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I know

Saturday, June 12, 2010

I know I know how to make a good choice
I know when to say no and use my voice
I know that ice cream isn't a good dinner
I know that I am a winner

I know that my body needs to move
I know I need to find a new groove
I know I have the strengh from within
I know I want to know what it's like to be thin

I know I am not taking care of me
I know if I start I'd feel more free
I know I it starts with one small step
I know I know what to do with little prep

I know tomorrow is a new day
I know can make it what I may
I know I want to be who I was a few months ago
I know it's time for me to continue to grow!

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MADDEELOU 6/15/2010 10:43AM

    I KNOW you can do it. Stay strong!

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CAROLANN27 6/14/2010 2:31PM

    Excellent thoughts!

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DJS-DEBBIE 6/13/2010 5:17AM

    You can do this ~ we are here for you!

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IONA72 6/13/2010 4:56AM

    Stick with it, I feel just the same at present.

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COUNTING_DOWN 6/13/2010 1:28AM

    We know where it is that we want to go.
We know we can do it and we soon we will glow.

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EMBRACE_SUCCESS 6/12/2010 11:36PM

    I know you've got this. I HOPE you know we've got your back:)

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MARKTUEIN 6/12/2010 10:05PM

  Knowledge is power!

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KGLOVER71 6/12/2010 10:03PM

    I know you are an example to me and you can do it. I know I can't rhyme to save my life. emoticon emoticon

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JOPAPGH 6/12/2010 10:02PM

    I know you have the right attitude and just need to take the next step...


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An update - not much happening

Saturday, May 29, 2010

But I was thinking WOW, what a difference a week makes.

A week ago I was just so blah. I can think of a few reasons why but none of them were really that significant of things. Maybe collectively, they just added up. Anyway, this week was better.

I realized this week that I eat when I'm bored. I don't think I really pinpointed that before. I'm not a stress eater - I very rarely am stressed. I don't eat if I'm upset - I am rarely upset (I'm pretty even keeled). I do get bored, lately at work, and I just want to eat. Not the orange in my bag, either. I'm glad I recognize it. Mentally know how to overcome it, I'm just not able to do that all the time. I'll work on it.

I didn't exercise much this week (in the traditional sense) but the run I had was good. We have a local 5K at the end of June which we'll do. I'm a little scared because it's going to be hilly. I'll try to do the course (when I figure it all out) a few times before the run just to prepare for it.

I have a 5 day weekend! I'm headed back to Cleveland on Tuesday for my oldest nephew/godson's 8th grade graduation. It will do me good to have 5 days off (although, i may have a conference call0

That's about all that's happening. Outside work this weekend so that's good. I did hit my head on the wood railing as I planted the flowers. I didn't think anything of it except "ow". Seems as though it bled because I've got some weird scab going on. Oops.

Half pound down which is better than nothing.

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KALISWALKER 6/1/2010 2:05AM

    You are so brave signing up for a 5K, I am still trying to work up the nerve to sign up and walk one. I eat when I should be sleeping, like now.

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COUNTING_DOWN 5/30/2010 9:55AM

    Isn't it amazing when we figure out the little things? SpecPapa said something the other day that sticks with me. He said SP works because when you hit your goal weight you stick around to stay connected and encourage others. It keeps you on track...That's cool. I look forward to that day! Have a good reunion with family.

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DJS-DEBBIE 5/30/2010 9:19AM

    Which 5K are you doing? I am trying to make sure we post as many events as possible so we Sparkers can get out there (and maybe meet some friends along the way). I was planning to do the Prostate Cancer Awareness run/walk but plans have changed and I will be in FL visiting my dad. I haven't seen him in 7 years. We have a bit of a bittersweet relationship but I am getting excited. I did find a walk the next weekend for Autism Speaks that I may do, but it shorter than a 5K and definitely hilly (at Mellon Arena).

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LDSMALL 5/30/2010 8:49AM

    Yeah!! The scale moved!! I know you were at a standstill so I'm excited for you that another half pound is gone for good!! I hope you enjoy your 5 day weekend and your trip to Cleveland! Safe travels!!! Can't wait to hear all about the 5K. Is this your first??

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ECASPERS 5/30/2010 8:47AM

    Congratulations on the 5K run! Great accomplishment - nothing to sneeze at. Sounds as if you have come to a realization - that is good too.

Keep up the good work and enjoy the family time.

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CAROLANN27 5/29/2010 10:47PM

    Glad your week is going well. Sorry about your bumping your head! Hope you have a great visit when you go for the graduation and I hope you enjoy your days off!!

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LYNNANN43 5/29/2010 10:19PM

    I hope your head is feeling better now!

And have fun at your godson's graduation on your 5 days off!

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JOPAPGH 5/29/2010 9:43PM

    I'm with you on the bored eating. Glad you were able to spot it. The key for me is to stay out of the kitchen in the evenings.

Where is the 5K? I may run the Father's Day 10K for Prostate Health Awareness down at the stadiums. No hills required.

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Blahs and shopping...

Friday, May 21, 2010

I think part of my blah mood has been my weight being at a standstill for over a month. I tell people daily on the message boards we can't control the scale but I still have that small part of me whose hopes get squelched when I step on it. I'm debating about going back to the weighing daily but I'm not sure if that will help. I do know that I haven't been doing all I can to lose weight but I'm stuck in the cycle of being blah so not exercising, but I know that exercising will help with the blahs.

On the bright side, I am very happy that I'm not gaining. It makes me feel like I won't go back to the 200s, even if I'm struggling in the 160s. I know I've learned a lot about food, exercise, and healthy living to help me in the future. This makes me feel better.

So my shopping... I'm not one who loves to shop. I don't hate it but I don't love it either. It could be because I'm 5'3" and shirts seem to be made for 5'10" women and taller :) I should say when I started back in 2008 I think I was wearing 16W/18W and 1X/2X shirts.

I wanted to look for shorts and maybe some work shirts. My first stop was The Gap, for no other reason than it's the first one that I came upon. I picked up a size 12 boyfriend cut (I chuckle at the cut all the time being a lesbian, lol) and a couple shirts in large. Well, shirts were too small. Grrrr. But the shorts were too big. I get dressed, go and get bigger shirts and smaller shorts. Shirts were too big and long - not for me. Size 10 fit in the shorts. YAY. I stood there and debated if they were worth $40. I generally don't spend that on clothes that I hope not to be in more than a season - especially shorts that I'd only wear on the weekends. I felt good in them - I bought them.

Bonnie and I notice that it seems like there's always a selection in all the sizes but the one we're in. This happened a couple times today. A pair of pants for work I tried on 12s, could have used a 10 there were none. Shorts at Kohl's in the color I wanted, needed a 12 - there were only 10s. Happens often. I bought a fun pair of plaid shorts - again, I'm usually more practical with basic colors but they were cute and I deserved them. (I think they were only $14 but I didn't know that until I got to the register). I had to buy 2 orange shirts (larges) to go with the shorts, darn ;) The varinace of sizes does make shopping not very easy or fun.

I am stuggling not seeing the bigger me when looking in the mirror. I don't think I see the 18W me - but I still see the 14-16 me. I see the flaws like my muffin top. I try hard to see the good things, but it doesn't come easy. I do wonder what I am going to look like when I lose more weight.

In re-reading the last sentence I am happy that my attitude seems to be 'when I lose more weight" not "if i lose more weight". As I tell others, I just have to trust it will happen.

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MADDEELOU 5/24/2010 1:57PM

    Hi Britt,
Sorry to hear you are suffering from the blahs. I know the feeling. The scale is not going up and that is a positive thing. I wish I could say the same thing.

I am not a big shoppper either but for the opposite reason. I am 5'11 and have a hard time finding things that are long enough. There are more options now than there used to be but sometimes I think designers think all tall people are model thin because the tall/longs are all small.

Remember, you will always feel better after you exercise and the scale will move in the direction you want it to eventually. You just bought SMALLER clothes. That is movement in the right direction.

Hang in there. You can do it!

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CAROLANN27 5/23/2010 5:53PM

    Hi Britt,

Seems like quite a few of us are in the blahs now. I'm just trying to hold steady at the moment and keep connecting the dots as Ryan would say! My Zumba class starts soon.


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COUNTING_DOWN 5/22/2010 11:48PM

    boy, I am a day late and a dollar short. Sorry to miss this when it first hit the Sparkblogs!

Don't waiver!! You have hit a plateau on your scale. It too shall pass. SpecPapa is right on the money with the calorie burn thing. It is a pretty big difference. The smaller you become, the fewer calories you burn. To keep up the old numbers, you either need to add distance and time or add another activity. I just bought a jump rope. I haven't used it yet, but I figured it would be a good way to add some extra calorie

Now, don't quit the running. You have a distance/race you want to work toward. Time isn't important, but the finish is. Don't stop now! Again, I repeat that one of the very first blogs i read was your running blog. I won't ever forget that. How about going back and reading it again?

Now...things to track. You can be tracking your fitness, your heart rate, your scale weight, and your measurements. I bet that things are moving in other places...just not all at once.

You can do it...stay with it, and keep on surprising yourself when you look in the mirror!


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SPECPAPA 5/22/2010 11:00PM

    I saw an interesting point on another blog about burning calories by walking, which is what I do since the Trail incident.

When you weigh 250 and walk, you burn "X" number of calories by going a mile in 25 minutes, but when you weigh 150 and walk the same distance in the same time you only burn "X-v" calories.

So the smaller you get, the fewer you burn with the same distance and time.

That did not seem fair.

Maybe that has happened to you. maybe you'll have to add wrist weights or ankle weights to break your lock.

I can't say if it works for other exercises or not and I haven't changed enough to prove or disprove.

Any way, like your other friends said, Stick around and mix up what you are doing.

Love ya

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LDSMALL 5/22/2010 3:40PM

    These plateaus are so frustrating and discouraging. Yet, I hope you were refreshed and renewed by your huge success in the different sizes that you needed! Wow!! What a change you have made!! Not only the size - but clearly you have a different attitude as you treated yourself to some cute plaid shorts instead of a simple solid pair. WAY TO GO!!! Just like you tell me, that scale will move, just give it some time!

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KGLOVER71 5/22/2010 3:11PM

    Not to be Pollyanna, but maintaining is so dang important, too.

I've spent my whole life yo-yo-ing, and while it is discouraging to maintain I actually think it's nice to stay a good, constant number for awhile. (Ok, I say that...but I still want to throw my scales out the window some mornings).

I'm glad you went shopping and found good stuff for yourself, and a size 10!!!! Wow, that sounds nice.

I have a case of the blahs, too. Here's to a new, happy, shiny day tomorrow. emoticon

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DJS-DEBBIE 5/22/2010 6:02AM

    I have trouble seeing the current me, too! I am going to start going to a gym to get in more strength training, as soon as I can figure out how to make the time.

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MSSUNBUG 5/21/2010 9:52PM

    As you know, I've presently hit my first slow down in a long time--tho in the past I've slowed down for months at a time (and given up). You're right that sometimes you just need to be patient with the scale. But it sounds like you have room to add things or make improvements. Exercise is HUGE. Not only will it help you burn calories to lose more weight, but it will help your body continue to use more calories through the rest of the day, will improve your mood and feeling about that body you have, and will ALSO help you lose inches, not just pounds. I know you're a smart cookie and are well aware of these things, but I'm reminding you anyway. :-) If you're ready to be out of this standstill, exercise sounds like a really great place to start.

As you also already know, the road to the finish isn't always straight and easy. There are a lot of curveballs! And truly, the best thing you can do is exaclty what you'd tell others--hang in there, persist, and keep fighting the fight every day. It WILL come off.

Make sure you're taking the time to use those other markers of success and acknowledge them--feeling better, being more fit, smaller sizes, etc. And get outside and enjoy a run in that nice spring air! :-)

Hang in there. You're in good company!

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New Reality

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

I work for a consulting company and wrote a blog last week. I was asked to shorten it and try and relate it a little more to business- so I did. As I was looking at my original one, I thought it would apply to SP to some extent, although we've probably all heard it before. So here it is. (edited question at the end)

For the past couple of seasons I have been a dedicated "The Biggest Loser”fan. A reality show that starts out with 20 contestants, all morbidly obese, living unhealthy lives with the hope that being on the show will change their life for the better. Over the next 5 months we get to witness many of them do just that. It would be great if I could say all 20 succeed, but I’ll get to that later.

Contestants are fortunate enough not to have to go at it alone. From the beginning, they are taught about nutrition and exercise by one of two trainers - Jillian or Bob. For me, they are almost as interesting to watch as the contestants. Their no-excuses attitude coupled with their passion to want to bring out the best in each of person makes for some good, albeit some times overly dramatic, television. Jillian and Bob push contestants to their limits and then push harder knowing that they are capable of so much more than they give themselves credit for. What I find to be very interesting is their ability to read, guide and influence each contestant towards success even though they each comes with their own separate story and issues.

Quite often contestants give much of the credit of their success to Bob and Jillian. Even on message boards and blogs I"ve read about the show many say that if they had a trainer in their lives, they, too, could lose weight. My opinion on this is that is only partly true. Bob and Jillian aren't on the treadmill running 3, 5, 10 miles. They aren't putting food in the contestants’ mouths. They aren"t letting go of the past and looking to a better future. Sure they teach and guide the contestants but the contestants are doing the work all by themselves. I know the "if I had a trainer" reason is only partly true because all contestants get a trainer but, like I mentioned earlier, not all of them are successful. What I have seen that has made some successful and some not is their willingness to make the changes they need to make. Sure, the successful ones may have resisted Bob as he pushed them to walk for thirty minutes on a treadmill in Week 1 but they did it. Little bits of doubt or resistance may creep in every so often but they don’t let it linger too long. Those who have found success believe the change is possible and work towards making it happen.

"The Biggest Loser" is a reality show so there is the element of a game that comes into the show. Each week one contestant is voted off the show and is sent home. At the end of each show they have a fun-to-see segment of 'where are they now." A glimpse into how successful the contestant is at home continuing what they learned "on the ranch" (what they affectionately call the place where the show is taped.) This week's sent home contestant was Sam, a 20-something year old who lost 134 pounds during his time on the show. Sam had moved to a new city and was living a life that he loved and had always wanted. He talked a lot about this new life and his one statement that resonated with me was "This is my new reality and I love it." I thought ... "he made changes!"

How open are you to create your own “New Reality?”

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TUDI4480 5/21/2010 1:07AM

    Interesting blog. I like to watch BL too. I am really looking forward to watching Jillian's new program. Now if Jillian could be my trainer..!

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COUNTING_DOWN 5/12/2010 11:25PM

    Interesting question! I also wonder if the long term success of SP is greater than BL? The progress might be faster with BL, but I venture that the success rate of keeping the weight off might be better here. I wonder if anyone knows.

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CAROLANN27 5/12/2010 9:53PM

    I agree, we must take responsibility for our own success!

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MSSUNBUG 5/12/2010 8:10PM

    So true. While having a trainer might make things seem simpler, the bottom line is that trainer or not, YOU have to demonstrate the willingness to change and actually do the legwork OF that change.

Glad you shared!

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LDSMALL 5/12/2010 7:56PM

    What a great blog. You are so right. All of us who are successful on the weight-loss or healthy life journey know that the decision to make it a reality comes from within. Noone can truly push you to do what you need to do unless you have the fire inside!! Well written Britt! Thanks so much for sharing with us!

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ABC Quiz

Thursday, May 06, 2010

I thought this would be a light-hearted thing to do first thing in the morning.

If you've are reading this, you have the honor of copying all these goofy questions and writing your own responses! Paste these instructions in the body of your blog.

A - Age: 39

B - Bed size: Queen

C - Chore you hate: Emptying the dishwasher

D - Dog's name: Levi

E - Essential start your day item: Face lotion after a shower

F - Favorite color: Orange or blue

G - Gold or Silver: Silver

H - Height: 5' 3¡¨

I - Instruments you play: None ¡V played a mean clarinet back in the day ;)

J - Job title: Consulting Associate

K - Kid(s): None

L - Living arrangements: House with partner, dog and cat

M - Mom's name: Donna

N ¡V Nickname(s): Bammy, Bam, Brittsky (that¡¦s my parents), Britters

O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: Nope ¡V gall bladder is in and out anymore.

P - Pet Peeve: Rattling, humming or vibration noises that shouldn¡¦t be there. Drives me crazy. Is that a pet peeve?

Q - Quote from a movie: I never remember quotes.

R - Right or left handed: Right

S - Siblings: Sister, me, brother, sister. ¡V I play the middle child role well ƒº

T - Time you wake up: 5:45 a.m. 4:55 if I decide to go to the gym in the morning.

U- First word that comes to your mind for "U": Umbrella

V - Vegetable you dislike: Beets. I might as well go eat dirt ļ

W - Ways you run late: i can't figure out an outfit to wear

X - X-rays you've had: Ankle

Y - Yummy food you make: Spaghetti and meatballs.

Z - Zoo favorite: Monkey for their playfulness and big cats for their grace

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SPECPAPA 5/9/2010 10:07AM

    Beets are best with creamy Italian dressing. No one in my family likes them so I wait for the restaurant salad bar.

I don't think they have any redeeming qualities so You have permission to continue feeling the way you do about them, other than that, wait till you are ravenous then with the creamy Italian, or not.

Love ya

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KALISWALKER 5/6/2010 6:00PM

    Good way to get to know you!

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LDSMALL 5/6/2010 5:17PM

    Love this and loved learning a little more about Britt!! Thanks for sharing!! Going to use it too!

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JESSAMINE44 5/6/2010 3:51PM

  Ha! I just ate some beets! emoticon
BTW, I'd count my dogs as kids. I think they get into as much trouble!

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PRYDEQUEEN 5/6/2010 9:51AM

    Fun to read!

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