Monday, February 08, 2010
I'm done with starting over again and again! New Year's Eve as I sat in church service, the visiting pastor said something that has stuck to me since that moment. When we make decisions this year, they are not only for 2010 BUT for this whole decade to come. He asked if we wanted to be in the same place in the next years to come. I had never looked at New Year's Resolutions or Goals in that manner. I have spent the last 5 yrs of my life receiving very powerful teachings of the Word of God. Yet, I never took time to build an intimate relationship with God. He has been there for me through so much.
When I first met my spiritual mother, she said I was like a flower blossoming from the Word of God. Well that night as I heard those words from that Pastor's mouth, God began to show me myself through a flower. I was receiving the Sunlight (God's word) from my pastor BUT I was not getting watered (I was not meditating the word and getting it inside to my roots). So, since I was not getting watered... I began drying out.
I had revelation of life that night. When we say God shall supply all my needs, do we really believe it? No weapon formed against me shall prosper, do we believe it? My decision of totally surrendering my life was a BIG step in my life. And I have begun to add water to that flower and it has brought it back to life.
Starting over may be true, because I let life and the circumstances of it knock me off track. But I had to go back....go back to that place where I fell off. When I found it I started over. I'm not perfect, but I will not let circumstances (I call them 'smoke screens' ) take me off my path. He has already given me the victory in ALL situations. Just because something may be trying to block the view, don't mean your victory is not on the other side. It just mean you have to
stand strong...Put your defroster on... Your windows will have to clear up.
I'm not rushing my weight loss, NO QUICK FIXES FOR ME. I want to make changes for a lifetime and not for a day. I want to love me now, so that when I do hit my goal I can appreciate my hard work.
Be blessed because I know I am blessed!!!!