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So, yeah, that was a disaster of Titantic proportions

Sunday, August 17, 2014

I joined the Summer 5% team 8 weeks ago and then life took a couple of left turns and I basically fell overboard entirely.

Between losing our internet for 2 and a half weeks (and not able to connect to my fitbit or my teams), my vasculitis surfacing again, DS's ongoing drama (which affects the whole house) and a week of staycation I'm down exactly.....drumroll.... half a pound.

I know I could have done better but I'm not going to beat myself up over it.

The vasculitis did take me by surprise - it's been almost 2 years since a flare-up, I thought I was over it. I don't know why it came back so I don't know what I can do to avoid it. That combined with MS makes it hard to sleep, move, or think. So I guess the fact that I didn't eat myself into oblivion due to stress is a big improvement.

Tomorrow I start again - and I'll probably strike an iceberg and sink again - but I'm not quitting. This weight has had control for too long. If it takes 5 years, I'm losing it.

I could moan and groan about how I've only lost 14 pounds since I joined SP a year and a half ago but I choose instead to remember what I've learned:

- at least half a dozen ways to exercise in my own living room without fear of falling or having to work out self-consciously in front of other people

-to eat breakfast every day, without fail - 2 eggs scrambled, no toast - it's just automatic now

-that I don't have to run an hour every day, I can do 20 minutes of strength training and accomplish just as much

-that I can exercise in a chair even when I'm too dizzy to stand up

-I can say no to chocolate ice cream and not feel like I'm depriving myself of anything

-I can say yes to chocolate ice cream and have a "normal" portion without going overboad and pigging out

-there is life without potato chips

-salad for lunch every day can be a little boring but it turns into a challenge to find new treats to add to it - an awesome trail mix that I got last week adds a great crunch to a bowl of greens

-I can't do this alone. When I'm not on SP I don't do as well. Some things are better with friends, but friends are essential for Sparking.

So, yeah, the last 8 weeks was a disaster of Titanic proportions but I'm still swimming.

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PINKPANTHERS 8/18/2014 1:44PM

    Sounds like what could have been a disaster turned into a lot of NSV's and a half pound loss. You can use those lessons learned to turn the next challenge into the wind in your sails! emoticon

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SONFLOWERGAMMY 8/17/2014 11:08PM

    You always make me laugh, cry, understand, empathize and want to keep going! Thanks for another inspiring blog! So happy your back up and running with the internet!

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    Hope things go better for you!!!

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FRENCHTOSD 8/17/2014 7:48PM

    I lost "half my size" between 10/10/07, when I joined Spark People and 10/05/11 when I declared victory on my weight. You will make it if you keep trying and don't give up. I exercise in bed and that helps a lot. I have Rheumatoid Arthritis, so I also fall over a lot. At least if I'm in bed, I need to roll off to hurt myself.

I only lost 5 pounds in the second year of my weight loss. It was discouraging but I just kept trying new ideas until something worked. Finally 130 pounds were gone for good. I know you can do it if I did. Best of luck and Keep on Sparking. This is the place to be.

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BEATLETOT 8/17/2014 4:18PM

    This is a great blog...I love all you've learned!

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NOWYOUDIDIT 8/17/2014 3:38PM

    emoticon look at all the NSVs you have! emoticon

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    WoW, and I think you did a marvelous job... 8 weeks and all those negatives and you did NOT gain 5 pounds!! You did an awesome job and are recognizing and practicing your new skills and habits... making your new life-style. Yes, I vote a well-done.
note: we all want better than what we get.. if we lose 5 pounds we want 6 or 10, lose 10 then it should have been 11 or 14.. We do have a real problem being grateful for where we are and how far we have come, even when we still have a long way to go.
Hugs, Audra

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GINILEE4 8/17/2014 2:40PM


This is just a blip on your radar and actually, you have come out smelling like a rose! I know, you ALWAYS smell like a rose . LOL Given your trials, you did extremely well, better than I would have done, and are ready to get back in motion. We are here with you and can't wait to challenge you in the Fall 5%. I , hopefully, will still be a CHampion of the Kitchen. Had a blast this round. You were missed here by all.


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    Way to go on maintaining and and even having the 1/2 pound loss, that is definitely an accomplishment! I'm very impressed you didn't have a gain. Hang in there, it sounds like you've learned a lot so I know you'll do great this fall!

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MARYBETH4884 8/17/2014 12:18PM

    You were doing a great job practicing maintenance!!! I would look at it as a mini NSV! You could have gained all 14 pounds back in 8 weeks with too much effort!! It's those little things you've learned over the past year and a half that will set you up for this life time journey!!! emoticon emoticon

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ROCKPORT9 8/17/2014 11:53AM

    Wow! With life and health hitting you in all directions, it is amazing you lost even 1/2 pound! Hang in there! Hugs, Laurel

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Even SparkGuy has to hit the re-set button

Monday, July 14, 2014

If you haven't seen it already, I encourage you to check out SparkGuy's blog about the challenges he's been facing this year - and how he's pushing through it.

It's not just you - even SparkGuy can't do it all, all the time.


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STEVENK87 7/18/2014 6:50PM


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NOWYOUDIDIT 7/14/2014 10:49PM

    Life happens when you make other plans!

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    Consistency & Perseverance excellent words to live by !

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    That's right!

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MAINEALI 7/14/2014 2:38PM

    Thank you for the link. What a wonderful blog post. Have a great day!

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JENNY888 7/14/2014 12:17PM

    Thanks for posting this link. I had not seen the blog.

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DUKEFAN86 7/14/2014 11:42AM

    I was encouraged by his blog post, and am glad to hear his mom is doing better.

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What do you think? Need your input

Friday, July 11, 2014

I know my weight is more of a "psychological" or "emotional" problem (rather than a problem of gluttony).

Yes, I overindulge sometimes. But it's not often.

Yes, I have some weird eating patterns sometimes (I woke up at 4 am this morning totally STARVING. It was all I could do to stay in bed and not get up and make pancakes)

Yes, I eat large portions, sometimes. Not all the time.

Yes, I skip breakfast a lot (except this week on the 5% challenge, lol) emoticon

But thinking back over my weight life (the ups and the downs) I see when
I gained weight for 'no reason' - nothing had changed in those times except my emotional status.

I get that. There was stuff happened in my life that was awful and I packed on the pounds.

When I got out of that situation the pounds literally fell off. I lost 80 pounds in the course of less than 8 months.

What I don't get is why I'm fat now. Nothing horrible is happening to me now.

I've spent a lot of time thinking/praying about it (like, the whole last year) and I don't have any answers.

This is my question: -- -- --

-- -- -- Is there any point in trying to lose weight if I can't pinpoint the CAUSE (the emotional trigger or whatever)?

I'd be interested to hear your thoughts.
Even if they're tough ones. I probably need tough.

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DEERLADY45 7/12/2014 1:17PM

    But Dear it is for your health! Dont quit keep going ! ive been thru it all and yes i have felt like throwing in the towel but even tho i am large my Health is good and if i quit it i will only hurt me and my health so im in it Girl.. wont quit and i dont want you to quit either HUGS,BONZ emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NOWYOUDIDIT 7/12/2014 1:40AM

    emoticon I think I'm too complicated.

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KNYAGENYA 7/11/2014 6:26PM

    It is good to pin point as you travel on this path. It does not need to be immediate but can be helpful for your food choices.

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LOFLLAMA 7/11/2014 5:41PM

    Do you count calories? If not, try it for a 3 day period to see if you are just eating too much. Do you exercise? If you don't...START!

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    Gosh, I wish I knew the answer.

I ended up writing a too long chat... will send you a copy in a Spark Mail. If our Blog Post comments had the wide response space like our Spark Page comments, I probably would have left the monologue here.

Don't give up. You will find what works for you to reach your goals.


Hugs, Audra

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NEWVINE 7/11/2014 1:20PM

Never give up. Even if you don't know why you arent loosing weight, the healthy changes you are making are better for you. This is a long journey with many ups and downs, even when you are eating right. Relax Stop thing about why you don't loose and start with baby steps.There is no time limit, and some of use have a harder time loosing weight then others.Keep pushing and in time you will see changes. emoticon

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    I wish I could help you! Sometimes I deal with the same thing!!

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CROUCHINGFLEA 7/11/2014 12:50PM

    I don't know if it is necessary to know the reason that you gained the weight. I initially gained a lot of weight due to the births of my two children, then had a major emotionally difficult time for a while and gained more weight, then started on a medicine that made me gain a ridiculous amount of weight in one month. Is it important for me to know the reasons I gained that weight... I think when I gained weight from the medicine it was important to know, but other than that, not really, as long as I stopped gaining the weight. If your still putting on weight, then yeah, you need to figure out why.

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SONFLOWERGAMMY 7/11/2014 12:45PM

    It could be a habit that has been developed over the years, irregular hormone or blood sugars, unresolved issues that have not come to your attention or a million other things. As believers we read in scripture to care for our bodies. That is why I keep trying, because many times I have thought it might be easier to just call it a wrap, and if God shows me another reason and I need to deal with it I will but if not I keep trying because His Word tells me to.
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ROCKPORT9 7/11/2014 12:36PM

    Yes, it is always good to try to lose weight. Less weight...better health.

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KALISWALKER 7/11/2014 11:53AM

    I suggest you try the Full Plate Diet, so you are really filled up and can tell your brain you are FULL. You can read 'The Full Plate Diet' pdf version online for free. I tried it in August 2012 and continue to look for foods with high fiber.


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28 Days to Success - Day 3

Tuesday, July 08, 2014

28 Days to Success by Tommy Macken is a Free ebook that offers daily steps to take toward being successful in business.

I'm not starting a business but I liked the idea of a little program that is only 28 days long - even I can probably manage to stick to it for 4 weeks.

The first week has been really simple - get up earlier, exercise daily, spend some time reading (read whatever you want) and take a few minutes to repeat an affirmation.

I've modified the plan by replacing the affirmation with a Scripture verse (there's only one verse in the KJV Bible that mentions success!).

I don't know where this little program will take me (I haven't read ahead) but I like that it includes 15 min. of exercise as one of the fundamental steps.

Yesterday was too hot and humid to exercise - - suffocatingly hot - - and I was too dizzy to even do chair exercises. Got my workout done this morning before the humidity takes over today.

Sorting out my kitchen 'junk' drawer will be the highlight of my day - it's so stuffed I can barely wrench it open without spraining my wrist. Time to purge!


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CRAZYPADER2 7/9/2014 6:21AM

    It sounds like a great program. Keep up the good work.

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    Looking forward to your "Book Report" in how many days? 21?
Thanks for sharing.
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NOWYOUDIDIT 7/8/2014 11:34AM

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ROCKPORT9 7/8/2014 10:22AM

    Sounds like a good change of pace book. Keep you thinking! emoticon

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Roll the stone

Thursday, June 26, 2014

I like words. I used to read the dictionary for fun (seriously). I like how words go in, and out, of fashion, change meanings and get twisted into new words.

I also like doing word studies from the Bible - why was this word used and not that other, more common word? What does it signify?

Yesterday I was pondering the words in Proverbs 16:3:

Commit thy works unto the Lord, and thy thoughts shall be established.

That word "thoughts" is translated as plans, mighty deeds and power in other places.

I've never understood why we would commit our works to the Lord FIRST and THEN our plans would be established.

Wouldn't it make more sense to commit our PLANS to the Lord and let Him establish our works? That's always puzzled me and it was still puzzling me yesterday when I was thinking about it.

I looked at the word for "works" - it's translated as: works, deeds, labour, occupation, and such. Nothing enlightening for me from that.

So I decided to look at the word "commit " --- maybe there was something there that made the difference.

That word commit? -- the Hebrew word "galal" (Strong's #H1556 see link below) -- it's translated as roll - like roll on the ground.

Or like in Gen. 29:3 - they rolled the stone from the well's mouth to water the sheep.

Now I'm more puzzled --- "commit" means roll?


There are other words in the Old Testament that are similar - stay with me here, I know I don't explain it well --- committing trespasses and committing adultery and committing abominations --- those are all different types of "commit". I'm no scholar, but they seem to me to be more "action" verbs, something people are actively doing, versus this statement of intent type word in Prov 16.

Why would commit be equivalent to roll - and it flashed through my mind that to roll a stone over the mouth of a well or cave is kind of similar to rolling a stone over the mouth of a tomb, like when Jesus was entombed after His death.

So I went to Mark 16 and found the Greek word for "roll". It didn't really help - it just means roll and it's not used in any other way in the New Testament.

But above the word was an entry for a Bible dictionary:

" This word is used in the Gospels to refer to the stone that was in front of the tomb of Jesus. In Palestine, graves were usually in a depression and the stone was rolled down an incline to cover the mouth of the tomb. For a small grave, about twenty men were required to roll a stone down hill to cover the door of the tomb. The Bible tells us that the stone covering the door of the tomb was a large stone. The women would have needed more men than even a full Roman guard of sixteen men to roll away the stone. This was a major task. " bit.ly/TAX7q6

Twenty men! To roll it downhill - - - let alone to pull it away again!

Once that stone was in place there was no going back.

You were committed.

Commit thy works to the Lord - it really jumped out at me.

Stop dithering and DO IT.
Not just start, but roll the stone over the door and don't look back.

Commit to commencing, and continuing, action, and He will establish your plans.

Commit to action, even if you don't know where it'll end up or where it will take you. Just get up and get doing something.

Like I said, I'm not saying that's what it is, this is just an application that I made from what I read. There are so many ways I can use this right now - in decisions that have to be made in our family, in my fitness, in eating and diet, in wanting to be purposeful in my writing.

Time to roll the stone.


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NOWYOUDIDIT 7/1/2014 3:20AM

    Beautiful! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SUSIEGKORN 6/27/2014 1:41PM

    What a motivational perspective! Roll that stone! Commit and carry through! Here we go.........

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MISSLORI5 6/27/2014 3:48AM

    The Lord doesn't do things for us we can do ourselves, He just provides the right prompting at the right time, then He lets us make the decision whether to go forward to stay stagnant. I love your blog, and most of all, I love that you are a student of God's Word! Never stop asking questions! You will grow and become, just as God created to be!! emoticon emoticon

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    So glad I caught this post...
Thanks for sharing.
Hugs, Audra

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CROUCHINGFLEA 6/26/2014 4:31PM

    emoticon Loved this! And it makes sense the way you put it. Thank you for posting this. emoticon

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MYTURNNOW2013 6/26/2014 3:13PM

    20 men downhill, imagine how many to go up! Great blog!

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    OMG! I love to study Biblical word meanings as well. I can spend hours just picking apart one verse researching all the word meanings and uses. It makes such a difference and helps put the life into scripture.
This was a wonderful insight and you did all the leg work for me! A true gift!

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DLITE719 6/26/2014 2:27PM

    Very thought provoking. I like it.

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ROCKPORT9 6/26/2014 12:49PM

    Do it! Roll that first stone and commit!.....I like it!

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