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Wednesday, August 25, 2010

The other day I was reading someone's Spark page after reading a post on a message board. At the top of her page was her "before" picture. I looked at her thinking - you're not as overweight as you think. I scroll down some and see her starting weight was 168. While I fully support anyone who wants to lose weight even if it's 5 pounds because I know it's more to do with feeling good about oneself, I thought - you look good.

I weighed in at 165 this morning - so that's 3 pounds less than that woman who I thought looked good. I struggle with giving myself that same latitude. I look at myself and see a smaller me than before but still one who I feel like has a ways to go to get to where I look good. After seeing that woman's page I even started thinking - she's probably 4-5 inches taller than I. What is wrong with me? grrr. Why can't I connect it like I should - on a continual basis.

On a happier note - I went running by my parents' house last night after work. There's a rails to trails path and I used to walk it every once in awhile when I lived with them. I was running along and remembered back to trying to run between light posts and never being able to run 2 in a row. Well, I never thought I could and would give up. I should have counted how many I ran between yesterday! I had a 11:15 mile yesterday (without Bonnie pushing me ;) ) for three miles and that's 3 days before I turn 40!! Who would have thunk?

My mom signed her and my dad up for the Steelers' Run/Walk that Bonnie and I will be running. It's her first race - I think she's excited. My dad used to be an avid runner for years until his legs couldn't take it any more. He still walks daily, though. I swear he told me he ran a 6:30 mile when he was running. I sure didn't get his genes. :)

OK, off to work on my body image!

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CAROLANN27 8/27/2010 11:37PM

    I remember reading your page for the first time and reading that you were going to turn 40 this year. You must be so proud of everything you have accomplished! I love the story about running on that trail.

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DARK_CINDERELLA 8/26/2010 8:32PM

    I think this is a common thing......comparisons are much easier when they're between other people. We are our own worst critics, and I am no exception. My biggest problem is reconciling numbers with what I see........Congrats on your progress!

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MSSUNBUG 8/25/2010 7:35PM

    I definitely relate to this a lot. I experience a huge disconnect between how far I've come and how I see myself. I keep hoping it's going to get better with time, but I do think it takes a concerted effort.

Good for you--that's a GREAT pace! I'm excited to see what happens in another three days!

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KGLOVER71 8/25/2010 5:31PM

    I know what you mean about the body image thing. I think it's something we all need to work on, for sure. I think you look fabulous, by the way.

It's great that your Mom signed up for the race! My mom does that with me sometimes--she walks or runs slowly or both--and it is so much fun to share that with her.

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KGLOVER71 8/25/2010 5:31PM

    I know what you mean about the body image thing. I think it's something we all need to work on, for sure. I think you look fabulous, by the way.

It's great that your Mom signed up for the race! My mom does that with me sometimes--she walks or runs slowly or both--and it is so much fun to share that with her.

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KGLOVER71 8/25/2010 5:30PM

    I know what you mean about the body image thing. I think it's something we all need to work on, for sure. I think you look fabulous, by the way.

It's great that your Mom signed up for the race! My mom does that with me sometimes--she walks or runs slowly or both--and it is so much fun to share that with her.

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AMBOMAE82 8/25/2010 3:54PM

    The body image thing is hard! I do the same thing to myself all the time. Try to be nice to yourself. People are looking at you thinking you're the one that looks great, so you should too!

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COUNTING_DOWN 8/25/2010 2:25PM

    Brit, you inspired my blog today! Thank you. Congratulations on your progress...look at your running. Before you know it you will be going longer and longer distances, and you will be fast! How cool that your folks are going to do the event with you and Bonnie. Have fun!

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2BSKINNY09 8/25/2010 1:54PM

  Hello! All I read was the start of your blog and thought "Is she talking about me?" I'm still learning computer and don't blog yet, but I love your page. Very pretty! I hope we can be computer friends. My problem is I can't find people again and I'm still not sure how to get the spark page going full blast. Hope you have a nice day! Robin I think I called myself Skinny09 on here...gee..if I could just get off the bread, the ice cream and the junk...

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DJS-DEBBIE 8/25/2010 1:49PM

    I hope to see you at the Steelers Run/Walk - I will be walking.

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I am thin, I am healthy, I am athletic, I am...

Monday, August 02, 2010

I was reading the Panic message board on Friday and there was a post “Depressed and Discouraged” in which the original poster writes about the roller coaster she is on when it comes to weight. I see a response from newest SparkFriend SPARKINGMYLIFE suggesting the poster read an article –

Curious, I clicked on it - and I’m glad I did. Although, I didn’t fully understand his money analogy - the rest of it made total sense to me. I know I struggle with self-image and it manifests itself in many things - even small things like not being able to take a compliment. I slowly try and work on that but quite often I revert to my old ways. He explains his notion of “self-concept” which works in conjunction with self-image (if I’m reading it right.) Explaining how our subconscious has so much more power than I thought it did, helped me see how I need to work on a deeper level than I have been. The steps laid out seem simple enough to incorporate into my life.

My mind’s eye is having a little bit of a problem putting my face on the energetic, thin, persevering, lower-cut pants wearing, flat stomach woman I’m trying to conjure up - but it’s getting close. I plan on doing some yoga tonight so I am going to spend some time visualizing me.

I have already mentally jumped a little to Step 2 of using the Three Ps. While running yesterday, I repeated often - I am thin, I am healthy, and I am an athlete. I truly believe it helped me on my "long run" Sunday.

My goal for this week is to complete steps 1 and 2 then start on 3 and 4 (those are continual.)I’m excited about it

I will give myself time with this as he explains it takes time to change anything. I know adding this to all the wonderful things I do from Spark will help me in reaching and maintaining my goals.

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HLEIGHH 8/25/2010 3:52PM

    Thanks for posting this! It really helped me with something I've been struggling with the past few weeks!

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CAROLANN27 8/14/2010 6:22PM

    Don't know how I missed this blog. Just saw it today. I started reading the article and it looks really good. I bookmarked it because I don't have time to finish it. I'll probably get a lot of good from it. Lately I've been coming across a lot of material about the unconscious and the large effect it has on us. I'm going to finish the article and take his advice! Thanks for passing it along.

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ECASPERS 8/12/2010 9:26PM

    I went to the article - it is great. I printed it out and I am going to try to use this too. Maybe it will be helpful to keep me focused.

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SPARKIE1964 8/9/2010 6:18PM

    Love "I am thin, I am healthy, I am an athlete. I will use that to get my butt running again in a.m. I am reading the article & finding it helpful...Thanks for sharing.

Comment edited on: 8/9/2010 6:22:45 PM

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COUNTING_DOWN 8/7/2010 1:04AM

    Thank you for this! I cut and pasted the article to save and re-read over and over. Good luck on your long run on Sunday. You can do this!

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KGLOVER71 8/2/2010 3:02PM

    Thanks so much for sharing this! I love it. I love your three Ps--I think I'll steal them if you don't mind.

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SBHPATRICK 8/2/2010 2:04PM

    Great article with a lot of food for thought - thanks for sharing!

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LDSMALL 8/2/2010 12:15PM

    This is wonderful. Thank you so much for sharing!

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Family Feud - a little fun

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Let's Play Family Feud!

Found this on SUSIEMILO’s blog who got it from someone who got it from someone and so on. I thought it was fun and since my work to-do list is only 20 items long I thought I would fill it out myself. (My to-do is usually about 5 things - so there is some sarcasm there.) Here goes…

You are not allowed to use my answers ... you must use different ones!!!

1. Name something you use in the shower? Loofah

2. Something people hate to find on their windshield? A deer

3. Name something a man might buy before a date? Condoms

4. What is something you cook in the microwave? Water

5. Name a piece of furniture people need help moving? Dresser

6. Name a reason a younger man might like an older woman? Experience (take that as you may)

7. Name something a dog does that embarrasses its owner? Barks incessantly

8. Name a kind of test you cannot study for? Sobriety test

9. Name something a boy scout gets a badge for? Rope tying (maybe)

10. Name a phrase with the word 'home' in it? Home Sweet Home

11. Name a sport where players lose teeth? Boxing

12. Name something a teacher can do to ruin a good day? Pop quiz

13. Name something that can brighten your day? Found money

14. Name a bird you wouldn't want to eat? Crow

15. Name something a person wears even if it has a hole in it? Socks

16. Name something that gets smaller the more you use it? Crayon

Remember...NO copying!!

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KGLOVER71 7/28/2010 1:39PM

    Cute. So THAT's why my husband went with an older chick. :) (I'm a whole month older than him, you know). . .

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SLIMGRAM2 7/28/2010 10:36AM

    Okay here goes-- my answers
16. SOAP

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CAROLANN27 7/28/2010 10:25AM

    Liked your answers! Have a good day!

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Peacock Feathers

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

I feel my peacock feathers are flaired all day when I exercise in the morning. It could be endorphines (is that what they're called) or it can be just a sense of accomplishment - maybe a combo. It's like I walk with an extra bounce in my step throughout the day after a morning of exercise. I wonder if the bounce has extra calories burned because I also seem to walk more to the bathroom after a morning run :)

This morning's run was still at 2 miles but the good thing was my average heart rate was lower and I ran up the hills, not walk. I'm going to take that as I'm getting in better shape and my heart doesn't need to work as hard. I'm still running slowly but that is OK.

On a side note, I bought some paperclips at lunch today. There are 2 sizes in the package so I will use the smaller ones for 1-9 and the large one for every 10th one to show how how many pounds I've lost. It should look nice hanging across my cube at work.

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2BSKINNY09 8/25/2010 1:56PM

  Great idea! emoticon

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SBHPATRICK 8/1/2010 1:10PM

    Can't wait to see a pic of those paper clips in action!

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DJS-DEBBIE 7/31/2010 8:13AM

    I like the paperclip idea, too. I just may borrow it...

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COUNTING_DOWN 7/28/2010 8:26PM

    The paperclips are good, but to me it is the story of your exercise! Way to go!! Slow and steady will be the winner. The extra bounce you get for the rest of the day jazzes up everything. Just think...With each pound you lose, the running becomes easier. Think back to when you started...could you imagine running if you had to carry that weight you lost in your hands as you tried to run? It will just keep getting better and better!

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HAPPY_HANK 7/27/2010 9:14PM

    Awesome idea about the paperclips. I am really a visual person and I might have to do something similar.

I notice that after I work out I am happier and there is a pep in my step. On days when I do not get any exercise in, I feel almost sluggish.


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CAROLANN27 7/27/2010 6:35PM

    I know what you mean about how you feel the rest of the day when you exercise in the morning! It really makes one feel good, physically and mentally.

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MSSUNBUG 7/27/2010 4:14PM

    I really love this paperclip idea. I know I said it already, but I seriously love it!

I agree with you about having your feathers flared. I feel the same way when I exercise in the morning, especially running. It's motivation to keep doing it, no?

Keep plugging with that running. It's amazing how quickly and gradually it improves with consistency!

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LDSMALL 7/27/2010 3:43PM

    Congrats on the improvements with your runs!! Any day that I start off with a run, or really any exercise, gives me extra pep! I love how you compare it to peacock feathers! Keep up the great work! emoticon

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LYNNANN43 7/27/2010 2:01PM

    emoticon on this morning's run!

And the paperclip idea is emoticon

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FIERYSPARKED 7/27/2010 1:59PM

    ooooh!! I like the idea with the paperclips too!

Great idea to put up a visual motivator like that!

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KIN59VARA 7/27/2010 1:57PM

    Nice idea about the paperclips!

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Tuesday, July 20, 2010

I have to keep reminding myself that I've lost that much weight and I've kept it off. I feel like I'm in a mental rut and obsessing about not losing any weight in months. To help me remember it, I'm thinking about making a visual of it. My first thought was a paper clip chain - 52 for now. I thought fun colors strewn in my cube at work would be a good reminder. Then I thought how I'm getting a new cube soon - a window one but it has a pillar. I then thought I could do 52 paper flowers and decorate the pillar. That may a little bold for such a private thing at work. Also, our Facilities dept may not be too happy about it. I guess I could do it on my file cabinet - that's a little less destructive, no paint. I've been toying with the idea for a couple of days - I'm sure I'll come up with something.

I've been trying to figure out what is so different this time around than 2 years ago when weight was just melting off. I really can't think of anything. I may have done more strength training but I sure wasn't consistent - and not the whole time. So that may be something so I should do some more. It's just frustrating and I'm trying my hardest not to compare myself to others, lately it's hard.

On another note, my brother just emailed the rest of us - he wants us all to do the Pittsburgh marathon next year. He said children over 5 have to do the mile on Saturday :) I really don't enjoy running enough to do the half ... I did say I would do the 7 mile leg of the relay, though. Hopefully, I'll get siblings (or nephew) who will do the other legs. there is also a walking marathon half I need to go look at. We'll see.

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MADDEELOU 8/4/2010 7:55PM

    Love the paper clip idea. I have often thought of having two different jars with marbles. Then you can truly see that I have lost my marbles. GROAN. Terrible, I know. So sorry. emoticon

I think the relay sounds like a great goal. I need to get my butt in gear and sign up for a race--any race. Don't know what is holding me back. Still a part of me that worries I will look stupid or do something wrong etc. Silly, I know.

Keep up the great work and stay strong!

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CAROLANN27 7/27/2010 6:30PM

    Wow! 52 pounds is a real accomplishment! Especially to keep it off. I will be VERY happy when I can say that!! I really liked EGM822's comment about all the people you will see who need to lose 52 pounds, but YOU did it!! Congratualtions to you!!!

I bet the relay would be fun!

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COUNTING_DOWN 7/24/2010 2:40PM

    Brit, 52 is a staggering number. Everywhere you go, you will see people who could stand to lose 52 pounds. They need to do it, but you DID do it. Maybe it is back to basics. Calories in and calories burned. 3500 calories is supposed to equal a pound. Burning off 3500 calories or cutting back on your intake to contribute to the 3500 takes days and days. Remember, the closer you get to your goal, the slower the weightloss will be. You can do it...hang in there.

I have a visual, too. For me it is a few lines of type on a white background. I have it framed on my desk, posted to my steering wheel, posted to my phone, and laminated in my pocket. These range from 1" by 1", to 4" by 6".

Be good, Do good, Feel good.

You will come up with something that is meaningful for you.

As for the marathon relay, go for it!!

How's your calf?

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DJS-DEBBIE 7/23/2010 10:03PM

    Keeping it off is a huge accomplishment - I hope you think of a suitable reminder!

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DRURY23 7/22/2010 10:15PM

    Make flowers out of colorful post it notes... no damage to the paint on the pillar! It would be great motivation plus would make you constantly see how far you've come. I think you should do it!


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SBHPATRICK 7/21/2010 11:32PM

    Your visual representation is a brilliant idea!

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HABITATPAT 7/21/2010 7:24PM

  Whatever you do, DON'T GIVE UP! I wonder how much of your comparison to two years ago might be just the "age thing". Everything seems to work/look differently. Don't forget the 52 positives you already have and how good you feel and how awesome you're doing with your workouts. I know you've been an inspiration to me!

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JOPAPGH 7/21/2010 7:11AM

    The visual reminder sounds like a good plan.

I am targeting the Pittsburgh Marathon as my first 26,2 mile race,

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REVJVH 7/20/2010 10:22PM

    I like the idea of a visual reminder of how far you've come. Good luck on busting through your plateau.

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MSSUNBUG 7/20/2010 10:15PM

    I like the idea of a family race. Having just finished my last 5k with my sister, I can say honestly that there is something really special about finishing with family!

I like your idea of decorating with 52 of something to remind yourself of your really important success--losing 52 pounds and maintaining the loss. You've done an amazing job--good for you! I'm sure the rest of the weight you want to lose will come off in time. It's easy to get wrapped up in what we're NOT doing at the expense of the good stuff we ARE doing.

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