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Sunday, October 12, 2008

I have been thinking for a few weeks about how quickly the end of the year is approaching. This type of thoughts brings a lot of things and events to mind....mainly the holidays, my birthday, different sentimental times, etc.
But it also caused me to reflect on this year. It's not over although it's close. But I asked how I have done this year? Not judging myself or implying a grading system. But evaluating how good I have been to me.
See I started this year determined to make changes and accomplishments. I started this year with a renewed focus to prioritze me. Now the end of this year is quickly at hand and the question that must be answered is
"How good have you been to yourself?"
* Did you make YOU priority or did you keep your needs on the back burner as usual?
* Did you move to the forefront and stop being the shadow to everyone's light?
* Did you take the time to learn, enjoy, and love you?

These are tough but necessary questions.

Somewhere between the beginning of this year boggled up in the middle I learned a term called "journey". LOL!
This seemed like a wonderful way to describe my quest and a fantastic summary of what I had began my "JOURNEY".
Now that I am a year into my "journey" I am realizing something incredible.....this is no quest.....or some temporary attempt that I am embarking to and will return one day....nope this is permanent.
What I embarked on a year ago wasn't a journey, it is life. I am not trying to visit, return or go back.......in other words where I am going is permanent.
The word "journey" sounds fitting but it would suggest that it is temporary.....like a vacation or a quest such as a trip to the moon with a schedule to return back to earth. LOL!
If regaining my life and health requires a journey to the moon then I signed up for a one way trip.
I am a year into "ME" and whether you term it as a journey, a voyage, or just a lifestyle change....either way don't mistake it for anything other than life.
As flippant and non-challant as we are with life it is something so very precious and valuable. Our time is worth more than anything in this world and the time that we invest in ourselves making our lives more enjoyable and possibly longer is well worth the effort, energy, and sacrafice.
It may be a little early to answer those questions that I have but make no mistake time is passing and the time will come when I have to answer those questions and when it does I want to make sure that my answers are correct.

  
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UNIQUELYJULZ 4/16/2009 11:09PM

    Miss you girl... and love this. Great ???'s we all need to answer everyday.

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ZIONSGLORY 11/20/2008 3:10PM

    love this blog!!

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    emoticonblog.

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TRECECOOKS 10/13/2008 6:30PM

    Excellent blog about your discovery of YOU!!

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Why I support Barack Obama

Thursday, September 04, 2008

Actually I have thought about this question for a while...and I finally answered it in a group that I am in......it felt so right that I am copying it in a blog.


Why do you support Barack Obama?

I must admit that when he spoke at the DNC in "1990 something" I knew that we hadn't heard the last of him. He was nothing short of incredible. So I occasionally would keep my ear out for that "black senator from Chicago".
Now here he is running for president!
I was amazed at his gumption. But reluctant to jump on his band wagon because America needs real change and vision. So I held my opinion and listened and listened some more.
Although he has a plan for America that I think is feasible and possible and a vision for America that I think is obtainable I was still reluctant. Being a black woman I didn't want to be the one to support Senator Obama simply because he is black.
But seeing Senator Barack Obama at the DNC on August 28, 2008 that historical Thursday delivering his acceptance speech made me realize something that I had missed before about this moment and this person.
I am a firm believer in destiny.
We are here for a purpose and to fulfill a destiny. No matter how insignificant one may seem to another each destiny builds on the other.
Seeing Senator Obama on stage and listening to the media reporting the historical significance to the day that Dr. King delivered his "I have a dream" speech caused me to realize that this moment was not only historical but this is a destiny being fulfilled.
I realize that Senator Obama is making tremendous strides that all African Americans should be joyous and proud but we have to look further.
That is what I did last Thursday. I looked further.
Senator Obama represents more than just Black Americans.....he represents America. He represents all Americans. In this window of time Senator Obama has brought us together with our history of a struggling and divided nation trying to find itself and right the wrongs that had occured in our past. In doing this Dr. King and many more lead a movement. In this movement were all Americans' Black, White, and Red. The enemy was ignorance, poverty, and injustice.
I thought about the Black people who were killed, churches blown up, houses and homes destroyed, and then I thought there were white people too. Remember the 3 Freedom riders? Only one of those 3 were black. The other 2 were white and they were murdered just the same.
Then my mind went back 2 generations ago when White parents had to overcome their fears and teach their children to not see the color of ones skin because injustice is wrong. I thought about the internal struggle that they had to overcome in teaching their children to be better people than they were by not passing their own fears and ignorance.
I think that they should be commended because as a parent I now know how difficult that can be.
So sitting there glued to my television like most Americans it hit me.....that is why I support Barack Obama!
Barack Obama doesn't represent just one sect of our population....he doesn't represent just white people, black people, red people, rich people, poor people.....he represents us all. He represents America and he has a plan for all America and a vision for a whole, well, and healed America.

  
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MOEDANCING 9/20/2008 10:05PM

    Amen Audie...Amen!

It is a movement dear Audie

The sad fact that the "other side" has laid claim to patriotism and being right with God makes me shudder...

On primary day here in the great state of Maryland I canvassed and walked in the pouring rain...I drove people to the polls...and then I stood outside...by my lonesome... with my sign...

OBAMA!

people passed me... sneered and taunted...FOR TWELVE HOURS!

"Would he stand out in the rain for you?"

Yes...I believe he would! In fact he already has...for you, me...for all of us

Not since the Good Doctor and RFK has there been such a MOVEMENT...and Lord knows the time is now!

YES WE CAN MISS AUDIE...

YES WE CAN!

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PUMPKINFACE73 9/14/2008 9:56PM

    I couldn't agree with you more....YES Obama is just what this country needs

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GOIN2LOSE2 9/11/2008 9:02AM

    Girl it gave me chills just thinking of some of the points that you have addressed. This is so well spoken. Thanks for sharing this with us.

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D710DANCE 9/5/2008 10:47PM

    AMEN AND AMEN!

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BLESSED3061 9/5/2008 4:59PM

    This is awesome, so well put.

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SILVIA2006 9/5/2008 4:18PM

    So well said!!!! emoticon

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MUSIQLUVER 9/5/2008 1:29PM

    AUDIE!!!!!!! Wow, Wow, Wow!

You've got to send this to his campaign somehow. Seriously, he would soooo appreciate it. ALL of his supporters would appreciate this. Just wow, wow! WOW!!!! I love it! I feel the same, but definitely would have botched it up. hehehehe!

THANK YOU!

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COLEMANSR 9/4/2008 6:09PM

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SHERRIA29 9/4/2008 5:24PM

    I couldn't agree with you more. Very eloquently put.

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MONETTPAT 9/4/2008 3:39PM

    I agree wholeheartily! I was a teenager when Dr. King was making history by trying to bring people together. I was one of those white people who cheered when segregation tumbled. Our country has a long way to go, but putting Obama in the white house is a way to help give this country back to the people. I also believe Obama will also help give this country more credibility to the rest of the world.

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SGAL36 9/4/2008 3:04PM

    Nice blog. Thanks for your insightfulness.

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My Happy Place

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Whew! Can you believe that Summer is just about over? Do you know what that means? That means that this year is about to end and soon it will be fall and Thanksgiving then Christmas and before long we will be celebrating another year. Time flies and life carries us along bouncing and tossing us over the hills, mountains, and by-ways.....it keeps rolling on. And it keeps changing......LOL! Nothing stays the same and believe it or not that is good. Change makes us resilient and strong. Causes us to question ourselves, reasses our direction, and reevaluate our priorities.
I was reading an email that a friend had sent about her reaching her "happy place" I thought wow! I need that....I need a "happy place". You know in the midst of all the requirements, responsibilities, and roles that you must do and fulfill surely there is a placed physical or mental that you can go and just not do or be but just exist. That has to be a "happy place". You know where you don't have to think about cooking dinner, football practice, or did Joe Blow clock in today on time or was he late again because you don't want to have to write him up--surely the "happy place" is a break, get-a-way, a mini-moment at least from all of this? Something like the old Calgon bath commercials----maybe that's it the "happy place" is the Calgon bath coming in and taking you away! LOL!
But I thought about this "happy place" I wondered how do you get there do you buy a ticket? How much does it cost? Who takes the money? Where do I board? and How long is the trip? LOL! I joke but I am very serious.....you wouldn't imagine some of my days not to mention some of the situations.
Well I am pondering on this "happy place" and I am so glad that my friend discovered it. I am so glad that she reached her place of paradise and she has vowed to visit often and I am clapping and celebrating for her. And although inside I wanted to scream Take me! Take me! I know that the journey to one's "happy place" is a self journey that only can be taken by you alone.
So I started to inventory, sort through, and organize because I wanted to find my "happy place" vehicle. Ok, so this "happy place" is a new concept for me so surely there has to be a vehicle to arrive at this spectacular place......my friend said for her it is Yoga.....so I began to sort through and decipher at what point or what action do I do that causes me to reach this mysterious "happy place".
Then suddenly it flooded my mind at once and actually consumed my entire being. I have learned to live in my "happy place" in the midst of my roles, responsibilities, and requirements I have learned that my "happy place" is inside of me. I carry it with me and I attempt to flow from my "happy place" at all times. I am not always successful but when I relax and allow the Peace of God to surpass my understanding and to consume my being I am not moved from my "happy place" at any point.
So when I am running around meeting deadlines, trying to be on time for meetings then when I am in meetings desperately trying to be interested.....Or when my role changes and I am Momma trying to listen and be attentive without shutting him down and being too controlling and still running around trying to make sure we are at school, practice, and Kumon tutoring on time---did I forget about making sure that I cook---oh and making sure that what I cook is nutritious and balanced--McDonalds or anything else is no longer acceptable-- and keeping a clean house, and managing and running a household. Then when my responsibilities shift yet another time and I am the eldest sister and/or child and I have to be the daughter and big sister that my family needs......then it shifts again and I am a friend who tries to be compassionate, honest, and open.....and then there is another shift and my role is a woman and I am experiencing dating and meeting new people that happens to be men...LOL!
But in all of this I have learned that my "happy place" is not a sedentary moment in time that I mentally, physically, or spiritually shut down or pull away---my "happy place" is in the midst of the whirlwind. When it seems like it's all floating by. I may drop a few things....I may get so busy with one role that I neglect another temporarily but I have learned to stay in my "happy place".
The bible says to be rooted and grounded in our faith....and my faith has become my happy place. It's because of my faith that I am able to keep myself as priority and love me because I see the price he paid for me and the love that he has for me that motivated him to pay the price that he paid. This alone is enough to keep one in their "happy place".
So I have learned that in the midst of the deadlines, responsibilities, and roles that I play in life......I can smile because I have learned to operate from my "happy place".

  
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TRECECOOKS 8/23/2008 6:50PM

    Amen, Audie. You are speaking a truth we all need to hear. Bless you for that!!

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UNIQUELYJULZ 8/21/2008 2:30PM

    You said, "It's because of my faith that I am able to keep myself as priority and love me because I see the price he paid for me and the love that he has for me that motivated him to pay the price that he paid."

Well said, as always! Truly loving ourselves, the way God loves us, will encourage us to care for ourselves in a way that we will AlwAyS drive right past Micky D's!! Thanks for reminding me to love Julie the way my wonderful Savior did/does!

I got all excited when I saw ya had a new blog. :)))) Love ya! Take care of Audie... and enjoy those new (male) friends. hahahehe :-)

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JERRIANNE 8/21/2008 1:54AM

  Audie, This is a wonderful blog. Of course, I'm reminded of a Scripture. Ps. 91:1 He that dwelleth in the secret place of the Most High, shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. I believe the secret place is a "Happy Place". I also understood the writer on this blog to speak of a better place, which reminds me of the Scripture that tells us, if this earthly house is dissolved, we have another building, not made by hands, but is eternal in the heavens. It also reminds me of the Psalmist, who said, I won't be satisfied until I awake with his likeness. As I said, you wrote a wonderful post, but it just reminded me of some Scriptures. Ann

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COLEMANSR 8/20/2008 5:33PM

    Great blog AUDIE. My happy place is just sitting quietly somewhere. Just peacefulness for a few minutes and I can handle anything that comes my way. Getting tune with myself and God. (the best of times).

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BABY_GIRL69 8/20/2008 4:32PM

    Hum, my happy place is my car I play my music & my bed where I tune the world out & watch tv. I also learned not to be so dependent on them & get out & socialize. (Whatever that is?) Thank you so much for sharing!

Blessings!

D
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3GATOS1999 8/20/2008 4:21PM

    You know, Audie, what you described is joy. The ability to smile in the midst of the whirlwind. To me, that is a great visual of joy.
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As for a happy place, for Christ followers, while we can have joy, I am not sure we will ever truly reach our happy place here on earth. Our hearts long for our Heavenly home, just as all creation groans to be rejoined in perfect fellowship with the Creator. Like I said, I think we can be joyful, and I think we can feel happy, but I think there is always something in us that keeps us from becoming too complacent here on earth, so that we are always keeping our eyes on Jesus. At least I hope that I never get so settled here that I am content to stay when there's something better coming and it's my time to go! What are your thoughts?

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PUMPKINFACE73 8/20/2008 3:21PM

    Was wondering when my girl would share some wisdom with us.......Woo Hoo
Girl you are amazing.......YOU have led me to my "happy place"...YOU greeted me with open arms and led me back to Him....Thank You
I am so proud of you and all that you do for YOU and each and every person in your life...YOU are the rock for so many.

Thank you for being my rock!

love you always
Heather

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Look at YOU

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Okay, I decided to put it here.....this came up from my heart after reading some threads where people were just being hard on themselves and not appreciating the progress that they had made so far......so here it goes:


Look at you! No, seriously look at you. Do you see what I see? Do you know what I know?
I see how awesome you are and how incredible you are becoming.
I knew you would fall and get back up. I knew the road would be rough at times but I saw you persist and make it through. I knew at times you wanted to stop and turn back but something in you wouldn't allow it. So you persisted.
Yes, you kept going when others did not. You kept stepping even though some stepped over you and on you. You kept your direction and although you were weak you looked strong.
Look at you! I mean really look at you.
There are those that counted you out when your stride wasn't as quick. There are those that snickered and doubted that you would ever become. But look at you. Take a look.
No, getting here hasn't been easy and staying here isn't always all that great but your doing it. Although it may seem at times it is baby steps and you feel you should be gilding like a gazelle or floating through. Sometimes you can be just too hard on you.
So now, I am telling you to take some time and just look at you. I mean really scope you over. No, don't look how far you have to go and how you should have avoided the pitfall last night or last week. I mean look at how far you have come and what you have achieved. Look at the honesty it took just to begin. Look at what you have accomplished and how you have made it this far.
Wow! Look at you!
Now can you see it? Now do you get it?
The road will never be easy and the way will always be challenging. The only difference is that you will get stronger because you learned from last nights pitfall and last weeks pit stop. You learned how to overcome and do better so you can be better!
Yeah, now you're looking. You see what I see?
I see one amazing woman becoming and being the best that she can be.
She may be bruised and a little wounded she may have slipped and really messed it up but she is still becoming. She is still striving and succeeding.
Stop! And look at yourself.
Wow! You are beautiful.
You are wonderful! You are a Queen.

By Audie Logan

  
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MRSTEJANO 7/26/2008 2:29PM

    THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS BLOG ENTRY!!!!! Because you made a comment on my Sparkpage, telling me you were cheering me for my loss. So, I came to your page, and found THIS awesome entry! I still have the "Look at YOU! YOU are becautiful!" repeating in my head! Now, I think each time I get "down" or frustrated along the road of this weight loss journey, I WILL come here to get my tank "re-filled" to continue on the journey! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JENNCRRT 7/1/2008 7:09AM

    Wow, that brought tears to my eyes! emoticon

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SCHAUTEMOMMA 6/30/2008 11:39AM

    Okay, I'm really late on this blog, but as I was reading, I was so encouraged and inspired. I knew I was in the middle of a God-incidence that while I was reading this "Never Could Have Made It"/ By: Marvin Sapp came on the radio. True wisdom, is a gift that inspires a closer relationship with the creator.

Thanks for sharing the truth in love.

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UNIQUELYJULZ 6/24/2008 2:49PM

    I'll say it again... God gave you a gift with words/wisdom and how to put them together for others to benefit from them. Thanks for sharing! You are beautiful and awesome!!!

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ANGIEROCKS11 6/24/2008 10:10AM

    Love this! As woman its hard to say these things about ourselves Thank you, your beautiful too!

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RESERVED1948 6/19/2008 4:48PM

    Thanks Audi, it's about time I stopped looking at the cellulite at the back of my thighs and looked at the total woman!
You are awesome!
Thank you God for giving me this awesome sister!
All the best.
Irene

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PUMPKINFACE73 6/17/2008 3:46PM

    LOVE you...
YOU keep on me track and reaching for the stars

THANK YOU

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TRINASOLO 6/11/2008 8:50PM

    Look at you! Inspiring others with your wisdom and eloquence. Thank you for saying what I needed to hear today.

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AUDENOLIVAN 6/11/2008 6:26PM

    WOW AUDIE,

THAT IS GREAT, AND EVEN GREATER THAT IT STILL "FITS YOU". You and most everybody else going through this journey, so thanks for sharing!!

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The Lion, The Bear, The Journey

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

I am in my office and things are unusually quiet, thank God. I just read a piece that I wrote a few months ago titled "Look at You". I thought wow! that stills speaks to me and is still fits for today and I was going to put it in a blog, I still might, but my mind can't seem to get away from something that I read on someone's page last week. I can't remember whose page it was---it wasn't anyone on any of my teams ....it was a highlighted page and she was wonderful. She had lost weight and her title was about how she was on a quest to defeat obesity in her life. I read it and thought YEAH! Go Girl! Then I thought we are all on a quest to defeat any and everything that combats life. It just doesn't start or stop with obesity. My mind was then taken back to an assignment that I had when I was in bible school. I had to write a sermon. I was 20 something years old and thought I had life summed up. After hours, days, and weeks I felt that the Lord was leading me to the life of David. If you are familiar with King David in the bible and how he was called to be king it is an incredible story that I would encourage you to read. Well, the part of David's life that spoke to me was actually before he was the king. He was still a shepherd boy in charge of his Fathers sheep. His father had sent him to check on his older brothers who were part of Saul's (current King) army. Long story short, David went to check on his brothers and ended up winning the war for his country. But it was what David said that inspired me then and still inspires me today. "I have defeated the bear, and the lion, and who is this giant against the people of the living God of Isreal."
Wow! if you look at it in the eyes of the natural David was just a boy who was overlooking sheep. That isn't anything most would consider impressive. But in this unimpressive position David learned to depend on the power of God.
Think of it...up in the hills, back in the thick of the trees, in the parts where no one was looking ....he was defeating the lion and the bear that eventually equipped him to defeat the giant.
I remember that first sermon I wrote almost 20 years ago....and what is so wonderful is that all these years that first sermon...like the "Look at You" piece, still speaks to me today.
It would be wonderful to think that we can live our lives battle free. But we have to be honest......life can be a struggle, sometimes a great struggle, and sometimes greater than others...but still a struggle.
But I have learned it is what we do in the small times, the times when no one knows us, and we seem insignificant or unimportant that defines us. It's in those times that we learn something very important. We learn how to overcome, we learn how to get up, we learn how to dust ourselves off and remind ourselves that we are here to fulfill a destiny.
We may not feel like we are defeating a lion, or triumphing over a bear. But believe me we are! We are overcoming and regardless of how it feels or seems we are winning. It may be a few inches at a time, a pound at a time, or it might be learning the triggers that causes you to over eat or comfort eat. But we are defeating the lions and bears in our lives.
But more important than defeating the lion and the bear we have to know where our victory lies. We have to realize that it is not in our strength that we stand back up after we fall or in our own power that gives us the resiliancy to go on after we feel we have lost a battle. We must know and realize that this journey is not about becoming thin, beautiful, or sexy. This journey is about restoration, healing, and reversing the effects of what has tried to destroy us from reaching our destiny. So in our journey we have to realize that this is a quest to not only find our selves but know God.
Because each day that we defeat the lions and the bears and it seems insignificant or unimportant. Like those times when you don't feel that a 5 pound loss was good or you feel the scale is just not moving fast enough......be reassured that there will be a time that you will stand before a giant and announce to him that you have defeated lions and bears and the same God that gave you the victory will do like wise.
This victory is not only changing you but your family and your world. You are on your path to fulfilling your destiny.

  
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UNIQUELYJULZ 6/24/2008 2:58PM

    What else is there to say... God is leading us and preparing us for what is the next thing in our lives. What an awesome God we serve... and He loves each one of us so much.

Crazy how I was interested in SP for the health and weightloss, but I have gained more in my spiritual life than I have lost weight so far!! :))) God knows the important battles that need to be won. He will get each of us to our health goals, too.

U R AWESOME!! Keep sharing!

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ANGIEROCKS11 6/24/2008 11:06AM

    This blog really touched me. 3 years ago, I started questioning my faith. I felt like there is no way there is a God. How could I feel so much sadness if God loves me. I pulled away spiritually. The more I pulled away the lonelier I got. I started to fill that hole with lots of beer and parties even drugs. I don't know why but one day when I was feeling really low I noticed EVERYWHERE people were talking about faith, spirit, and what I like to call my AHA moment a movie called the secret. Watching this movie the teachers called God the infinite power. At this time, if I would've herd the word God I wouldn't have watched it. However the more i studied the secret I realized this is what Jesus was saying all along. Just worded different. I started reading the Bible again. Only this time I really studied it. I went back to school to be a hairdresser (what I ALWAYS wanted to do) "Something" told me to. Last year I accepted Christ back in my life and in my home. I graduated with high honors, I concord drugs and I brought my family back together. All that time I was lost, I was being called upon. I just didn't see it. Now I feel like I can battle any lions that come my way. I no longer fear, I no longer feel alone in my battles. I KNOW that I have to go through the things I'm going through to bring me closer to God. I am on the path to fulfilling my destiny one lion at a time. I don't ask why anymore. I just trust in The Higher Power to show me where to go. He sends me everything I need to be strong, he always has. I didn't always see it though. But now I see.And life has never been better.
Thank you Lord for bringing me to AUDIES page. It was the insperation I need today. Amen
Thank you AUDIE! Have a blessed day

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THERESAZ28 6/19/2008 5:03PM

    The battles will make us stronger, though while we're going through it, it sure doesn't feel that way. It's a learning time--learning to continue to trust in our faithful God.

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AUDENOLIVAN 6/11/2008 6:23PM

    AMEN AUDIE, AMEN!!!

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