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Meekly Beginning Again, Again???

Wednesday, October 06, 2010

Ok that was truly sad...probably the worst yet. I started day 1 in April and never returned! Truly pathetic stick-to-it-ness on my part....BUT I am not going to dwell on my past failures OR my past hasn't worked for me in the past so I don't see why it would work now. So I have changed my ticker to reflect my weight NOW as the starting point...everyone can look on my page and see I started at 223 lbs a few years ago but I don't deserve that praise anymore since I have been yoyoing between 180-190 for over a year and haven't done much to get myself out of it.
So instead of posting grandiose dreams and elaborate plans it is back to basics...

Today I:
1. Had a shake for breakfast
2. Got up at 8am

Today I will:
1. Eat lunch and dinner, and at least 1 healthy snack
2. Do my day 1 bootcamp video
3. Go for a walk
4. Drink 8 glasses of water

Today I won't:
1. Skip meals
2. Touch the halloween candy
3. Eat after dinner

Sounds pretty easy right? I am sure I can do this much!

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BELTONWALKER67 10/8/2010 4:15PM

    Just keep on moving forward! One day at a time and if you do mess up, just start anew. That is what's so great about a healthy lifestyle. Every little bit helps. emoticon

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KAMKELMS 10/6/2010 12:01PM

    I hear you on that - anyone looking on my page can see I've fallen off the wagon so many times I have bruises LOL! You're right - today is another day. We only have to do one day at a time. No good going too far into the future or the past - neither does us any good. Good luck to you !!

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Day 1 of my NEW PLAN

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Ok really Monday is Day 1 since I know I will be drinking tonight *(empty calories I know I know but its so seldom I do) but I am seeing no reason to let ALL of my resolve go out the window. We walked 8km last night! At the end a friend of mine wanted to go to McDonalds and all I ordered was a water! I stole 3 three french fries from her but thats it.
So for yesterday (Friday, April 24th)

1. WALKING - yes - 8km
2. NO JUNK FOOD - yes

So far so good. I am trying to get those under control and then start in on my water (or lack thereof) I just have to think of a good way of tracking it. I have been slowly increasing it but some days are better than others.
I weighed today - 171 so 2 lbs of those pesky salt pounds are gone - AF has started too which is probably to blame for the rest. All I can do now is walk, wait and keep watering!

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WALNUT5612 5/12/2010 10:02AM

    Keep up the good work!!!

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JIBBIE49 4/27/2009 1:21AM

    Love a NEW plan. emoticon Kick Butt.

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Returning from the Great Fat Beyond

Friday, April 24, 2009

SO wow a lot has changed in my life since I was last here.
My husband left me 6 weeks ago so I am now a single mother.
I met a walking partner and we have been trying to walk almost daily.
I gained a lot of weight (184!) and then lost a lot (168!) and am now back up to 173 as of yesterday (though I think salt and AF around the corner have a lot to do with that).
I have made a resolve to eat no fast food until June 1st. It has only been a few days and though I haven't had any fast food I am wondering if I should extend that to mean no junk food! I am thinking perhaps I should.
I am going to try to walk 5 days a week for at least 30-60 minutes and all of my walks so far have been over an hour and over 8km. (4 walks)
I missed yesterday which means I can't miss today. I will have to do something active.
I am confused about the situation with my husband. He makes it clear its over...then does things that make me wonder. For all accounts and purposes its over - I mean even if he decided tomorrow he is over this whole walking out thing it would mean counselling and time before I would let him back into the house etc. I don't know if that would ever happen though.

Anyways...I am trying to get healthier and get some more confidence. I am back to a size 12 (yay!) and starting to feel better about myself. My life is a mess so I'm trying to find solace in routine that I can't find in financial and emotional stability! LOL
I hope you're all with me because this may be one heck of a ride.

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CMUCHIP98 4/24/2009 10:05PM

    So glad you are back on here with us, only wish it were under better circumstances for you. I can not imagine what you are going through, but think it is AMAZING that you are working on you!

Keep your head up. I will pray for you as you begin this new chapter in your life and begin the journey to a healthier you. emoticon

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ISHIIGIRL 4/24/2009 1:20PM

    You seem to have a good handle on things. Keep your chin up. One of my favorite sayings is "When God closes one door he opens another" Maybe this is a new stage in your life and it will only get better from here. Good Luck, emoticon

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Why wait?

Monday, December 29, 2008

So I am sitting here making all these plans for January first and suddenly I stop and think..."Why wait?" What is so special about the first that makes it worth doing another few days of damage to my already holiday-ravished body? This time instead of focusing on the 50 things I am supposed to do I am going to try and focus on the 3 things I HAVE to do...drink water, eat healthfully and MOVE. The last few weeks I have been doing NONE of these and it is wreaking havoc on my poor body. I have stomach aches and headaches...I have no energy and I am where is the upside of this junk food eating lifestyle? The sweet taste that only last a minute hardly seems worth all of this unhappiness and anguish. So last night I had a healthy dinner and loads of veggies. I also had a piece of crumb cake....ok so the crumb cake wasn't the best finish on the dinner but the healthy dinner was a start (considering only a few days ago I ate COOKIES for dinner - yes you heard me about rock bottom hey?). This morning so far I had 2 scrambled eggs with a bit of trans-fat free margarine and a bit of ketchup (yeah I know it has salt and sugar but its the only way I can choke down the eggs....) and I am just about to heat me up a snack of the asparagus, mushrooms and onions leftover from last night's dinner. I am actually really looking forward to it and there is almost 2 cups of it there for me :) I have also noticed that even though I try my unbalanced diet is creating an unbalanced diet for my daughter who is not quite 2 years old. When I go on binges its all carbs - potatoes and pasta, bread and rice....and when I "get healthy" its low or no carbs (also not good for a growing toddler!). So I think I will make a rice/pasta dish...something use as a side dish for her. That way she is getting the benefits of my healthy meals but with the added carbohydrates she needs for energy. If I keep it in the fridge we can add it to her dinner for 2-3 days and then choose a new side dish.

I have made a menu plan for the week which at the very least means planned healthy dinners with lots of veggies - and I am trying to put in breakfast and lunch plans the night before. So at least I am on the right track.

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ZESTYLADY 12/31/2008 10:42AM

    Nice to see that energy coming back! I don't know about you, but this winter wonderland thing has taken a toll on me! I haven't even been able to walk the dogs for the last few weeks as it is so slippery outside. Love the picture. I need to go climb a wall pretty darn quick...if the roads ever clear and life ever settles....

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Clothing size and self esteem

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

My clothing size never used to affect my self esteem..then again back then it was in single digits! The problem now I think is not only that the numbers are LARGER but also that I tend to compare them more. For example I am flabbergasted and embarrassed when people who weight the same or MORE than me have a smaller clothing size. I start thinking "Is my baby belly really that fat?" "Am I really that flabby and untoned by comparison to that person?" I am excited when I fit into a new, smaller size and devastated when I have to go up a number (even when the difference between those two sizes may only equate to a few pounds). Certain numbers have been associated with overweight and obese people and even particular STORES have ranges like that. For example Garage, one of my favourite clothing stores - only has pants up to size 13-14. I am a 15-16. So therefore thanks to those sizes I know that I am too fat for an entire STORE. Plus size stores on the other hand have a 14+ on the sign more often than not. So if you're a size 14 you're no longer a normal sized person? You are now "Plus Sized"? I know I am not skinny but its a hard hit on the self esteem when you have to shop in a bigger specialty store/section at 175 lbs and 5'6.

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KWANGAWOO 12/30/2008 1:53AM

    I can totally relate! Part of the problem is that in the fashion industry, clothing sizes are *not* standardized. Each designer has their idea of what a size 2 is, and that fluctuates greatly! Don't get discouraged :) You and your daughter are inspirations in every way! emoticon

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SSDCQUINCY 12/29/2008 2:11PM

    I know how you feel about the size being such a big deal. Don't get discouraged by the number (I know easier said than done right!). It is just a number, and you have to look at how far you have come. What size were you in when you started this? I bet it was more than a 14 right? So now you are in a 14. After a few lbs you will be in a 12, and then in a 10, so don't give up. The cut of the clothing makes a big difference too. A low rise jean you may need the 14, but a mid rise you could be in a 12. Keep up the good, work and keep gaining your strength from your little hero. She is amazing!!!

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