Sunday, January 02, 2011
Sunday morning workout completed. 25 minutes of intervals on the treadmill. and an hour of strength training! I'm starting small and making sure to begin a new habit. It's frightening to me how quickly I became derailed! The long and short of it is that I've allowed too many things to take my focus off of me. One missed day leads to two missed days, which leads to feeling tired and sluggish, and the cycle begins....but now I'm forcing myself to get re-focused. With all the madness that lays ahead of me, I know this is my ticket to sanity. I will get a break from my regular babysitting days in a week or two when my second grandson is born and my DIL has her maternity leave. Though it will be hard not spending 3 days with my precious Jackson, I know it will help me to get back on track. My husband will be my new partner in this journey, which can be helpful with giving me that first step out the door in the morning. I know their are potential problems, but I must remember to make this about me! While I want to help him also succeed, but I can't put him before myself. I must do what works for me. I am very excited for him though, because I know this will help him control his diabetes.
Every day is a choice, and I'm making the choice to get healthy and fit again. After all, I have a wedding on 5/5/2012 to prepare for...my daughter's wedding day! She became engaged to a wonderful man this past Thanksgiving eve. I feel guilty because me enthusiasm for this wonderful event is somewhat dampered by the impeding loss of my mother. It's so hard knowing that she will die, sooner, rather than later. Why do we have to know this? I've never been a person who likes to face such things head-on. I'm learning that I like to evade things, however that can be done, that's what I do. It's not a healthy thing, I suppose, and perhaps is partially the reason for my recent backslide. I know that my emotions have indeed been ruling my life of late. I'm determined to take that control back. I'm not going to bury my feelings, but instead, I'm writing them down. I started this on NYE when I had another breakdown over the prospect of never having another NYE with my mother here on earth. It was a repeat performance from CE and Christmas day, and really the past 2 weeks. But just simply writing down what I felt, somehow eased that pain. My husband has been my rock and is such a wonderfully understanding man, but I find it sooo hard to put my feelings into words. I know he understands and wants to help me with this burden, but I just hold back and have been holding it all in...no more...today is the beginning of that change....
Saturday, January 01, 2011
On the eve of my five year anniversary, I find myself in a scary place. Since sept. 20th of this past year I've been in a downward slide. This was precipitated by the diagnosis of my mother's lung cancer. Due to her weakened health from other smoking related diseases, she's unable to undergo treatment and is dying right before my eyes. I've allowed this to derail me from my goal and am now looking to regain my way and lose the twenty plus pounds vie gained over this time.
Here's to that renewed effort and success!
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
A great obstacle to happiness is expecting too much
- Bernard de Fontanelle, French writer
Happiness is a state of mind, not a way of life or a destination that you'll reach one day. Bumps in the road of life are to be expected, and we cannot let them ruin our days. We often think that if a combination of factors would just fall into place THEN we would finally be happy. Satisfaction can only come from within, through truly accepting yourself, your life, and your circumstances. During this life you'll have many hard days--long work days, sleepless nights, worrying about the future, etc. This week, think about the joys of your life. Find creative ways to enjoy the little bumps in the road.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Being lazy and not taking responsibility are wastes of time. Often the power for change is within us, but without our efforts things would fail or go awry. You cannot rely on help from others, only what your own two hands accomplish on their own. Hard work is a habit that needs constant attention. But be mindful that you are giving your full effort to a project. Apply yourself, value your time, and don't squander it hoping for help.
After sharing my weight loss experience with other members on the Dr Oz show, it seems at if taking action...not being lazy is one of the keys. How many of us used to sit around and waiting for something to happen that would magically take off all the weight we'd accumulated over the years. How many times did we say "if only..." or "tomorrow"...once we stopped wishing and were willing to make whatever effort it would require, just taking that first step, then we began to find our way. I've often been asked what was my motivation or key to starting this journey and why this time when all other tries failed? I believe the answer to be that I was willing to stop being lazy! I was willing to take responsibility for myself and ownership of my actions....and mostly just to act. In past attempts at weight loss, I would always look at the healthy changes as temporary, as in "when I get to my goal I won't have to work this hard or stiick so strictly to this nutrition plan". I can vividly remember being out on a walk years ago in one of my previous weight loss tries, and actually telling myself that I couldn't wait to lose the weight so that I wouldn't have to get all sweaty by working out so hard....and guess what, after losing a good bit of the weight, I did stop exercising and ----- gained it all back plus more! So this time, when I would start having those thoughts in the early days of my journey, I reminded myself that exercise is something that is enjoyable and it was what I need to do for a lifetime if I want to get to and maintain my desired level of fitness and health!
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