Saturday, December 29, 2007
Saturday, my day off...I've done extremely well this last week, which is not easy considering that we've been to my sister's house and she has more goodies than you could imagine. I must say that I found that food no longer has a hold on me. I wasn't tempted even once(even while I was baking)to taste any of the cookies or even lick a spoon or bowl. I feel like I've won the battle, though I understand I'll always fight this war, this is a personal victory for me.
I'm still amazed that it will be 2 years in a few days. Having sustained this for that long proves to me that I'm capable of anything.
Friday, December 28, 2007
It's been a while since I last blogged, and I've been very sporadic in my visits to the site lately, but now that the wedding and holidays are over, I'll be able to be a regular again.
It's amazing what Spark People has done for me over the past 24 months. When I remember that I started out weighing in at 299 pounds, wearing a size 26 XXXL and living a total inactive lifestyle, some of the recent events in my life seem implausable!
First I must say that my family has been my inspiration and support system beyond compare during this time. But, it still is amzaing to me when things like this come up: my youngest son is a linebacker on a D-III college football team who is in his junior year. He's played football and been a dedicated weight-lifter for at least 8 years now. So, when he called me in late November to ask for my help and advice regarding a strength-training program, I was totally blown away. He asked my to write a lifting program for him, because I "knew more about it" then him now. He went on to tell me how proud he was of how far I've come and that even though he rags on me, I really look great. So, I wrote him a 9 week strength building program that I had recently completed and he called back after doing it for a week and said it "totally kicked" his butt. He said his teammates all wanted me to write them a program too! Wow, Wow, Wow!!! To think that I've come so far is mind-blowing.
As I mentioned earlier, my son got married on December 1. About a week after the wedding, my good friend who lives in Florida called to tell me how sorry she was that they missed the wedding. She said she had received a phone call from one of our guests that told her I "was the most beutiful woman (who was not the bride) at the wedding"! I'm still finding such compliments hard to believe, but they sure do make my day!
So, here's a big thank you to SP for giving me all the tools and motivation to sustain my program for the past 24 months. Without this site I'm certain I would have been satisfied with myself after losing the first 80 pounds. Instead I'm now 154 pounds and wearing a size 6!
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Today we had a substitute instructor for spinning class. She was really good and it's nice to have someone different now and again. Typically, my week has the same two instructors splitting the 5 days. I like the one a lot, but the other not so much, so it's nice to have someone new. I could of course, go in the evening, but, I'm really a better morning person. I also did a few new ab exercises using the weighted medicine balls. It is amazing how changing things up can really make a difference!
Well, I'm still in a bit of a funk. Not sure why, but I'm trying to work myself out of it. Maybe getting my hair done and picking up my dress for the wedding will shake me out of this. I sure hope so, because I'm getting tired of this feeling.
So, for now I'm off...
Monday, November 12, 2007
Well there are less than 3 weeks until the wedding...should be exciting, but it's exhausting. I really hope my son will be happy in his new life. I guess we never stop worrying about our children. Once the stress of the wedding and the holidays are over, I'm certain that I'll be able to finally lose these last stubborn pounds. I'm doing a great job of keeping up with my weight training and cardio, but it seems that I'm consuming around 1600 calories and that's not going to cut it. My focus is divided too many ways right now, and I'm not staying within my range(actually I want to be around 1200 calories-new goal this week). I'm still having a struggle with body image, and feeling displeased with my current self. Will I ever get over that? I hope so!
Friday, November 09, 2007
Why did we stop taking risks? In large part, we're afraid of screwing up. We've settled into our comfort zones and don't want to look like a fool, to ourselves or others. What's the price we pay for our pursuit of perfection? No growth, no sense of discovery, few real experiences. The sacrifice isn't worth it. Are there points in your life that you wish you could have back because you didn't pursue an idea or a new interest? Those chances are gone forever--but you'll have more in the future to take full advantage of. It's been said that most people don't learn much that's new past their 20's. That's an awful long time to stay stagnant. The only mistake you should be afraid to make is not trying.
On January 2, 2006 I finally got the courage to risk failing once again at weight loss. I'm so glad that I found that courage because my life is exponentially better since that day. It's such a joy to get up every morning and eagerly approach my day. Now that we are at DST I'm up with the sun and dressed for the gym every morning. What a sense of accomplishment I feel after a great workout. After struggling for the past few(5) weeks with knee pain that was affecting my cario workouts, it felt great to be back in full swing again. I so struggle daily not regretting the years I failed to do anything about my obesity, but when I read the above text, I realize that every day presents a new opportunity for me to atone for my past failures!
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