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Sunday, August 08, 2010

Hello fellow Sparkers emoticon!!

I logged on to do my daily sparking and all be darned, little ol me has been made a SparkPeople Motivator!!! emoticon

First of all I would like thank everyone who nominated me!! emoticon

Mostly I have to give thanks to all my Ruby Lite Friends. I am grateful for all your love and friendship. I have felt loved, motivated and inspired by all of you!!!!!!

*Commit yourself.
*Tell the truth.
*Trust yourself.
*Pain ends, and so does everything else.
*Laugh easily.
*Cry easily.
*Have patience.
*Be willing to be vulnerable.
*When you notice that you are clinging to anything and it's causing trouble, drop it.
*Be willing to fail.
*Don't let fear stop you from leaping into the unknown or from sitting in dark silence.
*Remember that everything gets lost, stolen, ruined, worn out, or broken: bodies sag and wrinkle: everyone suffers; and everyone dies.
*No act of love is ever wasted.

This an excerpt for "When Food Is Love" by Geneen Roth

Treasure Your Life
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CANBDONE 6/13/2011 8:14AM

    We need some more motivation...how 'bout a new blog?

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CCKELLY3 8/22/2010 12:47PM

    Congratulations! :)

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34MIMI 8/13/2010 8:31AM

    Congrats! You deserve it!!!!! emoticon emoticon

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MRSMELVIN1 8/10/2010 11:16AM

    It's about time!

You are amazing and it's time you see yourself like all of us do.

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TIGGERLILLY1001 8/10/2010 10:37AM

    You are the best!!!!!!!!!!!!

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TRACYZABELLE 8/10/2010 4:57AM

    Wheeeeeeeeeee COngrats! Well deserved!

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HICALGAL 8/9/2010 4:42PM

    congratulations Carol!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CANDY- 8/9/2010 8:37AM

    Congrats!!!!

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CANDY- 8/9/2010 8:27AM

    Congrats!!!!

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CRIB5023 8/9/2010 3:10AM

    You deserve Motivator status. I love the excerpt from the quote.

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LAINIESNEWLIFE 8/9/2010 12:10AM

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Congratulations on being name Spark Motivator, Carol!!!! It is very well deserved. Keep up the great work!!

Hugs,

Lainie

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WVROSE1 8/8/2010 11:05PM

    emoticon you are an inspiration to so many of us!!!!! emoticon

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MARTHAR3 8/8/2010 10:49PM

    Congrats for what we already knew you were!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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RONIE11 8/8/2010 10:18PM

    WTG that is awsome.. you deservie too!!!!

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ACIMPEGGY 8/8/2010 9:31PM

    Congratulations!!! I'll hafta check out more of your blogs.

Have a great week; you're riding high!

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BEAR_GURL 8/8/2010 9:16PM

    emoticon sweetie! I'm SO happy for you: )


HUGS,

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NANFACEMIRE1 8/8/2010 8:28PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon on being a Spark Motivator. Nancy

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DAWNWATERWOMAN 8/8/2010 8:07PM

    Congratulations on being named a Spark Motivator! You're just AWESOME! Love ya, Dawn

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TATTER3 8/8/2010 7:28PM

    HooRay for you!!! Keep on Sparkin'!!!

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SUNNYFICTION 8/8/2010 7:09PM

    Oh wow, Carol! You totally deserve this - YES!!!
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LISBONSLADY 8/8/2010 6:58PM

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well well deserved!

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CAROL3SAN 8/8/2010 6:51PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticonYou deserve it!! emoticon

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KITT52 8/8/2010 6:06PM

    I agree with Pixie, I was so surprised a few days ago that you had not been picked already.....

BIG HUGS


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TRAVELNISTA 8/8/2010 5:52PM

    emoticon emoticon You deserved it!

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SPARKPIXIE 8/8/2010 5:42PM

    Carol, this was long over due! Congratulations!

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You deserve it! You do so much for all of us! I am so thrilled for you!

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TERMITEMOM 8/8/2010 5:18PM

    You deserved it Carol!!!

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    I am also very happy for you Carol, emoticon

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APRIL88485 8/8/2010 4:20PM

    sorry about the double post

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APRIL88485 8/8/2010 4:20PM

    emoticon Way to go!

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PINKNFITCARLA 8/8/2010 4:11PM

  emoticon It's a wonderful feeling to know that you impact your friends enough to nominate you! emoticon emoticon

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COOLMAMA11 8/8/2010 4:09PM

    emoticon That is great news, you certainly deserve this award! keep up the good work!

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HOPE2011 8/8/2010 4:09PM

    Congrats! emoticon emoticon

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RHONDAHONDA2 8/8/2010 4:05PM

    yahoo awesome keep up the great work you can do it emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BARBARAROSE54 8/8/2010 4:03PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon on being chosen a Spark People Motivator.

I was chosen last year and I was so overwhelmed I sat there stunned then the tears started to flow.

It is such a great honour your Spark pals have given to you !

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DEEDAYE 8/8/2010 4:03PM

    emoticon emoticonThanks for motivating me!

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YAFENELRA 8/8/2010 4:02PM

    Fantastic!! You so deserve this. So happy for you.

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    emoticon emoticon That's great!!

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Here they are the Before and After Pictures!!

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Hello everyone out there in Sparkland emoticon

I must admit that the mean girl in my head doesn't think there is much of a difference between the before and after pictures. I know there is, I FEEL IT!! but looking at the pics I still think I look fat. I know it's just that Mean Girl in my Head!!! So.... here they are......

BEFORE






AFTER







Here are a few of the numbers when I started I weighed 350 Pounds, now I am at 230. I had lost 20 pounds before Sparks.
I was a size 28-30 I am now a size 18............Today I fit into a size 16 but it was just a tad bit too tight but I got those darn pants on!!! emoticon



"Every time you 'use' food, you leave yourself. You walk out the door and leave yourself starving. At least you have an avenue into your inner world. Your eating can become a sign that you need something-even though you don't know what it is or how to get it. Rather than viewing it as a seizure that overtakes you and propels you toward food, you can use it as a barometer between you and your non-physical hunger." Geneen Roth

Treasure your Accomplishments!!!
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POMMESDETERRE8 8/17/2010 3:35PM

    WOW way to go girly! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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COOKEKJ 8/10/2010 7:22PM

  Way to go! Congrats! You look great!

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PITTACHICK 8/9/2010 7:23PM

    You look beautiful :) congratulations on your journey...inpsiring and i love your marianne williamson quote on your status...never truer words emoticon emoticon When you look in the mirror its what your mind thinks, feels, and believes about you that matters what your ego sees :)

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JPR-ARTIST 8/8/2010 11:31AM

    WOOOO HOOOOOOO!!!!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

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ASRMOM 8/6/2010 4:22PM

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Amazing results! To that mean girl--excuse me, but your opinion is no longer needed. And besides you're WRONG!



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DONNAANGEL 8/3/2010 11:13PM

    YOU LOOK GREAT EVEN 10YEARS YOUNGER TOO. GREAT JOB. emoticon

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KJDOESLIFE 8/2/2010 10:02AM

    Fantastic job! You look great!

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DAARJ53 7/23/2010 1:53AM

    You look wonderful, that is such an accomplishment. Pleeease don't listen t that Mean girl in your head, you need to bury her deep somewhere, where she will never be able to surface again. Great Job emoticon emoticon

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AMYISSUCCEEDING 7/23/2010 12:07AM

    Love your pictures. Congratulations on the weight loss. You look great and I am very proud of you.
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LADYSUNBEAM 7/22/2010 11:47PM

    Just wanted you to know absolutely radiant and beautiful you look and how happy & proud of you ... you are doing great girl!! Congratulations! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LCMK99 7/19/2010 5:52PM

    you look AMAZING!!! don't you dare listen to that mean girl in your head!! she's crazy!!
you should be soooo proud of yourself


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MUSIC2HISEARS 7/18/2010 11:53AM

    You look great!!!! emoticon

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DEB4HIM1 7/18/2010 11:42AM

  Congratulations on your amazing weight loss.
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I hope I can be as successful as you have been.

Debbie

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PUGRAD1995 7/15/2010 10:35PM

    We are our own worst critic.
Celebrate girl-you deserve it! emoticon

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RIKKIELLE 7/14/2010 7:17AM

    AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!

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NINA-AKANE 7/13/2010 11:19PM

    WOW! Well done! Keep up the excellent work! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HOPE2011 7/13/2010 8:14PM

    OMG - you look AWESOME!!! I am so inspired by your accomplishment. Thanks you for that, if nothing else. You rock! emoticon

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KJDOESLIFE 7/13/2010 5:13PM

    You look fantastic and worked hard to get there! Keep up the good work! (Isn't feeling better the BEST part?! Love it!)

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CG66044 7/13/2010 12:37PM

  Terrific work! Congratulations!

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HAZEELAH 7/13/2010 4:35AM

    congrats, you are doing great

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MAMADWARF 7/13/2010 1:49AM

    are you kidding me????? You look amazing! absolutley amazing! look how far you have come!! Wow, so proud of you!! what an accomplishment!

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CATLADY69 7/12/2010 8:05PM

    emoticon you should be very proud of your self im proud of you its very hard to want to lose a pound im so happy for ya

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IN102WIN 7/12/2010 7:31PM

    Yeah I can see it, it what you ask? Its weight lost!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MEOWROWRIE 7/12/2010 12:01PM

    I love Geneen Roth - her regular article in Good Housekeeping has been one of the first truly helpful series I've seen in a magazine. The rest of it is "eat well and be skinny" but it doesn't address the relationship most overweight people have with food as love, comfort, etc. I know not everyone who is overweight has an unhealthy relationship with food, but I believe most do.

Geneen has really helped me with some exercises on how to address my approach to food - I'm glad to see your amazing progress and her quote!

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ADIPOSEROSE 7/12/2010 11:39AM

    Hey! Tell the mean girl in your head that you'll drop the weight you've lost on her if she doesn't shut up. I'm in the same place that you are--seeing changes in my mirror that make me smile, but being disappointed that the camera doesn't reflect the "me" I see in my head--the goal me, the me I used to be, before life and the things I've survived got in the way. My advice? Concentrate on how much better you feel--in and out of your clothes; how good a job you've done, getting to where you are (and you HAVE done a good job!); and how much easier the rest of it's going to be, now that you've kicked the mean girl in the butt and taught the real you what it takes to be healthy and happier. Keep up the good work--and picture yourself burning a photo of the mean girl out of your life.

Tell you what: in six months, I'll meet you here, and we'll burn the mean girls together! emoticon

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SWAZY33 7/12/2010 9:19AM

    •´¸.•´¨) ¸.•*¨)
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*You are like beautiful butterfly! What a tranformation...
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-:... ¦:-•:*'*:• Keep making each day count!•:*'*:•-:¦:- .
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.`•.¸.•´...Hugs ¸.
(¸.•´ (¸.•´ Karen


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MARCYNA 7/12/2010 9:11AM

    Wow, You look great!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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WEIGHTLOSSKATEL 7/12/2010 12:27AM

    Way to go!!!! It'll only continue! You look AMAZING!

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MELISSABUILT 7/11/2010 6:22PM

    You look great!!! And so much younger! Keep it up!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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PICKIE98 7/11/2010 5:30PM

    Spark on Sister Woman!!

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PETRICE78 7/11/2010 11:12AM

    Oh my goodness!! Look at you!!! You look fabulous!!!!

Well done!! You must be so proud of yourself! You are an inspiration, keep up the good work

Petrice xx emoticon

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DEEDAYE 7/11/2010 8:23AM

    Wow! Thanks you I needed that!

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TCICHOWSKI 7/10/2010 3:38PM

    Fantastic! You can totally tell...but I understand the mean girl issue. I think many of us think that way. I can remember back in high school, being a size 8/10 and thinking I was fat. What I wouldn't give to be that size again now! Great work! emoticon

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GOODBYEHORSES 7/9/2010 6:00PM

    Great work! You are absolutely stunning. Thanks for the motivation as well. emoticon emoticon

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HICALGAL 7/9/2010 4:24PM

    congrats on your major accomplishments!! keep inspiring!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LISBONSLADY 7/9/2010 3:20PM

    You look mahvelous! Congrats on all your success and wishing you joy on the journey Carol!

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JELLI-LEAN 7/9/2010 2:42PM

    You are amazing... and yes, you really...really...really look like you've lost a lot of weight.

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~ Janel :)

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BUFFYSMOM2 7/9/2010 1:55PM

    Congratulations!!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SHELLYUT 7/9/2010 10:56AM

    Are you kidding? You look amazing! I had a similar attitude years ago. When I was in my late teens I was about 30/32 then got down to a 14/16 in my early twenties and was still so insecure and still seen myself as fat. Now that I'm back up to 26/28 I look back and would kill to have that body back and could kick myself for not appreciating what I had enough to keep it. You have done what a lot of us are still striving for, be proud of that. Can't wait to see how far you have gone a year from now. Keep up the great work!

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LOZUKE 7/9/2010 5:40AM

    You look amazing you should be proud of your accomplishment and hard work ! Forget that mean girl whoever she is! Look at the beautiful woman you are Carol! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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C O N G R A T U L A T I O N S ! ! ! You're looking great! The pics are fabulous and you should be proud of what you've accomplished --- it's quite obvious!!!

Way to go!!!!

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SASSYTHING52 7/8/2010 10:55PM

    you look awesome .. emoticon

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SPARKPIXIE 7/8/2010 9:29PM

    I can't even find the words to tell you how great you look and how amazing you are! What an inspiration! Thank you!

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NANFACEMIRE1 7/8/2010 9:24PM

    emoticon You are doing so well. Keep up the good work. emoticon Nancy

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WVROSE1 7/8/2010 9:18PM

    Wow! emoticon

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YAFENELRA 7/8/2010 9:12PM

    Lookin' good!! So proud of you!!

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SHERRY822 7/8/2010 3:15PM

    You look AWESOME ! You should be so proud of yourself. Don't listen to that mean girl, she is probably just jealous, either that or she is feeling cramped in the new, smaller space that she has to live in. Maybe she will get tired of it, and move out.

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News and Some of my Thoughts

Saturday, June 05, 2010

Hello everyone out there in Sparkland!! emoticon

My News first.. It's been a Year since I started this Journey of putting me and my health at the top of my list. 1 year ago I weighed 350 pounds, today I weigh 235. I year ago I smoked 2 packs of Cigarette's a day, today is my 1 year anniversary and not 1 Cigarette in a whole year!! 1 year ago I couldn't walk up my street without wanting to sit down and take a break. Today I am doing 5 miles with medium intensity on an Elliptical machine. 1 year ago I had Sleep Apnea, High blood pressure, borderline diabetes and so on.., today all GONE!!!

I am so grateful for the way I feel, I feel as if I can do anything that my destiny leads me too. I am very proud of what I have achieved and I am very grateful that God allowed me the privilege of having this body. I am a living Miracle of what all of our bodies can do, it's a great honor to witness that everyday.

I would also like to share a great Book I have just read WOMEN FOOD AND GOD. I loved loved loved this book. It has given me greater insight about myself and why I am a Compulsive Overeater. Here is one of my favorite passages in the book...

"If you wait until you have Toni Oliver's eyes and Amy Breyer's hair, if you wait to respect yourself until you are at the weight you imagine you need to be to respect yourself, you will never respect yourself, because the message you will be giving yourself as you reach your goal is that you are damaged and cannot trust your impulses, your longings, your dreams, your essence at any weight. "

Here's a link to Amazon www.amazon.com/Women-Food-God-Unexpe
cted-Everything/dp/1416543074/ref=sr_1
_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1275768046&sr=8-1


It's an easy read, I read it in a day and a half. This book fits right in too the OA principles we are discussing on the OA Threads just another perspective. Check it out.

I have noticed something that I guess has bothered me about my new job. I find that when people find out about my weight loss they are distant after that. I have always been one of those people that everyone liked. It seems like now people keep there distance??? For Example: I eat lunch alone everyday people don't sit at my table, they rarely even chat with me and when they do it's usually some comment about what I am eating and how healthy it looks. I have had to tell people please don't take it personally but I don't do sugar and I try to eat as healthy as possible. You know they still try to give me donuts and Candy!! There is one older Gentleman that I have chatted with from time to time. He's a diabetic so we have talked about food here and there, so he knows how I feel about it. He will literally come up too me and try to give me donuts!! Then laugh at me when I tell him "No Thank You" Has anyone else ever noticed this behavior by there family, friends and Co workers???

I would like to end on a happy note. A couple of days ago my daughter and I went to Old Navy to try on Pants. I can wear a size 18!! Last year I wore an Old Navy Size 4x (28-30) barely. We also went to Lane bryant to buy me some new bras last year I was a 48 F now I am a 40 DDD. It's amazing how much your body can change in a year. I feel so blessed to have experienced it.

Love You all
Carol.... Treasure Yourselves, You are Worth the Effort!!

  
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IXCHEL23 7/4/2010 2:51PM

    That's emoticon your body is getting healthy and all those illness are gone! WOW! I'll look into that book as I am binger and emotional overeater. I cannot reach my goal until I can deal with those issues that are my inner demons right now, I'm struggling with them and my last pounds since last October.

You are such an inspiration to others!
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CRIB5023 6/28/2010 2:10AM

    OMG Carol, you are so awesome! 115 lbs. in 1 year is absolutely grand. Thank you so much for sharing this blog. Those co-workers you speak of are just weird in my opinion. I would expect them to encourage you and help you, not avoid you and tempt you. Congratulations on your grand achievements.

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NANCYS_TIME 6/24/2010 12:54AM

    Congratulations on your progress. This is so inspiring to me. You've done GREAT !!!

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SUCCESSFUL-GALE 6/21/2010 11:26PM

    Carol, you have made awesome progress! Good for you!!! Don't stop!

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DEEGEE2 6/10/2010 9:55AM

    wow this is great - congrats all your hard work is paying off - you are an inspiration! emoticon

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TANZAR2002 6/9/2010 9:51AM

    You have made such great improvements in one year, I have started going the other direction recently and don't know how to stop it , I know it is emotional but can't put my finger on why at this moment. As far as your lunch issue , It almost seems like when there is a death people don't know how to respond so the avoid that person or the may just feel that you will judge what they are eating and it makes them uncomfortable . either way it is not your problem. you have done an amazing job, I just hope I can get back together and do the same. Good luck on the continued journey, and Happy SP anniversary emoticon

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SHAGADELIC 6/8/2010 11:16PM

    That is so amazingly wonderful and inspiring! Great work and congratulations on all your successes.

I have noticed that when I have lunch with my coworkers that they always comment on my food. I hate this. It drives me nuts. I don't care how healthy my lunch looks, please stop leering into my plate. I'm also offered sugary foods that I have not yet learned to say no to. I find that people get angry with me, call me a hypocrite and just don't think I'm serious about any of this when people offer me foods that I have a hard time turning down.

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PLUMSWEET1 6/8/2010 8:33PM

    HOW AWSOME! I love to read inspiring stories! Keep it up and don't let others get you down maybe they are just jealous of how healthy you are eating and how good you look!:) I know I am jealous of my sister in law she started off about where I am now and she is now at 160 and a size 10 and I could be there with her if I would have just stuck with it like she did BUT I am now and this scale is going only down!

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KNITTABLES 6/7/2010 11:09AM

    Great blog thanks for sharing and congrats on your weight loss so far. Thats is awesome.

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BABYLOSTBACK 6/7/2010 7:00AM

    way to go sweety, I'm so proud of you!

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3CHIHUAHUA 6/6/2010 5:06PM

    yes heart2home is correct
you are an inspiration

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YAYAMEMA 6/6/2010 1:07PM

  Congrats on feeling great, I am in the process of reading the book now. You shouldn't worry about what people say they should be so lucky to have the power and the strength you have you have done something they probably couldn't have. Good Luck!! emoticon emoticon

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HEART2HOME 6/6/2010 6:40AM

    You are really an inspiration! You're doing so emoticon and are much better about turning away from the sweets and things than I think I would have been. emoticon
I know you are feeling much better without all those health concerns--keep it up! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LOZUKE 6/6/2010 6:33AM

    Carol, emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonYou are such an inspiration to me Loved your Blog ! emoticon emoticonDebbie

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*FAFA* 6/6/2010 1:08AM

    I am so excited for you. I remember when I had progress that was amazing and I too had some people that would be sly about sabotage.
But you be proud of yourself and your accomplishments and don't let anyone take that from you. You have come a long way and deserve a lot of credit to go with it.

As for people not wanting to sit with you or making the odd comments and such, I think sometimes we can, just by doing well and making progress, make others feel convicted because they know they should be working toward health.
Try and remember, it is in them not in you, the short coming.
You just keep your head held high and know that it is all worth it.
Congratulations again, Fafa
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SUCCESSFUL-GALE 6/6/2010 12:16AM

    Carol, that is so awesome!! Good for you! What an awesome accomplishment you have made!

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SASSYTHING52 6/5/2010 11:05PM

    thank youuuuuuuuuu

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TATTER3 6/5/2010 11:03PM

    YOU are my inspiration today!!! Thank you for posting!!! Congrats and LOVE it. Keep on Sparkin'!!!
And yes I do see a difference in the way people treat me with my healthier choices. I hear a lot of "just a little won't hurt you". Ah, well....it's all life. Do what's best for you.

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AVONWITHJENN 6/5/2010 11:01PM

    Congrats on the amazing and truly inspiring progress you have achieved! What a difference a year makes!

I can not wait to get my paws on that book! I am so pleased you feel such a connection to it.

If I worked with you, I WOULD sit by you every day just to feel inspired! No one will ever know or understand how you feel or what you have gone through until they walk the walk themselves. You have overcame some health issues and mental blocks that have impaired your life. You are awesome and I just want you to know and fully understand just what a trememndous sparker you really are!

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ELAINESHAFF 6/5/2010 10:51PM

    Congratulations on you success. You have done an amazing job.

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SPARKPIXIE 6/5/2010 9:29PM

    Thank you for sharing your success with us! You are a true inspiration. I am so happy for you!

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LAINIESNEWLIFE 6/5/2010 8:59PM

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Congratulations on everything you have accomplished in a year, Carol. That is just awesome!!! I am so proud of you. You are an inspiration!!!!! Keep up the great work you are doing and don't worry about the people you work with. They are just jealous of all you have accomplished. One day they will realize how wonderful you are!!

Have a great rest of the weekend!!!

Hugs,

Lain
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CHANGE4FREEDOM 6/5/2010 8:58PM

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I'm so proud of you Carol!! You are just awesome!! To quit smoking and lose weight at the same time....truly amazing!! I'm so happy for you!!
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PKSBELIEVEINME 6/5/2010 8:52PM

    Carol you are such an inspiration! Way to go girl!

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NANFACEMIRE1 6/5/2010 8:25PM

    You have done a emoticon job. You have worked very hard and have gotten healthy. When people keep offering someone food that they don't want they sometimes don't realize how it could be tempting. Keep up the good work; you deserve the good things resulting from your hard work. emoticon Nancy

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TRAVELNISTA 6/5/2010 7:52PM

    Happy emoticon You have done emoticon in the past 12 months. You have totally turned your health around. That is so impressive! You are so inspirational and an excellent role
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ANNANN63 6/5/2010 7:24PM

    Congratulations! You are doing great and I know you are proud of yourself.

Regarding the people at work. Sometimes it is as simple as people being familiar with bringing food to share and not being comfortable with someone who will not eat it. So many of our social functions involve food and generally high fat, high sugar, high calorie food. I like to bake and sometimes in the past when I was dieting, I would bake something that most people like (brownies for example) that I just don't. Then I could be part of the "food culture" by feeding them without damaging my food plan. Another thing I would do is bring something really healthy that also tastes wonderful and share that.

Stay friendly, decline goodies while being kind, and you may find with time that they warm up. You are making them uncomfortable (although that is not your intention) and when people feel uncomfortable they tend to avoid the situation.

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SIMPLYABUNDANT 6/5/2010 7:12PM

    You are making wonderful progress and have so much to be proud of and thankful for. Sometimes people do react to us differently when we've lost weight. Maybe if they have pounds to lose themselves but aren't doing anything about it, they feel a little uncomfortable seeing that someone else has put forth the effort and made such changes in their lives. I don't know because I don't know your coworkers. But ultimately, Carol, that's their issue. You just have to keep doing what you know is right for YOU, and maybe after you get to know them better, and they you, they'll come to learn you are much more than "just" the woman who lost over 100 lbs and will get to know you from the inside.

I saw Geneen Roth on Oprah talking about her book, and have read some of her previous books. She makes a lot of sense to me.

I congratulate and applaud you. You're on an awesome journey and are such an inspiration.
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RONIE11 6/5/2010 6:56PM

    It probably is the same response people give to those who quit drinking. Most people don't talk about or share the party they went to with a recovering alcoholic either. They probably don't understand and so they stay away.. I have a feeling that when they see its still you. Just a healthier you and that you aren't going to criticise them for what they eat that they will come around.
You must be so very proud of yourself. This has been an amazing year for you.. I can't even imagine how far you have come. I'm very proud of you.. I know its almost more of a triumph overcoming all the health issues than it is fitting into smaller clothes. Although what a nice perk!!!
Congratulation's!!!!!! and thanks for the invite to read your update..


P.S. I love the sweet williams in your back ground.. they are one of my favorites..

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CANDY- 6/5/2010 6:51PM

    God bless you dear one. What an awesome job you have done. Don't worry about how others act. Sometimes 'earth' people just don't know how to act when we begin our journey of getting well.

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BUBBLES820 6/5/2010 6:46PM

    You should be so proud of all your hard work, you have accomplished so much in 1 year!! I am reading Women, Food and God right now, very insightful...I see myself re-reading it and writing in the margins!! emoticon

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FIGHT2SURVIVE 6/5/2010 6:41PM

    What a year you have had. I really, really wanted 2010 to be like that for me. And I had a great start. Then I had a flare-up of my AS and I still am not well. Steroid shots just to protect my internal organs but are packing on the pounds for me (like 15 pounds in one week.) I tried getting back to exercising yesterday only to end up back in bed today - not time yet - still more healing. I have no count on the number of times I have done this. But this time I went 14 months without a flare-up and lost 30 pounds only to have most of it back now. It is most disheartening because I know I am doing what I should but God must have other plans for me. So really rejoice in your accomplishments. You deserve it. And thank God that your body is getting stronger every day. Not all of us are that lucky.
Erin

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PINKNFITCARLA 6/5/2010 6:26PM

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SO happy for you. I know you have worked hard and must be so proud!

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YAFENELRA 6/5/2010 6:21PM

    Carol, you are truly an inspiration!! Not only because of the weight you have lost but you also quit smoking and lost weight at the same time. That is a double victory. Most people gain when they quit. Don't worry about anyone else and how they act. Though it may bother you, you are a hero to many of us here on Sparks and who cares about those others who have no idea how to handle someone else's victories.

Arlene

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MINDYJ1 6/5/2010 6:18PM

    emoticonblog! You have come a long way! You are an inspiration! emoticon

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XINIXINIX 6/5/2010 6:08PM

    I seriously couldn't be more proud and over-joyed for you. Partly because I am....and partly because I try to imagine being where you're at.

Yes...imagine, but that's the spark that's keeping me going for now.

In the meantime, I'm trying to digest some Geneen Roth and keep on keepin' on.

::standing ovation::::::: for you Spark sistah!

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LYDIASPURPLE 6/5/2010 6:03PM

    Weigh to Glow! I have that book onorder now. Geneen Roth is awesome!

Oh the people on your job? It was be to pat an answer tosay they are envious. But whenever a person make highly productive changes in their life others tend to shift their behavior. It COULD be envy, but maybe more like being embarrassed (at themselves) or feel they may not have the wherewithal to do it. So they instead of creating a new paradigm shift for themselves, may feel it is easier to shift YOU back into something so they will not have to step up to the plate.

Keep glowing & growing and you will continue to lose weight... the people who want to weigh you down.

And replace with healthier Happier folks intime!
Congrats!

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KITTYV1 6/5/2010 5:39PM

    THAT IS SO AWSOME- YOU KEEP PUSHING AND U WILL GET TO WHERE YOU WANT TO BE- XO emoticon

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GOLUCYGO 6/5/2010 5:35PM

    Keep up the good work! That is amazing! You should feel so proud of yourself, you're such an inspiration! emoticon

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KITT52 6/5/2010 5:21PM

    Carol I am so proud of you too.
I have had the same thing happen to me with my friends and even my sisters to some extent..
I'm lucky on job, they never knew me as a fat person. I have been there just over a year....but most sort of sneak eating junk as I do teach classes on healthy eating each week....I have never said a word to any of them about what they should or should not eat.....
I love the passage from your book, I'll have to check it out...

Thanks for sharing your progress, it inspires me to keep going


Kitt

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SUNNYFICTION 6/5/2010 5:14PM

    Congrats Carol! LOOK at what you've accomplished! WOW!
You're amazingly inspirational!
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MS.ELENI 6/5/2010 5:10PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon You are doing wonderful.Such an inspiration. emoticon

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REBECCA-LICIOUS 6/5/2010 5:10PM

  You are such an inspiration!

I just got a copy of "Women, Food and God" yesterday, so now I'm really eager to tear into it.

And, YES, even people who know I'm eating healthy offer me crap. My mom was supposed to bring me fresh fruit and brought me a box of croissants. No, thanks!

A size 18 at Old Navy?!? You are OWNING that body.

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LITTLE_QUEEN 6/5/2010 5:10PM

    Carol! OMG! That is fantastic! You should post pictures too girlie, or maybe I should go check your page out first to see if you have. You should feel so proud of yourself, it is amazing that you have lost over a 100 pounds and quit smoking too.
Congrats to you my friend, and yes, I am afraid that I am still offered crap to eat, even by my own mother I might add, I think she is starting to get the hint though.

And about the DDD, I am kinda jealous about that, I used to have D but much smaller now.

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ITSJUSTME10 6/5/2010 5:09PM

    Happy Anniversary! You have done a lot in a year haven't you? Congratulations on all of it. Sorry to hear about your coworkers, though. However, eating alone is a good thing. It lets your mind relax and just enjoy what you are eating without having to try to "be" what others think you should. emoticon

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Bozo's On the Bus

Wednesday, April 14, 2010



I read this in a book the other day and loved it so I thought I would share the quote with my Spark friends. This is from Broken Open by Elizabeth Lesser.

We are bozos on the bus,
So we might as well sit back
And enjoy the ride.
--Wavy Gravy

If you think about how many times in life we all want to be part of the nice bus, the bus where everyone is a perfect size, have all their hair in all the right places, are never a bad parent, and never say mean or dumb things. I use to think I wanted to be on that bus. The truth is that bus does not exist, some people try to act like it does but they are just lying to themselves.

I find it freeing to know that I am not on this bozo bus all by myself, I have messed up a lot in my life and it’s nice to know I am not the only bozo here. Isn’t it great to know that the perfect bus with all the cool people who know everything and exactly where they are going ---- is all filled with bozos: Bozo’s in drag, Bozo’s with Secrets.

As I bump along this potholed road lost as ever, as I travel through the valleys and the hills of my life I find myself among friends. We just sit back and enjoy the Ride.

Would you like a Ride??

  
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LISBONSLADY 7/9/2010 3:19PM

    I love that saying! I heard her say it on an Oprah show but I just read part of that book on a difficult trip to Lisbon and it really helped...

Cause we are all on the Bozo bus, being who we are... big bozos!

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XINIXINIX 4/15/2010 8:25AM

    Oh sugar honey ice tea - I am sooooooo on this bus (and need to remember that) ..with a pocket of extra big red noses for anyone who may have lost theirs.

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3CHIHUAHUA 4/15/2010 12:48AM

    yep
Bozo's in a giant circus
with a fat lady too

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SMILESWITH7KIDS 4/14/2010 10:00AM

    That's too funny and so true. I love this blog.

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SUCCESSFUL-GALE 4/14/2010 8:20AM

    Everyone is a bozo in his/her own weird little way! We all have some quirk or physical change we'd like to make, and yes, it's wonderful to know that we are not alone!

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KITT52 4/14/2010 7:45AM

    Carol I'm on the ride with you , I think I'm in the seat right next to you.....so sit back and lets enjoy this ride together.


have a healthy HUMP day, we are on the ride of our lives.....so glad we are all here together


Kitt

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MS.ELENI 4/14/2010 7:29AM

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PINKNFITCARLA 4/14/2010 7:11AM

  Very nice, thanks for sharing!

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ZABINAS 4/14/2010 6:00AM

    Thanks for sharing!

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MRE1956 4/14/2010 5:54AM

    Cool post!

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Have you Heard??

Monday, March 22, 2010

Have you Heard? I am a co-leader on Rootin for Ruby's Women's Fat Night Team!! emoticon

Change4Freedom and I are going to be working and posting questions on The 12 Steps -OA Threads. I truly believe in this, there is not a decent program out there for addiction that doesn't incorporate these 12 Steps in one way or another.

I know that I Carol have this Disease we call Addiction. I have found this to be very freeing and a relief. I am not crazy, it is way more than me not having any willpower. I have come to accept my brain is different, it creates a need in me that I have to learn to manage. I will learn too manage it with the love of my family, my Sparks Family and my Higher Power.

So, Come on over to Rootin for Ruby's Fat Night Team, Share some of your thoughts, or just read ours what ever you are comfortable with is fine.

My dear God,
I have navigated my life
into a hopeless whirlpool.
How can I set upright
all I overturned,
renew all I have damaged ,
repair all I have destroyed?
Only you can help me,
dear God.
Without your help,
I have no hope.
Help me
heal my life.

Here is a Link for Rootin for Ruby's Women's Fat Night Team

www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp


Treasure Yourself
Carol

  
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KITT52 3/24/2010 11:13AM

    thanks Carol

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LITTLE_QUEEN 3/22/2010 11:45AM

    emoticon You said it Carol

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