Friday, October 10, 2008
Last Saturday after my weigh-in I was feeling so very proud of myself and decided to treat myself to a bouquet of flowers.
The main reason was going from the 290's into the 260's, for me it was quite an accomplishment. So I visited the local store which had a flower counter, unfortunately there was nobody on the desk, after a short wait I started to leave and one of the workers asked another one to page someone to the flower counter, so I said to them okay, if someone is coming I'll go back and wait, within a minute someone came and said to the young girl that had paged her "is it important" and the young girl asked me what I wanted.
Now let me tell you, all I saw was RED ! I turned around and left the counter and this was my comment and I didn't care who heard me "no I don't need anything, since you don't have anyone to service your flower desk what I needed today was not important, good-bye" and I left the store. I was steaming mad and also hurt because I had my heart set on my reward, with my new lifestyle changes it wasn't going to be a "food" treat.
Then I thought, maybe the flower shop about 5 miles down the road was open (this was a Saturday afternoon) and I took the time to go there and yes ! they were open. I ordered a Bouquet of flowers done in beautiful fall colours, and while I waited I let the girl know how upset I was with them. I also told her why it was important to me, and she said "I thought you'd lost quite a bit of weight" which of course made me happy !
Anyhow, why did I get mad! To me, how I'm treated is of utmost importance, I am someone who counts and whether I wanted one flower or 500 hundred flowers I certainly deserve to be treated properly and I was important !
Well today I got a phone call at work and it was someone from the store who had heard about my treatment in their store. Let me tell you, that is the advantage of living in a small community, word of mouth works wonders. Someone from their store had heard the tale in Tim Horton's LOL !
She asked me to tell her exactly what happened and I repeated my tale and also mentioned that I did tell anyone who wanted to hear the story what had happened. She said if she'd have been treated that way she would have done exactly what I did.
She wanted to know if anyone in the store had tried to stop me, and I said no, I know for a fact at least 3 workers heard me and there were about 4 girls on the cash who probably witnessed it also. She asked me if I knew the person, and I said I could point them out, she wanted to know if it was a small blonde girl named Pam, I told her no, I know Pam and she'd never treat me that way. Apparently Pam was working the flowershop desk that day but must have been on lunch break (this was between 1:30 and 2pm)
She apologized and told me next time I came by their store to go to the flowershop and she would make sure that there was a beautiful bouqet of flowers ! I thanked her for both the flowers and the apology !
Thursday, October 02, 2008
I have been having another great week. I just wanted to post a little something here with regards to the month of October being Breast Cancer Awareness month.
As I said in a post on the B/L board that this year this has new meaning for me. I followed my cousin's progress with her whole breast cancer surgery and treatment. I have never been close to anyone before that had this and it certainly was an eye opener for me.
She had her mammogram and it showed up something, then she did a repeat, then she had to have a biopsy and they diagnosed it as cancer. It was her option to have the lump removed or have her breast removed, and she made the decision to remove her breast. They discovered a 2nd lump that had gone undetected and they tested 12 glands in her lymph glands and found one cancerous.
Due to the one in her gland she needed chemo treatment, after that was radiation because the breast tumour was very close to her chest.
The one thing that amazed me the most was the positive attitude my cousin had. First thing she did was go to see a homeopath (sp) and they helped her prepare her body for the chemo treatments, she showed me all the different things that she took, she had all the literature on the products. With her faith in the Lord and everyones' prayers she didn't have one sick day with all of her chemo treatments.
The homeopath told her after chemo to come back and they would change up the health products for her body to prepare for radiation and once again she came threw with flying colours, no sickness.
Yes my cousin lost all of her hair, but it has grown back and is beautiful. I am so proud of her and her positive attitude, I certainly don't wish this horrific disease on anyone, but am more appreciative what what is entailed when you are told "you have breast cancer"
So ladies please don't forget your monthly self exams, and your mammograms. Personally I don't mind them, I have always found when the pain really starts to hurt it's over.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
I spent a very emotional day dealing with a family member, it is very tiring. I stayed my course and continued with my day even though my emotions were in turmoil.
I decided over a month ago it was time for me, and I am worth putting the extra effort into me. I have totally changed what I put into my mouth, all healthy foods, and only what is on my program. My favourite treat at night is a Skinny Cow dessert, the 50 calorie chocolate popsicle and I really look forward to having this every evening.
Now you have to remember I have always been a grazer all night long, even waking at night and having something to eat. So to go from a supper of 3.5 oz chicken breast or white fish, and 2 cups of veggies, to nothing until treat time, except water, how amazing is this accomplishment. I am not even hungry after supper, and a lot of evenings, not even hungry at suppertime.
I continue to stand firm in my belief that it is due to all the food that I am getting into my daily routine, never skipping a meal or a snack, breakfast and lunch being my biggest meals of the day, so how can I be hungry unless I eat just to eat.
I am living by the rule..... I eat to live, not live to eat !
Friday, September 26, 2008
This is my first time using Blog, but I think it's important to share what's going on at certain times in my life.
Received many phone messages last night as I was out, so when I got home they were waiting for me. Once again my mom is in the hospital. Of course the panick button hits, my emotions starting soaring, but for the first time my last thought was where's the food.
I have always been a big emotional eater and this would be the perfect situation to start searching and doing my habitual grazing.
I can only imagine what I've always tried to do was numb my feelings with food as it was what was comforting, instead I sat down and started to think responsibly instead of irrationally.
Mom had a heart attack 5 years ago and after 3 times of cancelling her surgery, the heart surgeon finally told her she was too high risk, she has leaking valves and blockage. So has had to stay alive with her meds. I thank the Lord that we've had her this many more years. Only thing is she's 1500 miles from me.
So now what should I do with this..... wake up call for Barbara, my dad had colon cancer, but passed away in between chemo treatments with a massive heart attack, mom's family have heart problems, so I am very high risk to have same problem and with this excess weight even more risk. BTW Mom has always been at 115 - 120 lbs, 5' 2" never had a weight problem.
I started a new lifestyle and refuse to let this setback put me up for failure. I need to do this because my life depends on it. I haven't had the pleasure of grandchildren and am still a young 54 years old.
I am leaving mom in Lord's hands and I know He knows best.
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