Sunday, February 06, 2011
As I was riding home from the gym I realized that I have found "it"- the true feeling of happiness! That feeling is all dependent upon exercising every day-yep that's right, I said it, all those experts really do know what they're talking about! Exercise releases endorphins, that is true, but it also gives a feeling of confidence, a feeling of accomplishment, and subsequently gives the ego a much needed boost. We all know the health benefits, and the physical changes (which by the way are amazing as well), but the mental benefits, and mood enhancers are off the charts as far as I'm concerned. How I forgot this is beyond me! We could do away with all the prescription mood enhancing drugs if everyone would get up and exercise!
I understand that all the fatigue I was feeling was due to the guilt I felt over choosing not to follow all the healthy habits I had adopted, that led to my success in losing 143 pounds. I suppose that I did make enough changes to find my way back to those ways, and bring a stop to my failings of late. The old me-the 2006, 299 lb me-would have just continued to spiral and undo all that I had accomplished over the past 5 years. So today I am proud of myself for recognizing these things and for all the good things I have learned and adopted.
Saturday, February 05, 2011
This morning up bright and early--fighting my way across my ice-coated back step--off to the gym for some cardio...fifteen minutes of an interval workout on the treadmill and then off to a grueling hour long spin class....felt totally amazing after. Then off to a family dinner at my parents' and got to spend a great afternoon with my grandsons--a perfect afternoon...back home watching RED with my son now...
Today's workout marked gym day #7-6 spin classes 4 strength training days! Loved every minute.
I realized today that I was falling into the same old pattern of passing the blame for my slide on everything/everyone else besides myself. I was merely making excuses for my lapses and in turn felt guilty, and had a lot of self-loathing--which all was detrimental and allowed the vicious cycle to continue.
Taking responsibility and not making any excuses was step one in retaking control and getting back on track. Realizing that I could make whatever steps necessary to make sure I get my exercise and eat properly regardless of what life threw my way. Of course things are quite simple right now since I don't have to babysit my grandson and it's the off-season for umpiring so I'm not dealing with excessive knee pain, so it's pretty simple to embrace my personnel time and workouts. But, I feel as if I'm better prepared to meet those challenges when the are presented after this experience. I also have a bit of a dangling-carrot in the upcoming wedding of my daughter, on May 5, 2012 and that will help keep me focused on the prize, so-to-speak...
Thursday, February 03, 2011
Busy and interesting day today. Started at the gym for my leg day lift and spin class...both went very well; showered at the gym-off to the hair salon, where on a whim I changed my hair color and style...kind of like it....then off to visit my mother and found her having an excellent day! We had a great visit, talked about the two babaies, Scarlett's wedding planning and her catichism and she was clear, lucid and sounding very strong all this after she was able to get showered for the first time in ages! She was able to enjoy having the newspaper read to her by the volunteer and ate three meals today. My dad was able to get out of the house to do some shopping and then go to the gym, which made my mom happy! So I'm sitting here tonight feeling extremely happy and savoring good days like this....I know I wont always have this but for today it was good!
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