Monday, June 23, 2008
So, I have been off track for almost a month now. I had friends visiting me the end of May, and let myself get out of my routine. And I have just not tried hard enough to get back in it. I have not been losing the weight I want and even worse, I can feel the loss in stamina and energy. That just sucks. I have been feeling sorry for myself for the last week that I feel bloated and gross and tired and just plain ugly. Well d@mmit, I'm done feeling sorry for myself. It's my own stinkin' fault. No more excuses, no more whining, just get back on that d@mn stubborn mule (I don't even deserve a horse to get back on right now) and MAKE IT WORK!
So I went to see my trainer on Saturday (ouch my butt is killing me from the glute exercises), and I booked a weekly session with her for the next month. Also, I signed up for more classes (Zumba and Pilates Reformer) and I am getting together a workout schedule for myself. I HAVE to do this. I am not getting any younger and being fat is no longer an option. I want to be skinny, of course, but more so than ever I just want to feel better. I was feeling better until I get off track.
I think it's funny (well, maybe just to me) that I have avoided logging on to SP while I was having my pity party for one. I just didn't want to face anyone when I knew I was so far off track. How narcissitic is that?!?! No more of that, I'm owning up to everything from now on, and hopefully I only have good things to report!
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
I did my normal Monday night Pilates Reformer class last night. After class, my instructor asked if I was staying for Zumba. (Did you NOT just put me through ENOUGH torture?!?) I have been hearing about it though and was curious, so I stayed. WOW. Talk about sweating your, um, bootie off. I was shakin' and shimmyin', and generally looking like an idiot. But it was a pretty cool way to sweat and burn some calories.
I think I'll go back. It's a change of pace from Pilates and Turbo Jam.
Monday, May 12, 2008
I love my sister, don't get me wrong. But seriously, if it was dependant on her to be on time somewhere or the world would end, well I'd bend over and kiss my fat @ss goodbye... I just don't get it. HOW is it you are late to EVERYTHING???
My parents live about 30 minutes from my house, my sister another 20 the other way, hence I'm in the middle. I offered to have her and the kids ride with my in the big Expedition to my folks house for Mother's Day yesterday. My sister is basically poor, and with gas prices as they are, it is harder for her than me to spend the money to drive down there. So I tell her on Saturday to please please PLEASE be at my house no later than noon on Sunday. That gives us time to load everyone into the party bus and get to Mom's by 1. I reiterate that that means she needs to leave HER house by 11:45. Did I need to call and wake her up? She laughs and says no, she can manage noon.
So it's noon on Sunday. I have everything bagged, prepped, loaded into the car. It's now 12:10, but I'm not too concerned yet. It's 12:20 and I'm starting to get irritated. I call my niece's cell phone, as she is the most likely to answer. She does, in a sleep voice. I calmly ask, where are you guys? She says, in bed. I EXPLODE. I start yelling at my poor niece, b/c she was the one who was one on the phone. She wakes up her mother and then tells me they will get moving.
I ask you, how hard is it to get your lazy @ss out of bed by 11 on a freakin' Sunday, when you KNOW you have to be somewhere. I start to cry, just b/c I am so mad that I have to let it out somewhere. I call my mom to tell her we are going to be late and unload on her. Poor woman...
I just don't get it. I just feel it is such a form of disrespect that she acts like this. And she barely even apologized for being late, just made excuses. ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH. If just once she would be contrite I might not get so mad. But she doesn't. She just doesn't care.
Ok, that's my rant. I just don't understand people who have no respect, especially for someone who does so much for her.
Thursday, May 08, 2008
So I woke up this morning to no electricity. Being that I live in the belly of Tornado Alley, I guess it shouldn't surprise me that last nights wind and storms took out something important in my area. Do you know how bad it sucks to get ready in the dark?!? Well, let me just tell you. Hubby and I went for our morning walk, then when we got home we lit every candle in the house. Had to shower by candlelight. And anyone that knows me will tell you that the state of my closet is, well, a bit disastrous. So finding clean jeans by candlelight, digging through the laundry basket (yes, my clean clothes are still in the laundry basket b/c I haven't put them away), was quite fun. Finally found enough clothing items to suffice, and headed out to the car to go to work. So I'm sitting in my car in the driveway, heater on high, with my head in front of the vents to dry my big head o' hair. I'm sure the neighbors got a good chuckle out of that...or else they were wishing they thought of it first. I don't think my hair style today will be featured anytime soon in the issues of Glamour or Vogue, but with the creative use of headbands it could be worse.
How funny is it that the first thing I thought when I woke up and realized we had reverted back to the dark ages was 'D@mmit, now I can't do my Turbo Jam!'.
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
So, I have to go to Chicago next week for work. I guess it says something about my attitude (in a good way) that this worries me. Anytime in the past something has come up out of the ordinary, my attitude is, well, it's just for X days, you can get back on the horse after that. But I really don't want to do that this time. I have done so good, in my eyes at least, with not splurging, not going overboard. I don't want a business trip to ruin it.
I plan to pack some fiber bars, kashi cereal and dried fruit, so at least I have breakfast covered. You just KNOW that they'll have donuts and bagels and stuff like that for those salespeople! So I'm trying to at least avoid that pitfall. Lunch I'll have to suck it up, but I'm hoping they do sandwiches, wraps, etc. I can handle that. Dinner will be tough. I know for sure one night we are going to Carlucci's, upscale Italian restaurant. Luckily they have a menu online, so I can do some research, although my prospects are somewhat dim for eating on the healthy side. I'll just pick the best I can, and be sure and watch portions. And be careful of the evil demon that will be sure to be present...I'm talking about the wine. AAAAAAAHHHH, wine.... I did mention it's a bunch of salespeople?!? Of COURSE there will be wine at dinner. I'll do my best to avoid, or have one and sip.
I'm trying to stay focused, I even plan on taking my portable DVD player and my Turbo Jam DVD's so that I can workout in my room in the mornings. I'm sure they have a gym, but if I rely on that I just know I'll back out. Walking treadmill or riding the bike isn't as fun to me as TJ, so it would be harder to stay motivated. -sigh- Anyone reading this please think happy thoughts for me! I'm trying to make this a Way Of Life and not something that I do til I reach a certain goal and quit. So that means thinking through bumps in the road, doing some research, planning ahead.
Until next time...
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