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November Mini-Challenge #2

Monday, November 05, 2012

11/5 - Walk 30 hour
11/6 - Walk 30 mins
11/7 - Elliptical 30 mins
11/8 - REST or Stationary Cycle - 30 mins
11/9 - REST or Elliptical 30 mins
(Recovering from back injury)


November Mini-Challenge #1

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

10/30 - Walk 1 hour
10/31 - Walk 30 mins
11/1 - Elliptical 30 mins
11/2 - REST or Stationary Cycle - 30 mins
11/3 - REST or Elliptical 30 mins
(Recovering from back injury)


Down time and Comfort-(Over)Eating

Monday, October 22, 2012

I have recently had a hard time falling asleep. I attribute it to the fact that I haven't worked out in a week, and prior to that, I was working out every day for a few weeks. I hurt my back lifting some heavy things (stupidly) around the house. I'm taking it easy until things heal. My body probably has an energy reserve for when I go back to working out. And since I have done nothing but sit on the couch every evening, I have taken to my long-time favorite past times of reading and watching TV.

It is a challenge as great as stopping the sugar addiction that I've been battling for the last few weeks. Somehow, when I sit down and flip through channels, or read a favorite book, I can't help but eat something sweet, and then salty, and then sweet again...basically alternating until I am ready to burst.

As a result, I stay up late trying to digest all that sweet stuff and junk, and I really feel sick the next morning. I am not winning on any counts in this battle. I really don't even know why I do this. Many times, the books that I read make a reference to food. I immediately start to think that maybe a cup of hot chocolate, or a few crackers and cheese....and what begins as a trickle opens the flood gates wide - and I start eating like I haven't eaten the whole day/week/month. It's truly sickening.

I am so fed up of feeling this way the next morning. I clearly know the difference between a normal day, and a day when I had just too much sweet to eat. On the mornings after those days when I ate healthy and exercised - my body was humming with joy. I know that I enjoy waking up feeling light and fresh, as opposed to stuffed, nauseous and bulky.

Yesterday was busy and stressful, and I knew wasn't eating well -or enough. I came home, and after everyone went to bed, I literally ate a thousand calories of chocolate, hot chocolate, chips and ice cream. A typical reaction to stress for me. I felt so ill this morning.

Since it just happened, I know I still feel sick enough to brush my teeth, and go straight to bed right after I type this. No comfortable lounge with favorite book or TV show is worth feeling that disgusted in the morning.

I have so many tough battles to fight with myself - sugar addiction, comfort eating, dealing with stress in constructive ways (as opposed to the not-so-healthy ways that I currently practice), combination eating (as in, I love having high fat-high sugar combinations of foods together - eg, cake/cookies with milk, or a really rich coffee like pumpkin spice latte with doughnut/cookie/pound cake, pizza and pop, etc. The result is I end up not enjoying things individually, and am somewhat dissatisfied even though I ate something rich/sweet.

Anyway, here I am - typing instead of eating and I will sleep now instead of staying awake and snacking. I just hope it becomes a lifestyle change for me, instead of a series of good days followed by several weeks of stuffing my face (and adding 5-7lbs) to compensate for the lean eating that I did for a short while. I'm really hoping that this time, I make it work.

For me, and a healthier lifestyle.


Sleep issues - and impacts to the day

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

For the last three nights, I've tossed and turned - and finally only slept at around midnight. I'm not sure what changed - except that I didn't work out for about 3 days. My diet has been about the same. I do have some stressors - sick kids, unfinished work - but nothing that has been too worrisome. I hope I will be able to sleep tonight. I haven't been able to work out because I'm exhausted, and I don't want to slip back into old unhealthy eating habits because I'm too tired to cook or eat properly. :-(


Striving for life balance

Monday, October 15, 2012

There's too much to do in a typical evening. Especially with young kids. It all is about them anyway - the parents are second, third and many times last priority. This morning, homework took priority over my breakfast. I ended up being able to eat only at 11am. This evening, laundry took priority - mostly because there was really nothing left for anyone to wear. So - my workout was left by the wayside. I didn't eat too well either, but at least I didn't completely blow it. Hardly any fruits and veggies today, but at least didn't go way over calories.

Moral of the story - including healthy eating and workouts is taking more time than I have in a typical evening. I'm going to have to come up with new strategies to cook or finish workouts earlier in the day. I don't think there are enough hours in a day though.

Last night, I'm not sure why I couldn't fall asleep. To avoid the insomnia, I ate early by 7pm, didn't have any caffeine after 11am, didn't have any sweets after 7pm, and didn't have the glass of wine that I was thinking about for the major part of the evening. I still am not able to sleep. But I'm going to switch of the screen now and go to bed. Typing keeps me away from the kitchen, so I'm sticking with it despite the late hour.

Moral of the story - despite all the planning, unpredictable things like insomnia will throw off your night and potentially destroy the next should have just had that glass of wine at the very least...

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

KAYE454 10/16/2012 12:07AM

  Time for yourself is so important keep talking on Spark it helps

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AZTLAN777 10/16/2012 12:02AM

    All difficult things are temporary. You will balance out, do not despair. I know it can be frustrating but you can turn your sleep cycle back to normal. Keep your Spark bright! Hugs emoticon

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