Tuesday, March 09, 2010
Ok when I say I can see the light at the end of the tunnel I don't mean my end goal is near, I am talking about the sun and the spring and leaving all the winter depression behind. I always knew that I had a mild form of seasonal depression. It started about mid January and lasted until sometime in March (usually St. Patrick's day even if the weather was not cooperating because that was my sign and start to spring). This year though it took on a whole new spin. When the crazy snow started in the February I was excited. Just like a 6 year old praying for no school there I was wearing my pajamas inside out and hoping for lots of the white stuff. Low and behold we got it. 18 plus inches, then 3 days later we got another foot, then a few weeks later another foot. UGH!!! The white pretty flakes were no longer a happy sign coming out of an otherwise blah gray sky. I was tired of it, I was cold, and for some reason I was ALWAYS HUNGRY. With snow brings the need for comfort food. Every time I felt like I was motivated on the right track the snow would come and my ability to live in moderation and "be good" went out the window and all I wanted to do was eat. The motivation I once had (my Fitness February) turned into me in comfy clothes bundled up under a blanket watching movies as the snow came down outside. My weight went up and down all through February and here I am March 9th no different from where I was the beginning of February. I guess the good news is I didn't completely ruin the progress I made and in the end I'm still down 6 lbs from the beginning of the year which is awesome right?
I'm hoping the sights, sounds, feels, and smells of spring in the air is my ticket to getting back to where I need to be. The ability to refocus on what is important to me and working towards that better version of me.
This past weekend marked 8 months till my wedding day and the end of this month marks 3 months till I'm a bridesmaid for one of my good friends. I refuse to be a fat bridesmaid and more importantly I want to be a skinny - HEALTHY bride.
I guess all I can say is the snow has melted and I see a fresh start for the grass to come alive again - guess it's my turn too.
Monday, February 08, 2010
I had an amazing first week of February, well that is until yesterday. I went Monday through Saturday staying completely on track. Stayed in the calorie range, got at least 10 minutes of cardio in a day (was my commitement to myself to get started with a real exercise plan), started my wii active 30 day challenge and completed 4 days of the challenge and am headed for day 5 today, and did 50 crunches a night for the week (increasing that to 75 today for this week). I felt so good. I even survived through the snow storm. Then Sunday came... In the morning I taped my first Group Groove class for my certification as an instructor. I felt great and so relieved that it was over. I went back to my (soon to be) in-laws to meet my fiance there, shower, and hang out till we headed off to a small little Superbowl gathering. We decided to go out and get a quick lunch and then go to a home show while we waited for the game to start with the in-laws. We ended up at Wendy's. As I stood in line waiting I debated with myself to "be good," "be kind of good," or "just enjoy." The longer we stood there the more I rationalized the decision to "just enjoy" so I did. I got the smallest size of the value meal for the spicy chicken sandwich (my favorite) no mayo - don't like the stuff unless it's mixed in tuna so I always save calories there. I was excited. But when I sat down to eat it I found the strangest thing. I didn't enjoy it. HUH? I love that sandwich, but after it was all said and done I was unsatisfied and kind of mad at myself for giving myself the break to enjoy and finding out I didn't enjoy it. Still trying to figure out if I'm getting old and fast food just doesn't taste as good as it use to, or maybe I've been in my new lifestyle and eating better that it's just not what I crave anymore.
Moving on we headed over to friends for the Superbowl. They made all the usually frozen appetizers, pizza bagels, cheese sticks, pizza rolls, and mini hot dogs. I picked all night. I enjoyed the snack food so much better than Wendy's so I guess in the end I wish I just splurged there.
Pay back came this morning though when I got on the scale for my "Motivation Monday" weigh in and realized I gained about 3 lbs. How did that happen in one day? Really Wendy's and Superbowl snacks - you had that much of an effect? UGH!
But like I said it's motivation monday and I packed my breakfast and lunch that is low in calories and jumped back into my healthy lifestyle. I'm drinking water and flushing the system. Hoping that "Turn around" Tuesday's weigh in (that's the one that gets recorded) does just that turns around the damage done on Sunday.
The lesson learned splurging is not longer what i use to think it was. Go figure! The direction I'm headed becoming the healthest version of me is so much more important and tastes so much better than the spicy chicken sandwich at Wendy's.
Monday, February 01, 2010
Here we are February 1st. I am about 7 lbs down since the original motivation Monday - which is awesome. I've yo-yo'd a bit through the last 2 weeks but feel great and feel accomplished. My goals for February include of course making it to my first small goal of 5% by March 1st and trying to stop the yo yo cycle. My problem is weekends. I feel like this is the first weekend where I was prepared and in control. I gave myself a little "freedom" for one meal, but staying in control and aware the rest of the time. If I give myself a break from time to time, yet stay structure and keep up the motivation I think I'll do great. I bought The Spark over the weekend and am enjoying it. It's sort of a constant visual reminder (as I see the bright orange book in my house) of what I want and what I need to do to get there. Here's to another motivation Monday... Time to keep the ball rolling.
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