Friday, February 16, 2007
The best years of your life are the ones in which you decide your problems are your own. You do not blame them on your mother, the ecology, or the president. You realize that you control your own destiny.
- Albert Ellis
It's interesting that this was the reflection quote today. I've recently found myself the recipiant of some snide remarks from posters on a particular site. While I'm certain this was partly a hightened sesitivity on my part, it was still disturbing. But the correlation of this quote is that I've come to realize that many times people are just looking for someone to relieve their reponsibility for not doing what they need to in order to be successful. I've learned a lot about myself and why I've been able to finally beat this weight thing now. Always before I refused to accept change, and had wanted to be able to blame everything and anything for my being a victim of obesity. But, I now see that in order to be the person I want to be, I have to recognize that my self-"victimization" was the root of the problem. What I mean by that is I always thought I couldn't - couldn't always eat right, couldn't always work-out, couldn't change my life...but sometime between month 9 and month 13 I realized what a strong, capable person I really am. I also understand that being ready to accept life-long change is key to my staying healthy. I can eat good foods and be happy, I can live for the rest of my life without ever eating another greasy, fat-laden fast food item and not feel deprived or neglected.
Thursday, February 15, 2007
but, I did all my workout, concentrating on legs. Today was my second spinning class and I must say I really do enjoy it! I did almost all of the standing today, with the exception of a few "jumps" which was a new thing, and quite fatiguing. But, I can't believe how strong I feel afterward! It totally is cool and I want to buy a gel seat cover so that I can go more than once a week(my butt can't take it!!). The weather here is UGHHH! so I'm thinking about going to another spinning class on Saturday instead of my usual outdoor run(another storm predicted for Sat here).
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Well, today when I got up, I was feeling kind of funky. Light-headed or dizzy, but not quite...can't really explain it, but I thought I give myself the day off. It was snowing pretty hard here so I thought I'd just have my breakfast, sip a cup of tea and watch TV. While sitting there sipping my hot tea, I thought about my decision and realized that a short jaunt in the snow, was better than being a lazy bum, and so I went upstairs, got dressed, threw on my L.L. Bean boots, and took a walk--for 90 minutes! It was awesome, and I really had a blast. I felt like a little kid going out to play in the snow, but I was getting a good work-out. I was even thinking I might like to try sledding...but I didn't. So, my day was really "cool" with my walk in the snow, I went through our apple/peach orchards, and must have walked about 4 or 5 miles...
Monday, February 12, 2007
I probably spelled that wrong....There is no difference between living and learning...it is impossible and misleading and harmful to think of them as being separate.
- John Holt
This is so very true and I have found that as I've undertaken this journey 57 weeks ago, I've continued to learn and educate myself on healthy habits, as well as just knowing myself better. If you think you know it all, about anything, than you are really not a very smart person. The minute we stop learning than we will die.
I know my family is probably sick of my constant reading and studying on the subject of nutrition and exercise, but I find it's a great way to stay focused and on task.
As for progress, I'm down 2.4 more pounds for a total of 130.9 and I'm 21 pounds away from my goal. Though, as I've recently learned, that is not as important as my waist size, which I have less than 2 inches to go, before I'm in the healthy zone.
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Even if our efforts of attention seem for years to be producing no result, one day a light that is in exact proportion to them will flood the soul
- Simone Weil
I read this quote and felt a connection to it immediately! Although it's hard to admit all the past failures(and I wish I could take them back)I'm so very happy to finally believed in myself enough to find the success I so desperately needed. Seriously, the person I am today is so incredibly different than the one who was in my skin 1 year ago(or even 2 years ago)and yet, I'm not sure what the catalyst was. I've really tried to think about why I have been able to be so committed and able to do this, but can find no concrete answer. But, I know I'm eternally glad that whatever "it" was, that I finally got it.
Today is also an exciting day for me, because I finally coaxed my DH to go with me to exercise. We are going for a walk(I'll run)and will go at our own pace(I don't want him to quit, and he doesn't want to slow me down)but I'm so glad he agreed to go. I'm still working on getting him to the gym, but I'll take what I can get!
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