Monday, February 28, 2011
today was weigh-in day and I am delighted to have lost 1.2 pounds this week! Considering how difficult the week was with the viewing and burial, etc. I feel like this is a huge accomplishment. I've lost almost 15 lbs since January 1st and I would love to lose 5 more before April 1st, but just staying on track is the most important thing. I'm still not feeling completely well as I still have an obnoxious cough...which makes spin a little more challenging than usual, but today I had a great workout. I'm so glad I got a new heart rate monitor, I really love this one, it's easy to read, I can get the time of day without difficulty and it's easy to use, as well. It really keeps me focused during class, knowing when my heart rate drops below my prescribed zone. I also have loaded some fresh songs on my iPod and listened to them today, and really was pushing myself. All and all I was very satisfied with the workout. My energy level is still down a bit because I'm still sick, but with the weather turning nicer I'll be wanting to ge outside and umpiring will also be starting in about 2 weeks...all good things!
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Some people want it to happen, some wish it would happen, others make it happen.
- Michael Jordan
This is a new favorite quote for me! This sums up weight loss success/lack of in a nut shell. Before I lost the weight, I would always sit around thinking how much I wished to be thin. I dreamed of easy solutions that would bring me to my end result of not being fat anymore. Seldom did I actually envision how I would accomplish my formerly unattainable goal. When I finally made the decision to take action, and then come up with a plan to find success, that's when I "found" it. I also decided that there was no failing in this undertaking-it wasn't an option, and I knew I would reach my goal. In the beginning, I don't think I embraced every change as being a lifelong change, but gradually, I began to enjoy those changes. From finding the real taste of food again, sans sauces, and fats, to enjoying sweating! I always thought exercise would be bearable if I didn't need to sweat, but somewhere along the way, I realized that I look most beautiful with a full-on sweat happening! Now, I can't imagine not living this way. It's true I was off track, a bit, for the past few months, but I hadn't lost the habits, just my focus to maintain them, but now, I'm completely back and enveloped in the healthy habits that brought me to my fittest self ever! I love having my clothes, glide over my hips again, and watching my muscles become fully developed is such a source of pride and satisfaction. Every weight I lift gives me a renewed sense of self, and gives me energy for the entire day. I get frustrated when I cruise the site here at SP and I read posts by folks who don't really grasp the importance of the exercise component, or they are using some weird unorthodox diet, these folks will see success in the immediate future, but they will not sustain that success for a lifetime, it's not possible, or healthy to resist making the needed healthy changes, you are merely trying to sustain the same bad habits that brought to to be unfit, and unhealthy. Eating fresh foods, with lots of fiber, getting the proper balance of proteins, and carbs, and fats, is the key to a healthy diet. Those who choose, "moderation" are only kidding themselves, because even if they lose pounds now, they are still eathing unhealthy food that will continue to poison their body. Additionally, you must immerse yourself in the process of exercise, and learn to enjoy it, either because of the results, or just for the healthy benefits, it provides, either way exercise must be a part of your daily life-for life!
Thursday, February 24, 2011
My life is so full of blessings, I feel like the luckiest person on earth. My family, are my rock and exemplify all that is good and right. Yesterday could have been so sad and lonely, but it didn't feel like that at all. There were arms to hold me and voices to encourage and express love, surrounding me all day, and when I needed it most. My husband is the most wonderful man, my best friend and everything I could ever wish for in a man. He was so strong and supportive for me and my siblings and my father, as well. I thought the day would be so bleak and empty, but I could feel, through my family, all that my mother ever believed to be important and all that matters. Yes, I miss her, but I know in my heart that she is happy and at peace, and that she will always be with me, no matter where I am or what I'm doing. Just as she has for the past 55 years. Listening to my kids speaking of all their memories of their grandmother was so comforting, and it just makes me know that she is inside all of us and we will keep her alive forever.
Today, I was finally back to the gym after a two day absence, and though I'm still struggling with this stupid cold/flu, but I lifted legs today, and then did my spin class. The cough is getting really annoying, but I'm fighting through.
The good news is that I've lost another pound+ and it's awesome to see the scale dropping. I'm really encouraged by my progress and it feels so great to be back in the groove. I can't even begin to explain how great I feel when I'm in the gym sweating! I don't understand how I let that slip away from me. I know that there will be days ahead that are going to be difficult to get to the gym, and once softball and babysitting start, my energy levels will be a lot lower, than right now, but I have to remember that working out lifts up your energy and makes you feel so much better after, than you did before.
When I surf around the SP site, I'm always amazed when I see so many people (especially women) who still haven't gotten into weight training. Those who continue to believe the myth that lifting heavy weights will make them look like Arnold, those who think that doing a DVD on the TV is exercise enough--it makes me want to scream--GET IN THE GYM! Women don't get big ugly muscles, there is no fear of that, we don't have the genetic make-up necessary to build a body like that and getting "toned" is a crock! In just 6 short weeks, I've changed how my body looked, from being soft and bumpy to being strong and and muscular. My arms and thighs are still a work in progress, but they may not ever look exactly as I want--they've carried too much weight and have stretched too far to ever really get where I want them, but I'm ok with that, I'll get them to be the best I can get them, and I'll live with that. My shoulders are back to looking amazing, I've lost a bunch of the back fat I was starting to put back on, and my butt and thighs are much smaller already, than where they started in January. It's a great feeling to see the hard work paying off.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Seem to bring out all that is good in people! On Saturday, my mother passed away after years of fighting and struggling for every breath she took due to COPD emphysema and a host of other smoking related illnesses, including recently diagnosed lung cancer. He decline over the past five and a half months has been beyond difficult to watch and she's finally at peace and pain free for the first time in a very long, long time. While there is a measure of comfort in knowing she's finally comfortable, it doesn't relieve the overwhelming emptiness that is left behind. I have, been able to find the positives in this situation in that people have been beyond kind and overly generous in this troubling time.
I've also found that the lessons I've learned over the past five years that are helping me deal with and get through this tragic loss. Saturday was such an emotional day, and my grief and sadness were overwhelming me. After fitfully sleeping throughout the night, I awoke to a bright, sunny day, and made me think of those lessons. I realized at that moment, that I could choose to dwell on my loss, or I could choose to celebrate all the good of my mother's life. Knowing that was what she wanted me to do, and realizing she was ready to go, are what is keeping me going. I don't think I would have come to this decision nor been able to hold to it, without having spent so much time self-evaluating during my weight loss experience.
So tomorrow as I bury my mother I will bravely stand and smile in my heart as I relive the many wonderful things my mother has meant to me and our family. And I will remember with pride how happy it made her when I finally lost this weight and I'll keep doing the things that will keep me fit to honor myself and her memory!
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
It has occurred tome that there is no such thing as can't! What I mean whn I say can't is, I don't want to or I won't. For months I kept saying "I can't get motivated to exercise right", "I can't stop eating at night"' what I really should have said is I don't feel like exercising so I choose not to, or I choose eating too many pretzels over having only a proper serving. Because once I decided feeling fit and keeping the weight off were more important than mindless eating or sitting around, I got my motivation back and I got my self control and portion management back!
All it takes is one step in the right direction, one baby step that you build upon, until its a big step that leads you down the right path. There's no light that goes off, you don't suddenly find the right key, you just ease your way back a little at a time. Once you feel r
The satisfaction in saying "I can", "I will", "I am", then you are on your way to unlimited possibilities!
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