Friday, December 01, 2006
I find it hard to believe this is December already.
Looking back to where I was at the first of December a year ago...My hormones were totally out of whack. I was an emotional basket case after coming off 20 years of hormones cold turkey. Son had just moved out of state. I was in constant abdominal pain from the hernia, and again approaching my all time high weight. Not a pretty picture, but it went downhill from there....enough looking back for today.
Slept poorly last night. I made a lovely pot of tea, and drank the whole thing, only realizing that I had ingested a LOT of caffiene....and as a result, was awake til 4 a.m. At around one, I got up and began typing a report. Realized I wasn't going to get to sleep anyway, so I can come home early from the job today at least and take a nap...
I will be on the road most of the day today, and that presents a challenge in itself. When I am tired, I tend to over eat. So the red flag is flying today....At least I can prepare, because I know my pattern....
Thursday, November 30, 2006
I like going on line early...tho this morning, I have already lost two blogs, due to slow SP's...third try must be a charm.
Hubby was in a car accident last night (fortunalely no one was injured) and his truck is trashed. He couldn't drive it, because the bumper was jammed into a tire, so I had to "rescue" him. It was one of those moments, when he and I both realized how special it is to have a "partner" in life, someone to help bail you out, with no judgement or criticism, in a time of distress. Even with his "guy" mood swings (and I know they are always related to anxiety before a big event or traveling...) he is so special, and I feel so blessed to have him in my life. I am so thankful he is ok today. AND that the other person is as well.
The weight I put on over the holiday weekend is gone. I have had to come to grips with the fact that I may not now break 200 by New Years. AND, that is ok. I am still shooting for it, but will not beat myself up if I don't get there. Knowing the average person (thin, regular and obese combined) gains over 5 pounds each holiday season, I know I will at least maintain, and that means I will be 5 pounds ahead of the game. I may still make my goal, however! And if not? I will be like the rest of the folks...starting fresh in the new year!
I am off to investigate horrible allegations of abuse shortly. I am clearly back full swing in the work place, and with the holiday calendar filling up, I feel more social as well. It feels so good to be back to my normal rat race of a life. Still taking out time for meditation, and am trying to squeeze in more exercise. THAT is a challenge right now with the incredible fatigue I feel. I realize I am still only 6 weeks post op. Amazing...I know it will really be another 3-6 months before my endurance is back...but I am so thankful to be this far along on my road to recovery!
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
One of my spark friends said she balances SP with "life" by getting up earlier to read her emails and post on the pages. I decided to try it, and the mornings I have done it this way, seem to fit in with a healthier life style for me.
I slept sooooo good last night! Was really exhausted. Is it just fatigue from my ongoing recovery? or is it the natural need for winter hibernation? It sure felt good what ever it was.
Have wonderful left overs of a small delicata squash, and a container of mixed greens (yummy) for lunch today. I am still up a couple of pounds from the past weekend, and need to cleanse the body with primarily fruits and veggies the next few days....have some really low cal turkey soup for dinner with lots of good veggies, and I should still make my goal of breaking 200 by New Years. It will be tough with the parties ahead, but I CAN DO IT!
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
I am exhausted. Just hit my calorie quota for the day. Off to bed....
Monday, November 27, 2006
Well, no surprise here. After eating large portions of high fat, high sodium food all weekend, the scale was up a few pounds. I did exercise every day, so I think a lot of it is just water weight. We were in the altitude and I tend to retain fluid when I am in high country...I will weigh in on Weds to see where I really am, since I weighed in fully clothed, and after a big breakfast...
Had a wonderful visit with the kids. Some expected conflicts, but they seem to have all resolved, and we are really looking forward to seeing them again in just a few weeks. DIL is celebrating her 40th birthday (most of the guys in our family have married "older women") in CA so we will have at least a brief visit while they are here. And then again, on Christmas.
It was wonderful to see the little ones spend so much time with their grandpa. He was so thrilled with all the attention they gave him. And to think he almost chose not to go with me...
My wound is completely closed. I have decided I am sick of walking and my entire body is screaming for full attention. So...next Sunday afternoon, I will resume my yoga for the first time since I dislocated my kneecap last December. I can hardly wait...The doc said take it slowly, and I will, but it will feel Soooooooo good! Even if everything is modified some. I noticed the other night, after losing 75 pounds, and having my huge hernia repaired, my balance is so much better, and I feel so centered again....
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