Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Today we had a substitute instructor for spinning class. She was really good and it's nice to have someone different now and again. Typically, my week has the same two instructors splitting the 5 days. I like the one a lot, but the other not so much, so it's nice to have someone new. I could of course, go in the evening, but, I'm really a better morning person. I also did a few new ab exercises using the weighted medicine balls. It is amazing how changing things up can really make a difference!
Well, I'm still in a bit of a funk. Not sure why, but I'm trying to work myself out of it. Maybe getting my hair done and picking up my dress for the wedding will shake me out of this. I sure hope so, because I'm getting tired of this feeling.
So, for now I'm off...
Monday, November 12, 2007
Well there are less than 3 weeks until the wedding...should be exciting, but it's exhausting. I really hope my son will be happy in his new life. I guess we never stop worrying about our children. Once the stress of the wedding and the holidays are over, I'm certain that I'll be able to finally lose these last stubborn pounds. I'm doing a great job of keeping up with my weight training and cardio, but it seems that I'm consuming around 1600 calories and that's not going to cut it. My focus is divided too many ways right now, and I'm not staying within my range(actually I want to be around 1200 calories-new goal this week). I'm still having a struggle with body image, and feeling displeased with my current self. Will I ever get over that? I hope so!
Friday, November 09, 2007
Why did we stop taking risks? In large part, we're afraid of screwing up. We've settled into our comfort zones and don't want to look like a fool, to ourselves or others. What's the price we pay for our pursuit of perfection? No growth, no sense of discovery, few real experiences. The sacrifice isn't worth it. Are there points in your life that you wish you could have back because you didn't pursue an idea or a new interest? Those chances are gone forever--but you'll have more in the future to take full advantage of. It's been said that most people don't learn much that's new past their 20's. That's an awful long time to stay stagnant. The only mistake you should be afraid to make is not trying.
On January 2, 2006 I finally got the courage to risk failing once again at weight loss. I'm so glad that I found that courage because my life is exponentially better since that day. It's such a joy to get up every morning and eagerly approach my day. Now that we are at DST I'm up with the sun and dressed for the gym every morning. What a sense of accomplishment I feel after a great workout. After struggling for the past few(5) weeks with knee pain that was affecting my cario workouts, it felt great to be back in full swing again. I so struggle daily not regretting the years I failed to do anything about my obesity, but when I read the above text, I realize that every day presents a new opportunity for me to atone for my past failures!
Thursday, November 08, 2007
Well it's 5:44 am, I've been sitting here since 4:30 and can't figure out why. I think it's the wedding count down that's on...24 days until my son's wedding. All I think about is dress fittings, rehersal dinners, hair appts. etc. I'll be glad when it's all over. I've had a pretty good week so far, though I did skip a leg workout on Wednesday...but did an awesome spin class and felt like my legs got a great workout there. Today is cardio and then upper body and cardio tomorrow. My food has been much better this week, cutting out a lot of snacking and keeping my calories in range. I've really increased my my muscle mass with my strength training and feel very strong. I waffle between being pleased with my body and feeling like I have so far to go still...will I ever gain control over that?
Well I'm going back to try and catch a couple hours more sleep before hitting the gym...
Monday, November 05, 2007
Since I last blogged on SP. I'd like to say I've been busy, but that's not so. Mostly, I've just not been motivated to write or visit the website. I've kept myself going with my exercise, in fact I recently completed a 9 week strength training program designed to increase strength and I did that by 20%! I'm quite proud of that, however, my cardio hasn't been as good lately due to the extra lifting day, and the fact that my program had a heavy leg program that was really causing me great pain in my bad knee. I was also attending 2 hours of dancing lessons(ballroom and country line dance back to back)and that was putting a lot of stress on my knee as well. Last week for instance, I had only 2 days of cardio. Monday I went to spinning and had diffuculty getting through the class due to the pain, than Tuesday I took it easy-went for a 13:00 minute mile hour long walk(which I really enjoyed)but ended up with groin pain(I'm assuming due to the knee problem affecting my gait). I feel as if these are just excuses but the pain is very real. So, this week I've re-focused myself and started a new lifting program today, that combines low-rep heavy weight lifts and lighter weight higher rep lifts in the same program. I feel really awesome tonight having lifted so well today. I also did 45 minutes of spinning and had a great workout. My calories are well within my calorie range, so I feel very proud of myself!
For anyone who has read this blog, if you find yourself in my situation please share the things that have helped you through. I know I'm a healthier person today than I was when I started almost 2 years ago (wow that doesn't seem possible-2 years!)and I still have to do a double take in the mirror whenever I go by, so for that I am grateful and proud.
Nothing is ever easy, and this struggle will never be over, but getting up and moving every day is a joy and I will never get out of that good habit. Eating healthy food is also a part of who I am. I never crave a hamburger or fries and I had only my 3 piece of birthday cake in 2 years tonight for my husband's birthday(and it was sugar free)so I feel as if I've defeated that demon that ruled me for so long. I know that mentally I'm the one who decided what I will eat, and food doesn't rule me any longer. I am stronger than food and I must remind myself of that everyday.
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