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End of a lovely weekend

Monday, July 29, 2013

It really was a nice weekend. Saturday morning I got up just in time to catch the Saturday Market before heading out for breakfast with a friend. We had some overcast skies and even a little rain last week, so the weather was sunny, but not too hot. I decided not to do all the things that I "should" do for the coming week. I've been so stressed lately that I wanted a little rest time.

Sunday I took Mom out for Scrabble at our favorite coffee shop. The game was a tie, second time ever. The coffee wasn't great, but the company was.

Sunday evening when I placed my first call for jury duty, they didn't call anyone in.

Tonight I run Day 1 Week 8 Couch 2 5K. I had hoped to finish the training before my birthday this Friday, but I'm not worried about it. Last year I couldn't run a step. Now I can run 25 minutes at a stretch.

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TLG71567 7/29/2013 10:23PM

    Sounds like a wonderful weekend. I love scrabble, words with friends and words of wonder. They are fun, but also educational.
Congratulations on running. That's awesome that you can run for 25 minutes. I am only up to about 5 minutes of running at a time, but I will get there. emoticon

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MSLZZY 7/29/2013 10:12PM

    Pretty good all the way around! HUGS!

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Sunday morning, week of jury duty

Sunday, July 28, 2013

Maybe it's not very patriotic of me, I don't know. But I resent being called for jury duty every 2 years. I really do understand the system, but as a former DA's daughter, I am always the first potential juror excused from serving on the panel. It feels like a waste of my time and taxpayers' money to put me through the paces year after year. I would much rather serve my community by taking a few days off work to do highway cleanup or something.

But that is never given as an option on the questionnaire. So, here I go again. No wonder I've been down in the dumps all week. It isn't just about having to serve when I know I won't be chosen. I hate the whole courtroom vibe. I have a difficult relationship with my dad, and being stuck in that environment, I start acting like him. I hate it.

I may put in an extra few hours on the bike this coming week. I work off anger the same way my dad did when he was younger. I sweat it off.

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    You would think that in this day and age of electronics, you would be off the list of potential jurors!!! Know what you mean though, every time I get a jury notice, I show up fill out the questionaire and when its get to the part about the death penalty, well lets just say it makes for interesting reading, and I am excused!!!

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GOLFGMA 7/28/2013 2:16PM

    Can You not call or write and ask to be excused because of the past times you were always dismissed? I think you should do this if it is not too late.

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MSLZZY 7/28/2013 1:38PM

    Make the best of it and then, work off the anger and frustration! HUGS!

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Friday as the week from heck winds down

Friday, July 19, 2013

This morning I am not at the office earning overtime to pay for my home repairs. I'm waiting for a subcontractor to come finish preping my dining room ceiling for painting. DS and I will paint the house as soon as I've got the money to do so.

Tomorrow I'm going to have at least one person in here all day tearing up my bathroom even more than I've already torn it up, and hopefully putting it back together quickly. I really want my shower back.

If all goes well, I will be back to running next week.

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GRACEFULIFE 7/20/2013 10:57AM

    Speaking of heck.....

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MSLZZY 7/19/2013 2:06PM

    This has been very stressful so I hope this puts an end to it. HUGS!

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Owning up

Thursday, July 18, 2013

It really hurt, but I gained this past week, so I put that in my weight tracker. I didn't want to admit it. I didn't want to know about it.

I keep telling myself that I'm better about this whole 2 steps forward 1 step back thing, but the fact is I'm terrified. Always in the past that step back has been followed by another one and another one, and so on. I can't do that this time. Whatever it takes to jump out of the downward spiral, I need to do it.

Or I just need to have a little patience with myself. I've stopped running temporarily until I have bathing facilities in my home again. I find when I run every other day I don't have the food cravings, and I have more patience with my sedentary job at the computer every day. I know that right now I'm doing a lot of overtime at said sedentary job to pay for the repairs to my bathroom. These things are temporary, and should end soon.

But still I'm scared. I'm afraid of the food, and I'm afraid of myself. Counseling is out of the question. Even with insurance, I still owe money to my counselor for help overcoming a spending binge, which I find humorous in a morbid sort of way.

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LISAINMS 7/19/2013 11:54AM

    I find that running gives me the calm I need to have more patience (because I have none). Getting up and exercising every morning has been an unexpected need in my day. Even though I hit plateaus for months, I keep going. I'm too afraid to go back. Don't beat yourself up over a small gain. Our bodies are always in a state of flux. Stay the course!

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MSLZZY 7/18/2013 8:32PM

    Give yourself a break and start thinking positive. You have made changes in your life and are moving forward. We have all gone through those times of doubt but it makes you
stronger. Keep on SParking!

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RACEWELLWON 7/18/2013 7:34PM

    Do not be so hard on yourself . When I first started to lose I would notice that I would gain 2 lbs. just before I broke a plateau , really. So I figure that as long as I stick with the plan as best as my ability it will come off- slow and easy - Everyone fluctuates !!! I sometimes fluctuate 5-7 pounds - my clothes fit the same - so the body must know what its doing. Concentrate on NSV right now , your in the right place . emoticon Hugs K

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MIMO11 7/18/2013 6:13PM

    Bardic, I know that intellectually you know that a step back can happen to anyone and it does not have to be the beginning of the slippery slope. Forgive yourself. Then remember that tomorrow is a new day and will be shaped by the decisions you make. Each day is a new opportunity. emoticon

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THOMS1 7/18/2013 5:18PM


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    I have made it to 100lbs gone (well, currently a little short of that) by the 2 steps forward, 1 step back. I guess it is how it goes for me. I will never be a 'perfect loser'- I lose, I lose bigger, I lose smaller, I drop and drop and then- BAM! I overeat or binge. Repeat process. The best is owning up to it, tracking it all (the weight and thhe food) and getting right back out there. One meal of overeating is always better than 2; 1 day of binging is always better than 2. I can't say the gain is ok, because when our goal is to LOSE it is counterproductive, but we HAVE to get over it so we can get on with what will get us to our goal.

Make today count.

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Oddly relaxing morning

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

I'm starting to get used to the routine of washing my hair and cat bathing in the kitchen sink while making coffee and pulling out breakfast and lunch for the day. It's so much simpler this way.

The only real shortcoming I can see right now is that I want a real shower after running or a long bike ride.

We're sure keeping the kitchen cleaner now that it has to do double duty.

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MSLZZY 7/16/2013 2:43PM

    Nothing feels better than a shower after a workout. Do what works for you. HUGS!

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