Tuesday, November 01, 2011
So, before lunch I was sitting at my desk, my brain was thinking *I AM HUNGRY AND I WANT A SNACK THAT IS UNHEALTHY* (my brain always thinks in all caps when it comes to food) But, unfortunately for my snack loving brain, I am at the end of my pay period and lack the funds to run out and buy the desired snack items. The only thing I had at my desk to snack on was a can of green beans, a left over remnant from my WW days when I used to eat cans of green beans because they were 0 points. My brain revolted at the very idea of this snack and I got into a tug of war with myself over whether or not to eat the green beans or go hunt down some candy. After about 30 minutes I finally told myself that if I was hungry, truly, genuinely hungry and in need of a snack, that I would eat the green beans and like them.... So I did!!! with a teaspoon of margarine and a couple of pepperonis all torn up for flavor. And you know what? I ate them all, and felt nice and full afterwards and not all Bleck like I do when I get some candy. Total non scale victory!!! It feels so good to make the right choice.
The point of all of this is that this is just one baby step toward eating to live, not living to eat, something I would like to accomplish by my 31st birthday. To eat because I am hungry, not because something sounds SOOOO good, or because my brain is demanding it. To change my brain from an all caps snack demander to simply recognizing hunger cues when necessary. So, here is to eating, the right things, when you are hungry
Monday, October 31, 2011
Keeping positive is difficult for me. I tend to focus on my "failures" instead of keeping my eyes on the prize. For example, yesterdya was a terrible day food wise. But, exercise wise it was really quite good. I went hiking with my son and burned a lot of calories just having fun.
I don't think it is necessary to be positve all the time. There are times when I personally need to look critically at my failures to see what I am doing wrong and how I can change it. I do think, though, that you can get to critical, that you can go from constructive criticism to debilitating criticism. The criticism that says you'll never get it right, so why try. I fight this criticism more than I like to admit. The little voice that screams "You blew it at one meal, so why bother trying to eat right for the rest of the day, or the week, or maybe you should just give up until next month". If I had just kept on eating right at the next meal rather than continuosly starting over the next day or week, I would probably have reached my goals by now, y'all. So today my baby step is to keep eating right at the next meal, even if my choices at the last weren't stellar, and to leave behind obsessing over the wrong choices and simply move on with making the right ones. (easier said than done, right?)
Saturday, October 29, 2011
So, I woke up this morning only to find that it is 41 degrees farenheit outside in South Texas. Praise God!! So, what does this mean? Extra activity points, because I am totally going hiking this weekend! Weather like this doesn't last long around here and I am going to take advantage of it while I can.
So, where do y'all like to hike? My favorite local area is Brazos Bend State Park, but so far my state favorite is Lost Maples State Natural Area.
Friday, October 28, 2011
Okay, so I have a fabulous non-scale victory. I was dressing for work this week and pulled on a pair of nice cropped pants that I just bought over the summer, size 20. As I went about my morning business of dressing and getting the kids going a strange thing happened. I had to keep pulling those pant up. they wouldn't stay on. Nothing I did would convince them to remain on my hips. I was, folks "Lookin' like a fool with my pants on the ground" to borrow a phrase, and it was totally awesome!! I had to go change, since it wouldn't do at all to be flashing my unmentionables at work.
In addition to this, I tried on my other size 20's and while not all of them are literally falling off they are all loose. So it seems I have accomplished somethindg with all of this work I have been doing.
In other news, I have forgotten how hard it is to eat right. I feel like the addict that say "I can quit any time I want to" Because, I totally can stop eating at fast food places whenever I want to, and I can give up refined sugars whenever I want to, and then when I do, they are all I can stinking think about!!! Technically, I am the addict, because while my drug of choice may not be meth or alcohol, food is still my unhealthy addiction. I have been living to eat y'all, eating for comfort, to celebrate, when I am bored, but rarely just because I am hungry, for a very, very long time. So, here is to letting go of that addiction, one baby step at a time....
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
I don't want to say that this is it, I am getting serious, I am going to loose this weight once and for all. Why? Because I have said it before. I have lost the weight before. But for all my motivational words I have not been serious nor have I lost the weight once and for all. So, what I am going to say is that I am taking baby steps. I am eating less now than I was a week ago, I have cut almost 50o calories a day out. I am exercising more than I was a week ago. I am walking twice a day, for fifteen minutes each time. I am tracking more than I was a week ago, even if I only manage to enter in what I had for breakfast. I am running with my son at soccer practice, and I am making alads for lunch instead of bringing pizza or buying hamburgers daily. Small changes that I hope will add up. So that is what I have to say. Today I have made the choice to make small changes towards my goal.
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