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I might go insane....

Sunday, August 12, 2012

My granny's Alzheimer's is making me crazy. I can't handle it. I cracked today and kept screaming at her. I was so mad that she was getting in my face. Now I am just angry and quiet. I am sooo upset and angry. I might be going insane.

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ROSE_50CA 8/12/2012 11:02PM

    Don't worry about it. You are only human.
We have days like this and it is normal and frustrating.
You have to get back on track and do the best you can.
If it is too much then you need a rest away from her.
She might need to go into a home and that is ok.
Take care of yourself.
One Day At A Time!
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JUDYAMK 8/12/2012 10:43PM

    You need to emoticon & walk away as soon as you feel like exploding, this is not good for either one of you. Go to the bath room shut the door & splash cold water on your face, like Tame said take some real deep breaths.Both my Aunts had this awful disease they both since passed away,In the very darkness of her mind for only seconds she knows this is not who she really is.My one Aunt no longer knew who her husband or children were.It is awful frustrating to see someone you love go through this, I feel for you I know your pain & hurt.. Your not going insane your soul & heart are hurting.. I am going to pray for you that Our Lord will calm your anxious heart while you are taking care of your Grandmother.

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FITWITHIN 8/12/2012 10:41PM

    I know all to well how that's not an easy task. My mother-in-law has the disease. I was taken care of her in between working nights. As it progressively got worse my husband family decided it was best to put her in a nursing home.

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TAMESIS8 8/12/2012 10:33PM

    Hey, this too will pass. It's ok to be angry. This situation is probably incredibly frustrating for the both of you. Remember to breathe (it works! ten counts in and out) and know that this will pass. Come onto Sparkpeople to vent when you need to. We're here for you. emoticon

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Alzheimer's Eating problems

Saturday, August 11, 2012

Basically my granny has Alzheimer's and I am her caregiver while my mom is at work for the summer before I leave for Japan.
I struggle when it comes to trying to take care of her. Today I came in the kitchen and she was eating out of container of I can't believe it's not butter. Nothing else. I was confused. I then saw the cheese and asked her if she was making a sandwich. I got screamed at for asking her that. She proceeded to tell me the cheese was her bread, that I needed to stop controlling her life, and that I need to get out of her house. I basically got the bread out a few minutes later and then she properly made a sandwich.

I am so stressed out...

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SLAPTHEFATCAT 8/13/2012 10:40PM

    Well, at least she's eating. When my grandmother had Alzheimer's she wouldn't eat unless literally forced to. Actually went to the hospital because she didn't eat enough.

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I cheated =/

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

I did bad yesterday. Those days happen and I have to just forget it and move ahead. Oh well.
Today I think I will try to go for an evening walk with the dog again. Super enjoys it... I just keep praying he won't poop the whole walk... D:

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GRANNYQUINN 7/31/2012 4:26PM

    Well we all cheat , I had Chip's Ahoy for breakfast this morning, lol Just move on !! emoticon

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TORAMPAUL 7/31/2012 3:37PM

    No worries on the cheating. I have found if I don't allow a day like that every once in awhile then I won't stick with my proper diet. So when you have a day like that, just wake up the next morning and say, "Well, that was fun, now back on track!"

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I felt so silly.

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Well I am feeling better then I did last blog. I basically realized I miss read the package of my favorite rice. I mean it still is high calorie, but I can rest a little easier knowing I read it wrong. I read the uncooked portions instead of the cooked portions. I was eating half of what I originally was putting. -.-'

I also got to take my dog for a walk and my boyfriend went with me and that was nice. I think the dog was more wore out then me. I probably could have walked more, but I didn't want to keep him out too long.

On random note. My fish is swimming like crazy beside me. I think he is lonely. Recently my other fish died leaving me now with one fish. :(

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THE_SHAKESHAFT 7/30/2012 2:21AM

    Thanks for sharing.

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TRENTDREAMER 7/29/2012 11:21PM

    Sorry to hear about the fish. Glad you had a good walk. The rice calories cooked vs uncooked got me at first as well

Dreamers unite (I always respond to blogs that are written by people whose usernames have "dreamer" in them when I see them(at least once))!

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Really Hard

Thursday, July 26, 2012

I am not doing so hot on wanting to follow this. I basically am wanting to quit again. I don't want to look like this anymore though. I don't want to get diabetes like my family. I want to live a happy healthier life. I still want to enjoy tasty foods still as well. I am a foodie and I know their are healthy tasty foods too, but I want to be able to enjoy everything.... Moderation... That is annoying. I eat slow and still can't eat everything I want without feeling fat... :(
Exercise.... It isn't fun to me. There is no pleasure in it. It is not a recreation I enjoy.

Bleh I am just so negative.

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AURORADREAMER 7/29/2012 5:33PM

    Thank You All :)

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CKMATHERLY 7/27/2012 10:00AM

    I understand. I love yummy things and used to not be able to stop eating them. i still have my binge days too. Don't give up!

It's a choice between a moment's happiness and a lifetime of it. Food can never make you feel better about yourself, but reaching your goals and looking your best can. Your health is a big thing too. My mom has diabetes and she isn't obese, so I still have that risk. I hate needles. I don't think I can deal with blood checks and shots every day. EEEEEEEEE!

Moderation is good. It's what I try to do, but it takes practice and will power. I wish you luck!

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DEBK0923 7/26/2012 6:51PM

    Don't quit, I know it's hard. I lost weight, gained it back, and lost again. I am now on the weight gain train again, but I won't quit. I like sparks, the articles, the people, the workout videos, I am eating better, and even though I may go up and down on the scale, I feel healthier now than I have in the last 5 years. I kept beating myself up, crying to anyone who would listen, but then I stopped the insanity and just started doing it for me, not because someone told me I used to be hot looking. You can do it as well. emoticon

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BEAUTIFULBRIT50 7/26/2012 6:37PM

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