Saturday, May 15, 2010
..to exercise and get lighter ?
I always struggle with the same thing. When I am focused on dieting and getting smaller number on the scale the easies way is to just think about the calorie intake, but when I exercise also, things just do not happens!
I don't even over eat like I did. I know I eat to much calories, but I am not stuffing unhealthy food down my stomach my appetite just magnifies and I eat more.
I have been struggling with 3 kg since December! (But I have to lose 12 kg to my get to the finish line) And it is driving me crazy! I know that I am getting into better shape and I know I am not getting fatter, but my mind is just so tired these days because I so want to lose these kg for good because then I am under a number that I don't want to be over!
I try to say to myself. Just seven days.. be stable for seven days.. or I try just three day.. just three days.. but with this exercise I am doing now (cycling to work and running) I am sooo hungry and I need so much energy!
I know that I just have to keep going, keep looking forward and always focus on the now and see this all on a BIG PICTURE.. but now I am struggling.. really struggling..
I want to be focused now for 10 days, and then get a 1 day brake (Meeting the doctor after 10 days, and it is Eurovision song contest :)) and then take the last days in May, but I know what will happen... And because I am thinking that I can't make it.. I know I will not make it..
WOW I AM STRUGGLING! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME! I SHOULD KNOW BETTER!