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What a day for a jog!

Saturday, January 05, 2008

I've been indoors so much mainly doing spinning class (which I love) and had not realized how nice it feels to get outside and run! I went to one of our parks today and thought I was going to walk for an hour (I've gotten away from doing any real exercise on the weekends-giving myself a break). Well I felt so good and even though it was cold, I had my UA cold gear on with a soft-shell jacket, along with my iPod and I just kept going. I ran for 50 minutes and then walked for an additional 16. I love listening to my music and just going with the beat.

So, I've also been on SP a lot over the past week and have begun to catch up on reading my e-mails. I've found a lot of good information including this:

Memory can be used for good or for evil. If you use your past as a source of learning, it's worth remembering. If, however, all you do is mull over your mistakes and punish yourself for your failures, it's a waste of time. Rehashing failure can paralyze you in mortal fear of making another mistake, which, of course, just makes the feeling worse and practically guarantees future letdowns. The key to making meaningful changes is to pay more attention to the future than to the past. Have you ever noticed that the best athletes also have the shortest and most selective memories? Instead of dwelling on a missed shot or a flawed dive, they concentrate on making corrections and getting the next one right. It's as if the failed attempt never happened. It's forgotten and they don't fear trying again. If you mess up, even in an epic, life-altering way, work hard to leave it behind and concentrate on the possibilities yet to come.

"Tomorrow is much brighter when it's not smeared with a fixation on yesterday."

I understand the need to move past all the junk in our past. I know that I'm still struggling with being able to forgive myself for all the years I wasted being obese. I know that we should treasure each day, and make the most of it, and I feel as if I just squandered so much time being fat and out of shape. So, now I try to remind myself that it doesn't matter about the past, only what lies ahead and as long as I make the most of each of those days ahead, than I will make up for any past squanderances. When I read this quote I realized that I'm not the only person who does this to herself and that knowledge makes it easier for me to see that it's not a character flaw, but instead simply human nature. So today I choose to be proud of myself for what I've accomplished today and over the past 2 years!


Wow! I'm Flattered!

Friday, January 04, 2008

The SparkPeople Community thinks you are a motivation to others!

SparkPeople Members can vote for SparkPages that are motivational, based on Community involvement, personal accomplishments and more. You have received enough votes to become a "SparkPeople Motivator." Congratulations! For recognition, your SparkPage now has a special "SparkPeople Motivator" icon, and your SparkPage will be featured more prominently on the main SparkPages section of the site.

Thank you for inspiring other members through your own hard work and dedication!


The SparkPeople Team

What a cool thing to find in my e-mail this morning! I take this as a great compliment and thank those of you who feel I've inspired you in some way.

From the beginning of this journey it was all about me. I felt like that was the only way I was going to succeed-focus on me. When you are a mom of 5 and have been married for 31 years you sort of lose focus of yourself. You become "Mom" or "wife" and lose "Diane", but by being a bit selfish for the first time in my life, I've been able to do what I set out to do. And although I'm not quite at my goal, I can say that I feel very blessed to be able to share my experience and hopefully help other people. I will never forget the feeling of helplessness and dispair I felt at 299 pounds. I do hope that at some point I won't feel the need to define myself by that, but if one person can find their way by using me as an example of what's possible, than I've gained so much more than a new body from all this!

Today was an awesome day at the gym(they are all mostly awesome anyway)! I tweeked my lifting program a bit today, and can feel that amazing feeling in my muscles as I sit here and type! There really are very few things in life that give me that much enjoyment and feelings of utopia! Then after the weight lifting, my spin class was really great. The instructor did a few things differently (I think she's trying to get herself back in pre-holiday shape) and it was a really awesome workout. I thanked her after class and told her how good it was and she was really glad to hear that.

So, the rest of my day will be gravy because I had such a wonderful start. Anytime I feel like not going to the gym, I just draw on the memory of how I feel right now, and know that I just need to get in the car and get to the gym and I can feel this way again!!!

Hope we all have a wonderful weekend (I know I will as my son and his new wife are coming home from their honeymoon and will have plenty of pictures and stories to share)! I will have to take down all those Xmas decorations, but I'm ready for a fresh and uncluttered look around here!

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    Congratulations on a VERY well-deserved award! Your example but more importantly, your continuing commitment to health and fitness are very inspirational. It's going to be a GREAT 2008!

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TRECECOOKS 1/4/2008 5:09PM

    Congratulations!! How wonderful to earn the recognition of one's peers!! Enjoy!

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    CONGRATS on the recognition... YOU Deserve it! And yes, it was ALL YOU that worked hard to get where you are, develop the new way of thinking and doing! The rewards are great...and you look great!! You are a huge motivator and I love peeking in on you....

Enjoy the weekend. I have a few decorations to make sure I get put away this weekend too. I got a bunch of them boxed up yesterday but not quite all of them. Have fun visiting with your son and new daughter!

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Wow! It's coooolldd here!

Thursday, January 03, 2008

Last night we dipped into the teens and the wind-chill is really something again today. But, just pile on another layer and get to gettin...Went to the gym and tried a little something different today. There is one instructor who's class I dispise. It's mostly just sitting and going all out with little tension. It's boring and it makes me want to slack off because it's too much sitting and speed. So, today I went in about 20 minutes early and started my on my own before class. I then changed things up whenever she was doing the frenetic sitting/speed stuff. I added jumps or combinations of 8-6-2's (your down for 8 then up for 8 back in 3rd for 8 etc.)I had a much better ride and burned more calories in the process.

An oddity also occurred as it seems I'm getting my first TOM since March 2007! WTF!!! I was thrilled to be done with that, so I'm hoping it's very abbreviated and then goes away for 9 months or forever! Another interesting thing about menopause; it seems that the studies that show complications from the big M are eliminated or minimized significantly by daily exercise are correct. Over the past 9 months I've had little to no side-effects so that's a really good thing. I just want to be done with this whole thing. After all, I've paid my dues with the 5 children I've bore.

I'm feeling very good about myself today in the realization that not only have I reached the 2 year mark, but I'm still going strong with the same intensity as I had in the beginning. Other than marriage and of course, motherhood, I don't think I've been this committed to anything for such a long time. I think that's something to be proud of and I'm glad I'm able to recognize that and give myself kudos. Before I began this journey, I wouldn't have been able to do that. I couldn't see beyond the weight I was carrying and as far as I was concerned I was basically a big 0!

I get very concerned and offended by things I see involving woman and weight. First, it bothers me beyond belief that those of us in the obese range, are led to believe that the only way we can ever get our bodies back is to have surgery, or use some supplement, or other quick fix. It's just one more way for us to be victimized and forced to feel like failures. Also, I'm all about woman loving and appreciating their bodies and resisting the images of perfection set by pencil thin actesses and models. I'm a mother of three daughters and I've always wanted them to have good self-images that aren't based on their appearances. Having said that, it's also very insulting when woman who are obviously overweight or obese, are shown on TV railing against those images and telling girls and women that they should accept themselves as they are...great concept except that carrying extra weight around is UNHEALTHY! It's like the smoker who refuses to quit, even with all the overwhelming proof of all the dangers of continuing the habit. So, what do I think the answer is? Well, as I've always tried to impress upon my daughters; you are more than your looks or body, you have many values totally unrelated to them find those values and cherish them, but also understand that exercise and good nutrition are what will allow you to be around to enjoy those and all life's treasures! We don't do crash-or extreme diets (no diets at all) we live and eat healthy and actively.

Sorry, if this is so long, but lately TV's been filled with all sorts of this stuff and it's been bugging me!

Let's all think positively about ourselves and continue to do the things we need to do in order to live long and have quality days!

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TRECECOOKS 1/3/2008 7:37PM

    You're right - TOM is quite bizarre on this weight loss/exercise journey. I read that on South Beach, you are unlocking all of the estrogen receptors, so that you'll keep having it. I'm having it every other or every third month, but often only for 1 day. . .As you said, WTF!!

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Today is a milestone

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

Today is a milestone for me - 2 years since I started my journey to get healthy and fit - and it's given me some time to think about motivation and how I've sustained it for this long.

What I realize is that I finally got past the "wanting" to lose weight phase and moved to the "do something good for yourself" phase. Always before I just wanted to lose weight. I hoped that just wanting it would make it happen. I thought I wasn't strong enough or good enough to actually do it. In fact, when I started I didn't really believe this time would be any different than the 30 or 40 other times I tried to lose weight. And you see there's another failure word; "tried" you can't try you have to do. So, where did the motivation come from? It started out that I was doing this for my husband, to help him control his type 2 diabetes by eating properly. But it didn't take long for my motivation to change and become about making me a better person. Learning to take control over food and win the battle, learning to love what my body could do physically in the gym or outside in the elements. I began to find daily joy in finding my strength. And as I realized my capabilities (and that they are endless) I began to set loftier goals, and plan farther into my future.

I think we all look for motivation from outside factors, getting in shape for a wedding, or reunion, fitting into a certain pair of jeans, etc. but those are all fleeting moments in our lives. Our motivation would wane if we got into the jeans or the wedding passed, but if it's about ourselves, and how amazing we can be, and finding that wonderment everyday, than we will sustain it to "infinity and beyond" as they say in Toy Story!

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CYD1057 1/2/2008 3:30PM

  I haven't visited your blog in many months, but let's all celebrate "To Infinity And Beyond!" I think that may be my slogan for the year!

Your entries have been important to me for many reasons, and this one is no exception. Thank you so much for sharing everything about your journey to health and strength. The musings about motivation and observations of behavior are always of particular interest to me because they are my sticky points.

I was stunned by the photo of you at the wedding! You look fabulous! Do you have any idea how photogenic you are? That boy of yours is very proud of his mother, I'm sure! Good for you!

All the best in 2008!

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TRECECOOKS 1/2/2008 12:28PM

    Congratulations on your 2 years.
Loved the comment about tried is another word for failure; there's wisdom there.
Keep Moving Forward!!

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SOUNDPLAN 1/2/2008 11:57AM

    Happy two years! Thanks for this post, I joined two years ago in January as well. You are so right, it is amazing the changes that have happened over these years and how much more we have to look forward to in the future. Congratulations to you!!

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It's 2008!! Happy New Year!!!!

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Well, I've reached what I consider to be an amazing milestone! 2 years of healthy eating and exercise...I never really thought I could sustain such a program for this amount of time. However, I fully understand that this is now a lifestyle that I cannot veer from. I know I can do that now.

I realize that exercise is not a dreaded chore, but instead a way for me to relax and focus on my wellbeing. Whether on the treadmill, spin-bike, or outdoors running or walking, my thoughts and energy are all about making my body stronger and better. Exercise is a way to clear away any bad or depressing thoughts and lose myself for however long I need to in the exercise, and when I'm through, whatever was bothering me before, seems so insignificant and unimportant. Who knew that exercise, not food, could do that for me?

2008 is going to be the year that I reach that elusive number of 145 pounds. I know that I can do it, even though it's harder now, because there is less to lose, I know what I need to do in order to get there and I'm willing to do it.

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RIVERBENDER 1/3/2008 9:58AM

    You are totally amazing!

I feel the same way about exercise. It's the only time I get some peace and quiet. Just plug in the earphones and I'm gone. No phones ringing with problems I need to deal with, no anything I need to fix. Just me. When I'm done, and I often don't want to be, (who'd of ever thought I'd say that), life is good again.

Back in the '80s I used cocaine. That was actually the start of my weight gain the first time around. I'd not eat for 2 days and then eat everything. What a mess lol.

Anyway, the effect of exercise is pretty much the same, actually better as its sans the irrational, unfocused thinking and then the crash. AND! I get to sleep afterwards! ;)

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TRECECOOKS 1/1/2008 2:30PM

    Excellent encouraging post. Dare to be great in 2008!!

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