Sunday, August 17, 2014
I joined the Summer 5% team 8 weeks ago and then life took a couple of left turns and I basically fell overboard entirely.
Between losing our internet for 2 and a half weeks (and not able to connect to my fitbit or my teams), my vasculitis surfacing again, DS's ongoing drama (which affects the whole house) and a week of staycation I'm down exactly.....drumroll.... half a pound.
I know I could have done better but I'm not going to beat myself up over it.
The vasculitis did take me by surprise - it's been almost 2 years since a flare-up, I thought I was over it. I don't know why it came back so I don't know what I can do to avoid it. That combined with MS makes it hard to sleep, move, or think. So I guess the fact that I didn't eat myself into oblivion due to stress is a big improvement.
Tomorrow I start again - and I'll probably strike an iceberg and sink again - but I'm not quitting. This weight has had control for too long. If it takes 5 years, I'm losing it.
I could moan and groan about how I've only lost 14 pounds since I joined SP a year and a half ago but I choose instead to remember what I've learned:
- at least half a dozen ways to exercise in my own living room without fear of falling or having to work out self-consciously in front of other people
-to eat breakfast every day, without fail - 2 eggs scrambled, no toast - it's just automatic now
-that I don't have to run an hour every day, I can do 20 minutes of strength training and accomplish just as much
-that I can exercise in a chair even when I'm too dizzy to stand up
-I can say no to chocolate ice cream and not feel like I'm depriving myself of anything
-I can say yes to chocolate ice cream and have a "normal" portion without going overboad and pigging out
-there is life without potato chips
-salad for lunch every day can be a little boring but it turns into a challenge to find new treats to add to it - an awesome trail mix that I got last week adds a great crunch to a bowl of greens
-I can't do this alone. When I'm not on SP I don't do as well. Some things are better with friends, but friends are essential for Sparking.
So, yeah, the last 8 weeks was a disaster of Titanic proportions but I'm still swimming.