Tuesday, April 10, 2007
What a Monday. Gained 2 pounds yesterday but today, stayed within my calorie range, and did a full 3 miles on the eliptical plus walked .5 miles.... Think I made up for yesterday, and will eat right and walk tomorrow. I may have overdone, because my heart rate was WAY up...so need to take it a little slower next time...I was crankin"
Saw the attorney today. No news...he will send my medical record to a physician he uses to determine if I actually have a case or not. He will also give me the paper work to remove the part of my medical record that has clearly documented false information. I will know in a few weeks the status of everything...It is a relief to get rid of this burdon....I also called my surgeon and have an appointment next week to get my questions answered and have him examine me so that I have a better sense of what is going on, or NOT going on. Everyone assumes, because I am a nurse, I should know, but in this case, I am a patient, and haven't a clue.
Oh, I don't want to work tomorrow.
Monday, April 09, 2007
Oh, yes, it has been a day of joy, of celebration...first day in many years I did not go to church to celebrate the power of resurrection. Lots of reasons...no excuses. Just chose to be with dear friends and family. Ate terribly. Loved with all my heart. No exercise, but at the same time no guilt, no negative thoughts.
What joy to see the grandkids...arriving in dresses so frilly, one would think they were going to the Easter Princess' Ball! And to see them first hunting for eggs in the yard, and then playing football with the great young men who were there....and gorging on chocolate, and biting the heads off the peeps! Ah...
And later to see the excitement of a three year old, celebrating her birthday, FINALLY, having had to wait two weeks after her big sister turned five....and watching her pull up her dress and put on her "Dora" underwear OVER her tights, then showing them off for the camera! And putting on her new shoes, and testing them by jumping 42 times to see the sparkle lights flash. And laughing hysterically at the BooBahs....THIS is the joy of new life, in human form. THIS is the communion. This is following the words of Jesus....to love your neighbor (friends, and family) as thyself....
Blessed Are The Children
feel the joy
feel the love
feel the happiness,
that can only be sent
from heaven, above.
know each experience
is exciting and
their eyes opened
wide, seeing clear
each moment is a
representation of the
greatest event in
a young life.
allow them to know
nothing of pain
only our love and
that we are always
Blessed are the children
for they have never met
the one called failure.
nor the one called
Blessed are the children
because they know only
of happiness and love.
(c)copyright 2000 tony weaver
Sunday, April 08, 2007
I am usually at Easter Vigil at this very moment, but this year, hubby is busy working on taxes, and frustrated beyond belief, I have horrible allergies and a headache, and I am really tired after going strong all day. Big day tomorrow, and I am putting the family first. Meaning, I am cooking, cleaning, and getting things ready for an Easter brunch, and the birthday party, (which was supposed to be a dinner thing, and now is in the early afternoon...) The other reality is that my husband usually goes with me on Christmas and Easter, and this year he just won't. I don't seem to have the desire to go alone...I will go to mass on Monday morning instead.
I am still rejoicing in the spirit of Easter, even though I will not be at church...I look at the flowers blooming, the ressurection of the perennials, and the new growth, new life on all the trees. The symbolism of this time of year always enthralls me.
I have an appointment with my attorney on Monday....
I am eating well. Did not exercise today, but am under my calorie max - three days in a row, so I should lose the pounds I picked up over this past week...
Friday, April 06, 2007
Good Friday. I am dressed in black. For several reasons...One, it is traditional for the Friday before Easter. Another, it is the memorial today one of my co-workers' husbands. And...because I am tired and cold, and it summed up my need for warmth and regressions to the womb.
Ate well yesterday. Came in just below my top calories yesterday, and got in at least a 2.5 mile walk. The pedometer indicated it was about 3 miles, but I question that! Ushered a very dark performance of Electradad - based on the Greek tragedy Electra, but set in a barrio of East L.A. - well done, but depressing.
Just again, reminded me of how blessed I am to have been born into my family of origin, to have the resources, the education and the skills to afford what I have. I was poor when I was a single parent, but was able to have hope for a better life, and as I hoped, it happened....there are so many people who are raised without hope, without resources, and without education...
I am back today, logging calories on my spread sheet....after several months of NOT counting, I am well aware that I have been eating as to not GAIN weight, but not to lose weight either. Maybe my body needed to stabilize, maybe I was rationalizing, maybe this is my next lesson....whatever it is, I realize I HAVE to keep count of calories to be successful.
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Well, after a great start yesterday, I fell apart later on...not terribly, but enough that my calories were not within my range...probably not too much, but still lost count at lunchtime.
I didn't exercise either....planned on taking the kids to the park, and walking a lot while I was there. But we ended up at the library, with me SITTING and reading books to the kids...by the time I got home, after working most of the day, then taking the kids in the afternoon, and driving home at peak traffic hour...I was pooped. Sigh. AND my belly is aching.
I am being religious in counting calories today. Although I am going out to lunch...I insisted on going somewhere healthy and I will have good options, but again, the guessing game with actual cals. I am ushering at the theatre tonight, and will only have fruit for dinner, so I should be ok...
I am meeting a sparker for the first time today, and we are going to walk for 40 minutes after work (would go longer, but I have to be at the theatre) so that will help. My walking buddy at work is gone today...
This weekend will be rough...at least Sunday, but for Easter brunch, I will be bringing my seaweed salad, and will have fruit and a little strata and ??? It is grandbaby's third birthday, so (per her request) we will have corn dogs, pasta shell salad and fruit with a rice-crispie treat cake for dessert....I'll add greens to that menu for the adults and will get some good aerobics in on Saturday and Monday, that is for sure!
Life goes on....
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