Uhoh

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Yesterday was a very, very bad day. I got some horrendous news that will devastate me for the rest of my life.

My son came home with two bags from In 'N Out (the best burgers in the world, available only in California and Arizona, I think) because, as he said--you can't be too sad with an In 'N Out burger! We ate them, they are always great--sadly he also brought home animal style fries, which we ate--and then felt full.

Today has been very low on food because I was out most of the day. And he is not home tonight so I will dine alone. When I do, I generally don't feel like cooking for myself so it will be a large salad. Still good. Hopefully, today helps recover from yesterday.

P.S. Even with the excess of my burger, I wasn't over my ranges yesterday, because I had eaten well up to that point.

  

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AJDOVER1 8/13/2010 4:35PM

Your son sounds like a sweet guy. You've raised a good one. Report Inappropriate Comment

SEYSARAH 8/13/2010 2:48PM

I really admire being able to eat "treats" and work on balancing it out the next day with lighter fare..awesome. On another note, I do hope there is some silver lining to the bad news but know whatever it is, I'm thinking of you my friend. Report Inappropriate Comment

BGUMBA 8/10/2010 8:43PM

Barb, if you stayed within your range and you ate light today, it shouldn't cause you a problem. We all need to occasionally enjoy our favorite foods, or a binge will happen sooner or later. Report Inappropriate Comment

LOPEYP 8/10/2010 8:27PM

sounds like it'll come out in the wash, as they say. Report Inappropriate Comment

I Know

Saturday, August 07, 2010

I spent some time last night with some people who just KNOW.......everything is delivered in the "this is fact" intonation and structure. "This is bad for everyone" and "I do this because it is the only right way" and so forth. I have always been one of those people who automatically takes the other side, even if it is not my most strongly held belief because I just feel there has to be a devil's advocate in most conversations. It is a blessing and a curse to see the other side of the argument--often I feel as though I come off as wishy-washy as a result.

The evening made me wonder though if I am not becoming somewhat like these people. I have formed a lot of opinions in the last few years or honed previously held opinions, and I have learned a lot since joining SP 3 1/2 years ago from all the reading I have done. So I do have certain areas, especially where food is concerned, that I am pretty definite about.

Am I "pronouncing" when I offer a comment or just giving my opinion without judging? Am I still looking at the other side? I don't want to be the person who is "always right" about everything--at least in their own minds. I know a great deal about what is right for me, but who is to say it is right for you as well? Answer to that is--you probably are the one who knows!

  

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BGUMBA 8/8/2010 6:24AM

This is something that bothers me continuously! I fear sounding like a know-it-all. There are some things about which I have very strong convictions, but I also don't want others to feel that I overrate myself. As a result, I'm the one who will often drop out of the conversation and let others hash it out. Report Inappropriate Comment

SEYSARAH 8/8/2010 6:16AM

Loved this particular blog! I was just thinking somewhat along those lines..maybe as we simply experience more and more, we have reason to form some definite ideas in certain areas while in other areas..we simply don't know. Report Inappropriate Comment

Ow, snacky

Friday, August 06, 2010

I was proud of myself yesterday and today I have my tail between my legs!

I made my plan for eating for the day as I always do and then proceeded to completely eat completely different food! It was almost comical. And last night I got the snacky bug again--for bread that I had put in the freezer last month. It come out, and I ate more than I should, considering I should have eaten nothing.

My transgressions still are not bad--by comparison to life before.....and this morning at the market I had a candy bar in my basket and put it aside at the checkout. I can feel good about that!

  

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SEYSARAH 8/6/2010 6:48PM

Kudos for putting the candy bar back! As for the bread..I can't talk..that is my personal downfall...and of course I love the whole wheat numerous fiber hearty healthy kind..but way too much at times...so I too have to be careful of my own good intentions. Report Inappropriate Comment

CODEMAULER 8/6/2010 4:37PM

Snacks can be dangerous; imagine if the bread hadn't been frozen!! Report Inappropriate Comment

WALKING_ANGUS 8/6/2010 4:20PM

You should feel great about putting that candy bar aside today. You have a very good point that even though you were not perfect with your eating yesterday you did not let it blow out of control like it would have in the past. It is not perfection but it is a huge improvement. Good for you for noticing that positive about yourself. Kate Report Inappropriate Comment

Snacky

Thursday, August 05, 2010

I have been having a problem with snacky cravings in the evening lately. I don't have snacky food in the house and I generally am fine after dinner. I think part of it is that I am adjusting to being alone a lot more especially in the evenings. I am glad that yesterday I felt fine--I did have my yogurt in the evening instead of afternoon and it worked well--no need to grab some almonds before I went upstairs for bed. Oddly, I seem to make it through the day better lately--my morning oatmeal and all that water does fill me up!

  

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SEYSARAH 8/5/2010 4:40PM

Fabulous handling of the desire to snack...each life change, I too, especially as somewhat of a nightowl, get those feelings..nice to know I'm not the only one. Report Inappropriate Comment

Motivation from within

Sunday, August 01, 2010

Been there, done that. Every day I get multiple notices from SP in my email of new threads in my various teams from members with the same message. "I need help," "I am starting over and I need support," "I've lost weight and gained it all back and I can't do it alone," etc.

Everyone can benefit from support from others when they are trying to accomplish something that is very outside of their comfort zone. Everyone can benefit from knowing that there is someone they can talk to, go over their struggles, and get that word of motivation.

But--here I am, being a bit of a cynic again--everyone needs to understand that they, and they alone, have to actually put in the hard work to accomplish that goal.

I am speaking from experience here. I lost roughly half my weight before SP. I had no support, no one encouraging me to keep it up, but I had reached the point where I was ready to do it. After joining SP, it was a nice extra to know that other people in my shoes were out there, ready to give me a "you can do it" if I asked.

I'm not denigrating people who want support. Part of the process for them has to be their knowing that most of the time it will be them alone with that craving or the cookies in the cabinet, and they have to be ready to stand up for themselves.

  

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SEYSARAH 8/2/2010 8:49AM

Spark is great..wonderful areas for folks to get educational articles, trackers and the like...but the truth is, ultimately we all make our own decisions as to what we eat, how much, when, if we exercise, how much, what types, etc. Ultimately losing weight and getting healthy requires choice and desire..Sparks offers tools, recourses and like minded people..but Sparks cannot motivate you to motivate yourself..that comes from deep down inside. Report Inappropriate Comment

CODEMAULER 8/1/2010 10:26PM

I lost my weight alone, but came to SP for the tracking tools for on-going support and assistance. I've made a number of friends - you are among them - but still feel very much that this is MY battle. That said, I appreciate every tip, trick and "Atta Girl!" I get along the way. We are all in this together, even when we do this for ourselves. Report Inappropriate Comment

S3XYDIVASMOM 8/1/2010 10:01PM

I'm enjoying being with Spark, but yes, I'm the one that has to do the work. I lost thirty pounds before joining Spark, and since I've lost another ten. Maybe I wouldn't have lost it without Spark, but I'm inclined to think the process was already in place. So, when I reached 40 pounds, I wanted the 40 pound award. The problem is, that it says that I've lost 40 pounds through Spark. That's not quite true, now, is it? Report Inappropriate Comment