Thursday, June 09, 2011
"When the world says, "Give up,"
Hope whispers, 'Try it one more time.' "
I do have times I think about giving up. I've been yo-yoing all my life and I get so tired of it. I keep thinking, why can't I just take a magic pill and my life long struggle of getting to a healthy weight will be over.
A few years ago I lost over 75 pounds, I had encouragement from everyone, all my family and friends, Sparks Pals. I felt wonderful and then I stopped believing in myself. It has taken over 2 years, but I've managed to gain back almost all of it. I have not quit, I have not given up even though I have times I would like to. But I am struggling on a daily basis.
When I was losing the weight, even though my clothes were getting looser and I was going down in size. I could not see it in the mirror. I would look but I still saw that bottom belly hanging almost to my knees. My face was getting thinner, I could feel bones in my neck and shoulder which haven't been there for years. But I could only see the bellies.
Well let me tell you, last night I was looking at a slide show my husband had put together of our last trip together in Punta Cana, back in winter 2008, I was at my highest weight and I swore next time I went back there I would have alot of this weight off. I could hardly move, I felt terrible. That summer I finally started on a new weight loss journey, and I did so good.
Looking at those pictures last night, brought it all back to reality. How could I have looked in the mirror after losing over 75 lbs and say I couldn't see that I lost that weight. I didn't realize just what I looked like.
I need to work harder and get this weight off, and never again doubt what that scale says, when the weight is coming off the body is going to look smaller.