Friday, January 13, 2012
Not too long ago I read this quote someplace here on SP. I think it was in someones blog or one of those inspirational quotes we share from our Spark page....
"People usually fail when they are on the verge of success. So give as much to the end as to the beginning" _ Lao Tzu
Last year I was doing everything right....tracking food (eating within the calorie range); drinking 8+ cups of water; exercising the way I know I should (and felt good); Sparking every day and enjoying every minute. I was less than 20 pounds from my goal.
Than something happened. Having always "yoyo" dieted, this time I just knew I could succeed........just felt right. With out realizing it I started to spiral backward........further and further away from my goal. I knew I could turn this around, but I (obviously) chose not to. Why? I didn't know, but what I did know is that I kept spiraling backward....got close to the holidays and well just gave up on trying to get back on track. I'm a Gemini and I think my other self took over when I was spiralling down.....it was like someone else was controlling my thoughts and sabotaging me. It really was me, but I believe it was my subconscious mind playing with me. So I thought long and hard and decided a new year a new me.
Having read that quote I think I know what happened. I was afraid of succeeding...could I really continue on this journey for the rest of my life? I never lived like this before....healthier, happier for any length of time. You know the drill.....life just gets in the way and revert back to old habits (cuz it was always easier than).
A light bulb went off over my head and I realized my fear of succeeding and "failing" to do the things I know I should be doing was just plain wrong. This time I am starting out with only two goals (so far) and am definitely succeeding with them. I will add other goals as I go along this journey and when I get back to the "less than 20 pounds" from my goal I WILL get stronger in my commitment so I WILL succeed. I WILL give as much to the "end" as I am in the (new) beginning.
Thanks for stopping by and hugs going out to all who read this. Have a happy/healthy beginning to your journey and remember to give as much to (the middle) and the end (every day here after). And here's hoping that we all have AHA moments through out our journey.