Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Okay, so a couple of weeks ago I was as happy as could be. Nothing really bothered me and I was going to work because I actually wanted to and I was happy coming home to see my children, well all of that has changed. Lately I don't want to go to work because I want to, I go because I have to. Now don't get me wrong, I have a fantastic job, but I just don't want to go. I stress about coming home to the kids because my 9 month old has decided that I am no good for him and all he wants is his dad. I am so exhausted by the time I get home at midnight that when he wants to get up in the middle of the night, I physically cannot do it. So, because of this he has formed this amazing bond with his dad, which is good, but I feel like chopped liver.
Because of my mood change I haven't worked on eating as well as I should and haven't worked out like I should. Today I decded that maybe working out would make me feel better, and it did lift my spirits a bit. Thank God. I ate really good for Lunch, but the drawback is that I slept until 1030 so I didn't eat breakfast or my snack. (You can visit my blog at www.cravingtobhealthy.blogspot.com if you want to see more.) On a down note though, I felt so winded and hated feeling my heart beat like it was going to pop out of my chest. But, with time I will get better at it, provided I can stay motivated to keep doing the cardio thing.
My husband has agreed that we can buy a treadmill and a bike, so I can do as my doctor says and change up my cardio so that way my body doesn't get used to one thing. I have tried also to do Pilates, but for a fat person like me those are really hard to do, I do a couple sets or reps of each of the moves, so hopefully with time I will build up my flexibility and strength.
So, I am going to refocus myself on eating healthy again, working out, and finding my happy place.