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Now is Your Moment

Tuesday, September 09, 2014

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Now is Your Moment: by etthehiphoppreacher









Good lookin out sparkers, thank you all again emoticon

  
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SETTIMIA 9/18/2014 1:45AM

    HIYA HOW ARE YOU DOING? HOPE OK

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ANAWESOMELIFE 9/17/2014 8:46AM

    Nice reminders. emoticon

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SPARKASAURUS 9/17/2014 8:33AM

    He reminds me of LL Cool J. Mama said knock you out!!

F.E.A.R. indeed. Fear of failure, fear of success, fear of falling on my @ss, fear of looking stupid, weak, fear of not being able to use my size as an excuse any more...

Good blog!!



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SETTIMIA 9/15/2014 12:10AM

    Hi hun hope you had a wonderful weekend x

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SETTIMIA 9/14/2014 2:31AM

    Hi young lady I hope your grandma is spoiling you rotten. How lovely. How are you feeling?

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SETTIMIA 9/13/2014 7:09AM

    Hi hun how are you doing? Hope ok

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LYNN-LOVESLIFE7 9/12/2014 12:44AM

    Thank you! emoticon
emoticon don't let "fear" get in the way.
Let "self-love" lead you to your dreams.

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SETTIMIA 9/12/2014 12:27AM

    Hi sweetie how are you today. Can you manage some gentle stretching? Do you do yoga can that help? Just gentle movements or pilates. Looking for a car today fingers crossed. My friends have been wonderful but don't like Putting anyone out.

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CALENSARIEL 9/11/2014 10:48AM

    Loved the first quote! So what exactly is this conference thingy? I only got about the first 45 seconds of it. It keeps crashing my Shock Wave Video thing (this morning any add is doing that -- I have real issues with that on Spark People).

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SETTIMIA 9/11/2014 12:17AM

    Great quotes how are you doing this week?

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SETTIMIA 9/10/2014 2:16AM

    THANK YOU ARE SO RIGHT, HOPE YOU ARE OK, THANK YOU FOR REACHING OUT TO ME, VERY MUCH APPRECIATED

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_RAMONA 9/9/2014 3:20PM

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AKIMBERLYQ1 9/9/2014 8:47AM

    Thank you

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ALEXSGIRL1 9/9/2014 8:13AM

    awesome blog thank you

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BUTTONPOPPER1 9/9/2014 8:01AM

    I am so glad you seem to have found peace. I love these quotes, and I know that all will be well with you.

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Day 60: I don't want to go....

Friday, September 05, 2014




I really need some sensible advice here because I'm an emotional wreck and that is not the best time to be making decisions...time is short.

Since yesterday my anxiety has been so bad that I've had the runs, have been crying on and off, and have barely eaten anything at all, my appetite just completely left the building. My mood has done a 180 pretty much overnight and I feel like the same Old Bean put in an appearance and I am so desperate not to go back into a full blown depression.

I don't want to go....I've known this for AGES...I've rationalised it out because it's a great course, it's gonna look great on my cv (for jobs I don't even want) I've wanted to go since forever (well the idea of it sounded good) and besides what would I do instead (this is what I get asked every time I mention I don't really want to be an academic anyways...) I have to pay 10k (don't know amount in dollars) for the privilege of doing something I don't really want to, that's every last red cent I have) Right now I feel like I did all those other times I completely ignored my heart and did jobs that i hated just for the money, stayed in relationships I clearly wanted out of. I really should stop making the same mistakes shouldn't I. I've been trying for weeks now to change my attitude... to be more positive and convince myself it will be great.

I have no rational reason for not wanting to rejoin University in a weeks time other than I don't want to....I want something else for myself...I may not know quite what that is yet but do I really 'have' to spend 2 years doing something my heart is screaming at me not to do 'just in case' I may at some point need a masters in psychiatric research.

I'm so tired of feeling like crap over things I believe I should do.

So this time I'm asking for advice... don't worry I wont bite your heads off lol.

What does this look like from an outside perspective (it's ok if you think I'm being nuts making myself do something when really no ones is forcing me to do anything but me, honest opinions pls)? Will I care about this in 10 years time...? What would you do? Heart vs Rationality?

I'm off to my grandma's for the weekend before I have a meltdown so will take time to think things over and see if I get any less hysterical!



  
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GIANTPANDA 9/15/2014 2:34PM

    I am one for following one's heart. I also loved to write but went into a study program that wasn't where my heart was. i ended up very sick, and it took years to get back my health. i ended up having to leave it all behind any way and go back to writing. I love the saying that it is never too late to be what you could have been. I think deep inside each of us has an inner voice of wisdom. We need to listen to that. Go in the direction of what brings joy in your life. What is your passion? I read a book by Anita Moorjani called "Dying To Be Me" about her near death experience. The message she came back was to live fearlessly, find the joy in your life, live your life with passion. Your life is precious and life is a gift. She also urged remembering your own magnificence. (She also now eats all the chocolate she wants! LOL)



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SPARKED2BFIT 9/12/2014 11:15PM

    this is basically the question that's haunted mankind since forever.... heart or head? i've gone with both at one time or another and suffice to say...the heart is unstable but worth the ride if you can handle. the head offers stability but can be sooo boring. when you figure what you're willing to give/give up to get...then you'll have made your decision. whether it's right or wrong decision isn't relative. frankly, life is too short for shoulds. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CALENSARIEL 9/11/2014 11:00AM

    Coming from the perspective of one who listened to hear parents and didn't follow her own inclinations and talents in life, I have TONS of regrets that I didn't follow my heart. You want to write. It's IN you. You're a beautiful writer. Maybe it's time to let go of the uni idea and spend some time following the writing path. I can almost guarantee if you DO let it go and it wasn't right for you to begin with, your stress will drop off drastically and you can then point yourself in a different direction. BUT -- and this is a big but -- if the stress is still there, then you'll know it goes way beyond the whole uni thing, in which case you won't be able to function well at that level until you sort it all out anyway.

I'd do that pros and cons list one of the gals mentioned on here. But on the pros side I'd put all the things you'd really LIKE to pursue, on the cons, all the things that bring up negative emotions for you. It might be enlightening.

Hang in there, kiddo.

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LAURELEI 9/8/2014 7:17AM

    If you truly don't want to do this then don't.
But if you are letting fear keep you from the next step then push through it. Just because your masters has a certain title doesn't mean that is where you will land. A masters can open doors. I have taken lots of steps that I thought meant I would land in a certain place. I must say I have never landed there. Life is full of surprises.
Good luck with your decision.
Trust that whatever comes your can make it work for you. emoticon

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SETTIMIA 9/8/2014 3:16AM

    Hope your week is ok.

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SETTIMIA 9/7/2014 9:30AM

    HOPE YOU ARE FEELING ABIT BETTER

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PETALIA 9/6/2014 9:47PM

    Follow your heart. Live your passions. Who knows what chapters lie before you. Was it on your SparkPage somewhere I read that you are or desire to be intrepid? That's an important quality to me, too. If you choose to follow your insides which are screaming at you that they don't want to go then the next thing is finding out what you do want to do. I'm thinking not for life, career, long term goals, the big future. Just next. The world really is your oyster. Life is really full of possibilities. Could be that 10 years from now you might find yourself happily enrolled in something. Maybe not. You are so cool. Your writing is bursting with life. I bet that you are, too.

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ALEXSGIRL1 9/6/2014 6:50PM

    Ramona said it perfectly I can only add good luck on your adventure try to be happy wherever life leads you hugs

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JAZZII4 9/6/2014 4:46PM

    Going to university, seems to be causing you a lot of anxiety, and you haven't even had your first exam. I would write out the pros and cons on paper, get a good night's rest, and definitely look to Grandma, for guidance. I'm sending you lots of hugs! emoticon emoticon

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TEXASFILLY 9/6/2014 3:08PM

    emoticonWeigh the options of your possible choices. Determine what it is that you want. Then make a game plan to get there. That's the beauty of freedom~ choice. Be true to yourself, dear heart~ for all your answers are inside. The Lord is my refuge. He will help you find that peace in knowing you made the right choice. Love you, sweet Bean~ emoticon BB~ emoticon

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SPARKASAURUS 9/6/2014 9:25AM

    Wow, what Ramona said.

This is your life- live it the way YOU want to, and once you make your choice, live with it, learn from it, or change it. No regrets.

And go ask your grandma!

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SETTIMIA 9/5/2014 11:11PM

    Oh darling seems we are similar in our struggle. All I can hope for you that by going to your grandmothers this will help you to decide what to do. My refuge is the forest. Thank you for the lovely gooodie x Have a nicw Saturday x

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_RAMONA 9/5/2014 11:54AM

    I don't have advice, Bean, just a story:

30 years ago there was young woman
- not unlike yourself -
...who was in the habit of doing the right things for the wrong reasons (like continuing on at university even though she didn't want to... she wanted - perhaps needed - something else for herself... even though she didn't know quite what 'it' was)...
...and paid a terrible price for it.

She lost her health, her self-respect (because she loathed her life, yet didn't have the strength to really live it), and her dignity... because her subconscious fought mean.

She learned bad habits... having to fail to get what she needed because she could never just reach/ask for what she wanted... she learned to lie better than Beelzebub - to herself and others, and lost herself in the process... the world turned upside down for a time, where yes meant no and no meant yes... she had nothing to offer because who she was - her unique giftedness, her BEing - had been sacrificed to expectation and reason (as though people were meant to live in boxes).

She lived these habits, teeth set on edge and the headaches pounding, for the sake of a goal she never wanted - at least not that way... and in the end, her subconscious won, but had to ruin her health to do it (the body is much more creative than that for which we give it credit).

Once she had failed because she was too sick to continue, she had time again to reconsider.

She learned to breathe anew... and laugh, and cry (because now tears meant something), and rage (because courage is smelted in the fire of passion), and live in peace with joy and hope... and with her true self.

She learned to choose wellness over obligation, happiness over duty (we weren't created for slavery), and growth over safety and comfort.

She grew out of her bad habits, and blossomed into her life... a life that feeds her soul every day.

Did she care, in 10 years time, that she had not done the rational, the expected? That she had 'failed'? No. She was too busy healing and recovering, and paying the piper, still.

Did she care in 20 years time? No. She was too happy BEing who she was meant to be all along to regret misery and strife... though she sometimes wondered if this new sense of self could have done what the former could not... and she regretted not having had the courage to reach for her life sooner.

Did she care in 30 years time? Sometimes (certain doors will only open with paper keys... and some of those doors continue to fascinate... and people never seem to stop judging)... and she wonders if it might have been possible to have both (sometimes only time and distance can offer the perspective needed)... but not more than she values NOW... and living well, and loving wholly, and being more than any piece of paper could grant.

She has learned The Wizard's gifts are for smaller dreams. Most importantly, she has learned that a grasping clenched fist will never hold dreams.

The thing is, I think you are much smarter, and well ahead of that girl, and if there is a win-win to be found, I think you can do it... or not... because you are a rare Bean... and your life is defined by choice.

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1JACKIE542 9/5/2014 11:01AM

    Gee bean, I am sorry. Really don't know what to say. At first I thought you were just having an anxiety issue about going. I know you would just have to make yourself go , in that case. I was lucky to have some buddies to get my out when I was younger, I was always content to stay in my room. Hope that is not what you want to do.
But it sounds like you don't want to do this!! Guess I would look at my options, is this a good thing to do.
Maybe Grandma will help, calm you down and put you in a happy place. emoticon

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AKIMBERLYQ1 9/5/2014 9:59AM

    Here is a great big hug emoticon

I hope you find the balance you seek

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BUTTONPOPPER1 9/5/2014 7:51AM

    Bean, my heart goes out to you. What a hard decision. I can't tell you what to do, but from what you've said and how you've said it, it sounds as if you're about to marry someone you're not in love with any more. I want to write more later, but that's my immediate reaction to your dilemma.

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Day 59: Anxiety

Wednesday, September 03, 2014


(lol I love this, I think it's by nataliedee.com but not sure there are so many out there)

I've been having some serious anxiety today and as per usual it's because I let myself get overwhelmed. When I look at my room I see the project in it's entirety instead of the small chunks I would break it into. So you know how it is when you just don't start because you think you can't manage the whole thing all at once, even though that wasn't the plan lol, yup that was me this morning.

However I reminded myself that this impossible mountain was going to stay an impossible mountain unless I took at least ONE step today, and that it would still be there creating anxiety for me unless I did something. There's no getting round it, action is required....I want to just dump it all in the bin....my ideal situation would be to be able to live out of one bag.. maybe one of these days I'll make it happen!

I am ok with what I managed to get done today, tomorrow will be another step and I will continue this way until it's done! I miss my country routine for sure, the exercise the streaking, the complete lack of responsibility emoticon I'll settle back in soon enough....stupid room why can't it organise, clean and minimise itself!



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Peas: Green Juice

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CALENSARIEL 9/11/2014 11:08AM

    Who ever told you you have to tackle it all at once? Whoever they were, they were full of baloney! Ten minutes. Just start with ten or fifteen minutes a day. Set a timer. Do what you can. When the timer goes off, stop. You've achieved the goal you set for yourself. You'd be surprised how much you can accomplish in a week if you stick to that routine.

Then once you have things the way you want them, divide your usual chores up into six columns. Do one column on Monday, one on Tuesday, etc. Don't do ANYTHING on Sunday. It's your free day. If you don't EXPECT yourself to do it all at once, you'll be a lot happier. That's the way I clean my house. Monday the bathroom, Tuesday the kitchen... That's the only way I can keep ahead of it. A little bit at a time. And in the end it actually takes very little time out of my day. Half an hour maybe.

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SETTIMIA 9/4/2014 2:24AM

    Hi hun I CAN SO TOTALLY RELATE to how you are feeling. I too see thing whole task and not breaking it down so then I get disillusioned that I have not organised things...not good but like you get anxious. I wish I could wiggle my nose and get things done. Guess the only wiggling is my butt to get it done! Take care x

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JAZZII4 9/3/2014 10:18PM

    I feel the same way about life, now that I am back to work. It was so simple before, now everything seems to happen at once, and I can't keep up. Good luck with your room, I know you will get it done. emoticon emoticon

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BUTTONPOPPER1 9/3/2014 9:56PM

    What a good blog, Bean! I love that first cartoon. Anxiety is my middle name! And your predicament about cleaning your room reminds me of what I went through recently about my yard and that famous cookout I had last week. I had been depressed for months and let my yard get totally out of control. It had never been so full of weeds, and the trees and plants had never been so chaotically bushy. How would I ever get it ready for the cookout I had committed myself to? I would wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat about this (which makes me feel excessively egocentric, considering all the horrible things going on in the world). Anyway, I love what you said about just getting started on a dreaded task. Just doing it little by little (and a lot by a lot as the deadline neared), I was really able to reduce my anxiety, and it looked totally pretty when the day finally arrived for the party. I hope that cleaning up your room and then enjoying the results will help your spirits as much as cleaning my yard helped mine. Though now, unfortunately, my thoughts are shifting to my messy desk. Sigh.

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1JACKIE542 9/3/2014 3:54PM

    She is pretty cute and looks like she is in control You have the control too, just look at her, that's you. Just take everything in small steps, I think you like lists, write a list and check off one thing a day in any order. It will get done. emoticon Here's a emoticon too.

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TEXASFILLY 9/3/2014 3:17PM

    emoticon Glad to hear that you've given yourself a good pep talk to know that "CHUNKING" is a great way to get things accomplished. Rather like eating an elephant one bite at a time. I'm a big list maker, so if that helps~ go for it. I love the sense of accomplishment I feel when I check it off as DONE! YAY! emoticon BB~ emoticon emoticon

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_RAMONA 9/3/2014 3:11PM

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ROTFL!!! I love anxiety girl.. and she is ME!

My greatest source of anxiety lately is deadlines... carry-over, I suppose, at never having been able to meet them before. Had to have the Divine Miss O ready for school for this morning... and I did it... all the i's are crossed and t's dotted... AFTER shoveling anxiety for DAYS.

Now I'm going to have a nap, LOL!

Have you tried high-dose vitamin D for anxiety? It really does help... allowed my little girl to avoid psych meds. Check out this thread for resources:

http://www.sparkpeople.com/
myspark/team_messageboard_threa
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Day 58: I am stronger

Tuesday, September 02, 2014



I never did a summary blog about my juice fast and my summer of concentrating on nutrition to move my health journey along. I was not really focused on the victories simply on getting through the drama and keepin on keepin on given the circumstances (it wasn't all bad don't get me wrong I just wasn't able to practice many stress relieving techniques so it felt real intense.)

After my journey home and my lazy day yesterday plus today's nsv's I really think I should sit my butt down and write it.... because to me it's remarkable, I am STRONGER, what a thrill.


Before I left I was on bedrest having a flare up of my Sjogrens Syndrome, couldn't even tidy up or get anything done to leave the place nice and tidy for the 2 months I'd be gone. I arrived in the country and went straight back on bedrest as the journey had brought on my full body tremors because of the strain of it. I left with only one bag, with my electronics, because that's all I could carry, plus my crutch as I couldn't support my own weight and that of my bag.




So where are we at after a 31 day juice fast, almost 30 days of 'not on a plan just trying to keep nutrition sensible', and of course good ole fresh country air:

1) Lost 15lbs on the 31 day Juice fast & 15 inches all over

2) Rebounded only 5lbs after the fast so have a net 10lb loss (for those that are interested I did not watch what I ate in terms of portions, I am no calorie counter and I eat when hungry, and if that's 6 times a day so be it, if it's 2 times a day, so be it)

3) No more tummy cramping after eating food

4) My skin no longer itches!!!! (This one was huge for me as I had such bad sugar itch I was covered in scratches)

5) Related to above I am no longer addicted to sugar (Before I left I would often be found in the shop at stupid o clock in the morning for my sugar fix and would have soda and chocolate for breakfast. I went to the shop today and had zero desire for soda, or chocolate, or any packet food to be honest, I want juicy fat fruit!!)

6) My insomnia is gone, I am pretty much knocked out from 11 - 7 each night

7) My 'cystic boils' reduced by about 80% ( I used to get cystic lumps in my armpits, pretty sure I was allergic to deodorant, I would also get them on my thighs, they were so freakin painful it hurt to even shower under my arms sometimes, in the past month I have had none in my armpits and only a couple on my thighs)

8) My joint pain is pretty much non existent as long as I keep allergen food out of my diet. (I was in pain 24/7 for 2 years since this all began)

9) I completed a 31 workout flat abs challenge ( before I left I would need to get in bed after exercising or rest in a chair even with the limited mobility workouts)

10) My pipes are no longer clogged, regular as old clockwork emoticon (who needs prune juice!)

11) I no longer desire salt, packet food makes me want to claw my tongue out as I feel the sodium drying it out bleurgh

12) Dairy either, I loved cheese so much, but again no desire for it, I think I'm done with dairy for good

13) I apparently like food that I have spent my entire life hating: celery, onion, fennel, even garlic emoticon , I crave them and they sure do make a salad flavorful lol

14) I am physically stronger
(This one is really important for me to note because sjogrens makes you weak with fatigue and I suffered from chronic muscle weakness and low energy. Plus I know alot of people would assume fasting would lead to muscle wastage and a weakening of the person. For me it was the complete opposite. The exercising whilst juicing has developed some great muscle definition AND my jeans are tighter around my calves, and I am loving my thighs at the moment, hollaaaaa!!! lol What really drove it home for me was my journey home though. I came home with 3, yup THREE travel bags, one on my back and one on each arm, not small by any means, and I carried those suckers all the way home once getting off the coach, I didn't have my crutch either. The day after I was worried I would have tremors... but no I just have sore muscles, the kind you have when you've been strength training or lifting weights, can I get another Holla!!)

15) I am more motivated (my intrinsic motivation was coming back but I have had a substantial boost and didn't waste any time 'prepping for success' with my environment. I've ordered everything I need to do well and continue on this path and will experiment now I'm home with fermenting veggies and kefirs, kombucha and the like, so excited)

16) Mentally I am much clearer and less foggy headed (I know what I want to do and how I'm going to do it)

17) I found a love for jigsaws emoticon Which also means my focus is back, if I can sit still for 7 hours to do a jigsaw I can sit still and focus on the task at hand in life and work and study

18) I had so many spiritual and soul led 'things' happen that I feel like I am much much closer to that balance of mind, body & spirit I FEEL better internally... not mentally soulfully if you know what I mean... so hard to explain, but I feel 'full'

19) My patterns of behaviour and sabotage became clearer and as in 15 with clarity I can tackle them much more informed than before

20) I gained habits I never would have tried without this and am probably going to keep for life: Journaling, dream recording and meditation recording. LOVE my dreams now, I feel like going to sleep is walking into the classroom of the universe and am thrilled to wake up and record out what I learned

21) I really don't feel like hiding from my problems, stress is an ever constant...my flatmates are crazy with a capital C, but I don't feel like binging, or hiding out in my room or taking on their crap. I have my eyes firmly on where I want to go and although it may seem like that isn't a direct result of fasting and nutrition it is. It's basically like I had a mental and physical readjustment, a reboot if you will emoticon and I feel like I have the fortitude to keep on keepin on regardless.

I could go on forever, but I'll leave it at 21. I am not at the end of my nutritional experimentation, lots of healing still to be done, I have a general idea of a maintenance plan but one day at a time here, ever learning ever refining. However I have to say I am so glad I got to do the juice fast and see if it would help, it did, in abundance. I have built a solid foundation on which I can move forward and learnt SO much about myself. Life may very well crowd in on me again, we can only wait and see emoticon but either way if I ever need a system reboot again I know exactly what I'll be doing!





Peas: Looked at my 'Little Piggies' picture book and imagined having my very own teacup pig and the games we'd play, fairy princess' both emoticon

  
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CALENSARIEL 9/11/2014 11:12AM

    You know, I think you have to realize at some point that you did all this OUTSIDE your normal routine at home. It's going to make a difference being back in your own world. Perhaps it's time to think about getting out of there? What are your other options of where you could go?

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SPARKASAURUS 9/6/2014 9:23AM

    This is awesome! Keep up the good work, and kudos to you for not giving up!!

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ANAWESOMELIFE 9/3/2014 9:05PM

    You are amazing ... Great job! It's inspiring to read some many wins!

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BUTTONPOPPER1 9/3/2014 11:05AM

    Another joyful blog! I am so glad you have accomplished so much this summer! And I had no idea of the extent of your pre-summer pain. Wow. You have had some big challenges. There's so much to comment on here, but it's late and I must go to bed soon, so I'll just say that I love what you said about how you now see going to sleep as being like walking into the classroom of the universe. You are a POET, my dear!

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SETTIMIA 9/3/2014 1:36AM

    Have a great day strong gal x

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1JACKIE542 9/3/2014 12:18AM

    Wow, this is all so good. So happy you are doing better. Sorry I am late over here. Take good care and sweet dreams emoticon emoticon

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_RAMONA 9/2/2014 12:38PM

    Oh, Bean! I am SO HAPPY for you!!!
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What victories!!! Sounds like you were really living in the midst of an autoimmune STORM!

I have a resource for you:

Reverse Autoimmune Disease and Heal Your Body

http://www.amazon.com/Paleo
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If you have any question s about SCD, just ask... we're six months in and things are going very well. Healing is happening!

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SETTIMIA 9/2/2014 12:34PM

    Oh darling, you are done so well, I have never heard of Sjogrens Syndrome, but my mamma had R.A and my friend has Lupus

Have you had this for a long time? I ask because it was only after my friend has a miscarriage that she was diagnosed. At the time she did not have any pain, they said that is was lying dormant but there was pink mark on her skin and being black it was very noticeable. My friend can not go outside in the sun, and has to wear sun block even in the house. She gets very tired but refuses to use a wheelchair. A few years ago she was in and out of hospital but although does not work as two children, she gets on which I so admire.

YOU ARE AMAZING I AM SO PLEASED TO HEAR ALL YOUR ACHIEVEMENTS, YOU ARE A REAL INSPIRATION! Even the fact that you traveled and do everything well done hun.



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Day 57: Start as you mean to go on?

Monday, September 01, 2014



Happy September, Happy Fall! I love fall, wind, rain, cooler temps, tis nice.

So I said I wanted to rock September...and they always say you should start as you mean to go on, so the question is how did I spend the 1st day. Did I kick the door down and let September know I had arrived? emoticon

Hells bells no! emoticon I took a rest day, to recover from yesterdays odyssey and just slope about for a day being hella lazy. It's nice to do nothing sometimes. Unwind, and refresh yourself so you can stomp all over your goals when you're ready.

I haven't actually made up my plans properly yet, but I do have plans, 1 for nutrition (which you already know about), and 1 for exercise. I've got alot of tidying and cleaning to do and organising as I didn't get anything done before I left so it is still to do. One thing I'm certain of though is you need to create the ENVIRONMENT for success, I think it's why the juice fast went well and the raw challenge didn't. So that's what I'll be doing this week, creating the right environment, that's about it....well I say that's it but it's gonna be hella work emoticon

I have a good feeling about this month emoticon

Peas: Had a Rush Hour marathon, films 1, 2 & 3, gotta love a bit of comedy!

  
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SPARKASAURUS 9/2/2014 8:46PM

    Creating the right environment- love that! emoticon

Stomp those goals!

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BUTTONPOPPER1 9/2/2014 3:21AM

    I love fall, too! It's the absolute best! You sound very happy here, even if there's a lot of work to be done. You're right about environment. It's so much easier to work in a clean, organized place, so I have some work to do, too (namely to organize my messy desk).I got the garden cleaned up, so now must concentrate on the inside. I hope you settle back in nicely and enjoy the entire month of September!

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TEXASFILLY 9/1/2014 9:21PM

    YAY! Welcome September! One of my favorite months! I think you've got a solid foundation upon which to build after your AWE~some juicing success this summer. Nothing like a good rest to renew the body 'n spirit. And I love your idea about creating an environment for success. YAY! Let's do it! emoticon BB~ emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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1JACKIE542 9/1/2014 7:44PM

    emoticon I am starting to wake up, was slowing down with the heat, Fall and the cooler weather gets me going. Let's fly emoticon emoticon

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MISSM66 9/1/2014 5:35PM

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FORZACHANDMATT 9/1/2014 4:16PM

    I'm so happy it's september

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SETTIMIA 9/1/2014 4:07PM

    Hi hun, I like that 'creating the environment for success', yes you are right. I'll make you laugh, instead of vegging out and watching Corrie, oh ok a guilty pleasure, but I have been doing my hula hooping. Right now getting the tissues out for 'Long Lost families' I am such a blabber baby. I think since I lost my family, I am damaged, ironically no searching for them. Right before the tears come again, where is that hula hoop!

I AM SURE THAT YOU WILL BE FOCUSED FOR A SPECTACULAR SEPTEMBER

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