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very bad day

Wednesday, December 05, 2012

this has been one of the hardest days i have had since i quit smoking. no nicotine and no stop smoking drugs for a few days. i don't think it could be much worse if i were addicted to crack or heroin. its been very painful not just physically but mentally. i have kept myself busy exercising house work maybe the next thing will be to detail the car which i will have to do since i don't smoke in it anymore. maybe i will work in the yard and map out my spring garden. i should replace that broken window. no matter what i decide to do taking this time to think about it makes me feel so much better. so glad i have this forum. gotta go to work. Here's to tomorrow

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B2LAWLESS 12/5/2012 2:00PM

    it is absolutely wonderful knowing so many people have my back. even this day has been hard, it has inspired me to continue this journey. according to the bible, the race is not given to the swift or the strong but to who makes it to the end. thank you all. Here's to tomorrow

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ABBLKROSE 12/5/2012 1:29PM

    Quitting smoking was one of the hardest demons I've ever had to deal with . I feel your pain and frustration but hang in there it will get better. I use to go where people were smoking to get a smell of it, that would remind me of what I use to smell like. Now I'm one of those non smokers who tell people to move away from doorways because it's so nasty.
Good luck stay strong emoticon

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LEB0401 12/5/2012 1:01PM

    Hang in there! You're doing such an incredible thing. I'm sorry you're feeling so uncomfortable!

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HANDYV 12/5/2012 12:57PM

    Smoking is a terrible demon - I know. Stopping was a great thing for you and me. All those awful feelings will pass. One day at a time.

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B2LAWLESS 12/5/2012 12:44PM

    thanks, from time to time i let myself get caught up in how bad things are rather than being thankful for how good life is. just have to remind myself occasionally that even though not smoking is hard it is also the best thing i can do for myself. i have to get myself out of my own head and focus on where i am going rather than where i have been. Here's to tomorrow

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FAVORITEAUNT84 12/5/2012 12:31PM

    Maybe make yourself a list of the things around you that remind you of smoking that you can change. Detailing your car and removing as much of the smoke smell would be a great place to start.

Crossing off accomplishments on a to do list always makes me feel AWESOME.

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Tuesday, November 20, 2012

thats what i want my name to be. at this moment i am smoke free but i want this to last forever or the rest of my life whichever comes last. i began smoking when i was 12 years old and next year i will be 60. its time for a new page in my life. this is very painful but so worth it. whenever i want a cigarette and don't have 1 i feel so empowered and thankful at the same time. i thank God for my success because without Him it would not be possible. Heres to tomorrow

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B2LAWLESS 11/21/2012 1:03PM

    I haven't figured it out yet but I must find the time to do this each day. i don't know if its the anonimity or just the ability to say what in my head without judgement that appeals to me but i like it. Somewhere in my head i found a person who wants to be healthy. I can stay off cigarettes. I can stay on my fitness program, realizing its not just about losing weight but about staying grounded in my persuit of being healthy. Because the person I see in the mirror deserves the best, is the best, and can be better. I love my life so much and have been so blessed, I don't know why I have spent so many years abusing my body. Here's to tomorrow.

Brenda Jean

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THROOPER62 11/21/2012 5:30AM

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NOMORENOMORE 11/20/2012 8:18PM

    Congratulations on being smoke free! It is very painful to stop smoking on many different levels. Besides the physical there's the emotional.

I give YOU credit for your success.

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miss workout miss energy

Monday, October 29, 2012

no fitness minutes yesterday and really feeling the pain today.it will be a long time before i miss a workout again. too hard to recoup

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BOB240 10/29/2012 4:50PM

    miss take..... emoticon

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