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Love my gym time!!!!!

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Just finished the first week of the second part of my 8 week workout I've been doin. It's awesome because many of the exercises are ones I avoid doing, because they push me harder. I'm sitting here, post Saturday workout feeling awesome, a little sore, but awesome! I feel stronger, and I'm definitely seeing big changes in my body. I've been back on track since early November, 4 months missed workouts, and my diet is back to feeling like second nature. It's a good feeling, knowing I'm back and focused. I wish I had never strayed, but, I did so now, I have to learn from the past failings, and put those lessons into good, positive actions. Things like weekly weigh-ins, are imperative to staying accountable. Planning ahead for dealing with days when I must eat on the run, especially during busy softball tournaments where I'm on the field all day, and of course, hitting the gym with a planned workout, that takes out the chance to ease up.

I know many people never really buy into the exercise component, but it's a two pronged plan that leads to success, one without the other, does not equate to long term weight loss success. Let's be honest, there are days, like this, rainy, cold, dreary morning, when nothing is more appealing than staying in bed, under the covers. On those kinds of days, having a plan in place and setting your alarm, get you out of bed....I knew that today's workout (already in my log book) was a required lift for biceps/triceps. Because it was in the book, skipping the gym wasn't an option. But, once there, when the weight lifting was completed, I felt it would be a waste of time to not do more. I wasn't in the mood for spin lass, and none of the cardio machines were enticing me either. So I told myself to just do a few, easy minutes of walking on the track. But, as is usually the case, I started lapping the others on the track. Once into the music, I decided that I would go for 20 minutes, which turned into 30, and then ended at 2+ miles and 40+ minutes and even a number of laps runnung...I was finished, and feeling very pleased with myself!

Head games...the things we can talk ourselves into!!!!!! Love it!

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DDOORN 2/24/2013 7:15AM

    We can talk ourselves INTO doing great things as much as we can talk ourselves OUT of them...the choice is ours, right? :-)


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BERRY4 2/23/2013 2:51PM

    Most battles involving health, for me, are won or lost in the mind. If I start the argument, I usually lose. As you indicated: Set the appt and Just DO it!

I consider my exercise appts to be equal in value to any medical appt I might have!
Way to put yourself on you "to do" list! emoticon

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JAZZMINE 2/23/2013 2:46PM

    It always feels great when you have completed a workout! Good for the mind and the body.


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Sad day

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Today marked the two year anniversary of my Mother's passing. It's still such a huge loss and life will really never be the same again. I was so lucky to have had the mother I did, she was my biggest fan, my friend, and she always loved me, unconditionally. I think of her very day in some way. It was eerie today to have realized the exact day and then have Miranda Lambert's song, "Over You" come on the radio at a that precise time. All too often, I just feel at a loss, it seems so wrong that she is gone. My family will never be the same again. My father is planning on re-marrying this June, at age 82 years old to someone he met at his support group. I just can't get past the disloyalty to my mother, it's wrong, I can't accept it, even though I want him to be happy, he feels like a stranger now.

I have to work all this through, I know, and I thought putting it in writing might somehow make it better, but it doesn't seem to help.

One foot in front of the other....

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KAMEL622 2/20/2013 8:16AM

    I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my Mom almost 14 years ago and I still feel that loss so much.
I do know that if I go first I would want my husband of 36 years to remarry. He is not someone to live alone and I would want him happy again.
I pray that you find some peace about it....kath

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BUSYGRANNY5 2/20/2013 7:34AM

    Your mother sounds like a wonderful woman, you were blessed to have had her in your life, as was your father! Perhaps, it was because of the years he spent with you mother that he is ready to begin the next stage of his life by marrying the lady from his support group. It is not uncommon for men who were in happy marriages to marry after the death of their spouse. I wonder what your mother would've wanted your father to do? My thoughts and prayers are with you, as I understand how difficult life stages are!

Blessings to you!

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Ups and downs

Sunday, February 17, 2013

Friday I got the stomach bug, it started to hit me as I finished my lifting at the gym-so glad I got it in before hand! So my eating was all over the map eating mostly soup and not really tracking anything makes me unsure of how the weigh in will go tomorrow...but, whatever happens I know I'm succeeding. I decided to get out all the umpire pants and try them on...I couldn't wear three of the four pair I have most of last year. I'm so happy that all but a pair of size 8's (which i havent worn in 3 years) fit...I was not sure I had made that much progress, so it was a spirit lifter.

While I was recovering on Saturday, I spent a lot of time surfing the Internet. I looked up the past contestants from the Biggest Loser to see where they are now. Surprisingly, the majority have all gained weight back. Some have kept most of their weight off, but only a few are within 20 pounds of where they were at the final. That made me realize, once again, just how hard maintaining is, after the loss. In my heart I know this, but in my head, I still won't give myself a break on being in that same boat. I still fight that inner self-loathing that got me back here. I see people post quotes stating "we are not the number on the scale" or our weight doesn't dictate our self-esteem", etc. of course any sensible person knows this to be a healthy view....but apparently it's just not what my head believes...I know that I'm on top of the world, when I'm at my healthy weight, I've been there, it's true...but every pound I gain, moves me farther away from that feeling...I don't know if I'll ever get past that....but I can get back to that weight...and I will...that is in my control!

So, some ups and some downs, but my alarm is set and I'm ready to start the second part of my 8 week workout tomorrow morning...

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DDOORN 2/19/2013 10:56AM

    Yeah, have read similar things about Biggest Loser contestants. No surprise with all the massive and artificial supports they've enjoyed having been pulled out from under. That's my biggest peeve about the show: it is so divorced from the reality of what it takes to make a lasting lifestyle change!

For that it takes a Spark & our SparkFamily.


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BILLYLYNN 2/18/2013 10:19AM

I think I understand about gaining the weight back. I'm not sure yet, I've just really started this in January, but it seems like to make permanent change requires a change in how we think about ourselves which would take more than exercise and following a diet.
I've started doing aerobics which I'm enjoying, but am struggling with the food thing.

My approach has been to learn to believe that Jesus really loves me, something I know in my head and have heard 1000 times but definitely have not internalized. So my plan is to sing or play on the piano the song every day the tune "Jesus Loves Me".

It would be interesting to know what attitudes or values changed between the people who kept the weight off and those who didn't.


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LJCANNON 2/18/2013 12:56AM

    emoticon Glad to hear that you are feeling better.

emoticon Maintenance IS Going to be a Life Long Struggle. I think once we Accept that fact, we can formulate the Plan that will work for us. Just as a Diabetic is ALWAYS a Diabetic, we who were Once Obese will Never be the same as Someone who has had a "Normal BMI" all their Lives.

emoticon It will be a Daily Battle, but We Are Worth It!! And, with Spark People Tools, we have the Ammunition to Win The War!!

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Wise words

Sunday, February 10, 2013

When you are consistent in your healthy habits, magic is happening in your body and mind, even if the scale isn't moving. - Coach Jen

I recently blogged about my disappointment on my weight loss progress, and after receiving a very nice comment reminding me that "a loss is a loss" and reading this quote by coach Nicole, I see things with a different eye.

I have had a really consistent 12 weeks! I have been to the gym at least 5 days a week, I'm tracking my food, making healthy choices, and checking in here on SP daily. I'm feeling more energetic, and most definitely better about myself, and my general moods are much brighter. Those are 180 degree turn arounds from November. I felt "helpless" to stop my downward spiral, and wouldn't take the first step to make the changes I needed. But for the past 12 weeks (84 days) I have made the choice to take back the power I had given away. I've chosen everyday to eat well, and get moving, and I know that nothing but good will come from those choices.

I still have much work to do, but, I'm capable, and I'm able, so I will do the work!

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DDOORN 2/11/2013 12:16PM

    Locking in that consistency is better than money in the bank! :-)


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CATH5109 2/10/2013 8:11PM

    Sure sounds like success to me. I am very happy for you. emoticon

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LJCANNON 2/10/2013 2:55PM

    emoticon "I'm Capable and I'm Able"!!! What more can one ask for -- Especially when you get to a "Mature" Age?

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BARBARASDIET 2/10/2013 2:09PM

    Words of wisdom, indeed! I have been stymied as far as weight loss is concerned for ages, but I know that my lifestyle is better for me in so many ways that it is worth it anyway!

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CJJANISS 2/10/2013 11:59AM

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MJRVIC2000 2/10/2013 7:59AM

    Let us live and walk by faith, and not by sight, for faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. God Bless YOU! Vic.

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DLBROWN93 2/10/2013 7:12AM

    Congratulations on your choice to start moving and eating healthier. Twelve weeks of consistency, WOW!! emoticon

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Things that make me say hmmm

Saturday, February 09, 2013

I recently read this quote from one of our SP coaches. "Success depends more on how much you eat than what you eat. Moderation is the key to success." on the surface this seems like very sound advice. For some folks it might just be the one missing link they've needed. But, I look at this and say, hmmmm. How can this be so? We have all gotten to this point by eating unhealthy foods, in large quantities, of course. By refusing to change this behavior, we are kidding ourselves about having a healthy lifestyle. I mean thimk about it, switching from a Big Mac to say a kids hamburger saves you calories, yes, but it's still a food that has little nutritional value. Besides, which, it's unlikely to make you feel full, and satisfied for very long. There are such better choices one can make that would allow you to eat a larger amount of food for less calories, and better nutritional values, and would truly be changing an old bad habit. Additionally, I doubt I'm alone with this, but for me eating certain foods just makes me want to have more of that food, and it is better to steer clear altogether, than try to eat it in moderation. Over these last 8 years, I've learned I am capable of change. I can learn to enjoy healthy food, and exercise, and I've tried so many new things because of opening myself up to change. Had I simply kept my old ways but moderated them, think how unenlightened my life would have remained.....hmmmm

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HEALTHY4ME 2/24/2013 7:02PM

    I agree that to me isn't making healthy changes, better perhaps but not getting the right fuel. So should we eat a small hamburger, a small blizzard cos we used to eat larges...

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DDOORN 2/9/2013 7:32PM

    There are certain trigger foods that I doubt I will EVER be able to safely negotiate!


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JASI27 2/9/2013 7:42AM

    I completely agree. That won't be a quote I add to my motivation board lol.

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MINILOVER1 2/9/2013 6:35AM

    I agree that changing from a Big Mac to a small hamburger really is not making a good choice. I stay away from all MCD's foods. I tried to eat a sandwich from there a couple of months ago after not eating there in over 6 months. I took one bite and almost got sick to my stomach. It tasted terrible!! Greasy and the texture was not appealing. The birds enjoyed it though.

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