Friday, December 06, 2013
Lost 6 lbs this past week. SP helps but I can't do the because I have been eating in fear and very little. I'm going on my second tests for the cause of a sudden abdominal pain that sent me to the ER a week ago. So far I'm told it may be dyspepsia, it may be gall bladder stones, and it may be my pancreas. Whatever it may be I'm going to lose weight whether I like it or not. It is so difficult eating right when you are surrounded and bombarded by commercials, pictures, billboards, and even menus that constantly tempt you, not to mention family and friends that get to enjoy your favorites while you hold the gravy, hold the butter, hold the sauce. when I eat what my body can't handle I get violently ill. When it's all over you would think that I should have no problem being strict with what I eat. Wrong! I want to eat the gooey pizza, the country fried chicken, the double double burger, and the chocolate caramel fudge ice cream. Will I die prematurely? Maybe. Will I die painfully and slowly? I think most likely if I don't put a stop to this! Anywho, I've done it before and I'll do it again, but this time I have to think of my loved ones. They need me around a lot longer. Plus, I don't want to suffer needlessly especially when I can make the choice not to.