Monday, July 29, 2013
Yay, I'm still here! I'm 2 weeks in on my healthier eating habits and exercise and 2.2 pounds down. I was a little disappointed to see only a .2 pound loss this past week. I burned at least 500 additional calories than the previous week and there was only one day during the week I really went wack-a-doo with a high-calorie meal. It does seem pretty suspicious, but I will carry on and just try to make a few adjustments this week. I've been at this game for a long time and I know what the rules are, so I've just got to keep practicing til I get it right.
Finished Week 2, Day 1 of 5K training today, though it was struggle to get myself out the door and it continued til about halfway through. I did a 2-hour hike Saturday that burned about 900 calories and so yesterday I took the day off. Of course my body still grumbled today, but I knew it had to be done. My knees are still going strong. About the only thing hurting is my back, which is what I think happened last time and it took a few weeks for it to stop.
Last week I helped a friend move. There's a whole lot of drrrrrama surrounding that, with them being behind on their mortgage but set to catch up within the next month and a half and the mortgage company said no, we're auctioning your house in 9 days, so get out. So they had to find an apartment and try to cram 2300 square feet worth of stuff into a 1000 sq ft apartment. I told her to get a lawyer and that one phone call would probably get them an extension, but she waited until the last minute and, blah blah blah, but the mortgage company said....you get the picture. She didn't seem to understand that of course they would bully her as long as she lets them and that if they were as bad as they sounded, they probably just wanted to kick them out so they could turn around, buy it back, and resell it at a higher price now that the market is better (my friend bought it as a foreclosure). But hey, she didn't want to push it, so I bit my tongue and just tried to help her out with the moving.
I mean, there reaches a point where you try to help your friends, but they just don't want to be helped. She whines and cries over that house but won't do anything to save it at this point, and that's OK if that's how she wants to do it. I honestly think she's better off. The house had a ginormous heating bill and apparently a brown recluse problem (not discovered until they were packing). Plus the mortgage company never paid their property taxes on time.
Regardless, I'm not going to waste my breath or brain power on it. I'll help where I can and leave it at that. She's a grown woman and while I don't agree with everything she does, it's not the end of the world and she's the one that has to bear the consequences. The only thing I won't tolerate is endless crying over that house months from now. If it gets to that point, we'll have a discussion.
In other news, I may soon have a major decision to make regarding my new job versus a teaching position. I'm trying not to worry until the decision actually has to be made, but it's there in the back of my mind. Possibly more details to come later on in the week.
Here's hoping for a good week for everyone!
Monday, July 22, 2013
Wow, that week off totally derailed me. I thought I had managed to push through it, then whammo, I disappeared for three months.
Part of it was just being flat-out tired. Tired of the hours and hours of working out and just not feeling like I was going to meet my triathlon goal. I think I was a little bored with the workouts as well...especially the bike. I really got to the point that I loathed getting on that bike with a passion. I think it really fell apart once I met that 15 mile goal. I didn't really know how to structure my workouts after that and I felt guilty if I didn't get 15 miles every single time.
The other part was my life getting pretty crazy. I had a friend refer me to a recuriter who was looking for someone in my field for a long-term contract position with a marketing company. After about five interviews, I was offered the job and couldn't turn it down. It allowed me to work form home all the time and it paid more. Who could pass that up?
I started that job on my birthday, May 20. It's been a little over two months now and I really like the job. It's extremely flexible and I had experience, so it was easy to pick up the day to day tasks.
The extra income and time at home has allowed me to finally start on home projects, which took up more time. I am almost finished with my new office and will hopefully put the finishing touches on it this week.
Things with B have been great as well. We went to Mammoth Cave in May and have been to two concerts so far this summer. We're planning a trip to St. Louis in a few weeks. He has, surprisingly enough, been the motivation for me to trudge back here. Apparently he has been gaining weight and when the scale went to over 200 pounds, he hit his breaking point. He's been training for a 5K for next month and has lost 12 pounds in his first month of actively trying to lose weight.
There's been so much going on that I just haven't really had the time nor desire to exercise or even keep my eating in check. The working from home part makes it way easy to overeat, and while painting and home improvement projects keep you active, they are no substitute for workouts even though they leave you just as exhausted.
A few weeks ago I sucked it up and hopped on the scale. I was at 223.4, which is the heaviest I've been in 2 1/2 years. I usually stall out in around 210 when not actively trying to lose weight, but this time that didn't happen. I'm pretty disappointed and disgusted that I now have to bust my butt to just get back to 210. And I will never, NEVER let myself get back to 253.
So time to reset. I tend to do well with laid out workout plans, so I've been walking the last 2 weeks and today was Day 1 of the SP Rookie Running 5K program. I did manage to get some awesome running shoes for my birthday in May, which has prompted the new attempt at running. And trust me, there is a HUGE difference. No knee pain whatsoever. My back is a different story, but I suspect that will go away after a few weeks. The other 2-3 days I'm just trying to walk, swim, help people move...anything that will keep me somewhat active. ST is going to have to wait a few weeks at least.
Diet has mostly been a focus on moderation. I've tried to pair a basic salad with just about any meal that I can add it to to give more volume with fewer calories. Salsa is my new best friend. Fruit, peanut butter, yogurt, and eggs. I've overdone it on calories in the past week, but I know it's way, way down from what I was stuffing my face with before that, so I know I'll get there. Today, in fact, I'm pretty close to 1500 calories for the day.
For now, the overall plan is just to readjust back. I have picked up enough through my various moments of successful weight loss that I know I can pretty much eyeball any food I'm making and be able to determine if it's going to be overkill and what I can cut out to make it reasonable. I don't know if I have the patience to count every single calorie, but I think I can at least write down what I'm eating. I will track when I can and don't sweat it if I don't.
Of course, all of this is subject to change. But last week I posted a 2 pound loss, so so far, so good.
When I was training, eating/exercising kind of became a huge focus for me. I got sucked up by being on SP for hours every day, which was OK because I didn't really have much actual work to do. But now things are different. I want to find a balance between encouraging my Sparkfriends and posting vs. the other things I'm doing. I'm working 40 hours a week, renovating, about to start guitar lessons, trying to be somewhat social with my friends and family, spending time with B and the cats, and some days I'm just trying to find a few hours to quietly read. So you add extra food prep time and exercise to that, and I know if I'm not careful, I'll be up all hours of the night on here. So there's something I have to watch. I can't let all of this consume me like it did before. I think that was part of the reason I quit. It was too hard trying to juggle everything.
Anyways, sorry for the length of the post. I missed you guys! I am slowly making my way through the feed, so I'm glad to be back and am ready to make things stick this time.
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
I have to say I definitely enjoyed my week off. I had planned to get back to routine yesterday, but good old TOM decided to give that idea a swift kick in the pants. I know that day in particular is a rough, painful day for me that leads to workout struggles, so I decided to give it one more day.
However, today, it is time to get back to it. I don't regret my "reset" week at all, but rather I want to embrace it as a challenge. I get caught up in routines and the idea that if life goes wackadoo, I can't follow routine and thus everything falls apart. That's happened before. Last fall I wound up getting injured and after a week off just ended up throwing in the towel and not starting back up. I wanted to challenge myself to get back up and do what I need to do after a break.
Life happens. Illness, exhaustion, injury, bad weather, chores, family...and most of the time, we can schedule exercise so that it is a priority in the midst of all of that. Other times, we may have to cut a workout, take a rest day, or in my case, a rest week. But what I have to focus on is staying with it after life shifts back to normal. Which is what I'm doing this week.
One thing last week I did do that was "healthy" was go on a hike at Burgess Falls here in Tennessee. They are an amazing set of falls. The hike to the outlook isn't bad, in my opinion, but it's pretty strenuous to hike to the bottom of the falls.
My last trip to these falls was about 4-5 years ago. I was at 253 and it was really difficult to get to the bottom of the falls. I even had a moment where I thought I wouldn't make it back up and I started to panic and cry. I just didn't have the strength to pull myself up. I had hoped to come back this time around and see how different it would be.
Unfortunately, we had a lot of rain last Thursday and not only was the water level up, but the spray from the falls had soaked all of the rocks and made them extremely treacherous. A few teenagers and college kids (who have no fear) had braved them, but you could tell they were soaked through from the spray and covered in mud.
We made it about two-thirds of the way down. I finally reached a point where I had to check my pride and say, "OK, this is too dangerous and we need to go back." I felt like a big weenie until B said he was glad I decided to turn around. He didn't want to try it either.
But that trip was definitely different than it was 4 years ago. It was tough, but nothing like it was 50-ish pounds ago. But no worries, I will be back one day. And I WILL make it to the base of the falls again.
Some pics for you:
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
It's been an interesting week. My mini-vacation (a day and a half off from work) was AMAZING! I didn't really do anything exotic. I didn't get a lot accomplished that I had planned. I didn't mow, work on my car, or get teacher applications done, which was the original reason I had planned to take off.
But the cats and I relished the first official days of "open window" season. I did manage to organize my kitchen shelves, which included the dreaded Tupperware black hole. I tossed out some bags full of "I'll throw that away later" stuff like boxes, packing materials, and big empty cat litter packages. I got a bunch of cat beds and blankets washed. I switched out the filter on my room air filter. I got reacquainted with the couch quite a bit, running through some old episodes of the Biggest Loser on Hulu Plus while I spent many hours discovering a new world on Minecraft. I slept in.
Winry enjoying a dose of fresh Spring air.
But you know what? It's really OK. I feel so much better today mentally and physically. I'm proud of what I did accomplish, which is stuff I've been wanting to get to for months. I'm happy I didn't try to get everything done yesterday like I always used to do. I would take a day off, work like a slave all day to get a whole list of things done, and then be exhausted and resentful when my "day off" felt more like work than it should've been.
I've been in a major routine for 3 months now. Work, exercise, meal prep, and sleep. No major time on computer games. No time spent doing anything different. And while that was my longest streak ever of exercise and diet, I could tell I was starting to drag a bit. I needed a recharge moment. And that's exactly what the time off was about. Just kind of doing whatever I felt like doing. And while I felt like being lazy, I got more accomplished than I would have expected.
I ate a LOT of food...and not exactly healthy food either. There was a cheeseburger, chili-cheese fry, veggie pizza, and BBQ nachos involved. A lot of diet root beer. Handfuls of Kashi GoLean cereal. And there hasn't been much exercise. In fact, yesterday was the first day I could walk normally and pain-free after the ridiculousness from the weekend.
But that's OK too. Today I am definitely eating healthier. Oatmeal, greek yogurt, and cocoa roast almonds for breakfast. Probably a Subway roasted chicken sub, low-sodium chicken noodle soup, and an orange for lunch. Apple and low-sodium PB for a snack. Tonight, I'll either go to my parents house or grab some chicken and maybe do a stir-fry.
It's not that I feel like I'm forced back into this though. Honestly, it's because I WANT to. Don't get me wrong. The cheeseburger/fries and the nachos were fantastic. But 2-3 days of food my body isn't used to anymore is definitely making my stomach feel not quite as it should. I think a lot of that is because of all the cheese I've consumed ;) Definitely some bloating going on. But what's weird is that as of right now, I'm not really craving any of that food anymore. It was good, and now that I've eaten it, I don't really want it anymore.
This is something I'm really surprised at. And pleased. Because this gives me more confidence that I can have my moments of indulgence and that they will pass as long as I listen to my body. Today's foods aren't planned because I feel like I have to eat them. They are there because my body is saying, "That was great, and I enjoyed the debauchery same as you, but I need healthier food again." Last week's Captain D's meal started me down this line of thinking, and this has just reinforced it.
One last note. I don't know if any of you have ever heard of Brittany Gibbons, but I just found her blog and I ADORE her. She is an advocate of body acceptance and of being healthy and happy at any weight. I love all her blogs, but I think this one is a good one to post here:
Monday, April 08, 2013
So I did a couple of dumb things this weekend:
1) Ended up having a serious cheeseburger craving that has still not been pacified. Today I am going to indulge and that will be it. No more cheeseburger for you, stomach!
2) Decided to walk 3 MILES on Saturday because the weather was so nice and I wanted to get out and about. THEN I did 4 sets of walking lunges after the walk. I haven't been able to walk or sit down without hissing in pain for the past 2 days.
It figures that about the time I think I've got this thing licked, I wound up getting bit in the behind.
No matter. I am not waving the white flag. Never give up, never surrender!
However, I noticed last week I was really struggling with my workouts. Even when I upped my calories, I couldn't quite get to the level of performance I was looking for. I spent 2-3 days exhausted. My eyes were burning, it was an effort to move (I really only worked out because of habit), and I didn't have energy for anything else. Now I also have the pain from overdoing the walking.
I haven't had a real "rest and recovery" week in 3 months. My biking progressed very well until about halfway through March, and it has now stalled. I'm worried the same is happening with ST as well. Plus, I don't quite have the excitement for my workouts like I used to. And there is a lot of stuff I need to get done around the house, my car, and life chores in general that have been ignored because of all the training.
Because of all this, I'm taking the week off. I may do one bike workout or one swim workout, but it's going to be a light one. And maybe one ST routine using just bodyweight. Once I stop hurting, I'm also going to do some (SHORT) walks. I'm also taking the next day and a half off of work to get some stuff done around the house. It is gorgeous and I plan to take advantage of the weather.
I just feel like I'm burning out. And I'm supposed to add running in the next few weeks, which at this point, is not looking likely unless I do something to get myself 100% back in the game.
So I may not be around much this week. I know this is going to be a challenge for me, but I also know it's necessary if I'm in for the long haul.
Have a great week everyone!
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