I want to say something brilliant

Tuesday, September 04, 2012

LOL, I want to say something brilliant and insightful, inspirational, meaningful, full of dancing unicorns and puppies and wisdom. Unfortunately that isn't going to happen. After the long weekend I find that I am just flat and finding any fabulous words of wonderfulness is beyond me today. (Or any day, really, I might as well admit)

But, things are going well. I didn't overeat this weekend. The hubby and I had a date night and went to the Olive Garden, and yes, I had whatever I wanted off the menu and a glass of wine, but, we rarely get nights out like that so I go ahead and do as I please on them for now. Other than that I was a good girl. I didn't get my water intake goal met, though. I have a terrible time with this when I am at home on the weekends and need to get a strategy together to get over that hurdle.

We did a little archery and a lot of house work, and played with the dogs and kids. Nothing full of ground breaking excitement, but after all the excitement I have experienced in my life I am OK with that.

So that is it, just a little update.

  

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SCARLETTHEATHER 9/4/2012 10:03AM

Good job with hanging in there! Report Inappropriate Comment

I lied

Friday, August 31, 2012

Yes, I told an untruth. I am not "full of spark" not the least little bit.

I feel like I want to be, but this week, no matter how hard I try to "fake it 'til I make it" I am not making it. Hormones are probably playing a big role in this. I am bone tired, grumpy as all get out, and strongly desire to eat everything that can't run away from me. Especially chocolate and cookies. And breakfast tacos. Love me a breakfast taco.

So, what in all of this is good? (Because I am trying to be positive and not consentrate on my first world problems) First, I have lost four punds this month. I love that. I have also been exeeding my water drinking goals daily and consuming considerably less in the soft drink department. When I do get a breakfast taco, I order a small one, not the giant, big as my forearm burrito style tacos that I used to get. I am consuming fewer sweets as well, but that one has been harder to break.

All in all those are some positives, even if I feel like sticking my tongue out at those positives and hiding in my closet with a box of sugar cookies and a Coke and eating myself into a coma. It really doesn't matter if I am enjoying myself, so long as I stick to it, right?

  

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NANCYSINATRA 8/31/2012 3:45PM

track your journey. I am approaching a year now, and have been depressed because I know i"m not going to hit my goal of 100 lbs in a year. What I do keep reminding myself is how far I HAVE come, regardless of whether of not I hit that goal. Even if I only lost 2 lbs a month, it's 2 lbs that are gone. this is a slow process learning lifestyle changes. The fact you are getting a burrito but a small one is a HUGE success. You are NOT on a diet, so you CAN eat whatever you want. So getting a small one is a GOOD choice. this journey is about making more good choices everyday than bad. You are doing great!! Report Inappropriate Comment

R-U-JELLEN 8/31/2012 10:01AM

It IS difficult to stay with it every day, every week seemingly into eternity! It gets frustrating and we start feeling sorry for ourselves. When I had my checkup and my glucose was sky high, the doc asked what happened. Told him I since Christmas, I've been eating pretty much what I want when I want--mashed potatoes, French Fries, M&M's, Bottle Caps. Said I quit logging in on SP. He asked why. I told him I just got tired of it all. Tired and discouraged. It is better to let yourself have a breakfast taco now and then and - here's the kicker -don't feel guilty about it. Better a treat once in a while than getting so discouraged you want to quit all the good work. These blues will pass. Just hang in there. Report Inappropriate Comment

NURTUREK 8/31/2012 9:49AM

Some days I enjoy it, some days I don't, but I have enjoyed the benefits I've gotten (and the ones I hope yet to get) of being smaller and healthier. I've had a crappy week too... health issue that requires a procedure, spouse's truck died, hard drive died at work, and most stressful deadlines of my work life (tenure-related). So I had a big cookie yesterday and didn't record what I ate. But I'm getting back to it today! We all can. Wishing you wellness! Comment edited on: 8/31/2012 9:49:52 AM Report Inappropriate Comment

Lets do this

Monday, August 27, 2012

Okay, all the excitement is over and I am an old married lady now. Needless to say, as a newlywed, I am loving all of that. I have a new five year old step son who I am getting to know. There is some stress and challenge surrounding that, but with time it will all be well.

I am ready to rev it up and do this. Direction, not intention, determine destination!!! It is time for me to face the direction I need to go and walk that path, even if I am walking it in baby steps. I have two kids to keep up with now, and God willing we will add another to the mix and I need to be healthy for them all.

So up, up, and away I go.

  

Cleaning out my closet

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Well,
My wedding is fast approaching. August the 11th is obly about two weeks away. I am really excited. I have even lost some more weight, which is awesome. The thing is, now that we are combining households and I am clearing out the old to make room for the new, I have to clear out my closets. This includes my old skinny clothes.

I find myself in a state of emotional turmoil over this that is completely unexpected. I haven't worn these clothes in years and yet, when I look at them I cannot stand the thought of parting with them. This must be how hoarders feel when they try to clean up. For me keeping the skinny clothes always was never a symbol of hope, in fact, I used to look at them and berate myself over how much weight I had gained and what a cow I had become. But it is still hard to let them go. I will let them go, but it still astounds me the level of emotional attachment I have developed to these things.

  

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MCJULIEO 7/26/2012 10:19AM

First of all, let me tell you what an excellent day August 11 is to get married (I should know- I got married on August 11, 1973!!!! That's 39 years of wedded awesomeness!!) You may not know this, but it's also the beginning of the annual Perseid meteor shower, so every year when you celebrate your anniversary, if you go out where it is really dark, you can watch God's celestial fireworks, and pretend they are just for YOU!! Report Inappropriate Comment

KEGELLES 7/26/2012 9:00AM

What if you save a couple of pieces? Do you aim to get back to that "skinny weight"? Maybe not keep that top that love...but compromise by keeping the skinny jeans? Just an idea. Congrats on the wedding and the weight loss! Best of luck! Report Inappropriate Comment

MOMMY2GIRLS 7/26/2012 8:57AM

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I'm Still Alive

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Hey everyone. I haven't been online in forEVER, so I thought I would make an update.

I have been in the throes of wedding planning and am about to lose my mind, LOL. I don't know what I was thinking, we should have just gone to the JP and been done with it.

I have created a situation for myself that has put me between a rock and a hard place. Since I decided not to wait until I reach my weight loss goal to get married, I have reached a point where I actually cannot lose more weight until after the wedding because if I do I will not be able to wear my dress. It is crunch time, and time to schedule my final alterations, so if I loose more weight I will have to wear a dress that doesn't fit. So, I am on a small self induced stalling point right now.

Life is hectic. I am adjusting to having another child since my fiance and his sonhave moved in. My fiance's son is VERY different from mine, so it is a big learning experience for me. I am also adjusting to having a partner in life and after seven years of being single this is a BIG ol' adjustment. But, I have continued to loose weight and get fit, so all is good. =)

  

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TKAYSMILES 5/18/2012 3:33PM

Welcome back to SP!! I would concentrate on getting healthy. Good luck with the wedding. where are you getting married??? Report Inappropriate Comment

PEWTERBUNNY 5/16/2012 11:58PM

Welcome back to SP. Maybe you can find someone who can alter it quickly? Don't let anything stand in the way of your goal! Report Inappropriate Comment