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Tired, Anxious, and Excited..

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Today, the day started off feeling pretty good. Low pain, which means I'm going to over do it at some point during the day. Darn it! So, we go to the park and I decide, I'm going to go down this slide with the kids that look like rows and rows of rolling pins (ya know the only thing I can relate it to is food related, right? sheesh!) Anyhow, twice with my little one and once with my daughter because momma goes so fast down it! Bad idea! Oh, but it was so much fun! haven't been able to move much in the hours since. Oh well. We'll all remember it!

So, the surgery is approaching and fast now! The surgeon has decided that he really wants to take care of me for the remaining of the they are flying me to Tampa to it. So, I'm leaving Monday afternoon and coming back Tuesday night. And yes, this was all last minute. (Long story.) Anyhow, so I'll be having some testing while I'm there and have some anesthesia too...can you see where this is going? I asked if they could make sure I got on the plane since I leave a few hours after! I assured me I will be on it. Now, I'm looking at my e-ticket and notice no seat assignment for that flight back. Crap! I'm checking every hour, so it seems, online to see if I can get one...well, no luck yet! No way I can fight that in the condition I might be...oh please don't let me get bumped or stuck in the middle! No, no, no! Sigh, all I can do is keep trying.

By the time I get back though, the in-home interview with the tv crew and the surgery will be complete. So, that is so super exciting! I am so anxious to have some relief! In case you are wondering, I still don't know when the show will air, but I believe I will find out on 04/23 when I'm in LA for the last part of the filming for the stay tuned!

In the meantime, I'm trying to stay optimistic and get through each day with healthy eating habits. I can do this, surgery and all!

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MYNANAPAM 3/28/2010 4:03PM

    you will be in my prayers

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AZKITTYKATE 3/28/2010 11:56AM

    Yes, although I'm totally find if they film and it doesn't air. I just want to feel better, know what I mean? I'll post when I know about airing. :-)

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MOMFAN 3/28/2010 12:27AM

    So are you going to be on The Doctors? Inquiring, nosey members want to know? Praying for you.

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Ring? Ring? Anyone home!?

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Morning. Today I woke with horrible ringing in my ear. It is so loud and so frustrating. The kids seem so loud and I know they are just playing and talking normally. It is so hard to stay focused, but I am so thankful that I have a program to follow. Today will be a day of constant prayer. I can only pray that this ear ringing will subside. It makes me sad that I work so many hours during the week and never really get to see my kids and now I can't even enjoy them. sigh

Lord, I'm here and listening. Please stop the ringing. I really want to enjoy the day with my kids. I need you God! I know everything happens for a reason. I know I won't understand why until much later, if ever. Please help to keep me on my food plan regardless of this horrible noise. Thank you for yesterday and the days to come. Amen.

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MOMFAN 2/22/2010 1:47AM

    Praying the ringing will cease, last time I had ringing in my ears I had a concussion and neck sprain!

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REMOLDINGANGEL 2/20/2010 12:34PM

    Praying the ringing will subside and you will get an enjoyable day with the kids. God is in control of ALL!! Take care, Angel

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MOMMABOF7 2/20/2010 11:00AM

    Sending up prayer that you feel better!

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Feeling frustrated

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Sigh..all I can say is that I'm not giving up! But I am definitely frustrated. Ya know when you are just so close to reaching a goal, no matter how big or small, it just seems to take forever to get there!

Well, it isn't just seeming to take forever, it is! lol, okay, not really. But it is taking months!

I've been within 10 pounds of my 100 pound mark since mid-December. I was at 93 pounds at my 9 month mark. I'm now at 10 1/2 months and still a few pounds away! Ugh!

Nothing has changed with my food plan. I'm doing just a tad more walking, but nothing special. I want to exercise sooo badly, but any excess movement and I'm dying in pain because of all my bulging disks in my back.

Maybe I'm just frustrated with life right now. After having had 3 in office injections, 4 out patient injections, massage therapy, chiropractic, physical therapy, traction, etc...I found out 01/14 that I was a candidate for a laser spine surgery that could help relieve some pain. I was also asked if I would consider being a patient to do this procedure for the t.v. show "The Doctors". Well, after being narrowed down to from a group, I'm one of the final two. it has been such a long process. Well, not long, but slow. Several interviews and numerous pictures sent later, I'm still waiting. I do know that if I'm picked the surgery will be the week of March 29th. That is sooooo far away. I know I am patient and life will continue, but I am so tired of being in pain. I just want a little relief.

Today was a bad pain day. Something was in the beautiful 78 degree air that was bothering me every time I went outside. Don't get me wrong, I love this time of year! So, I try to get outside every chance I get. But...I have been sneezing all day. This may not seem like a big deal. But, when you have numerous bulging disks in your back and neck, a sneeze is agony. The pain shoots from my neck down through my shoulder and into my arm. I've been typing to much...even that hurts. I write for a living. Great, huh?

Okay, i guess I just needed to vent some. So, let's try to make this positive.

I am grateful that I am alive! I have a precious husband, and two adorable children - who are even good once in a while. :-) I love my job - most of the time. I at least love what I do. Today (versus 1 year ago), I am happier and thinner than I have ever been in my adult life. I can sit down on the floor AND get back up after playing with my kids. I can tie my shoes and cross my legs! I have no problem getting in or out of my car and could probably even put a pillow behind my back, if I thought it would help, without my belly touching the steering wheel. Today is a good day. God can get me through everything he brings me to. Today is only one day. Tomorrow will be another. I am so thankful for my program and that I have been binge free for 10 1/2 months. Thank you God!

Okay, I feel better.

Dear God,

Please bless my facebook and Spark friends. We all have challenges in our lives. Please watch over us and guide us to make the right decisions. Please give us the wisdom to make to make it through each day, one at a time. Thank you for blessing me, my family, and my friends. Thank you for giving me my sanity for today. In your name I pray. Amen!

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MOMFAN 2/18/2010 4:53PM

    I so hear you, no one can understand the simple price of a sneeze if they have not been there, it must be a week for venting, because I did that on my blog Tuesday night! God bless and keep you!

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THINMAMAWARD 2/17/2010 7:43AM

    What caught my eye was you are still eating the same. Shake it up just a little bit and surprise your body and keep walking. You may just get to goal. Take care and my prayers for a great outcome on your surgery.

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330POUNDWOMAN 2/16/2010 11:49PM

    It's good to let it out and even better, you turned it into something positive and recognized all of your accomplishments! I hate your in so much pain, my Aunt had severe back problems for three years and it was almost enabling for her. She finally had a successful surgery last year and her pain has been relieved. What ever surgery you decide on, my thoughts and prayers are with you!

Stephanie :)

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A successful on to 2010!

Thursday, January 07, 2010

A new year, a new excitement. God has really taught me so much over the last 9 months. For me, I learned that I would never have the willpower to do this on my own. I needed God-power! God has made such a change in my life. In the last 9 months of 2009, I lost just under 93 pounds. That is amazing to me! I can't wait to see what he has in store for 2010!

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MOMFAN 1/16/2010 1:47PM

    Me either, what an inpiration you are!

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    Wow! That's amazing! I am hoping for similar results in 2010. What would you say was the best change you made daily to achieve that goal?

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    GREAT JOB!!! I am so excited to hear you are doing so well. Keep up the great work. How is the new baby?? Cute pics. Hope to see you around more. Take care. Angel

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Wednesday, April 02, 2008

So, yesterday was our 1st day of no tv until after dinner. We did so good! My little girl asked only once. I even considered everyone that we should go for a walk after dinner.

Then again, it was the first day I've had any energy at all after 3pm. Let's hope it continues...

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ITSJUSTJEN 4/2/2008 3:25PM

  That's fantastic, Kate! What a great habit to bring into your home! Keep it up! Twenty years from now, your little girl will thank you for it!

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