Thursday, February 10, 2011
Every day I go to the gym I come home and feel excited about where I'm going again. I thought I had lost my motivation and kept thinking I wouldn't be able to get it back. I have since realized motivation isn't some elusive intangible that we must go in search of, it's not something that just comes to us. We make our own motivation by having a plan, and executing that plan, by making the choice to be motivated. What I mean by that is when we say we aren't motivated, we believe we're not, but if we make a conscious choice to follow our plan, we find ourselves building a habit that lends to a cycle of success and positive thinking.
In the first weedk or two it's hard to see yourself succeeding and staying the course, but each day you take positive steps forward makes the next day easier. I was in this place before, and I'm excited to have brought myself back here. I'm luckier than most people because I have a partner who supports and encourages me and I'm so thrilled that this time Arline he is walking the walk with me. I'm not sure I would have gotten back to this point so quickly or easily without him coming along with me, but thankfully I didn't need to find that out. It's nice to walk out the door together each morning and get in the gym. He's doing awesome and that pushes me to make sure I don't slack off. For most people this doesn't happen, and I'm sure that makes it so much harder, but however you get it done it's worth every ounce of effort.
Deciding what you want to achieve and how much you’re willing to invest to be successful.
Making a commitment to change. Giving up the old way of behaving and deciding how to accomplish your goals, a process that requires self-discipline, scheduling, practice, and positive reinforcement or reward. This is the way to reach your goals!
Tuesday, February 08, 2011
It occurred to me on the ride home from the gym, that what I have felt over the last 3-5 months is that I was a fraud...I talked the game of a person who had made the lifestyle changes that led to a lifetime of health and fitness=happiness...but I had let many of the healthy habits needed to achieve/stay healthy were slipping away from me. I had stopped counting calories, and allowed my portions to increase-little by little-and finaly during the holidays(an exceptionally emotional and trying time) I had started "tasting/sampling" some of the foods I had previously gladly given up. (I had never thought of myself as an emotional eater before this past holiday season-but found out differently) Even when I went on Dr. Oz, I was only a "half-way right" person, and felt like a big fraud standing next to people who were still 100%-in. But today, I can honestly say, I'm not a fraud-I do live a healthy lifestyle and I'm all the way back to being that inspirational person I had become previously. It's nice to know that all the tools I had learned to use are now back in place and the driving force in my life.
I'm back to finding happiness routinely in activities that get me up and moving. I've found my "self" again and realize how dependent that is upon exercise and good nutrition. As a whole, my life is full of happiness, but I don't appreciate that nearly as much when I'm not living up to my own expectations. Expectations that I will eat properly and exercise daily. That's what makes me happiest with myself-and when I'm happy with me, I truly enjoy everything else more. Exercising and eating properly all me to pursue things that make you feel alive and fill me with joy and healthy balance.
One think I've learned about myself, is that allowing the work "can't" back into my vocabulary is the biggest reason for my lapse. "I can't go to the gym at night", I can't work out because I'm tired", etc., etc. I always find that the things I say I can't do, are only things that I "won't" do. I have a very bad knee, it has advanced osteoarthritis, and no meniscus due to surgeries from my teenage days, and I can manage(endure) the pain when I'm focused and fully committed, when I start allowing it to become an excuse for not working out, is when I'm not fully committed. I know I can, endure, manage and I will, because exercise is good for me in more ways, than it's bad for my knee.....
Here's to being genuine and authentic!
Monday, February 07, 2011
Monday morning is my worst morning! I hate getting out of bed when the alarm goes off, and briefly think, "I need a day off". In actuality I could have had an off day, since I went seven days last week, but I knew that extra sleep would'nt make me feel better, only working out would! So up I got and off to spin class where I worked out hard, and added seven minutes after the class ended to round it out to a full sixty minutes. Tat being done, I felt exhilarated and pleased with myself for overcoming the Monday morning blues! When I got back home I felt energized enough to then clean my bedroom and dressing room. Now, when I walk in there I feel a sense of accomplishment and relaxation from a job completed(with a little more sweat equity).
I was also pleased to see the scale drop 1.8 lbs this morning ! 9.4 lbs gone since 1/1/11! Greedily I would love it to be an even ten, but I'm happy! Additionally, I cano see a noticeable difference in my body in just theses four weeks past. My arms are smaller and getting toned again, my hips thighs and midsection are also noticeably leaner. I wished I had taken before measurements because I'm certain it's two or three inches less!
To anyone still resisting getting started in lifting weights(yes lifting weights-not just resistance or body weight exercises) I swear to you there is nothing that will transform your body into what you're striving for, like lifting weights! You will not become too "big" it just isn't possible for women! Forget all the myths you've heard, throw away all your fears and inhibitions and start pumping iron ladies!!!!! Besides the physical changes to your appearance, you also get more bone density, and stronger muscles that allow you to go about life's daily chores much easier and healthily, plus lower your blood pressure and sugar levels! What's not to love? What could possibly prevent you from getting into this?
Sunday, February 06, 2011
As I was riding home from the gym I realized that I have found "it"- the true feeling of happiness! That feeling is all dependent upon exercising every day-yep that's right, I said it, all those experts really do know what they're talking about! Exercise releases endorphins, that is true, but it also gives a feeling of confidence, a feeling of accomplishment, and subsequently gives the ego a much needed boost. We all know the health benefits, and the physical changes (which by the way are amazing as well), but the mental benefits, and mood enhancers are off the charts as far as I'm concerned. How I forgot this is beyond me! We could do away with all the prescription mood enhancing drugs if everyone would get up and exercise!
I understand that all the fatigue I was feeling was due to the guilt I felt over choosing not to follow all the healthy habits I had adopted, that led to my success in losing 143 pounds. I suppose that I did make enough changes to find my way back to those ways, and bring a stop to my failings of late. The old me-the 2006, 299 lb me-would have just continued to spiral and undo all that I had accomplished over the past 5 years. So today I am proud of myself for recognizing these things and for all the good things I have learned and adopted.
Saturday, February 05, 2011
This morning up bright and early--fighting my way across my ice-coated back step--off to the gym for some cardio...fifteen minutes of an interval workout on the treadmill and then off to a grueling hour long spin class....felt totally amazing after. Then off to a family dinner at my parents' and got to spend a great afternoon with my grandsons--a perfect afternoon...back home watching RED with my son now...
Today's workout marked gym day #7-6 spin classes 4 strength training days! Loved every minute.
I realized today that I was falling into the same old pattern of passing the blame for my slide on everything/everyone else besides myself. I was merely making excuses for my lapses and in turn felt guilty, and had a lot of self-loathing--which all was detrimental and allowed the vicious cycle to continue.
Taking responsibility and not making any excuses was step one in retaking control and getting back on track. Realizing that I could make whatever steps necessary to make sure I get my exercise and eat properly regardless of what life threw my way. Of course things are quite simple right now since I don't have to babysit my grandson and it's the off-season for umpiring so I'm not dealing with excessive knee pain, so it's pretty simple to embrace my personnel time and workouts. But, I feel as if I'm better prepared to meet those challenges when the are presented after this experience. I also have a bit of a dangling-carrot in the upcoming wedding of my daughter, on May 5, 2012 and that will help keep me focused on the prize, so-to-speak...
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