Sunday, January 30, 2011
I've been making Sunday mornings a lifting day and meeting my daughter at the gym tow work out with. It's really such fun to work out with her! She pushes me, and I don't even realize it while it's happening. So we had a totally awesome workout! In whole, this past week has been awesome. I felt as if I was on my way back at week's start, and while faced with a few challenges aka snow, didn't stop me, or even, slow me down for that matter...a sure sign that I'm returning to form, so to speak...but Saturday's spin class, and today's strength session were both totally awesome in intensity and the end result was an almost euphoric feeling. That feeling is something that I wish everyone could experience. Exercise has so many benefits beyond making your muscles grow and burning fat! I hope I never find reason to forget that again!
Saturday, January 29, 2011
My day started by picking up my DIL to go to spin class...of course I got to get a big hug and kiss from Jackson and three week old Jamison...a very nice perk...spin class was awesome, I feel so much stronger and back to my old self. Saturday class is an hour long, and I love the effort the spin instructor puts into the class (she fills the room with disco balls and turns the lights off), I am not a fan of her practices (doing exercises on the bike, etc), however I like her intensity, so I adapt my workout to fit me....it was nice to go with my DIL--of course I got to spend some time with my little buddy when I dropped his mommy off--he's such a joy! Home for a shower, and lunch got a call from my dad my mom spilled her coffee on herself and her bed and needed to get cleaned up. It was a very gratifying visit tending to her needs, I got her up in her recliner chair(the first time in months)where she was so happy and comfortable...changer her and got her washed up....stayed with her while my dad ran some errands(think he just needed a break)...she was very much out of touch, but had a good bit of strength and was very talkative(even if she was confused)...fed her some lunch around 2:30 then headed home....lazed around most of the afternoon watching HGTV with my daughter and surfing the internet....around 5:30 got another call from my dad he needed to run into town and get her a steak sandwich so I needed to stay with her again...this time I was just laughing out-loud at some of the things she was saying, made her laugh as well...all and all it was a nice day for her, as she was much more alert than over the past week or two. I'll take what I can get at this point.....
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Yesterday I never got to lift at the gym. As I was dropping my bag in spin class one of my gym friends came in and I gave my normal greeting and started out of the room, she then stopped me in my tracks with the news that her mom had succombed to the cancer she'd been fighting for the past year and a half. Emotions spilled out as I tried to comfort her and related with her experience. Another gym friend joined us and comforted us both. I use "gym friend" as I onlyhave contact with these women in the gym, and yet they share some of my most intimate feelings. This revelation brought to mind the highly circulated Internet item "Reason or Season"
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you figure out which one it is,
you will know what to do for each person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty;
to provide you with guidance and support;
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend, and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person,
and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
These women have come into my life out of need, we talk together, share life stories and experiences, cry together and sweat together. We see each other without makeup and don't judge. I have no really close friends in my life-besides my husband, and it's nice to have met these women.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Ok, I'm really wishing the snow would cease and desist already!! Enough is enough...this morning it took me 15 minutes to dig the car out so I could get to the gym. Could have lived without that--but so glad I drug myself out of bed and made it there. There were only 4 people there...predictions are that tomorrow will be even worse...hoping that a. the gym is open, and b. I can get there...
Why must I have such swings? Yesterday, I was flying high all day long...I left the gym feeling so pumped and energized. Then today, even after spin class, I'm having a down day. Yes I know that I have a choice and that it's up to me to find the good, but today that just seems to take more energy than I'm willing to expend...why? I know I'll find my way out of this but for now, I'm in a mini-funk.
OK went away from this for a while and I'm feeling much better...was just looking through some old family photos and realized how truly lucky and blessed I am...also saw a bunch of old photos of myself from years past and am sooo pleased with the difference between then and now. It puts things into perspective and makes me realize that perfection is unattainable and something that I certainly keep striving for, even though I know I'll never get there...I should instead look at all the changes I've made and understand how far I've come. Losing the negative imagery and the self-deprecation, I thought I had gotten beyond that over the past 5 years, but find that it still lives deep within and rears its ugly head all too often. But looking at pictures from over the years I am really amazed at where I am compared to days gone by. "It's very important to be kind to yourself. You are doing the right things, don't get discouraged!!! This is the mantra I will repeat to myself when I start hearing those negative voices.....
Monday, January 24, 2011
So last week was such a good week that I was sure to see that reflected on the scale this morning...but, it wasn't to be. I know that I had a full intestine and that had an affect, but still I thought it would be better....I have a couple of possible reasons for this disappointing occurrence; 1. I've not eaten enough calories for the amount of exercise that I burned 2. Somehow my recorded calorie count is not accurate (unlikely since I measured all snacks and meals with the exception of dinner-my husband makes me a platter). I'm going to work on eating enough calories this week, continue to measure my food and do my gym workouts, and see if the loss is better next week. If not, I'm going to have to increase my cardio....
I'm not certain I would not have gone of the deep end, if I wasn't actively participating on SP again. I'm able to remain positive and understand what could be going on. Spark people keeps me accountable and provides me te tools I need to understand the process better. Yes, I have been through the process and succeeded before, but there is always something to be learned each and every day. Staying positive and believing in the process are important to having the proper mindset that allows success. Knowing that the scale is not the only measurement of success, as SP reminds us, was my solace this morning as I dressed in a pair of pants that were previously too tight and was happy to find they fit much better now, an affirmation that I am making progress, even if not reflected on the scale. These small successes will all amount to the reaching of my goal.
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