Tuesday, September 04, 2012
LOL, I want to say something brilliant and insightful, inspirational, meaningful, full of dancing unicorns and puppies and wisdom. Unfortunately that isn't going to happen. After the long weekend I find that I am just flat and finding any fabulous words of wonderfulness is beyond me today. (Or any day, really, I might as well admit)
But, things are going well. I didn't overeat this weekend. The hubby and I had a date night and went to the Olive Garden, and yes, I had whatever I wanted off the menu and a glass of wine, but, we rarely get nights out like that so I go ahead and do as I please on them for now. Other than that I was a good girl. I didn't get my water intake goal met, though. I have a terrible time with this when I am at home on the weekends and need to get a strategy together to get over that hurdle.
We did a little archery and a lot of house work, and played with the dogs and kids. Nothing full of ground breaking excitement, but after all the excitement I have experienced in my life I am OK with that.
So that is it, just a little update.
Friday, August 31, 2012
Yes, I told an untruth. I am not "full of spark" not the least little bit.
I feel like I want to be, but this week, no matter how hard I try to "fake it 'til I make it" I am not making it. Hormones are probably playing a big role in this. I am bone tired, grumpy as all get out, and strongly desire to eat everything that can't run away from me. Especially chocolate and cookies. And breakfast tacos. Love me a breakfast taco.
So, what in all of this is good? (Because I am trying to be positive and not consentrate on my first world problems) First, I have lost four punds this month. I love that. I have also been exeeding my water drinking goals daily and consuming considerably less in the soft drink department. When I do get a breakfast taco, I order a small one, not the giant, big as my forearm burrito style tacos that I used to get. I am consuming fewer sweets as well, but that one has been harder to break.
All in all those are some positives, even if I feel like sticking my tongue out at those positives and hiding in my closet with a box of sugar cookies and a Coke and eating myself into a coma. It really doesn't matter if I am enjoying myself, so long as I stick to it, right?
Monday, August 27, 2012
Okay, all the excitement is over and I am an old married lady now. Needless to say, as a newlywed, I am loving all of that. I have a new five year old step son who I am getting to know. There is some stress and challenge surrounding that, but with time it will all be well.
I am ready to rev it up and do this. Direction, not intention, determine destination!!! It is time for me to face the direction I need to go and walk that path, even if I am walking it in baby steps. I have two kids to keep up with now, and God willing we will add another to the mix and I need to be healthy for them all.
So up, up, and away I go.
Thursday, July 26, 2012
My wedding is fast approaching. August the 11th is obly about two weeks away. I am really excited. I have even lost some more weight, which is awesome. The thing is, now that we are combining households and I am clearing out the old to make room for the new, I have to clear out my closets. This includes my old skinny clothes.
I find myself in a state of emotional turmoil over this that is completely unexpected. I haven't worn these clothes in years and yet, when I look at them I cannot stand the thought of parting with them. This must be how hoarders feel when they try to clean up. For me keeping the skinny clothes always was never a symbol of hope, in fact, I used to look at them and berate myself over how much weight I had gained and what a cow I had become. But it is still hard to let them go. I will let them go, but it still astounds me the level of emotional attachment I have developed to these things.
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Hey everyone. I haven't been online in forEVER, so I thought I would make an update.
I have been in the throes of wedding planning and am about to lose my mind, LOL. I don't know what I was thinking, we should have just gone to the JP and been done with it.
I have created a situation for myself that has put me between a rock and a hard place. Since I decided not to wait until I reach my weight loss goal to get married, I have reached a point where I actually cannot lose more weight until after the wedding because if I do I will not be able to wear my dress. It is crunch time, and time to schedule my final alterations, so if I loose more weight I will have to wear a dress that doesn't fit. So, I am on a small self induced stalling point right now.
Life is hectic. I am adjusting to having another child since my fiance and his sonhave moved in. My fiance's son is VERY different from mine, so it is a big learning experience for me. I am also adjusting to having a partner in life and after seven years of being single this is a BIG ol' adjustment. But, I have continued to loose weight and get fit, so all is good. =)
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