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June 7th

Monday, June 07, 2010

June 7th 1998, twelve years ago today, I lost my father.

He had colon cancer, was receiving chemo treatment. His body did not do well with chemo. He was hospitalized from getting dehydrated after his first week of treatment. After he got home he went for his 2nd week of treatment. They discovered he had blood clot, so a nurse was coming by the home every day to try to disolve this blood clot.

The morning of the 7th, we can only assume the blood clot moved and he had a massive heart attack. Dad had just turned 69.

If this isn't a wake up sign for me to get my health in order what will be.

  
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WINTER20101 6/9/2010 6:38AM

    Buddy I am so sorry... i do know what you are going through....i lost my mom on Feb 17 two days before her bd....10 years ago... i know it still hurts buddy..prayers for you always.

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SEEKJOYDAILY 6/8/2010 3:06PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss. I do not think you ever quite get over the loss of a parent. It is something that runs so deep. My Mom passed away in 2005 from colon cancer, so I can somewhat identify with your struggles. You're in my thoughts and prayers!

I choose to believe that our parents would want us to learn from their not-so-great choices in life. I know your Dad would be proud of you and happy that you're using him as motivation to become a healthier person!

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MRSWHITEWOLF 6/8/2010 11:19AM

    emoticon you be in my prayers

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JUSDUCKY 6/8/2010 9:32AM

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I'm sorry for the painful memories of losing your father. You just keep moving forward, one step at a time.
You can do it! emoticon

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FLORIDASUN 6/8/2010 9:08AM

    Ahhhh dear BarbaraRose...how lovely that you shared your sweet papa with us and the motivation that he gave you to get your own health in order...it's NEVER too late...and each day is a new beginning of opportunity and new choices...I'll be your cheerleader! emoticon emoticon

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RAINBOWMF 6/7/2010 11:13PM

    emoticon we all know you can do it.
Getting healthy is a choice we all have to make.
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CHRISJAKE 6/7/2010 9:45PM

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LAINIESNEWLIFE 6/7/2010 9:28PM

    emoticon I know it's hard. On the 24th, it will be the anniversary of my dad's death to non-Hodgkins Lymphoma. He was only 55. That was 28 years ago. Take care! We are here for you!

Hugs,

Lainie

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LITTLE_QUEEN 6/7/2010 9:04PM

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VEGANVICKIE 6/7/2010 8:50PM

    BR :
Your story mirrors my own with the death of my mother in March from severe complication from her diabetes.

It is what began the journey of my finally getting shaken up enough and put in motion the steps I am taking now to improve my life in all ways, health just being one aspect of that.

I am sorry to hear of your loss. Anniversaries of this nature are always tough.

Vickie emoticon

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FIGHT2SURVIVE 6/7/2010 7:19PM

    I am so, so sorry. I had no idea. You and your family will be in my prayers.
Erin

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FARM-CHICK 6/7/2010 6:57PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticonthanks for shareing that with us

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LOLAJO54 6/7/2010 6:53PM

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this is a wake up call for us all!
thank you for telling us your personal story of loss

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Jo

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TEDYBEAR2838 6/7/2010 6:23PM

    OK Barbara, it's time to emoticon, assess your situation and what you can do to make things better for yourself. I know emoticon

Here for you on this beautiful journey to Healthy~!

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Back on track !

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Went for my weigh-in today and had a nice walk and talk with her. She is really helpful and works hard at helping me see the big picture and what is important in my life.

I have changed my ticker to reflect the gains I have had last month. I have worked hard this past week to get myself back into what is important to me.

I do know what is important is me, getting me healthy and doing the hard work to get there.

Tuesday is the 1st day of June, however today will be the 1st day for me. I am back on track and will be working on me once again.

My dear friend Linda put it to me like this: It's hard to lose weight, It's hard to be fat, pick your hard.... I pick to lose weight, I know it's hard, but when I'm losing I feel wonderful ! (probably didn't quite quote it the way she said it but it works for me emoticon )

  
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FLORIDASUN 6/1/2010 6:50AM

    I pick...life is hard...but each hard lesson is a step toward compassion and love! Let me tell you...I'm all about compassion and love...so I guess I've learned those hard lessons! I'll be your cheerleader on moving forward and being healthy..yes I will! emoticon

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SEEKJOYDAILY 6/1/2010 3:39AM

    Thank you for sharing that! I absolutely love that. Both scenarios have their difficulties. Why not choose the one that is the most healthy?

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TEDYBEAR2838 5/30/2010 6:58PM

    WOW, I love that quote, emoticon

It's hard to lose weight, It's hard to be fat, pick your hard.... I pick to lose weight,

I'm gonna print that and put it somewhere.

Have a safe weekend

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MOTHER-NATURE 5/30/2010 3:25PM

    Barbara emoticon emoticonI know you can stay on track ... I BELIEVE IN YOU emoticon

Hugs

Niki

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MAGA99 5/30/2010 10:49AM

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DBELLE39 5/30/2010 8:53AM

    You are doing great ---if something is important then it should enough to make us work at it!

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DBELLE39 5/30/2010 8:53AM

    You are doing great ---if something is important then it should enough to make us work at it!

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LOLAJO54 5/29/2010 10:17PM

    yep it is hard but like ducky said you are so worth it...

go Barb go..
You will do it.

emoticon Jo

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JUSDUCKY 5/29/2010 7:39PM

    Great saying.
She's right, it's hard. But we're worth it~!

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CHRISJAKE 5/29/2010 6:23PM

    Glad you had a good talk and are back on track!!!!

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ELISELOVE1 5/29/2010 5:23PM

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WINTER20101 5/29/2010 4:55PM

    Barbara you and funny one brought tears to my eyes....i love you both so much....and i want the best for you both.....I know in my heart that you both will not be happy until you are healthy....and where you want to be....you know me too...we have known each other for a long while now...I am so happy that you both came into my life....Barbara with your logic..and wit.... Mary always makes me laugh.. you both are very smart.....you both have chosen you hard.....now get to it!! Show all what you both are made out of....i know it.......and deep down you both do as well...

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VEGANVICKIE 5/29/2010 4:34PM

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YAFENELRA 5/29/2010 4:30PM

    I never thought of those two 'hards'. thanks.

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KITT52 5/29/2010 4:28PM

    Barb that is right....when people have asked how I have stuck with loosing so much weight and wasn't it hard..I said do ya think it was easy weighing 347 pounds....

I am here as all your sparkfriends to help you reach your goal... we all need help today and tomorrow , we just have learn to ask for it and be willing to take some ones hand and hold on through the rough times....

Have a healthy week end..


HUGS


Ki
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GINGER_LOSTALOT 5/29/2010 3:39PM

    I LOVE THAT SIMPLE QUOTE.

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LLSELVA4 5/29/2010 3:09PM

  Good luck on your return journey. Maybe we'll meet each other on the way to our goal! emoticon

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RAINBOWMF 5/29/2010 3:04PM

    Worked for me too!
I started Thursday, I was not waiting one more day.

We will go all the way this time Barbara.

Hugssssssssssssssss
sssssssss Mary

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It's the little things

Friday, May 28, 2010

It's the little things that keep you going.

1. doing up a seat belt when flying. For so many years I had to ask for a seat belt extension but now I can do up the seat belt on the plane. I aim to be able to see lots of extra belt after fastening.

2. climbing stairs easily. I still have a hard time climbing the many stairs up to the office, but each day the climb will get easier. I want to be able to climb those stairs without having to use the railing to pull me up.

3. sitting and standing with ease. It is getting much easier to get out of a chair or off the sofa, but am still aiming to do it with ease, no hands, just jumping right up.

4. getting down on the floor and back up quickly. As of now I cannot get down on the floor. I have babied my knees for so many years that this is something I have a very hard time doing. I am going to start working at getting down and back up off the floor. I want to be able to do this without any hesitation, after all when I finally have grandchildren how will I be able to get down to their level to play?

5. run, jump and play.... yes I'm back to wanting to be a lively child once again, yes and in preparation for my grandchildren. Even if it doesn't happen there is nothing wrong with me running, jumping and playing.

all of the above things are just little things that as an overweight, out of shape person comes up against almost every day. To be active and healthy once again is my goal. In order to know that I can achieve this I need to see how far I have come. And I do see the improvement and I celebrate my achievements. I just need to keep reminding myself how far I have come and know that I can keep on going.

  
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DBELLE39 5/30/2010 8:52AM

    emoticon on your weight loss success! I find it more inspiring when I take note of my achievements --to see where I've come from gives me that extra push to keep moving to my goal.
You rock --keep up the momentum.

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LADYIRISH317 5/29/2010 10:27AM

    Congratulations on all you've accomplished!

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YANKEE-CHICK 5/29/2010 9:49AM

    yes yes yes!!! Love this blog

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WINNIEATWELL2 5/28/2010 11:33PM

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YAFENELRA 5/28/2010 5:51PM

    Those little things so mean ever so much. Having a hard time getting up out of a chair had a lot to do with my finally finding Sparks and embarking on this great weight loss journey. I still have some trouble getting up but that is due to bum knees, not weight. You are really coming along!! Woo Hoo

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_KRITTER_ 5/28/2010 2:07PM

    LOVE it! :) Totally true that it's the little things.

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GINGER_LOSTALOT 5/28/2010 1:01PM

    It IS the little things! Great job!

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ANNINTENNESSEE 5/28/2010 9:59AM

    I am right there with you! Those are wonderful things to accomplish and to look forward to!

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WINTER20101 5/28/2010 8:54AM

    Yes Buddy it is the little things that we do not need to forget!! Keep it always in the back of your mind....when you start to slip....think about this blog...and all the little things that add up...I know you can do this Barbara....you have picked your hard...now it is time to finish what you started!! I have all the faith in you.....lets get this show on the road...cz look at what you have already accomplished.. so it is very ovious to me that you can finish...SO JUST DO IT!! love ya!!

LInda

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RAINBOWMF 5/28/2010 7:58AM

    Writing your achievements down looks so good.
We all need to do this.
You can and will do this Barbara.
I too believe in you!

Each day you are going to get stronger. Soon you will
move like a gazelle!! Watch out Shannon! LOL!!!!

Love you Barb! emoticon

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KITT52 5/28/2010 7:36AM

    Barb each day brings new and exciting options, if we chose the healthy lifestyle path....
I say celebrate each victory no matter how small, so each day you take the steps celebrate, each extra step celebrate, that's what gives us the drive to keep going....all the small changes really do add up...

we are here celebrating with you



Have a Happy and Healthy week end


Kitt

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LAURIEANNIE1 5/28/2010 7:35AM

    I agree completely about the little things. I see so many people who are looking for the big weight loss and don't even notice they can walk up the stairs and not be winded anymore, etc. It is good that you have it written down so anyone who reads this can say, "She's right! I am making progress after all." Thank you.

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LOLAJO54 5/28/2010 7:22AM

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We all need to remember what we have learned on this journey too.. You have come a long way and your will go the rest of your journey to better health mobility and strength..
I believe in you -- Know that you believe in you
You will do this for YOU.

emoticon Jo
ps love your background!

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Wed. May 19/10

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

I am reading a book called "Life is Hard, Food is Easy" by Linda Spangle. I am also following along with her book "100 days of weight loss".

This was recommended to me by Kitt52, who is has lost almost 200 lbs, following Sparks and using these books to help with emotional eating.

I read on Day10 "Appreciate Good Support"

Here's an example from the book.... "When someone offers you a genuine comment about your progress, try to respond warmly to the person who pays you the compliment. For example, if people remark that you look great because you lost weight, don't minimize their words by saying, "Yes, but I still have such a long way to go. Instead, use your response to affirm and appreciate the other person by saying something such as, "You can't imagine how much it means to hear you say that. Thank you !"

This got me to thinking. How many times have I said the exact thing, I have such a long way to go? Or it's so hard !

I need to totally change my acceptance of compliments and really appreciate them. I worked hard for my loss and I appreciate people noticing.

  
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LIVE_TO_LOVE 5/26/2010 2:03PM

    Linda Spangle... I'll be on the lookout for her books!

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JUSDUCKY 5/26/2010 7:27AM

    I've heard of that book before. Sounds like a great reminder to be kind to ourselves and not minimize our efforts.


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DBELLE39 5/20/2010 9:06PM

    Apparently there's a lot of wisdom in that book. Congrats on finding a good read.

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LOLAJO54 5/20/2010 2:39PM

    great words of advice for us all..
we woman are too humble and too down on ourselves this is why we are where we are...thanks for sharing this Barb..

hugs Jo

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KITT52 5/20/2010 8:33AM

    Yes Mary dear you might check them out....
Barb this is something I still have to work on....people seem so amazed when they see me and it's embarrassing sometimes, the fuss they make and all I can think of to say "ya but look at these thighs, they still need work"
one of my friends said ...get a grip women your 1/3 your size, and that includes those thighs, if only you could see what we see.....
I don't think I ever saw myself as big as I was ...but everyone else did...

Barb you are looking so good .....

have a healthy Thursday

Kitt

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RAINBOWMF 5/19/2010 8:31PM

    Should I be checking these books out?

Hugssssssss

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TERMITEMOM 5/19/2010 7:11PM

    The book looks very interesting. I am going to check it out. Thank you!

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DEBSZOO74 5/19/2010 5:27PM

    Sounds like a great book!

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LITTLE_QUEEN 5/19/2010 5:15PM

    Love this blog, I am going to try to read that book

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thanks Sparkers !

Sunday, May 16, 2010

I asked for help and you all came running !

Today is a much better day, and I am working at getting back on track.

I need to focus on me and my journey. I have taken alot of time trying to help many others work their program and become healthier people. Through this I got side tracked with my own program.

Starting today it is going to be all about me again. I need to focus on me and getting healthy and fit. I will be turning 56 this year and it's now or never.

Oh I'll still be available for anyone asking for help and support, however I just won't be sparking as much as I did. I need to spend the time working on me.

love yas !

  
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YANKEE-CHICK 5/17/2010 11:48AM

    Well i am so sorry that i was not here to offer my support! You have been a great spark friend to me. So maybe...better late then never?? :0) I am here for you!!!!
hugs

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KRZYKAT3 5/16/2010 8:00PM

    Barb- missed your shout out for help but am here to send you lots of light and happiness to help you get going. I jsut restarted my plan as well. Even started a new one. I am calling it my switching it up program. Switching up my eating, my exercise, anything I can think of to make my body get off its duff and lose some of this yucky jiggly fat - Join Ruthis and me in getting rid of our jiggly parts!!

WE WILL PREVAIL!

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JAMESGIRLLL 5/16/2010 7:38PM

    good luck in sticking with the program and taking care of you!

hugs,
jamesgirl

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DBELLE39 5/16/2010 7:32PM

    Glad to hear you are back on track! You are so important --do what you need to do to take care of #1 --YOU!

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KELLY_SS 5/16/2010 6:29PM

    Yeah!!! Sometimes we just need to sleep on it and we wake up with a clearer vision and that sounds like what you've done. I think that making yourself top priority is essential. We (women) spend so much time taking care of everyone else, we forget that we need to take care of ourselves too. I think I may need to follow your lead and bump myself up the ladder a bit. I'm proud of you Barb, anytime you need a shoulder, just shout!

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LOLAJO54 5/16/2010 5:58PM

    Barb I so hear ya glad you are taking care of YOU first... this has to be so we can get healthy when that happens then we can start to be there a lot more for others..
yeah Barb!! emoticon emoticon

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WINTER20101 5/16/2010 3:53PM

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RONIE11 5/16/2010 2:54PM

    I think that at some time we all need to back away from being on this site for so many hours a day and start living our lives. Thats why we are getting healthy. I know when I first started I could honestly say I was in here for over 6 hours maybe even 7. I was learning everything I could and making many wonderful friends. Now that the weather is getting nice I feel the need get out side and show this new body off... Best of luck with your journey I know you will be a great success.

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RAINBOWMF 5/16/2010 2:33PM

    emoticon glad you are thinking about you.

I am joining you, I have had a great day so far.

Next holiday season we will be looking great and be
so healthy.



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