 'sisters.' Because of my simple project, women and men from all over the world have been inspired to produce more "unphotoshopped' images of women to start the healing of loving ourselves in entirety. Other radical sisters like my amazing Australian inspiration Taryn, founder of Body Image Movement and my divine dear friend and inspiration Jes aka The Militant Baker are rallying their communities in the name of self love and interconnected kindness and hundreds if not thousands of more women from all over the world are dedicating their lives to feeling beautiful and wanting to inspire YOU to feel beautiful inside and out so that we can live this crazy and short life with as much joy and kindness as possible. The world need us to be leaders of beauty and kindness. Lets show the world what beautiful truly means.
(The following photos are outtakes from my book, The Bodies of Mothers)
click the link at beginning of blog
Wednesday, June 04, 2014
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