Thursday, September 05, 2013
But first, a little about yesterday. Yesterday evening was a downpour. Massive amounts of huge drops of rain, and I could barely keep the windshield clear as I drove home. As anyone keeping track of my blogs knows, when it rains I turn into a kid again, so I dashed into the house threw on my grubbies and rain boots, and DS and I went out and played in the stream running down the condo parking lot. We got messy wet, and then came in to hang up our wet things, fix dinner and hang out on the couch watching a movie. It was a perfect end to a long day.
This morning I stayed home from work until 9:30 because the plumber finally came. I'm not going to think about how much that's going to cost. Just for today I'm going to be thankful that we have a shower again.
Today is a running day. Maybe it will rain again. That would be fun. If it doesn't, it's still nice and cool out.
Wednesday, September 04, 2013
I am impatient, and worried. The last 2 times I tried to lose weight I got to just over 240 and stopped losing. But just for today, I'm going to do my job, I'm going to follow my healthy guidelines, and I will meditate.
Yesterday was a running day, and I tried to talk myself out of it, but in the end I had a good 30 minute run. Day 1 Week 9, C25K. It's okay if I don't finish this week. I will allow myself to finish next week if I have to. But I did not quit, and I did not go back several weeks like I have in the past. I just accepted that the last 2 weeks held other challenges for me, and took a practice run on Sunday.
Working with a Just For Today attitude is about not worrying about what happened in the past, or what might happen in the future, so patience doesn't play a role. Just for today, I am not worried about that 1 lb that stands between me and the 20 lb line. I will celebrate the 1 lb that no longer weighs me down.
Thursday, August 29, 2013
I've discovered that I think too much. I tried out one of those Mensa sample quizzes, and I do very well with the numbers games. Upon looking at a string of numbers I can find the next digits in the string almost immediately. In my work I do a lot of calculating, and creating equations to find the missing number.
But I've discovered that this gift can be my enemy when I'm trying to lose weight. You know the game of trying not to think about a pink elephant? I think losing weight might be like that. I know that I need to train myself to reach for the right foods when I'm hungry, but the rest of it is supposed to be about not doing, not thinking about the box of ice cream in the fridge, not worrying about what it would do to the numbers on my scale.
It's remarkably simple, and yet so difficult at the same time, this not doing, not thinking. It's like meditating; successful meditation is about noticing when your mind is starting to go crazy, and bring it back to center, to not doing.
Just for today I will meditate on not doing, and not worry about how long it's been since my last blog entry.
Friday, August 23, 2013
Lucky 13, just for today I am sitting at my desk, comfortable and warm. It's been raining for days, and the contractor thinks that may be what happened in my house yesterday. That doesn't sound right to me, but just at the moment I'm not worrying about that. I have a job, the roof over our heads still keeps us dry, the fridge is full of nice healthy goodies.
Right now, this moment, I am okay, my son is okay, the dog is okay. My household is secure for another day. I am working my program.
Thursday, August 22, 2013
Just for today. Who am I kidding? I'm doing okay on my eating plan, I haven't been out running or any of the other things I like to do since Sunday, but the big thing is....
The Zen Masterling is freaking out about yet ANOTHER leak in the bathroom floor!!!!! Oh H-E-Double hockey sticks, some days I'm so glad I'm a home owner I could just blow the whole thing to match sticks!!!!!!!!
(Throwing childish tantrum in the middle of the office).
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