Monday, September 15, 2008
Monday, September 15, 2008
Did they agree on a budget? After over two months of partisan disagreement, there is a possibility that our shameful legislators finally came to some kind of compromise and have a budget proposal on the books. Now, it is up to Arnie....
No accountability. None. They continue to get their homes, their travel and their meals paid for. Although their salaries are on hold, there is still the per diem rate that equals more than *I* get paid...AND they will all get paid full salary once the budget is passed (retroactively) Pathetic. If I was to not meet a deadline, I woul lose my job. These guys need to be ousted. Everyone of them.
Now, what does this mean for me? It means I will
1. Get will officially earn my full salary, not federal minimum wage (although we did get full checks this past month)
2. Jobs will open up again...meaning, I will be in a position to transfer out of where I am working now, and husband's job may actually come to fruition.
3. Retirement is nearing....
Picture is of my mom and her sister who had the opportunity to visit after not seeing her since Alzheimer's really began to manifest. My mom is wearing the white $2.00 shirt I got on sale. She LOVES it, and the mardi gras beads I got for her last time we were visiting.
The other picture is my mom and dad on their wedding day.
I'm still eating well...at least with the exception of lunch yesterday. (But i did take a hike afterwards to work off some of it)
Friday, September 12, 2008
One full week of commitment. One full week of eating on track, exercising daily. One full week of staying focused.
Tuesday, I was up by 10 pounds. Today, I weigh exactly what I did a week ago. Go figure.
I am laughing, because it proves my point. I think I weighed more than the scale showed a week ago. It was a fluke that I was down...but really, UP 10 pounds in four days of staying right within the calorie range. Pleeeeeze...how stupid does that scale think I am.
I am going to show it. I will win. It can lie away. I don't care what it says....when I am a size 10 (no goal of size 6 or 8 here!) I will be the one still laughing!
AND I spoke with my old employer, and as soon as the budget is settled (gotta love CA) I will be returning to my old job. Working downtown has been a wonderful break. But, I am ready to return to a job that has more meaning and that is more conveniently located. Doing 10 hour shifts here means I am out of the house just short of 12 hours a day. Doing 10 hours there means I am gone 11. AND I get to telecommute, and am out in the field, and not sitting behind a computer all day EVERY day (well, almost every day). There is still a lot of desk work, but only about 1/2 the time. I am ready. I am really ready.
Saturday, September 06, 2008
I actually woke up feeling thinner today. First time in ages. Feels good.
I think it has to do with the concept recently posted on one of the boards...the difference in being interested in and determined to. I have been interested in losing weight, but as soon as something better comes along, I become interested in it...now I am feeling the determination again. The stubbornness. The feeling that THIS is the most important thing in my life...that I will be STUBBORN....and I am NOT going to compromise.
Two years ago, I gave away 12 bags of gorgeous clothing. And bought a bunch of Walmart/KMart cheapies to get me through the transition so that "Next year when I am at goal, I can buy really nice clothes...." Well, I had to make a trip to the KMart clearance aisle again. NONE of the clothes I bought a year and a half ago fit. They are SO tight. I had to move up a size had to get something to again, help me through this transition. Once I get the first 20 pounds off, I should be able to wear some of the older ones again. And when I get an additional 25 off...by next spring, I will treat myself to new summer clothes!
Friday, September 05, 2008
Had a lovely working trip to Eureka. Because it was such an early trip, I was through late afternoon. And shared dinner with an old friend, went sight seeing and then shopping. Because I was out too late, 3:15 a.m. came REALLY early. Had a 5:40 a.m. flight, and got home around "7:40-ish"...called into work, to say I was going to catch some sleep and be in later. Hubby overheard the call....my new supervisor began questioning my hours. WHAT time did you leave for the airport yesterday? And WHAT time did you check in to the hotel? And what time did you get started this morning? "A little before 4:00 a.m."...Well was it FIVE minutes to four, or 10 minutes to four?...And what time did you get home? ("About 10 minutes ago...." So that was at 7:35? "I don't know the exact time, I didn't look at the clock" Well, was it 7:40, then? I need to know your hours worked....
Funny thing, I DO remember checking the time when I came in the driveway, because I was surprised to see hubby still home (7:33) but I sure didn't know I needed a time clock at the door of the house! My husband, reminded me people are always on their best behavior in the beginning...and it will only get worse from here on out. He is right. HE is now, after hearing that absurd conversation between two "adults", encouraging me to find a new job. He said, and I believe it is true, that as I am ending my career, I need to be in a place that is positive and respectful.
I have seen this woman in action before. I have witnessed her being terribly belittling to others in public places. I thought I could deal with it. I can, but I really don't want to put forth that much effort anymore. Time to keep on laughing at the absurdity of the situation.
Unfortunately, there is no budget in the state and a hiring freeze, so I am probably stuck for at least a few months yet...maybe more. But the irons are in the fire. The writing is on the wall.
On the good side, I have eaten really well into my third day...just got on the scale, and drum roll...keep on laughin'....I gained 3 pounds! (Gotta love that scale. Testing me to see if it, too, can discourage me)
Thankful for humor.
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