Saturday, June 12, 2010
I know I know how to make a good choice
I know when to say no and use my voice
I know that ice cream isn't a good dinner
I know that I am a winner
I know that my body needs to move
I know I need to find a new groove
I know I have the strengh from within
I know I want to know what it's like to be thin
I know I am not taking care of me
I know if I start I'd feel more free
I know I it starts with one small step
I know I know what to do with little prep
I know tomorrow is a new day
I know can make it what I may
I know I want to be who I was a few months ago
I know it's time for me to continue to grow!
Saturday, May 29, 2010
But I was thinking WOW, what a difference a week makes.
A week ago I was just so blah. I can think of a few reasons why but none of them were really that significant of things. Maybe collectively, they just added up. Anyway, this week was better.
I realized this week that I eat when I'm bored. I don't think I really pinpointed that before. I'm not a stress eater - I very rarely am stressed. I don't eat if I'm upset - I am rarely upset (I'm pretty even keeled). I do get bored, lately at work, and I just want to eat. Not the orange in my bag, either. I'm glad I recognize it. Mentally know how to overcome it, I'm just not able to do that all the time. I'll work on it.
I didn't exercise much this week (in the traditional sense) but the run I had was good. We have a local 5K at the end of June which we'll do. I'm a little scared because it's going to be hilly. I'll try to do the course (when I figure it all out) a few times before the run just to prepare for it.
I have a 5 day weekend! I'm headed back to Cleveland on Tuesday for my oldest nephew/godson's 8th grade graduation. It will do me good to have 5 days off (although, i may have a conference call0
That's about all that's happening. Outside work this weekend so that's good. I did hit my head on the wood railing as I planted the flowers. I didn't think anything of it except "ow". Seems as though it bled because I've got some weird scab going on. Oops.
Half pound down which is better than nothing.
Friday, May 21, 2010
I think part of my blah mood has been my weight being at a standstill for over a month. I tell people daily on the message boards we can't control the scale but I still have that small part of me whose hopes get squelched when I step on it. I'm debating about going back to the weighing daily but I'm not sure if that will help. I do know that I haven't been doing all I can to lose weight but I'm stuck in the cycle of being blah so not exercising, but I know that exercising will help with the blahs.
On the bright side, I am very happy that I'm not gaining. It makes me feel like I won't go back to the 200s, even if I'm struggling in the 160s. I know I've learned a lot about food, exercise, and healthy living to help me in the future. This makes me feel better.
So my shopping... I'm not one who loves to shop. I don't hate it but I don't love it either. It could be because I'm 5'3" and shirts seem to be made for 5'10" women and taller :) I should say when I started back in 2008 I think I was wearing 16W/18W and 1X/2X shirts.
I wanted to look for shorts and maybe some work shirts. My first stop was The Gap, for no other reason than it's the first one that I came upon. I picked up a size 12 boyfriend cut (I chuckle at the cut all the time being a lesbian, lol) and a couple shirts in large. Well, shirts were too small. Grrrr. But the shorts were too big. I get dressed, go and get bigger shirts and smaller shorts. Shirts were too big and long - not for me. Size 10 fit in the shorts. YAY. I stood there and debated if they were worth $40. I generally don't spend that on clothes that I hope not to be in more than a season - especially shorts that I'd only wear on the weekends. I felt good in them - I bought them.
Bonnie and I notice that it seems like there's always a selection in all the sizes but the one we're in. This happened a couple times today. A pair of pants for work I tried on 12s, could have used a 10 there were none. Shorts at Kohl's in the color I wanted, needed a 12 - there were only 10s. Happens often. I bought a fun pair of plaid shorts - again, I'm usually more practical with basic colors but they were cute and I deserved them. (I think they were only $14 but I didn't know that until I got to the register). I had to buy 2 orange shirts (larges) to go with the shorts, darn ;) The varinace of sizes does make shopping not very easy or fun.
I am stuggling not seeing the bigger me when looking in the mirror. I don't think I see the 18W me - but I still see the 14-16 me. I see the flaws like my muffin top. I try hard to see the good things, but it doesn't come easy. I do wonder what I am going to look like when I lose more weight.
In re-reading the last sentence I am happy that my attitude seems to be 'when I lose more weight" not "if i lose more weight". As I tell others, I just have to trust it will happen.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
I work for a consulting company and wrote a blog last week. I was asked to shorten it and try and relate it a little more to business- so I did. As I was looking at my original one, I thought it would apply to SP to some extent, although we've probably all heard it before. So here it is. (edited question at the end)
For the past couple of seasons I have been a dedicated "The Biggest Loser”fan. A reality show that starts out with 20 contestants, all morbidly obese, living unhealthy lives with the hope that being on the show will change their life for the better. Over the next 5 months we get to witness many of them do just that. It would be great if I could say all 20 succeed, but I’ll get to that later.
Contestants are fortunate enough not to have to go at it alone. From the beginning, they are taught about nutrition and exercise by one of two trainers - Jillian or Bob. For me, they are almost as interesting to watch as the contestants. Their no-excuses attitude coupled with their passion to want to bring out the best in each of person makes for some good, albeit some times overly dramatic, television. Jillian and Bob push contestants to their limits and then push harder knowing that they are capable of so much more than they give themselves credit for. What I find to be very interesting is their ability to read, guide and influence each contestant towards success even though they each comes with their own separate story and issues.
Quite often contestants give much of the credit of their success to Bob and Jillian. Even on message boards and blogs I"ve read about the show many say that if they had a trainer in their lives, they, too, could lose weight. My opinion on this is that is only partly true. Bob and Jillian aren't on the treadmill running 3, 5, 10 miles. They aren't putting food in the contestants’ mouths. They aren"t letting go of the past and looking to a better future. Sure they teach and guide the contestants but the contestants are doing the work all by themselves. I know the "if I had a trainer" reason is only partly true because all contestants get a trainer but, like I mentioned earlier, not all of them are successful. What I have seen that has made some successful and some not is their willingness to make the changes they need to make. Sure, the successful ones may have resisted Bob as he pushed them to walk for thirty minutes on a treadmill in Week 1 but they did it. Little bits of doubt or resistance may creep in every so often but they don’t let it linger too long. Those who have found success believe the change is possible and work towards making it happen.
"The Biggest Loser" is a reality show so there is the element of a game that comes into the show. Each week one contestant is voted off the show and is sent home. At the end of each show they have a fun-to-see segment of 'where are they now." A glimpse into how successful the contestant is at home continuing what they learned "on the ranch" (what they affectionately call the place where the show is taped.) This week's sent home contestant was Sam, a 20-something year old who lost 134 pounds during his time on the show. Sam had moved to a new city and was living a life that he loved and had always wanted. He talked a lot about this new life and his one statement that resonated with me was "This is my new reality and I love it." I thought ... "he made changes!"
How open are you to create your own “New Reality?”
Thursday, May 06, 2010
I thought this would be a light-hearted thing to do first thing in the morning.
If you've are reading this, you have the honor of copying all these goofy questions and writing your own responses! Paste these instructions in the body of your blog.
A - Age: 39
B - Bed size: Queen
C - Chore you hate: Emptying the dishwasher
D - Dog's name: Levi
E - Essential start your day item: Face lotion after a shower
F - Favorite color: Orange or blue
G - Gold or Silver: Silver
H - Height: 5' 3¡¨
I - Instruments you play: None ¡V played a mean clarinet back in the day ;)
J - Job title: Consulting Associate
K - Kid(s): None
L - Living arrangements: House with partner, dog and cat
M - Mom's name: Donna
N ¡V Nickname(s): Bammy, Bam, Brittsky (that¡¦s my parents), Britters
O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: Nope ¡V gall bladder is in and out anymore.
P - Pet Peeve: Rattling, humming or vibration noises that shouldn¡¦t be there. Drives me crazy. Is that a pet peeve?
Q - Quote from a movie: I never remember quotes.
R - Right or left handed: Right
S - Siblings: Sister, me, brother, sister. ¡V I play the middle child role well ƒº
T - Time you wake up: 5:45 a.m. 4:55 if I decide to go to the gym in the morning.
U- First word that comes to your mind for "U": Umbrella
V - Vegetable you dislike: Beets. I might as well go eat dirt ƒº
W - Ways you run late: i can't figure out an outfit to wear
X - X-rays you've had: Ankle
Y - Yummy food you make: Spaghetti and meatballs.
Z - Zoo favorite: Monkey for their playfulness and big cats for their grace
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