Saturday, October 31, 2009
This is the question that my weight consultant keeps asking me every Saturday morning when I get on the scale and it stays the same, or goes up.
And every week we try to figure it out, we do come up with reasons or like she calls them excuses.
So this morning was no different than any other Saturday morning, I get on the scale it goes up, okay, let's talk about it, what's going on. I wrack my brain once again. First off we discuss the food I ate over the weekend, yes it was off track, why? I don't have a reason why I just did it (yes I love to eat) but right back on track from Monday to Friday. But then she points out the carbs I'm having at supper time. So my excuse is.... it's hard not to eat carbs.
We talk a bit more, and time for me to go home. So the trip home I keep going over and over my past conversations with Tammy, and the reasons/excuses we have come up with over the last few months.
1. Stress in my life
2. stopped putting myself first
3. Too hard on myself, I am my own worst enemy
Here are a few that we came up with.
On the way home Shannon calls, and wants to know how I did today and I told him not good, his answer"we'll discuss this when you get home" So I knew what was going to happen, now it's time for him to kick my butt, and I deserve it. After all I'm forking over good money to go to a weight loss clinic and if I'm not losing weight, then I'm throwing good money out the window.
So we have the discussion and I told him, I knew it was coming and I totally deserve it, cause it's not fair to him that I am taking money to waste, if I'm not going to lose the weight. So we keep on talking about what is going on. He told me to stop whining and crying about it and just do it (sound familiar Anne?)
I looked at him and said you are right, I totally stopped following my weight loss program, and started doing Barbara's program. I stopped believing in the program.
light bulb moment..... I don't believe in myself, I don't believe that I can lose this weight, I don't believe that I can reach goal.
Why is this......
I have so many people in my corner, so many people wanting me to succeed, everywhere I go people are cheering me on.
Everytime I get on that scale and I stay the same and report it I'm expecting to see that look in their eyes letting me know that I'm a failure, added stress to me, and then the tape starts to play in my head "you are a failure, you have always been a failure, all your life you've been a failure when it comes to your weight"
So then I start to prove it to everyone, "I am a failure"
Starting tomorrow I will prove this to be wrong, Tammy is so right, I am my own worst enemy, nobody called me a failure, it's my own insecurities.
I will get up tomorrow morning, get out my daily journal and write in it my daily menus for Sunday, and every day I will do the same. I will make sure my Suppers are only 4 oz chicken, or fish, and at least 2 cups of veggies.
No more cheating all weekend ! My cheat day is lunchtime after my weighin and no other time !
I know I can do it, I have already done it.
Yes Pixie, I will get into onderland and use my tattoo coupon !
Tomorrow is the 1st day of November and I have 2 months until the end of the year and I will be successful in 2009 !
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
This past month has been extremely busy for me. As many of you know I chose to lead a Spark's Class team... Oct.11-17/09. This has been a wonderful experience and one I'll never forget. Introducing new members to the great world of Sparks has been alot of fun, but overwelming.
It's kept me very busy, especially where I have a full time job also. So now I get to the point of this blog. It's time to refocus on me and my Spark's journey.
No I'm not giving up on my new team, I'll always be there for them, however I am moving myself up to the top of my priority list, which is where I need to be in order to stay on track.
I will be focusing on me and my goals. Take time to smell the roses once again.
Now for my POA- continue to drink 10 glasses of water daily, focus on my daily food intake (no more extra treats), focus on my workouts (no more making excuse why I won't)
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
DON'T LOOK BACK
As you travel through life there are always those times
When decisions just have to be made,
When the choices are hard, and solutions seem scarce,
And the rain seems to soak your parade.
There are some situations where all you can do
Is simply let go and move on,
Gather your courage and choose a direction
That carries you toward a new dawn.
So pack up your troubles and take a step forward -
The process of change can be tough,
But think about all the excitement ahead
If you can be stalwart enough!
There might be adventures you never imagined
Just waiting around the next bend,
And wishes and dreams just about to come true
In ways you can’t yet comprehend!
Perhaps you’ll find friendships that spring from new things
As you challenge your status quo,
And learn there are so many options in life,
And so many ways you can grow!
Perhaps you’ll go places you never expected
And see things that you’ve never seen,
Or travel to fabulous, faraway worlds
And wonderful spots in between!
Perhaps you’ll find warmth and affection and caring
And somebody special who’s there
To help you stay centered and listen with interest
To stories and feelings you share.
Perhaps you’ll find comfort in knowing your friends
Are supportive of all that you do,
And believe that whatever decisions you make,
They’ll be the right choices for you.
So keep putting one foot in front of the other,
And taking your life day by day…
There’s a brighter tomorrow that’s just down the road -
Don’t look back! You’re not going that way!
© Author Unknown
Thursday, September 24, 2009
I want to thank all my Sparks Pals who honoured me by voting for me as a Sparks Motivator.
It really made my day yesterday when I recieved the e-mail from Sparks.
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