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I ate a whole coconut cream pie ;-)

Sunday, March 31, 2013


I kid you not....I ate a WHOLE coconut cream pie! What you say.....AwesomeCarol?? No way!! Okay, okay...I just wanted to see if you were paying attention!!

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The coconut cream pie I ate was made in a little muffin pan and was sugar free. I think it contained about 2 Tablespoons of sugar free pudding and amounted to about two bites! My main course for Easter dinner was roasted skinless white meat turkey, roasted asparagus, steamed carrots, spinach salad, fresh fruit, and yes...I had one deviled egg.

Hey I have learned a few things here on Sparks and didn't want to disappoint my fellow Sparkies! Now I'm working on my fitness for the day!

Hope you had a wonderful Easter!! Oh yes...Have a terrific April Fool's Day tomorrow!

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ALLYCANDOIT 6/4/2014 8:08PM

    Well you had my attention with the whole coconut creme pie. I kid you not. You are an amazing motivator!

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LINDAMARIEZ1 11/6/2013 11:05AM

    You are such a kidder Carol! but i do love cocoanut crfeam pie...any size!
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LINDAMARIEZ1 10/24/2013 8:33AM

    You are such a kidder! LO LO LOL emoticon

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OOLALA53 10/1/2013 7:12PM

    You devil, you...

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LINDAMARIEZ1 4/22/2013 2:35PM

    but if I was going to eat an entire pie; it would be a banana cream pie or lemon merangue (sp)

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WORKNPROGRESS49 4/14/2013 6:02PM

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MARINEMAMA 4/7/2013 11:45AM

    Yup got my attention!

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ACIMPEGGY 4/7/2013 10:37AM

    That's the way to do it - make treats fit into your plan, but don't deprive yourself of them! emoticon

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40PUDDLEJUMPER 4/5/2013 3:18PM

    Yum!!!!!!!!! emoticon emoticon

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VTRICIA 4/2/2013 11:16PM

    Sheesh! Apparently I don't pay attention... it took me 3 days. emoticon

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JANNEPERRY 4/1/2013 3:01PM

    I knew there was a catch! Good job on healthy yummy Easter eating! emoticon

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TQUARRY 4/1/2013 12:20PM

    silly :) i bet it was the best two bites ever though!

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JOYFULROAD 4/1/2013 9:10AM

  lol - I thought someone had hacked your blog - you are such a consistantly wonderful example, I could not imagine you stuffing your face with a whole pie - not the Carol we know and love!

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SIMONEKP 4/1/2013 9:00AM

    Great April fool's joke

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CINDYSDAY 4/1/2013 8:41AM

    Ok, now I am scared. What are you going to do to us tomorrow on April Fool's day? emoticon

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KITT52 4/1/2013 8:25AM

    you got my attention...

have a healthy week

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JECKIE 4/1/2013 8:14AM

    Yum. I love coconut. :)

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JESSIKA_56 4/1/2013 7:52AM

    Haha, I knew better and didn't believe what I read... but I've never heard of a muffin sized pie! Sounds interesting!

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NELSONCHERYL59 4/1/2013 5:32AM

    U r truely awesome girl, so glad u r my spark friend emoticon

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ERIECANALGAL 3/31/2013 11:53PM

    You know I would HAVE to read that blog!!!with THAT title.
Good job!

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SETAGOAL1 3/31/2013 10:40PM

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TERMITEMOM 3/31/2013 8:20PM

    This was a good one! emoticon

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SLIM242 3/31/2013 8:19PM

    LOL! I think you did good. Easter is another big eating holiday, you did good with your meal selection. A tiny coconut cream pie is okay. You deserve it!


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    Dear Carol,

Yep, you got my attention fast!!! I love your meal and hope I can copy it in the next few days. Mostly I want to make the coconut pie (and have it at least as light as your!!). I hope you had a great holiday!

In the meantime, "ten mucho cuidado". All the best!
sincerely and lots of hugs,
Riisa emoticon

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DEBIGENE 3/31/2013 7:45PM

    LOL, I knew better !!!!!!!!

Dinner sounded terrific and very healthy, well done !!!

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HEIDISUE1 3/31/2013 7:28PM

    LOL!! Your title just cracked me up! Not the type of motivational stuff I'm used to seeing here from my fellow Sparkers--but actually a good idea, to make minis of our favs. Thanks for the laugh!

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EWL978 3/31/2013 7:23PM

    You done good!!!! Keep on keeping on..... emoticon

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Love my Sparkpeople fitness DVD....Total Body Sculpting with Coach Nicole!!!

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Hello Sparkers...

What better way to spend a snowy, cold day at home by breaking a sweat with a Sparkpeople fitness DVD. I especially like Total Body Sculpting with Coach Nicole. Get your workout clothes on, find your dumb bells, and have that bottle of water handy, because Coach Nicole is going to warm you up and work you out!! It's an overall total body workout that incorporates strength training and cardio while providing a lot of fun at the same time. It's clear, precise and easy to follow. Best of all... you always have the option to modify your workout to challenge yourself and meet your particular fitness needs. It's up to you and your own personal trainer... Coach Nicole.

There are several options in choosing your workout. The first one is choosing a Coach Nicole custom workout. Basically this takes you through a daily and weekly fitness program from Beginner to Advanced. This is great for someone who is new to a fitness program and perhaps would benefit from a structured program. It advances you gradually and challenges you as your fitness level improves. Hey...what better than to let someone else use their expertise to plan your workout and maximize your results.

The other option is to choose your own workout from a 69 minute total body workout divided into 5 different sections consisting of: (1)Warm-up (2)Barre Body Blast (3) Body Weight Burn (4) Sizzle-Sculpt Circuit and (5) Cool down.

After a gradual warm up, the Barre Body Blast incorporates Yoga, Pilates, and Ballet Barre. I find this section very interesting and quite challenging. I do a lot of Pliet squats at the gym but this puts a whole new spin on them. I had no idea there were so many different ways to do this type of squat and believe this will optimize my results. This whole section gradually increases intensity by providing intervals that include strength training and short cardio bursts.

The Body Weight Burn section essentially uses cardio and strength training to combine for the ultimate total body workout produced by using your body weight and a set of dumb bells. It works to get your heart rate up, keep it up, and burn calories.

Lastly the Sizzle Sculpt Circuit is a great option to tone your body at home. I am huge into strength training but am many times strapped for time. I like this because I don't have to spend endless hours at the gym lifting weights to get the desired results. I've lost 118 lbs and needless to say...I've got a lot of toning to do. This is the perfect DVD for those who want to take their body sculpting to the next level..I'm ready. How about you??

Of course last but not least the Cool Down. Coach Nicole always warms you up and cools you down in a safe and professional manner. I really appreciate this. Throughout the DVD, you are always given the option to modify the workout so that so that it is the safest possible for you and your fitness level.

Now I'm going to share a huge benefit that I feel I have received from this particular fitness video. As an older adult (57 years young) I feel that perhaps I should be paying more attention to my balance. Yes..BALANCE. I found this DVD really challenged and improved my balance, particularly the Ballet Barre section. After doing this video consistently I can see a definite improvement in my flexibility and balance. I think this is very beneficial to improve my health, keep me safe, and protect me from falls as I become older!

So...are you ready to take a chance friends? If you want to burn calories, tone up, and have fun..this video is for you. I don't think it will disappoint. It is currently available at Amazon and but hurry... if you order before February 28 at you will receive 250 Sparkpoints.

Peace out friends...get your fitness on and take care!!


*** "I received this DVD for free from Sparkpeople but did not receive any form of payment for my review"

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DEBIGENE 3/6/2013 8:52AM

    I don't know how I missed this blog girlfriend but it def doesn't surprise me how much you enjoyed it !!! I wouldn't expect anything less from you other than praise when it comes to you and your fitness and workouts !!! You are def my fitness hero and one day I hope to grow up to be just like you !!!

You're AWESOME !!!!!!!!!!

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AME4IT 2/26/2013 1:59PM

    thanks for sharing your review.

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SHFELKEY 2/26/2013 9:32AM

    Thanks for posting your review of the DVD! Keep up the great work!

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KITT52 2/25/2013 8:36AM

    thanks for the reveiw

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JANNEPERRY 2/25/2013 5:36AM

    Great review of the DVD Carol! It sounds really good. I won and received the Cardio Blast DVD and did some of that on our snow day. It too was structured for all levels.

Glad you gave a shout ou to balance activities. Losing it is what makes old people old--and most of us would like to postpone that as long as possible emoticon

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_CYNDY55_ 2/25/2013 1:20AM

    emoticonThank You for your Review!

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MARINEMAMA 2/24/2013 7:25PM

    Sounds great!

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LINDAMARIEZ1 2/24/2013 7:20PM

    we need to like or love our workouts! You are truly
blessed! emoticon

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LOLAJO54 2/23/2013 11:25PM

    excellant review --
Our target here in Canada is opening tomorrow so off I will go to get my copy then my spark points ----then a sweat on --lol

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CINDYSDAY 2/23/2013 9:10PM

    Glad you are enjoying and for free! emoticon

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MTNGRL 2/23/2013 2:37PM

    Excellent review! I am leery about any squats or lunges, bad hips, but always find a way to modify things.
Perfect snowy day workout. Thanks!

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CINDHOLM 2/23/2013 1:17PM

    emoticon for the review.. emoticon Spark ON!!

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HAPPYSOUL91 2/23/2013 11:49AM

    Great review and woo hoo the DVD was free!

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RISAMEANSLAUGH 2/23/2013 11:37AM

    Dear Carol,

This is really an interesting review. I'm not sure my knees are quite ready but am very much planning to look into it. Thanks for a thorough review. I feel more motivated just reading this!! Have a great day/weekend. I wish we had as much snow as y'all. As a Texan by birth, I always believe more snow is better (silly, I know).

All the best!
Riisa emoticon

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THEEXERCISER 2/23/2013 11:21AM


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2012 kicked my butt.... I'm letting go & moving on!!

Saturday, January 05, 2013

2012... A year ago I sat here thinking this could possibly be the best year of my life. I felt incredibly good! The changes I had made the past couple of years had taken hold, and I found my life had finally shifted to that of a predominately healthy and active lifestyle. I had regained my self-confidence, and felt strong and in control of my life.! Little did I know, 2012 would turn out to be the saddest and most challenging year I had experienced in all my life.

In 2012 I would come to know devastating loss, yet through the experience, I would receive unpredictable blessings. In March I lost my beloved Mother, after a seemingly sudden illness. Sitting by her bedside as she lay dying, I had enormous guilt! I spent more time with her the last 6 weeks of her life than I had spent with her the previous 2 years. I had been so preoccupied with MY health, MY well being, MY workouts, MY nutrition, that I ignored all else. The loss was difficult! Yet it was during this time, when the hard decisions were to me made, that I bonded with my siblings. We all found an unbelievable strength, deep down, that we didn't know existed. Today...we are united and our bonds are stronger, a true blessing!!

In April... I went through my second surgical breast biopsy. I was feeling better than I had felt my entire life, & again a black cloud was hanging over my head. It messed with my mind. Even though the results were good(benign), it'll still be another nine months before I could possibly be given the all clear. But what doesn't kill you makes you stronger-right? Hopefully Sept. 2013 will give me the results I have been waiting for!

Today, I have the tools to deal with life situations. I find that now, instead of grabbing a bag of chips when adversity strikes, I grab my MP3 player and go out for a walk/run! Instead of reaching for a candy bar , I grab a weight and lift it overhead. Instead of driving to the fast food joint, I drive to the gym! And instead of feeling sorry for myself, I feel grateful for this site, and for all my friends. I am proud of my dedication and hard work, and want nothing more than to share my success through motivation & inspiration!

I look at the pictures, and it amazes me how far I have come! But I know my work is not done. Becoming stagnant in my workouts, and complacent with my progress, would surely be a death sentence for me. My success in weight maintenance is contingent on: focusing on my goals, working my current fitness/nutrition programs, and improving upon them on a DAILY basis! are the goals I would like to achieve in 2013:

** Learn to LET IT GO. There are truly things we cannot change and cannot control. Kick guilt out the is out of my hands. I can only control my choices. I will not let the past adversely affect the future!

** RELAX...don't sweat the small stuff! I need to prioritize what is really important and what really doesn't matter. Does my house really need to be spotless?? Do I have to get all the laundry done before I can sit down for a rest? I guess I need to understand that EVERYTHING does not have to be done to perfection this very moment. Enjoy life...progress, not perfection!

** Watch portions. I generally eat pretty healthy, but I find that I often get too many calories from "Healthy foods". When the scale starts creeping up...this is usually the culprit in my case!! Watch it!!

** Specialized strength training. I currently do 3 general strength training sessions a week, either machines or free weights. I'd like to possibly go to 4 sessions a week...and be more specific in nature. I prefer free weights so maybe..1 day legs, 1 day arms, 1 day back/ abs, and 1 day chest /shoulders. It's attainable!

**2500 fitness minutes per month. I feel like need to take the minutes to the next level. This should be a challenge considering time constraints when working! Adding an extra strength training session per week and 15 extra cardio minutes per day would make this goal possible!

** Take on a 10K...I've done 5K's but I know I could do a 10K. I'd have to walk/run it. I do run as much as I can, but I'm not a hardcore runner nor do I aspire to be. I want to take it a bit easy on the old joints as I get some good sweating in!!

That's it lofty, major life changes. I made my major changes in 2010!! I'm on the right track...I just need to keep chugging along. Consistency has always been key to me. It doesn't matter how long it takes me to finish the long as I finish!!

Good luck to you in reaching your goals. Let's own 2013..Shall we??

Peace out

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LINDAMARIEZ1 11/12/2013 2:58PM

    You are a real go getter! You are m y inspiration, Carol! emoticon

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LINDAMARIEZ1 2/21/2013 1:03PM

    Carol, we all have guilt when a loved one dies! so many shoulda coulda and then there is the birthday gifts you see and Christmas gifts you see that they would just love (I could never find anything to give my dad for Christmas ) and now I see a billion!!! Things happened just as they should have Carol! Rejoice that she was your mom as long as you walked the earth! It was meant to be!
love ya
Linda emoticon

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LIGHTHOUSE23 1/15/2013 11:08PM

    Your dedication has and hard work has paid off immensely. You are truly an inspiration. I hope 2013 will be all that you had hoped for and more. I have no doubt that you will attain your goals. WGT, Carol!!!! emoticon emoticon

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SAISHA100CJ 1/15/2013 8:03AM

    Great goals, Carol. You ARE truly Awesome!

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PROVERBS31JULIA 1/8/2013 6:11PM

    WHAAAAAAT? you just burst my bubble, Carol!!


Just Kidding!!!

I had truly thought you were a runner, lithe and as graceful as a gazelle across the Kansas Plains... (or Africa, I don't much care, but I've never been to the African Plains. Just Egypt. Ehhhh.)!!

Oh well, strength training is good so I think I'd rather do that then run!

Stay inspirational!

And I saw a graphic somewhere, can't remember the exact words without going to my portable brain (SparkPage) but it's something like "Don't Look Back - You Aren't Going There!" so that might be a good one for you to snag for your photos.

And I like how your page got scootched to the right side, right margin flush or whatever they call it, so all the graphics can be seen beside and below! How'd you do that?? I'll go fiddle around with my page edit because I don't like seeing only half the background graphic when the main box is smack down the middle.



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KITT52 1/8/2013 7:11AM

    great are proof it can be done....

Have a healthy and happy new year

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SWEETMAGNOLIA2 1/8/2013 3:56AM

    Carol, you are an inspiration to me, not only in what you have achieved physically, but with your balanced way of thinking. We never know what a day will bring, but we can face it better with a clear mind and healthy body. I have no doubt that you will achieve your goals this year.

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ANOTHERMOMOF2 1/7/2013 2:41PM

    I hope 2013 is good to you!

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JOYFULROAD 1/6/2013 2:45PM

  Carol, you are one inspiring gal! Thanks for posting this - I know it takes a while to recover from the death of a parent, after my mother died I didn't feel like even being alive and on this earth for a year - but the best gift we can give them is the gift of moving forward in our own lives - I believe that's what just about any mother would want for her daughter. xxx

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MARINEMAMA 1/6/2013 11:12AM

    Great goals!! You can do it!!! And I agree with the posts below!! YOU are amazing!!

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JANNEPERRY 1/6/2013 8:23AM

    Carol 2012 just continued your amazing journey. You are such a strong person and provide a great example to so many people. Thank you for that! emoticon I think your goals for life for 2013 are just right.

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NEEDTOLOOSE1 1/6/2013 1:39AM

You are an amazing women. Great goals for 2013

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AJDOVER1 1/5/2013 11:51PM

    You've come through the year with strength and grace. Thanks for showing us how a classy person gets through tough times.

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REDEYEMOM 1/5/2013 10:22PM

    Carol, you are an AMAZING woman! Your success motivates me to keep going!

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HAPPYSOUL91 1/5/2013 7:55PM

    Excellent steps and goals Carol. I know you can do anything you set your mind to doing.

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CINDYSDAY 1/5/2013 7:51PM

    emoticon goals! emoticon

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LOLAJO54 1/5/2013 7:26PM

    Carol excellant goals

loved the relax paragraph .. so agree with this.

I knew there was issues last year --- you are a strong woman and you made it through and made special bonds with your siblings a bonus there.

All the best for you in 2013 --it is our year --rock on!
oh yes do that 10k then go for the half marathon -- bet you will love it. -you do not have to be a runner -- just jog walk it.. YOU can do it all..

emoticon a spark buddy Jo

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VTRICIA 1/5/2013 6:57PM

    It has been a wild ride, and I am inspired by how you've stuck with you healthy lifestyle through the rough times!

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KIMBERTA99 1/5/2013 6:05PM are an amazing person with amazing drive!! I love your attitude...letting go and relaxing is a great goal to work on. I have been working on those as well. You will succeed in your goals as look how far you have want it will get it!! Stay strong as always and I am so glad that we are sparkfriends!!


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JESSIKA_56 1/5/2013 5:14PM

    Awesome goals! If you ever need a running buddy (I walk, too!) I'm here for you!

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DEBIGENE 1/5/2013 5:06PM

    Carol, you will surely reach your goals, remember you are AWESOME !!! I like to thing you are more like Wonder Woman but of course she was AWESOME too !!! All I can say to you is what I do best .... HAVE FUN !!!

HUGS to a good friend. Thanks for always being there.

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CORKYTHEMOM1 1/5/2013 4:04PM

    emoticon blog, Carol!! I am so PROUD of each and every one of your achievements! It has been an honor to be a part of your journey. You INSPIRE me on a daily basis. You are an EXTRAORDINARY role model to follow. There is no doubt in my mind that you WILL achieve your 2013 goals! I am cheering you all the way! Have a WOOHOO weekend!

~ Monika ~ emoticon

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CYN1825 1/5/2013 3:58PM

    Sorry for your loss in 2012. I am blessed to have both parents alive at 83 years old. But, I find myself wondering if they will be with me throughout 2013. I see them failing-particularly my father.
But, if truth be known, I could be the first one to pass. That is always the mystery of life.
I saw myself in your blog. But I also know that YOU taking care of yourself was probably important to your mother. My parents are divorced and Mom lives with me. I can tell you she is my commandant. "I didn't hear you this morning. Did you workout on the treadmill? How is the weight loss going?"
I am sure your mother is proud of your progress. And, as a mother, I can say that my most proud moments are in the sucesses of my children.
Go forward & conquer! You now have an angel watching over you!

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CINDHOLM 1/5/2013 3:52PM

    Great 2013 goals!! emoticon emoticon

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Sunday, July 15, 2012

Hi spark buddies....

It's been awhile since I have ventured into blogland. Lately there is something that has really been bothering me and I need your collective thoughts on the subject!! My scale is being MEAN to me and I don't like it!! I don't believe the numbers on the scale are an accurate representation of how fit a person is!!

As you know I have lost a considerable amount of weight, and have been a yo-yo dieter the better part of my adult life. Therein lies the problem. I feel it is necessary for me to keep an eyeball on the numbers to keep from once again gaining back all my weight, and possibly more! I have done this so many times..I'm sick of it!

Recently the numbers on my scale have started to gradually increase. When I first met my weight loss goal over a year ago, I settled in weighing about 115 lbs. and stayed there for awhile. In my mind I looked pretty scrawny at that weight with not a lot of muscle mass, but i had just in the 6 months prior to that, begun a strength training regimen! It took awhile to see results!

These days my weight consistently stays around 120 increase of 5 lbs. I am approaching 2 years of strength training workouts 3 times per week! When I look in the mirror these days, I see a very fit looking person with much more muscle definition than I had when I started! I am dedicated to fitness and I eat healthy most of the time...none of that has changed! My clothes size has also stayed the same! The only difference...the number on my scale is increasing!

So... I need your take on this. I feel like I am gaining muscle mass and possibly need to get off the scale. Tell me this is what is going on! What can I do to be sure I am not gaining my unhealthy weight back as I have many times?? Should I blow the scale of totally? (this scares me)! The last time I blew off the scale totally, I ended up weighing 225+ lbs. I fear that if I continue to gain, I will freak out (I'm close to that point now)! Or...should I just continue as I have, maintaining my healthy habits and not worry about my increasing weight.

I appreciate your insight....this has really been bothering me lately!! I hate that the number on the scale has so much dominance over me. It actually ruins my day if I don't like the number that pops up when I weigh in! That is just so sad! Fear is very powerful....I just know I can control many things, but have yet to discover the secret of defeating the power of the numbers on a stupid scale! It's a fine line between controlling those numbers and letting them get out of control!

Thanks for your help! As always, I appreciate all of the support, hugs, and prayers you continue to give me!! So what do you think????


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PROVERBS31JULIA 1/8/2013 6:17PM

    So what's the follow-on? Did you take measurements? Did your clothes shrink or did they get baggier or did they stay the same?

Rock on!!

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SLIM242 9/30/2012 9:39PM

I can't believe my scale is broken! Last week it just stopped working. Okay, now I will need to practice what I preach!
Since I can't afford to buy a new scale right now, I am going to gage my weight lost in other ways.

Today, I took my measurements,in a few weeks I will do it again and compare to see if I lost any inches. Also, I brought a dress that was a tight fit. I will try it on weekly to gage weight lost. The only other measure will be how quickly I recover from a run and my overall well-being.


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SLIM242 9/22/2012 8:42AM

    Hi Carol,
The statement below was on the SparkCoach page, I copied it to share with you. I had to really think about this.

Daily Visualization:
Today, imagine that you live in a world where scales do not exist. How would you measure your success? How would you know if you were healthy and fit?


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SLIM242 9/18/2012 10:11PM

Here's my 2 cent on this matter.

According to a book called "The Fat to Muscle Diet", you must increase you lean muscle mass and burning power to maintain your Ideal weight. Yes, muscle weighs more than fat!

When you lose fat and gain muscle, you can weigh more than the ideal body weight tables say is right for your frame. You can be slim and actually weigh more than a fatter person, because muscle is heavier than fat. With a lower percent of body fat, you will be leaner and fit smaller sizes.

Regarding the scale, your scale tells you nothing about your percentage of body fat or percent of muscle mass. As mentioned by Proverbs31Julia stated, you can get your muscle mass measured to determine your actual percentage of body fat/muscle ratio. I did it once through a weight management class I took, it was eye opening!

Bottom line, don't rely totally on your scale, weigh yourself once a week and rely on better body feelings.

Try to stop worrying about regaining the weight, visualize yourself maintaining the slim and trim look for years to come and it will be. Sometimes our greatest fears come true because we are dwelling on it all the time. Focus on the beautiful transformation of your body and know it will continue to be as long as you focus and visualize yourself being 115-120 pounds years from now. Say to yourself "I got this!"


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JANSAM2 9/4/2012 9:01AM

    Decide that 120-125 is you goal weight with muscles!! then keep at that weight. Dont lose the scale altogether. But dont be a slave to it. You did look scrawny for a while. You look great now. emoticon

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MEMORIES7 8/29/2012 10:49AM

    emoticon emoticonHugs, Rose:)

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PROVERBS31JULIA 8/22/2012 9:16AM

    Speaking as the fatty who still hasn't re-started ST but remembers back when I did, all these comments ring true. I have skin fold calipers that I can share with you, or even the YMCA has those tools - I believe you may have to pay a small fee? Then when your siblings or friends wonder what to give you for your (fill in the blank - birthday, Spark Anniversary, Christmas, etc.) gifting occasion, have 'em get one of those scales that measures body fat and lean body mass (get the kind targeted for serious athletes. The one I have specifically says it is NOT for seriouly fit athletes.).

There is a book - "Fit or Fat" by Covert Bailey, fairly small - I have his first book from the 1980's but he has done some updates since then. It's historically* funny in places, but I am sure he will put your mind completely at rest - clarifies just how muscles weigh MORE, but take up LESS volume (space)... Which does explain why your clothes still fit, but you are "heavier" then you were. Muscles are golden - they are fat-eating machines!!

You Rock!!


*(!? should be "hysterically" !! and it's even more hysterical realizing how long I let this mistake sit here on your blog, looking like a compete illiterate schmuck!)

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CRAZYWOMAN10 8/2/2012 5:12PM

    I didnt have time to read all your responses; however, I will give you "my advice" lol

I really believe that you are gaining muscle. The way to keep track of this is to have an actual Body Fat reading done (not BMI....but Body Fat). Have it done with a professional machine. With that, it will tell you exactly what part is fat and what is muscle. I'm sure you will see that your muscle weight is increasing and your fat is decreasing.

I would also maybe just weight 2x a long as you are following your plan. :)

Hope this helps.

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KNEWMETODAY 7/29/2012 6:52PM

    Aren't Spark friends wonderful? I just want you to remember that, as a group, we probably tend to be obsessive/compulsive in some areas including the cotton-pickin' scale. Believe your eyes--change your goal weight to accomodate the strength training; it's just a number!! I know that you're committed to your exercise and have not abandoned the other exercise you'd been doing.

Sometimes picking a goal weight is a bit arbitrary, and we probably slide to a too-thin instead of a healthy goal. Take a second look. Reaching a goal weight is amazing, and I'm looking forward to it. I know you'll be waiting for me at the finish line!!


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WARRIORGIRL9 7/17/2012 1:51AM

    Wow, Carol...isn't it great to know you're not alone? I'm right there with you. I try to tell myself to not look at that darn scale and look at how much easier it is for me to do leg lifts, crunches, biking...whatever. My legs and arms are looking great from the swimming.
I'm just afraid of gaining back to where I started. It's upsetting, frustrating, scary. I don't want to go back!
So....I just keep moving. I just keep enjoying my swim time with my children. I just keep trying. Perhaps, I'll hide those scales for awhile
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LIONESS678 7/16/2012 4:46PM

    Carol, you are awesome! Muscle weighs more than fat! It's okay. You go girl!

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SAISHA100CJ 7/16/2012 7:19AM

    It sounds like 120 is a good weight for you... you feel healthy, look healthy and your clothes fit well etc... so, if you are within a healthy BMI range, I would not worry about what the scale says.
If that scale is robbing you of your joy.... ignore it, and only weigh-in when you feel like it.
Maybe 115 was too low for you, especially if you felt you looked a little scrawny. I vote for the 120 since you like the fit, healthy person you see in the mirror.
You are doing great! Hugs!!

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KMICHA 7/16/2012 6:15AM

    Isn't it great to know you are not alone? I tend to live by the scale too and I have been struggling with the number there for the past 6 - 8 months. Yet, I know I'm doing all the right stuff (except for sleep) and the number has crept up. I did begin adding more weight training about a year ago and like you I see a healthy person when I look into the mirror, not one who is over weight . . . and like you, It freaks me out that as I get older, the number creeps appears to creep upward.

So many great suggestions here, I think I will take a few of them and apply to myself. All that said my friend, you are doing great! You are committed and dedicated! You inspire me!

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VTRICIA 7/16/2012 1:14AM

    I'd second the suggestion to take measurements (waist and hip). I take mine about once a month.

I did hydrostatic weighing after I completed a 12 week body for life course back in 2002. Even then, I wondered if my lungs were really as empty of air as they could have been. I have fat fold calipers, even. I haven't used them in many years, though. I'm not even sure if I could find the directions.

The internet says muscle is 20 to 30 percent smaller than the same weight of fat. So that explanation is entirely possible.

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BEFIT014 7/15/2012 11:13PM

    Yeah, most likely muscle gain, especially if your clothes are still fitting. Have you taken your measurements?

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AJDOVER1 7/15/2012 11:01PM

    Wow! Look at all the great response you've gotten from SparkFriends! You're a great person with lots of caring friends.

I join you in the concern that I will gain the weight back again plus more (yep, I've done it before). I guess one thing you need to determine is if 115 is just an arbitrary number to which you've become attached. Unless you're significantly less than 5 feet tall, 120 is within range of a healthy BMI.

The scale can be a great tool for observing trends. The fit of your clothes, your comfort in your own skin, and your feelings of health and fitness are other great tools.

Stressing over a number is taking some of the joy out of your life and that's just wrong. You deserve all the joy you can find in this world!

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LOLAJO54 7/15/2012 10:39PM

    well my thoughts
with being dedicated to strength training it is mostly likely muscle mass as we all know muscle weighs more then fat -- be quiet Mary--lol she knows what I mean..

maybe just weigh in once every 2 weeks --are you measuring? this will help to convince you that you are on the correct path ..eating healthy drinking water working out..

try and recalculate your calories too... this will determine if you are over eating on some nutrient..

stop stressing you are doing fantastic

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RAINBOWMF 7/15/2012 9:02PM

    emoticon great answers to you blog.

I let the scale set my mood, so I can't give you advice
but I did love all the comments.

Hugs Mary

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2BMYOWN 7/15/2012 6:33PM

    Personally, I think your clothing is a more accurate gauge of your ups and downs. If you are still in the same size and they still fit as they did prior to the weight training, then where is the problem? I think the scale makes people obsessive. It's good to 'monitor' but NOT good to stress about every pound fluctuation going, since there are so many things that can cause daily fluctuations. Keep working your program and doing what you have been doing. If you start climbing up even more and your clothes begin to become tight, THEN I'd say you might have something to worry about. In the meantime, quit all the stressing, for pete's sake! LOL I'm all for maintaining but I am so not into all the stressing. That does nothing but create a vicious circle.

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LESLIESENIOR 7/15/2012 6:12PM

    What??? Did you jump into my brain this morning, run around, gather information and then write this blog??? I was saying exactly the same thing this morning.
I lost 60 pounds and began maintenance in 2006. I kept my weight between 138 and 140 for about 4 years. When I began walking/running in 2010 I gained 5 lbs. After much deliberation, I decided that it was muscle. When I joined Spark 1 year ago it was to find a way to lose those 5 lbs. Little did I know that Spark would help me accept the 5 lbs and keep up my fitness.
However, this morning, I added another pound BEYOND my new set point. (too many eating occasions) This always sounds like nothing to friends and family so I don't mention it. They just see me as thin and "I don't have a problem with my weight". But, in my mind the fear of yo-yo-ing again is real. I'm like you, I have gone up and down sooooo many times. I'm relatively tall, so people don't notice it as much I guess.

I keep the scale in the bathroom but have really worked on not allowing it to control my moods. I just take some new action and keep on going. I'm doing the today, as we speak.

But, scale or no scale is a very personal choice.

Looks like from the responses, you have hit a very common chord with all of us!!!!

You are amazing,

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DEBIGENE 7/15/2012 3:09PM

    Hello my friend, I had to check out your blog and must concure as I have done a lot of reading on W/L and Healthy living. Yes muscle def weighs more and will show up on your numbers. But that's NOT a bad thing. You are living healthy and THAT's the most important !!! Living healthy keeps us healthy. I would def be WAY more concerned if my clothes were getting tight, then realize the body wiehgt is taking effect , not the muscle weight !!!

GOD bless you !!!

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    You have accomplished so much, Carol! I would not give up the weigh-ins but perhaps target "under 120" versus 115... I'd also see if there is a place that can do a "submerged water" weigh in for you... I think you would find with all of your strength training that you are a lot more muscle and that your weight is "settling in" after maintaining the loss for so long. I agree with Anne above as well ~ as long as your clothes are fitting well that's a huge test. At least you've hit goal! I'm still struggling with the last ten pounds now for over 7 months!

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BABYBARNEY 7/15/2012 1:17PM

    Hi Carol,

I sooo relate to your dilemna..although I'm no where near the length of time you've been maintaining...but after reaching my goal 2 or 3 times & then less, I'm also so fearful of gaining any back. Logically I know that muscle weighs more but I think subconsciously I avoid excess strength training...because of that inward fear. I lift weights 1x a week religiously & like you I eat healthy, watch my portions & track what I eat. I am a cardio addict & my movements & activity levels keep me burning off the calories well. My advice to you is to weighin regularly as you did when you were actively losing weight. It will keep your mind satisfied, & you can adjust the calories abit until you see a reduction or adjust your activity if you prefer. I remember what it was like the week I went on a cruise & stayed away from the scale in the fitness center. I was a nervous wreck by my next don't put yourself through that...unfortunately the scale does have abit of power if your clothes are fitting you the same.
Also, unfortunately. age does play a part & since we're about the same age I think we can't really do much about that. Afterall, its a part of life, right? Anyway, your strength training is definitely benefiting you, your photos show that. As long as you feel stronger, I think I would allow yourself a few pounds leeway...maybe its your bodies way of telling you you should weigh more. Stay with your're worth it!!!

Keep on sparkin,
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ANNE1123 7/15/2012 1:09PM

    I think it can be due to muscle gains, and it can also be that your body wants to be a little bigger. I'm sure that looking at your photos 120 vs. 115 is not that much of a big deal. And it could be, as a trainer once told me, that is the weight or number that best fits your frame. If you are still fitting into your favorite clothes with ease, then don't worry about it.


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QUIERRA 7/15/2012 1:05PM

    Hi Carol. I'm fairly new to this weight loss journey, but in my naivety I would still say that your weight gain is due to your gain in muscle mass. You sound like a very fit individual who has started a strength training regimen with great results. From what I've learned so far, you would need to throw more cardio in there to lose weight, if you want to. In my opinion, I wouldn't though. It sounds like you look great and are trying to tone up, so who cares what the scale says? :)

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The Letter....

Sunday, April 08, 2012

Good Easter Morning Sparkfriends...

Most of you have been with me the past 7 weeks as I have traveled a most challenging journey. I have experienced a roller coaster of emotions, going from frustrated, to hopeful, to happy, sad, and ultimately relief at the passing of my Mom.

There is one piece of the puzzle that I haven't shared with incident that happened on the day of her death that was so incredible and I will never forget it! I wanted to wait until I had the time to share the moment in a blog so I could fully devote the attention to the "Letter" that it fully deserved!

Here goes: On March 26 a few hours after Mom's passing, we all gathered as a family at her house to support each other and decide where to go from there. We had all been discussing her funeral, the obituary, and her memorial, when we decided to into her room to look for her Mother's ring...that's when we found the letter. On her desk was an envelope that was unsealed and on it was written "To be opened upon my death", in my Mom's handwriting. Now , my Mom went into the hospital very suddenly for what we thought was a short stay, so the letter had to be written days or weeks before her sickness set in. It gave me goosebumps.

We decided to read the letter privately with just the 6 siblings present. It was heartwarming, sad in parts and comforting in is the jest of it. When I quote Mom it is loosely as I don't have a copy of the letter yet but will be receiving one as it is precious and we all want to keep it close in our memories!

*** She did not want a picture with her obituary! This made me brothers and sisters were surprised. Not me...she spent most of her adult life dodging the camera and hated having her picture taken. She thought her photos were terrible..I wish I had more photos of her now.

***She wanted her memorial to be to the Friends of Father Philip Allen memorial. This supported seminarians and she loved Father surprise here.

*** She wanted to be buried in a size 20 gray dress that she had worn to some of the grand-children's weddings. Now it was hard to honor this request. When my Mom passed she maybe weighed 120 lbs...hardly a size 20. When we looked at the dress it had a stain on it that could not be removed. Mom prearranged her funeral...she had done this many years prior. She picked out a pretty dark blue casket with light blue interior but next to the gray dress it looked like civil war colors. We buried Mom in a pretty cream colored outfit, but secretly tucked into the foot of the casket and unknown to all but her family, the grey dress lie.. to be buried with her forever. We felt like we honored her request.

***She wanted my niece Laura to sing. She is a very talented singer who many times has sung at weddings and funerals. She sang the Ave' Maria before the funeral and it was stunning! I don't know how she held it together.

That was all the requests that Mom had and all of them were honored, but it was the rest of the letter that brought tears to our eyes and left me feeling sad that I had no clue what was going through my Mom's head in the months prior to her death!

Mom told us she loved each and every one of us and that a day didn't go by that she didn't pray for us! She said she would continue to pray for us after her death and that she "believed in the power of prayer!" She then apologized and hoped that she "hadn't been a burden" and said if there were any hard feelings..."she was truly sorry"!

Oh my goodness....the sadness I felt when I heard this. It was so comforting to me to know she loved us and prayed for us everyday..and would continue to do so after her death, but so sad that she thought she was a burden! If anything..we were the burden. She was widowed at 37 years of age and raised 6 kids from 7 to 17 years of amazing. She did all of this alone...with no family to help her. If I did anything to imply that I thought she was a burden...I am so sorry! I sat in the hospital day after day and heard doctors say how frail and weak Mom wrong they were! Physically yes... but they knew nothing of this amazing woman's spirit, her dedication to her family, her unselfishness and fortitude. A burden...Never!!

The letter we found is priceless....I find myself thinking of it often! I believe it was written around Christmas when Mom shared with another lady, that she was "tired and ready to go". The many years of suffering with rheumatoid arthritis, I believe, took it's toll. For whatever reason she wrote the letter, I just wished I could have told her some things before her death, rather than learn how she felt after. I have hope in knowing that she is smiling down on me from heaven, and she knows how much she is truly loved and how our hearts will miss her forever.

Thanks Mom for all your you!!


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LINDAMARIEZ1 9/28/2012 6:40AM

    Your Mom was a very special lady! You are blessed, Carol! emoticon

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MEMORIES7 8/29/2012 10:53AM

    I am so sorry for your loss carol. Hugs, Rose emoticon

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SWEETMERCYDAY4 8/28/2012 9:12PM

    Dear Carol, As i read your heartfelt words i couldn`t stop the tears. I am so sorry for the passing of your Mother. I can truthfully say i know how you feel. My Mother passed April 13,2001.(Good friday) at age 78. My son passed Feb. 21,2007 at age 35. Parents aren`t suspose to have to bury their children. Seems like we feel alone on this planet when our parents are gone. Even though we are all grown up and able to care for ourselves we miss them so much. Can`t tell you how many times i picked up the phone to call my Mother and my son the first few years after they passed. You are so fortunate to have a letter from your Mother. She sounds like a loving Mother and she proved it by writing the letter. You are truly blessed.

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SWEETMERCYDAY4 8/28/2012 9:11PM

    Hi Carol, Keep blogging.....You have a gift with words!

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JOYFULROAD 8/17/2012 11:32PM

  this made me cry too! How precious that your mother went to the trouble to write down her thoughts - I wish my mother had, I would have treasured that - I am going to try to do the same thing - but not yet!

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LEANJEAN6 7/6/2012 8:25PM

    Aww--You made me cry! --No one can replace yer Mom---I'm so happy I read yer blog---She sounds like she was a wonderful Lady--Lynda

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ANHELIC 6/3/2012 6:49PM

    Thank you for your awesome blog. I have about 80 lbs. to lose. I need some inspiration and you gave it to you in your blog. I weigh 240 and want to get down to 160 lbs. or even 150 lbs. I am doing it one pound at a time. I will go back to inspiration from your blog. I am 69 years with really bad arthritis in both knees and am diabetic. I need help and I know Sparkpeople is the place to be.
thank you for your help.
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RADAZZLE 5/27/2012 5:33PM

    Thank you for sharing this. I lost my Mom in 1993, just after she turned 78 (stomach & esophageal cancer). I still miss her so much. I wish I had found a letter from her. I think it would have brought a lot of peace with it. Treasure the letter.

It is possible that your Mom was apologizing just in case she had ever been a burden (or what she would consider to be a burden, which could be almost anything). It's a normal worry of parents. I don't believe she really thought that you felt she was a burden. She was just covering all the bases. :-)

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ELLFIN3 5/8/2012 8:00PM

    Oh My!!! My Mom has been gone for 3 years and I miss Her everyday, but especially around Mothers Day!!! The Letter is wonderful!!! My Mom told My Sister which dress She wanted to buried in. Well she had two dresses that were similar. And You guessed it We buried Her in the wrong dress!! I think She would understand! I hope You have had an awesome day!!! emoticon Thoughts and Prayers You way!!!! (((((HUGS)))))

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1BEACHWALKER 4/27/2012 10:05PM

    Sorry I missed this from earlier when you posted it. Brought tears to my eyes Carol...such a wonderful blog. What a blessing to find that letter and to be able to honor her wishes and know what she felt in her heart. I think all parents feel like that, about the burden part...don't let it hurt you or bother you. I feel sure she knew how much you all loved her and cared-especially there at the end when you were there with her constantly during her time at the hospital. Thank you for sharing this. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CARANN56 4/26/2012 10:45PM

    Your mother was obviously a very wonderful woman. I wonder if she really realized what a powerful last memory she gave you all in that letter.

Carol - you were very blessed to have your mother with you for so long, and I am confident she knew how much you loved and cherished her also.


By the way - you look a lot like your mother - beautiful women!

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KNEWMETODAY 4/21/2012 10:03PM

    I am sorry for your loss and glad that you had the strength and desire to share her final thoughts.

I've read all of your blogs now and left comments on most. So much of your journey does resonate with me and my journey, and I thank your friend for suggesting I contact you. I have eleven years on you and yet so much is the same and will be the same. I want you there when I reach my goal AND I'll buy dinner!!

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ACIMPEGGY 4/20/2012 7:46PM

    Mom probably couldn't have found the words if she tried to say the things in the letter face to face. Now you have another cherished memory.

I still feel my mama's spirit with me sometimes as well as her love and assistance.

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CAMOGIE3 4/20/2012 7:32PM

    Carol, your mom sounds like an amazing woman! I also think you've definitely got a lot of her genes! Thank you so much for sharing about the letter. Love ya bunches!

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LESLIESENIOR 4/20/2012 4:52PM

    Dear, dear Carol,
I am so sorry that I am so behind in reading my favorite Sparkfriend blogs. I am home today on a furlough day and have devoted the day to "catching up" on everything including my Spark friends.
This account of your experience after your mom's death was joyfully chilling. I have goose bumps reading your words. Your mom had to have been so very proud of the woman you are. Your family received your amazing love, support, and strength all through your long journey with your mom's illness and death.

I am honored to know you. Your positive spirit is inspiring and uplifting. Thank you for sharing your feelings so honestly and transparently.

In admiration,

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MTNGRL 4/19/2012 8:28AM

    Just beautiful Carol. What a wonderful gift from your Mom. A few years ago I began writing my children letters for when I am gone. I wish I had started this sooner.
Thank you so much for sharing this precious letter with us.

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    What a beautifully written blog! I truly enjoyed reading it and thank you for sharing it with all of us!

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JESSIKA_56 4/11/2012 12:40PM

    I hope the letter will remind you of beautiful memories that you hold about your mom. :)

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Wow Carol! How touching and what precious insight your Mom gave you and your siblings into her life and her deep love for all of you. Clearly she has passed this wonderful heart and spirit on to you! It is no surprise that you have been able to make such remarkable accomplishments in your Spark-journey!

Many blessings to you my friend!

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THEADMIRAL 4/9/2012 7:36PM

    What a blessing to have this letter from such a loving mother! She's a lovely example for all of us to follow. Thanks for sharing her blessings to you and your siblings, Carol. emoticon emoticon

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JAYMAXX 4/9/2012 10:36AM

    Carol, God bless you. i'm too broken up right now to think of anything else to say.

love jay

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LUCKYME2G 4/9/2012 9:05AM

    Beautiful. That brought tears to my eyes. She would be very proud of your family for handling everything with such grace.

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DEBIGENE 4/9/2012 9:01AM

    Carol, you are an amazing awesome woman and it sounds like you got that from your mom !!! Thank you for sharing such private thoughts of her with us.

My eyes filled with tears as I read your blog and have to tell you that I thought of my own relationship, broken as it is, with my mom and will write her a letter for my birthday and thank you and tell her all the good things I want her to hear from me before she dies. I don't want her to leave this life knowing anything less than the love I hold in my heart for her and my dad as well. So again I thank you Carol and you will stay in my prayers for GOD's love and comfort to be with you the rest of the days of your life also.

HUGS my friend.

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    Carol ~ Thank you for continuing to share such personal aspects of your life journey. Your mom was an amazing woman and you are and amazing daughter. I know that you will continue to keep in touch with her in new ways since her passing. What a blessing that she could share in this way with you... emoticon

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GOOZLEBEAR 4/8/2012 9:40PM

    Carol, that letter was truly a gift from God from your Mother. How very special for you and your siblings to have those memories. I wish my Mom had thought to do something like that but it will be something that I would like to do for my kids.

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RUBYCLAIRE 4/8/2012 6:11PM

    Oh my dear Carol, you are such a sweet, sweet friend. Thank you so much for sharing such an intimate part of your life, love & sorrow. To lose your Mom is one of the most difficult things that life throws at us.

May it give you, & your family, some form of comfort to know that you are surrounded by MANY who love you.

Big hugs being sent to ALL of you in this very sad time.
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RAINBOWMF 4/8/2012 5:54PM

    A letter left for you all to find, what a beautiful thing for your Mom to do.

You all know how special she was and this letter proves it.

Hugs and Love Carol. emoticon

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CANINE_MAMA 4/8/2012 5:39PM

    That is truly a special letter. I think that being tired and ready to go to the next life is why my dad died so soon after my mom. I have been thinking a lot about them today, as I'm sure you have your mother. Hugs and prayers. Vickie

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KIMBERTA99 4/8/2012 4:44PM

    Oh brought tears to my eyes while reading about your mom's letter!! I am sure she knew of your love for were with her til the end! It shows that we need to tell our loved ones daily how much we love them..just so we are sure they know! Just look in the mirror my dear friend and you will see your look so much alike!! I am glad that you were able to honor all her wishes including the grey dress!!

Sending you BIG emoticon your way!!

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2BMYOWN 4/8/2012 3:46PM

    What a marvelous, marvelous thing, Carol.....and how very much your mother loved you all. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing such a wonderful experience with us, your mother is certainly a precious, precious soul, and now your advocate in heaven. You have been incredibly blessed to have had such a parent, and she must have had a cast iron constitution to live the life that she did. She seems like one of the best examples of courage in the face of life that I have ever heard of. I didn't know she had RA, I can certainly empathize with that and I am sorry she suffered from it, but even that was not enough to knock her off her path. You have been blessed, sparky bud, and while I am very, very sorry for your loss, I am also glad that you had such a wonderful mom in this life, and such a perfect example of strength. May God bless you today and fill your mind and heart with only the best of memories.

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ANOTHERMOMOF2 4/8/2012 3:25PM


I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm glad you found the letter she wrote in time to honor some of her wishes.

Hope you are having a good day!

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DANA564 4/8/2012 3:14PM

    What a beautiful and caring woman your mother was and you have every right to be proud. How amazing that she had the insight to write such a loving letter to her children. Thanks for sharing such an intimate detail of your mother's life with us. I pray for peace and comfort to the family left behind. Blessings to all. emoticon

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MELLABELLAS 4/8/2012 2:41PM

    Oh Carol I am so sorry for your loss. What a wonderful thing to have found the letter though. I can't believe your mom wrote it so long in advance. Amazing! I wanted to thank you for writing this blog and sharing your amazing story with us. I will be keeping you and your family in my prayers.

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    I know how special that letter is to each of you. You honor her each day by being the person you are. emoticon

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JANNEPERRY 4/8/2012 2:03PM


What a special find for your family. I was blessed to read it on Easter Sunday! I'm sure your mom was a strong, wonderful, powerful (through prayer) person. Blessings emoticon

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CINDHOLM 4/8/2012 1:45PM

    Sorry for your loss and a BIG HUG!! emoticon

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LOLAJO54 4/8/2012 1:40PM

    oh Carol I am crying tears -- of emotions for you -- from smiles to happiness to tears of anger and deep sadness.. Hugs my Spark Friend -- Know that your mom is at peace with no more pain. Remember the good times you and your siblings had with her.. emoticon


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LYNNE_08 4/8/2012 1:02PM

    I'm sorry for you loss. I pray God will give you comfort and peace in your time of sorrow.,

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