Thursday, June 10, 2010
Ok...so I should be happy that for the last 4 weeks I haven't gained...I AM VERY HAPPY about that. However, I am stressed out and feel like I can't do anything right in my life.
1. Why can't I eat right and exercise ALL the time, when I know it is what I NEED to do and I feel better and my blood sugars are where they need to be when I do? (DUH!!!)
2. Why can't my kids do what they're supposed to do? Not sneak around and make bad choices. I know kids will be kids, but I feel like I have done something wrong and I can't figure out what it is.
3. Someitmes I feel so lonely. I have been married for almost 11 years, but honestly, I can't remember the last time I was truly happy,
So, I know that plays into my stress and not eating right.
I have got to change my thinking and remember that I am worth being healthy and happy. I deserve it. I know it, but why do I beat myself up so much????
I feel like this is the only place I can let my feelilngs out.
I can talk to my mom, but she is going through cancer treatment and I don't want to stress her out. My husband won't talk that much...my daughter and I are at battle constantly b/c I set boundaries and hold her accountable. I just do not know what to do.
Thanks so much for letting me vent...I just need prayers and lots of them...