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Thursday, November 08, 2007

Well it's 5:44 am, I've been sitting here since 4:30 and can't figure out why. I think it's the wedding count down that's on...24 days until my son's wedding. All I think about is dress fittings, rehersal dinners, hair appts. etc. I'll be glad when it's all over. I've had a pretty good week so far, though I did skip a leg workout on Wednesday...but did an awesome spin class and felt like my legs got a great workout there. Today is cardio and then upper body and cardio tomorrow. My food has been much better this week, cutting out a lot of snacking and keeping my calories in range. I've really increased my my muscle mass with my strength training and feel very strong. I waffle between being pleased with my body and feeling like I have so far to go still...will I ever gain control over that?

Well I'm going back to try and catch a couple hours more sleep before hitting the gym...


It's been a month

Monday, November 05, 2007

Since I last blogged on SP. I'd like to say I've been busy, but that's not so. Mostly, I've just not been motivated to write or visit the website. I've kept myself going with my exercise, in fact I recently completed a 9 week strength training program designed to increase strength and I did that by 20%! I'm quite proud of that, however, my cardio hasn't been as good lately due to the extra lifting day, and the fact that my program had a heavy leg program that was really causing me great pain in my bad knee. I was also attending 2 hours of dancing lessons(ballroom and country line dance back to back)and that was putting a lot of stress on my knee as well. Last week for instance, I had only 2 days of cardio. Monday I went to spinning and had diffuculty getting through the class due to the pain, than Tuesday I took it easy-went for a 13:00 minute mile hour long walk(which I really enjoyed)but ended up with groin pain(I'm assuming due to the knee problem affecting my gait). I feel as if these are just excuses but the pain is very real. So, this week I've re-focused myself and started a new lifting program today, that combines low-rep heavy weight lifts and lighter weight higher rep lifts in the same program. I feel really awesome tonight having lifted so well today. I also did 45 minutes of spinning and had a great workout. My calories are well within my calorie range, so I feel very proud of myself!

For anyone who has read this blog, if you find yourself in my situation please share the things that have helped you through. I know I'm a healthier person today than I was when I started almost 2 years ago (wow that doesn't seem possible-2 years!)and I still have to do a double take in the mirror whenever I go by, so for that I am grateful and proud.

Nothing is ever easy, and this struggle will never be over, but getting up and moving every day is a joy and I will never get out of that good habit. Eating healthy food is also a part of who I am. I never crave a hamburger or fries and I had only my 3 piece of birthday cake in 2 years tonight for my husband's birthday(and it was sugar free)so I feel as if I've defeated that demon that ruled me for so long. I know that mentally I'm the one who decided what I will eat, and food doesn't rule me any longer. I am stronger than food and I must remind myself of that everyday.


Tuesday October 2

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

My how time seems to fly! 22 months have passed since I began my journey to get fit and healthy. I'm still 7 pounds from my goal weight, but see such changes to my body that I can live with my current weight if I must. Of course there are some things about this 52 year old body(abused by obesity)that will never be the way I would like, but I must learn to accept it the way it is. That doesn't mean that I will ever stop working out or eating properly just because I will never have the body of Jessica Alba. I also continue to struggle with fogiving myself for the previous 50 years that I didn't make healthy my priority. I'm still learning to accept a compliment and not feel the need to add something derogatory about my "old" self. I know that I must look forward and not back, and forgive and forget the sins of my past.

I'm in week 6 of my "get stronger" lifing program. I can see definate results, but must be careful of the leg portion of the lifting schedule. Today is the "heavy" lift for legs and I decided to skip cardio. The plan actually calls for a severe cut in cardio workouts, but I still cannot give that up. But for today, I did eliminate the cardio in hopes of not suffering with knee pain tonight.

Fall seems to finally arrived here in south Jersey. The leaves are turning and the weather is so fabulous. We could really use some rain, but otherwise this is about as good as it gets.


Thanks Dan

Monday, September 24, 2007

Here is a sparkmail that I received from the BLC group I subscribe to: If you watched the US version of The Biggest Loser this week, you saw that when one of the contestants was feeling like she couldn't complete the exercise she was doing... in a very poignant moment Jillian, her trainer, posed the question that gave her focus and strength to go on... 'What are your choices?'...

That's a good question to ask ourselves everytime we reach for the food that is going to catapult our caloric intake over our daily goals, when we sit in our chair debating whether to 'take it easy' or get up and do that exercise we said we were going to do, when we are halfway through a tough workout and feel tempted to cut it short and just go relax (after all we did *something* didn't we?)... WHAT ARE YOUR CHOICES?

One of my favorite quotes is 'What you are today is the result of decisions you made yesterday; what you will be tomorrow will be the result of decisions you make today.' It all comes down to choices. Choices we made in the past got us to the point we are now. Choices we make now will decide what we will be in the future.

Look ahead twelve months from now. Will you still be sitting here saying, 'I really want to lose weight, I really do.. I just can't seem to get motivated. I just can't seem to get up and exercise. I just can't seem to resist those high calorie foods.. I just can't......' Or will you have twelve months of weight loss, improving fitness and health, and be looking and feeling better, having more energy, and feeling really good about how far you've come in the past 12 months?

WHAT ARE YOUR CHOICES? You can either change your life.. or it will stay the same. But it is YOUR choice. Twelve months from now will you just be twelve months older? or will you be twelve months better? twelve months closer to your goals? twelve months healthier?

If you do the same things you've always done, you'll get the same results you've always gotten. If you don't change your habits and attitudes, you wont' change your body either. You can't get where you want to be by staying where you are. WHAT ARE YOUR CHOICES?

Write it down on the fabric of your heart, write it on a piece of paper and put it in your purse or billfold, put it on your refrigerator where you can't miss it... WHAT ARE MY CHOICES? Because it is YOUR choices that got you to where you are.. it will be YOUR choices that will change your life.


I think this e-mail sums up my journey to date. It's always about making the choice to do what you have to in order to reach your goal. Lately, I've been a little lost as far as staying within my calorie count and limiting my nighttime eating. I am still eating healthy foods, but just not within my range. I'm staying about the same weight wise. I haven't lost anything this month. I find that a bit upsetting, but also realize that I've dropped down to a size 6 and feel and look good. I must make the choice to do what is necessary to lose the final 6 pounds....I WILL!


Very Exciting!

Saturday, September 08, 2007

Well this has been a very interesting week for me. I've been stuck at the same weight for a number of weeks now, but it seems that my body is continuing to improve even though the scale sees no change. This week I was able to do a little shopping and bought a pair of dress slacks and another pair of jeans. I was amazed once more to realize that a size 6 is me! The dress pants look so great that I can't believe it's me when I look in the mirror.

Then today, I was shopping at one of my old stores "Avenue" for my daughter's birthday, and while I was checking out the two saleswomen complimented my arms and asked how I got them to look so great. So, I explained that I have lost 148 pounds in 21 months and work-out at the gym 5 days a week. Of course they wanted to know "how" and I gave them a synopsis and directed them to (I do hope they check this site out, they couldn't believe it's free!) But, as the continued to be shocked, the one woman told me 2or3 times "you're beautiful"...that was awesome. But, it continues to amaze me when people ask you "how" and follow it up with all the reasons they "can't". I know we were all there once, but I wish there was a way to convince people that we all "CAN", we'll all have a different path to take, but there is "can" in each and every one of us. If I can just convince one person to forget about "I have arthritis and I "can't" or whatever and "I can't" than I will feel like my journey is more important than just being about me.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

DEXTRO140 9/8/2007 10:08AM

    Great post! You're absolutely right -- there's a "can" in all of us. It comes down to the "want" -- deciding that you want a better life and taking the steps to achieve it! Eventually, we all run out of excuses.

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