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Sat.May 16/09

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Weigh-in today, down 3.5 lbs. Last week was 2.5 lbs lost. The 2 previous weeks both stay the same and the week before that was my first gain of 1.5 lbs.

My conclusion, I finally came off the plateau I was on emoticon

I told my weight loss consultant I finally had my TOM on Sunday, haven't had one since Christmas Day. She looked at me and said "how did you have such a good loss last week? This week I can understand but not last week?" The other thing is that we both were thinking I was going through menopause, but with this TOM happening who knows.

I told her that I'm not worried, I'm just pleased that I came off my plateau. But I guess I've really got her confused. . She said all she's learned about menopause and weight loss, I've just caused her to throw that all out the window emoticon

She said if this is what is going on with your body you are going to have the struggle of your life when you do go through menopause to lose weight.

I told her that my whole life has been a struggle trying to lose weight, so bring it on.....

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LOLAJO54 5/16/2009 8:03PM

    Barb!- emoticon another great loss...
Yep forget about the future now is important..
lol I had my hsterectomy at 29 went thru menopause of a kind hormaonal changes gone even though I did take pills then-it was brutal but I lost weight major--went down to 89 lbs at 29 years old.. then when I turned 50 -51- 52-53-54 suffering with the hot flashes and other things yet again...still so things strange do happen... just stay positive --
BRING IT ON! -right on Barb-
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RAINBOWMF 5/16/2009 7:24PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon bring it on!
You go Barbara, like Anne said lets not worry about the future!
You are doing the removal and that's what you want.
I know everyone is different but the change never stopped me from losing.
Do you remember when I got to 132? I had stopped having my TOM through
that time. So I guess I would confuse your councilor too!

Love you Girl! I am so Happy for You!

Biggest Hugs My Friend


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QUEENANNE1953 5/16/2009 6:04PM

    Don't worry about the future .. nor the past .. remember we are learning to live in the moment ... you've done a fantastic job .. keep it up.

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GONANA 5/16/2009 5:53PM

    You're shri i i nking!

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-LORI-B 5/16/2009 5:10PM

    BArbara Im so proud of you.. Look at you... Bring on whatever happens in the future- if anyone can face it head on and win, its you.
Biggest hugs, LORI

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Sunday May 10th/09

Sunday, May 10, 2009

I am taking today as my day, after all it's Mother's Day. And for me it's going to be a day of reflection. I want to look at all I've accomplished in the past 9 months (will be on the 16th of this month)

So here is my starting weight and my inches:

August 16/08
weight: 292.5 lbs
Left Arm 17.5
Right Arm 17.5
Chest 50.5
Waist 57.5
Hips 66
Lefft Thigh 24.75
Right Thigh 25.5

May 9th/09
Present weight: 235 lbs (57.5 lbs)
Left Arm 16 (1.5 ")
Right Arm 15.5 (2")
Chest 43 (7.5")
Waist 50 (7.5")
Hips 53 (13")
Left Thigh 23.5 (1.25")
Right Thigh 24 (1.5")

Totals : 57.5 lbs
43.25 unches

I'm totally amazed at what I have accomplished and how wonderful I am feeling.

Thanks to all my Sparks friends, cause without your support I could never have done it.

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BANANIE41 5/13/2009 8:54PM

    Yeah for Barbara! Great job my friend.


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-LORI-B 5/11/2009 2:46PM

    Look what you have done sofar. Proud of you! Thanks for inspiring me to keep pushing thru no matter what.

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QUEENANNE1953 5/11/2009 2:34PM

    A perfect day for reflection .. thanks for sharing .. you've done an amazing job.

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LOLAJO54 5/10/2009 10:51PM

    wow fantastic!
committed you are.
you are our inspiration
thanks for being you

emoticon Jo

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RAINBOWMF 5/10/2009 1:57PM

    Whoa my friend when you write all the figures down
it is amazing.
I am so proud of you. Keep removing those inches.

Love Mary

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LEPETITCHIHUA 5/10/2009 1:08PM

    Wow congratulations you have worked hard to be where you are today. You deserve to be so proud of your successes! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MARYBETH_OHIO 5/10/2009 12:10PM

    Amen my friend I am so darn proud of you , glad to see you with that motivation and strive to succeed..
You keep up the good work and remember I am always here for you..

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Thursday May 7th, 09

Thursday, May 07, 2009

Tuesday night I had a very bad night, yes the dreaded "binge". I have no idea what happened, but I gave in to junk food. It's the first one I've had in many months and I knew I needed to deal with it immediately.

So how did I deal with this.

1. I used all the tools that I've learned since being with Sparks and on my weight loss program. After talking to myself and beating myself up, I realized this is not helping. I came home and discussed it with my husband, total honesty is important. If we can't be honest then we don't have any accountability.

2. I sat down and blogged it all out then e-mailed it to my consultant. I talked about all the issues that have been piling up and up and finally drove me to caving in to my weakness.... junk food. My home is junk-food free so any time I felt the need to feed it would be something healthy, some fruit, a yogurt, but as luck would have it I was in town, with all the fast food places and I did visit 3 of them before I left town. I wrote about all that I ate too, leaving not one bite out of my blog.

Also in my blog was the positives that have happened in my weight loss journey and there were many of them, another acknowledgement, because I needed to see what I have accomplished.

3. I then decided once the e-mail went that it was time to forget about it and move on with my program and not to look back. Where would dwelling on it get me? Absolutely nowhere.

So how did I do the next day..... It was one of my best days on program I'm happy to say.... and today is going to be another great day on program.

On one of my teams the other day our leader asked us what is the best habit we have learned on Sparks and my honest answer was to Blog. I didn't blog all my thoughts on my Sparks page, but I did blog it to my weight loss consultant.

I am feeling wonderful again and have the satisfaction of getting all of my emotions that were starting to weigh me down off of me.

Life happens and learning to deal with it is all a learning experience. And when we learn these things we must also practice them.

Trust in the process, it really works.

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LOLAJO54 5/8/2009 6:31PM

    Oh Good to know BArb --read your rewrite--lol.. your program is great if they allow you your treats.. thought you were always strict.. know better now..
no more gorging and oh yes you are not alone..
love ya Barb!
You are my hero!- You are strong!
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    I am so glad that your bloging helps you get it all out. I don't blog as often as I should probably. You didn't let your lapse keep you down and that is important. Good for you. Keep it up! You are going to make it.


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HAPPY2BHERE3 5/8/2009 12:15PM

    Good blog!

Great Barbara good job on moving forward. It seem like as soon as we mess up just a little we beat ourselves up and forget to look back and see how much we accomplished. Keep moving forward!

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LARAINE 5/8/2009 11:31AM

    Great Job!! Thanks for sharing this with us all. You're a remarkable Women!!!

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BANANIE41 5/8/2009 6:22AM

    Yeah Miss Barbara!! (On trusting the process of course emoticon)

Thank you so much for sharing....that took a ton of courage!

Hugs to you,


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RAINBOWMF 5/7/2009 9:30PM

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GONANA 5/7/2009 3:40PM

    Barbara, there are more stars in the future for you my friend. Good Job! And yes, I will incorporate your example.

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QUEENANNE1953 5/7/2009 11:17AM

    I am too busy to be able to comment as I would like Barb .. but just wanted to say .. I am proud of you. Going off track once in a while is not the end of the world .. what is important is that you get right back on your healthy journey .. without beating yourself up too much.

You are doing a wonderful job .. continue on.


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BARBARAROSE54 5/7/2009 11:11AM

    Thanks everyone and just to comment on Jo's post, I do treat myself on Saturday after weigh-in and I've always believed this is why I've been able to follow my program. I do know that we need to live and need to have these treats.

I write all these things in my food diary which my consultant reads, we do laugh about some of these things ie chocolate bar, or a small bag of chips but only on what I call my "treat day"

What I did Tuesday night was not a treat it was nothing but one big food binge, I know the difference.

And another thing I totally forgot to add to my blog on Biggest Loser the other night when Mike talked about buying his junk food and eating it before he got home so nobody knew he was doing it, funny thing this is what I did, but had already acknowledged this about 3 hours before that. So I know I'm not alone in having this problem with food over the years.

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LOLAJO54 5/7/2009 10:53AM

    Barb- glad you blog this.. goes along with what is happening to us on the team yesterday and today.. we must be honest not only to ourselves but to the ones who are trying to help us..
Nope beating yourself up is useless.. we are human.. we cave we live.. so go on and get back to eating properly and exercise they are the key and you know it.
One thing I would like to say though.... from my heart maybe this program is too rigid... you need to treat yourself or have something you enjoy eating once in awhile... not sure if I have the facts right but you should discuss with your counselor about this too.. working a treat or a food you enjoy eating into your plan.. just a thought..
Now you know how well you have done and how far you have come.. you also know stress is a bad part of this so you must always discuss things that are bothering you to relieve it so you can move forward.. so my dear friend if you need to vent we are here ... I am here.
Love you and admire you for all you have done for yourself.. you are amazing.. keep moving forward my friend
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BOUNCY2 5/7/2009 10:53AM

    Hi Barbara , I was going to bl board and saw your i wanted to comment on this one first and formost......I just want to say you have came along way Baby!! I remember seems a life time ago!! YOU would have not went back so are working on the inside as well as the outside.....i must say proud of you Barbara Rose...this time is differnt .......adn the rest is the your drive and that move on is so bad to hold things in....something i have to work set back for you move on......before the damage is done....keep it a going ya

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BEBRENDA 5/7/2009 10:51AM

    Barbara, You have done so great on your weight loss journey. No one is perfect and we all have slip ups from time to time. The important thing is to get right back on track which you did. Journaling and blogging are so helpful. I am sure that you will continue to be successful with your weightloss journey and will make it to your goal and then maintain your weight loss for life! Take care! :) Your friend, Brenda emoticon emoticon

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HEART4ADVENTURE 5/7/2009 10:50AM

    Barb what a wonderful message to us all in accountability and tools at our fingertips! glad you are feeling great and back on track. hugs.

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Sat. April 25th

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Today's weigh-in ... stay the same. First thing she asked me was "what time did you go swimming this today?" I said I just came from the pool. She told me that a person's body could retain up to 2.5 lbs of water. She said if you don't believe me, then get weighed first thing in the morning, go have a shower, then get weighed again.

I know that we have discussed this on our board, and I normally go swimming after my weigh-in. But today I didn't and I even thought it might not be true, just another myth about the water absorption. From now on the swimming will be after the weigh-in.

Okay so last week was my first gain of 1.5 lbs. Since Christmas time my weigh-ins haven't been great, very slow and steady, alot of stay the same. So I asked my consultant today, what is going on?

She told me that what is happening with my body is normal, and she expected this to happen after 4 months, and for me it's really much later. She then proceeded to tell me that we are now going to stop paying attention to the numbers (yes I still must weigh-in) but we are going to be concentrating on "how do I feel?" I told her I feel wonderful.... I can actually move around, go walking, am enjoying my swimming. I have suffered so long with sore feet and bad knees, and since doing therapy on my feet in December and January they feel so much better and the weight loss has really helped my knees as my problem is a weigh-bearing disease ... osteoarthritis. They won't get any better but the extra weight gone sure helps them.

She wanted to know how my blood sugar numbers were doing and I told her that they were doing really good and I hope the doctor will see this on my next blood work and possibly take some meds away.

When I first started I told her my goal was 165 lbs, we never discussed this number until today. She told me at the moment we are going for 200 lbs, then we will take it down in 5 lb increments. The important thing is to make sure that I am able to live in my new body emotionally.

I just love my visits with my consultant, she sure has a way of making me feel so much better about myself.

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SHANSHE 4/28/2009 7:19PM

    Barb, I just caught up on your last three blogs and well, you amaze me! You really do! On the tummy thing, I am not sure I would be as accepting as you are, yet, i KNOW you are right in your attitude! I have also heard that as far as surgery, they usually do not like to do it until you have lost all your weight and maintained for a significant amount of time. I have wondered about donating skin to burn victims and maybe the surgery would be free or at least cheaper that way???

You really ARE an inspiration and I am proud that our paths have crossed.

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HEART4ADVENTURE 4/26/2009 11:22AM

    Barb - you have a plan and it's working for you, that is awesome! and sounds like good support so you don't get down on stagnant weeks. I bet next wi you will show a great loss! keep up the good work! you are an inspiration.

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QUEENANNE1953 4/26/2009 12:47AM

    Thanks so much for sharing BarbaraRose ... I too remember that conversation. You are doing a fantastic job and I am so glad you found yourself such a wonderful and knowledgeable consultant.

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LOLAJO54 4/25/2009 11:40PM

    Barb! I told you about the water.... you'll believe me... bet you lost like 3 or 4 lbs... oh well.. glad your consultant told you about "How do you feel" that is so much more important then the numbers on the scale" So true you know you are feeling better and look at all the walks you do and swimming you do.. know that is good for you.. Do what she says --sounds smart to me and is helping you I mean look how well you have done and are doing..

You are doing wonderful and I am proud of you... you are my inspiration..

emoticon Jo

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GONANA 4/25/2009 8:11PM

    I love the way you said this "I have to make sure I am able to live in my new body emotionally". That opens up a new insight for me!

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-LORI-B 4/25/2009 7:55PM

    Ok girl.. since we all dont have your consultant you have to share all you learn. she sounds amazing.. I love how she said after 200 to reach for 5lb golas at a time to make sure you are adjusting mentally as well.. I have read where people lost oodles of weight, but they were not happy ...
Mary already said it .. I remember that convo a few times. I always wondered why when i weigh in what I ate, when and if I had a shower right before. I know now! LOL
So very happy for you, keep it up

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RAINBOWMF 4/25/2009 4:48PM

    emoticon I can't believe you did not believe me!!! I would never lie to you
hahahah Jo either. We both did the test. Weighed, had a shower and weighed again, I think she was up like 3 lbs I was up 2.4 lbs. Yep it is true ,not a myth.

Love yea Sweetie, you have lucked out with your consultant. She is letting you know it is OK to STS once in a while, you are doing this for life not for a quick fix.
This is the mistake I make, I want it off now and when it doesn't happen I get fed up.

You my friend are doing it right and I am so proud of you.
Who is going to be the big loser next April when we all meet on the beach for
sun and fun??????????????

I say all of us!!!!!

Mary emoticon

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BOUNCY2 4/25/2009 4:00PM

    Hey Barbara, Sounds like you have a great consultant....and so happy that she makes you feel better....after all my friend you have lost alot of weigh there...and for me truely proud of you...that makes since with the swimming at least next time you will do it after from now on.....that is important how you are feeling in your own skin...that is what i want to do again and will....keep up with what you are doing .....I know you will never give ya girl....


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Sunday, April 12/09

Sunday, April 12, 2009

I had a big disappointment the other day, and added more to it......

let me tell you.... I bought myself some capris while in Toronto, really nice, a pair of black and a pair of white. I always bought 5X, but one was 1X and one was X. They both fit really nice, but when I turned sideways in the mirror they looked terrible. Here is my bottom belly hanging down inches below my backside. So I told Shannon and asked him what I could do about it and he said nothing, the muscles in my stomach are gone. So when I went to see my consultant yest. I asked her and she said the same thing as Shannon, and then said the only thing is surgery. My doctor mentioned surgery to me the last time I was there and I said we'll discuss this later.

My consultant said if they could prove it isn't for cosmetic purpose our medical system might cover it, she told me she had a lady who wasn't getting everything she needed and it was costing $20,000.00.

The other thing she mentioned was to wear Spanks.... of course I can't find them here in Canada (I googled it and found them sold in US but they won't ship to Canadian address).

So this is the dilemna..... do I sit and sulk about this and say so what's the point... If I can't look good after I lose the weight what's the point, or do I sit here and be happy that I am still losing weight and feeling so much better?

You betcha.... I am happy to be losing weight and will just have dress accordingly... ta da !

You have to learn to change your thinking. Keep thinking positive. Look at all your accomplishments and successes and be happy. emoticon emoticon

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GONANA 4/13/2009 1:39PM

    Oh so there is your tatoo!! emoticon

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QUEENANNE1953 4/12/2009 11:56PM

    lol lol lol .. your blog popped up twice ..

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LOLAJO54 4/12/2009 8:15PM

    Barb -please keep this attitude.. our system changes as our politicians change and soon before later this surgery will be paid for... in the meantime keep doing what you are doing and lose that weight you want and get in some cardio and strength...I realize you can not do anything for the stomach but like I said ... there will be a solution be assured of this...I have faith!
Proud of you my friend..

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