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I'm being screamed at

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Okay so yesterday I worked out really hard at the gym. 25 minutes on the treadmill and 20 minutes on the circuit. And my inner thighs and legs are screaming at me today. I am so sore, BUT I still went to the gym and did 20 minutes on the treadmill. Only burned 155 calories today opposed to 540+ yesterday, but it is still something. Besides I have a nasty little migraine on the left side of my head since last night. And it really started to pound when I got into about 12 minutes on the treadmill.

You know what else is screaming at me? My stomach. I am so hungry lately throughout the day it is horrible. Yesterday I did really well and the only things I added to my diet was a cheese stick and a foot long from Subway (I know Jenn go with the 6in), but other than that I stuck by the diet.

Today I have stuck to the diet, not adding anything! WOOHOO!!! I am really going to try and not take any additional snacks. I thought that I could drink enough water to stop the hunger but it seems the more water I drink the hungrier I get. For heaven's sake I drank 2L of water yesterday alone.

Can't wait to go to the gym tomorrow! Hopefully this headache is gone and I can get some strength training done.

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CRISSIE198334 2/24/2009 9:36PM

    Hey GIrl!! I got here and look WHo I finally found! Good for you! I am with you now!

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ANJAUCH 2/17/2009 3:55PM

    Sleep is important and listening to your body. When I work out hard I make sure I have a really healthy snack afterwards - it helps.

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    Make sure your getting enough rest and sleep.

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Trials and Tribulations

Monday, February 16, 2009

Okay, so yesterday definitely was not a good day for me. Whether it be on the home front, at work, eating, or exercising. I was a complete emotional wreck yesterday at the house, thought for sure that my husband was planting seeds in my head for a divorce and the fact that he was seeing and ex-stripper/bank coworker of his. I did not do everything at my job yesterday that I should have I slacked completely and did the bare minimum to keep my officers safe and provide a service to the community. My children were on my absolute last nerver...I don't know there is just something about spilling something or making a mess looking at it and walking away. Or I don't know telling your mother no when she says that being a part of the family includes helping with the chores. I ate really good yesterday on the Sparkpeople diet and then went into self sabotage mode because of being depressed about the whole homefront situation that I decided I needed to eat 3..count them 3 slices of pizza. WHAT?! Exercising was not too bad I was able to do 20 minutes on the that was definitely a positive.

Today however has been much better. I did not eat breakfast this morning which was very very bad but I did go to the gym and burn like 549 calories! WOOHOO!! The only other issue that I have had today is that I did not stick by my portion control and get only a 6 inch sub from Subway..nope Footlong here I come...okay came I already ate it.

My BF seems to think that I haven't lost any weight really because I am on Paxil and she thinks that it is going to hinder me from losing weight...I don't know. I just can't be off of it, I go into ugly withdrawls not to mention that by far I am a better person and most of the time remarkabley happier than without it. I am just going to keep working at it and working my butt off at the gym and see what happens.

I gave my fridge a makeover this didn't like it and neither did my husband but OH WELL...this is for me. Besides we still have food in there, it just doesn't contain 500 calories per serving...oh and the vegetable drawer actually has veggies in it! He will get used to it and so will the kids. It's better for everyone in the long run.

Until next time.


Not going to make it

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Okay, so I wanted to lose 10 lbs by 2/21...NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. Instead of losing consistantly like my best friend, I continue to fluctuate between 223 and 225. I don't know what I am doing wrong. She's lost like 10 lbs or more, I have done nothing. Her pants are falling off of her...mine sit about the same. What to do?

I really don't know I am at a complete loss. I exercise...although not consistently, I eat well...again not consistently...HMM starting to see a trend...CONSISTENCY.

Well this is another day and another week that I can try.

Looking forward to going shopping tomorrow!


Having a hard time

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Okay, so a couple of weeks ago I was as happy as could be. Nothing really bothered me and I was going to work because I actually wanted to and I was happy coming home to see my children, well all of that has changed. Lately I don't want to go to work because I want to, I go because I have to. Now don't get me wrong, I have a fantastic job, but I just don't want to go. I stress about coming home to the kids because my 9 month old has decided that I am no good for him and all he wants is his dad. I am so exhausted by the time I get home at midnight that when he wants to get up in the middle of the night, I physically cannot do it. So, because of this he has formed this amazing bond with his dad, which is good, but I feel like chopped liver. emoticon

Because of my mood change I haven't worked on eating as well as I should and haven't worked out like I should. Today I decded that maybe working out would make me feel better, and it did lift my spirits a bit. Thank God. I ate really good for Lunch, but the drawback is that I slept until 1030 so I didn't eat breakfast or my snack. (You can visit my blog at if you want to see more.) On a down note though, I felt so winded and hated feeling my heart beat like it was going to pop out of my chest. But, with time I will get better at it, provided I can stay motivated to keep doing the cardio thing.

My husband has agreed that we can buy a treadmill and a bike, so I can do as my doctor says and change up my cardio so that way my body doesn't get used to one thing. I have tried also to do Pilates, but for a fat person like me those are really hard to do, I do a couple sets or reps of each of the moves, so hopefully with time I will build up my flexibility and strength.

So, I am going to refocus myself on eating healthy again, working out, and finding my happy place.


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