Tuesday, March 23, 2010
To hide my scale
My normal morning routine has included stepping on the scale before I jump in the shower. This morning I went to the gym so as I was in my morning grog getting ready to head out, I said to myself "don't step on the scale." I stepped on the scale. So many of my thoughts while on the bike and rowing machine was how dependent I've become on a number and I needed to stop. So what did I do before I got in the shower I stepped on the scale in the locker room (it's generally "nicer" to me than my home one - this morning it wasn't).
I'm really not sure why I'm obsessed with it. I really don't let it control my mood (well when it goes up), I know it's not the only indicator of health, and it can fluctuate due to water but I continue to step on it.
I lost a lot of weight in 2008 and it came off quite easily (the red line on my chart was beautiful). 2009 wasn't a great year for me and I gained about 12 pounds. This year, it seems to be a lot harder to lose the weight. So I think I keep stepping no with great hope only to see the same number. It is getting a little frustrating but I know I can't control it.
I just had another small ah-ha moment - I keep stepping on it, seeing not much progress and not really changing anything afterwards. Well, that's dumb.
Anyway, I checked with Bonnie (who steps on it daily, too) and she's OK with hiding the scale for awhile. It's not like I won't be gaining, staying the same, or losing just because I don't step on the scale. It is what it is.
I will put it in the linen closet and take it out once a week. I'll check with Bonnie on a good day to take it out. I'm debating between Friday and Sunday. I'm leaning towards Friday.
Let's see how this experiment goes!
Friday, March 19, 2010
On my one year anniversary with Spark I had written a message board post about all the great things I had learned through the site and its members. I enjoyed the reflection of how far Iíd come and how I was becoming the person I wanted to be. You can imagine my joy when I received an email from Coach Nicole asking if it would be OK to turn the post into a Spark People article. Um, yeah, it would be OK. More than OK, really. When the edited version (of course, Nicoleís grammar is better than mine) was ready to be sent out, Nicole warned me that I may receive a lot of messages, goodies, emails, etc. Boy was she right. It was a nice day or two of the wonderful people of Spark stopping by my page and leaving little nuggets of kindness and encouragement. I was even nominated as a Motivational Member (another big day for me). Over the past year, the article has been a featured article a couple times. Again, I have been the recipient of additional generosity of Spark membersí time, support and kindness. This past run I have also found many Spark Friends because of it Ė an added bonus for me.
So when Coach Jen emailed me a couple weeks ago about using my blog/post on becoming a runner, I was delighted once again. The post, similar to my anniversary one, was a celebration of success, not only physically but mentally, too. I remembered Nicoleís forewarning and thought I would most likely have the same type of response. Well, I was wrong. The response has been 100 fold. I donít think I was at all prepared for the 600+ responses on the thread, awesome goodies, wonderful messages on my page, photos and blog, great emails, and numerous Friend Adds. I am humbled and overwhelmed. I donít know if thereís any possible way to thank people individually but if I could Ė I would.
When I first started Spark, I spent a lot of time reading the success stories. They all inspired me to become the person I wanted to be. I loved how they were all like me when they started and I figured if they could do it, so could I. The feeling like I may have had that effect on people because of my ability to run 3 miles and write about it Ė well, that is an awesome feeling. What the 600+ people who have contacted me one way or another probably donít realize is how much inspiration they have given me. I feel like, today, I can run 4 miles just from everyoneís response and encouragement.
I have the mental picture of us all standing around with positive energy just flowing in between us. The picture may be somewhat dramatic (or cartoonish, maybe) but I do think that the energy that Spark members share with each other is unmatched anywhere else on the net. The unconditional support that is displayed on membersí pages and on message boards over and over again is heartwarming to me. I am honored and thankful to have received so much of it in the past 36 hours.
Iím looking forward to getting to know new Spark Friends who have entered my Spark life because of the post. There couldnít be a better outcome from an already spectacular couple of days.
Friday, March 05, 2010
I had 36 minutes to think of a title for this blog while on the treadmill this morning. Today, I am became a runner!
Sure I have run before. I even have two t-shirts to say I did a 5K (although, truth be told I walked part of them, which was OK with me.) My February 22nd blog was about running 1.25 miles consecutively. I was so happy that day because I realized I was finally tearing down some of those mental limitations. Tuesday of this week I did 1.75 miles straight. After that run, I was confident that my goal of mid April for a 5K seemed totally possible now.
Tuesday to Friday is only 3 days but guess what? This morning, I did 3 miles in 36:04 minutes!!! I walked the first quarter mile as a warm-up then set the treadmill for 5.0 and started jogging. Throughout the next 32 minutes I would continue at that pace and even went a half mile at 5.5! Then when I saw 3 miles in 36 minutes could be a reality - set it back up to that speed for the last quarter mile. I had some thoughts during that time on how my body was responding, other times I just enjoyed my iPod, and other times I just felt like I was in a "zone".Today's run was different than others because at about 2.25 miles I thought - this is what a runner feels like and it feels good.
As I was getting a shower this morning" I realized itís been 2 years and 2 months on Spark (on Sunday it will be 2 y, 2m and 2 days!). Starting at 222 pounds (maybe I should play 222 on the lottery on Sunday), I would have never imagined that I would jog 3 miles straight, much less enjoy it. Hitting this goal (and much earlier than planned) feels just as good as losing the weight. It is a great reminder that success breeds success. Setting small goals and accomplishing them makes me want to continue to reach higher. Reach higher not only in fitness but many other aspects of my life, as well.
Today is a great day!
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