Friday, February 11, 2011
OK. I moved to Onderland yesterday....but I am afraid I got kicked out already. Lost the lease...in other words, with the stress of the grand opening and gala tomorrow and a potluck breakfast, going away luncheon and book club dinner all yesterday, and dinner guest tonight with brownies for dessert...I caved.
Yup. I ate.
And feel crappy.
Am I sabataging myself? Probably. But I'll be ok. Just get me through tomorrow. And then Saturday off to Las Vegas. I can sleep. We have fine dining plans and LOTS of exercise...Just 3 days to relax, observe the insanity and regroup.
I am NOT weighing daily this week...We get back Tuesday night and I will wait til Weds. Then I will be accountable and if I was booted out of onderland? I'll move back the following week. I really DO want to stay...It is definitely worth the higher rent.
Monday, February 07, 2011
WHERE did it go? I feel like I have been buried in work. And now I wonder if I've dug myself into a hole...ha ha ha ha.
OK. BIG events this past week! HUGE events. As some of you know, I have been involved on the ground floor of volunteer coordinating and training and serving as head usher along with one other person for the new performing arts center in my neighborhood. First of all it is FABULOUS! Second of all...it feels like I have been in labor and am now about to really deliver and reap the joy.
Ribbon Cutting was Friday. I was on my feet for almost 7 hours. Working as a greeter, the head usher, and then touring special guests and patrons.
First open performance was Yesterday. Again, on my feet running around like a wild woman. We had 27 ushers and almost a full house. It was a dress rehearsal of sorts...but excellent talent ranging from the symphony orchestra to the high school jazz band, a marching band, ballet troupes and choral groups. Nineteen in all, in about 2 1/2 hours...testing lighting, staging and sound. AND breaking in several brand new volunteers.
I felt like a one man band. Flashlight dangling from a wrist. Ticket scanner attached by a strap to my hand. Walkie talkie hooked on my waist band. Speaker wires and earphone wires running inside my blouse and out the neck. Two clips in place and a lanyard name badge hanging around my neck as well. Add a clipboard, lots of note paper and there I was... There were a few glitches, as expected, but the community is so enthusiastic and excited about this new venue that they were all in good spirits and overlooked almost anything that was the least bit inconvenient.
Today...open house and tours. Very exciting. Even with superbowl, we had a full house and each of us guides (about 15) did multiple tours of parties as large as 20. I am beginning to feel like a pro. The center once seemed so huge, so daunting...now it feels like home. I used to get lost, now I know every shortcut to the venues, the recording studio and the black box! (which I had a REALLY hard time finding a few weeks back....)
AND we had our first injury today. An elderly gentleman tripped on the stairs coming from the parking lot...lots of blood. LOTS of blood, but no apparant major injury. Won't go into details. Just know I was able to provide first aid until the paramedics got there and I am sure he will be fine...Never a dull moment.
Tomorrow another administrative meeting at the college, then I need to finish my 18 page application, get my finger prints taken so I can start getting paid (just over minimum wage) for the work I am doing...too bad all the hundreds of hours these past few months can't fall into that catagory.
Who has had time to eat???? I am transitioning back to whole foods, but am finding that being onsite with no access to food is challenging. So I am still using some of the Medifast bars and pretzels to keep me going. I can mix a shake and get down 200 calories of high protien in a quick minute. with no mess or storage issues (no fridge, no place to store food)
I've added fruit back into my diet too...time to add more carbs. We ate our first (and only) grapefruit off what was our mystery tree, and it was a POMELO!!! My favorite! Hopefully more next year. We are loaded with oranges, and lots of mandarins, too...I am loving the REAL vitamin C.
I haven't weighed for two days. I may have broken the 200 barrier. I am SOOOO curious, but think I will torture myself and wait until my Weds weigh in.
In the middle of all this craziness, we had a distant cousin here as a house guest all weekend. He was gone much of the time, as were we. But we joined him last night at the juggling fair and performance (in a million years I would never have known about this event, if not for him...) and we had a GREAT time.
I am headed for bed now. Caught up with my story here...So many supportive friends, that I have failed to acknowledge. ONE of these days my life WILL slow down. Up coming week? You wouldn't believe it if I shared it all...
Thursday, January 06, 2011
I did it last time. Set a 22 pound goal. Gasped as I did it...but 12 weeks later, at the end of BLC14, I'd lost 25.6 pounds! So this time, I am upping the ante. I am setting a 25 pound goal. That will be 12% of my body weight.
Twelve per cent. Whew. Sounds like so much. But the gal that won the challenge last time did just that. Lost 12%. So, competitor that I am (she said with a snicker...) I decided to use her as my own motivation and reach that new goal! I can do it.
Still feeling like crap. When I looked at my throat last night, I totally freaked. I won't provide all the details but I went in today to see a FNP. She swabbed my throat and I'll get the results tomorrow. Strep, mono, bronchitis or ??? I know so many people who have been unable to kick their illnesses this season. I've felt way sicker over the years, but it has now been three full weeks, and with the exception of a few days, I have NO energy, and am still fighting whatever is going on in my body. It will be nice to know.
Ate 100% on track today. Going for the gold.
Friday, December 31, 2010
Thought I would just copy and paste my post from the Thanksgiving Community DECEMBER 2010 gratitude thread...
Grateful today for this marker...New Years Eve, a chance to REALLY take time to look back and review the events that have impacted our lives. All for good, tho they may not seem so as we pass through some of them.
Each year, mid Jan or early Feb, my best friend and I host a women's luncheon. This tradition has been going on since 1982. Wow. We gather with a group of friends, some of which we only see on that day each year...and pot luck. Eat and drink for an hour or two, then get down to business. We pass out index cards. This year one side will say 2010 and one will say 2011. We each take a few moments to anonymously write down the accomplishments, our gifts and trials of the previous year, and on the other side, write down goals and dreams (NOT resolutions) for the upcoming year. All cards go into a basket.
Then the fun begins.
We each draw a card and then someone starts. The first card is read aloud, and we all shout out who we think it is (usually pretty easy, but sometimes we have no clue) and that person then stands in the middle of the cirlce, is toasted by all, and has time to share or expound on anything they want. Then, that person reads aloud the card they now hold...and so on until each woman is honored, and has their moment to share their previous year. Kind of like we do here, on a regular basis.
We collect and save the cards and it is amazing to look back over all these years, and where we have come, how we have grown, and how we have all been richly blessed.
I have been thinking about it all day, and suppose this should be my blog, rather than my list of gratitudes, but it triggers my thinking.
I am SO grateful for my life...every aspect of it. And yes, this has really been a tough past few months for me...but I can see the purging, and the polishing that has taken place. I am so excited, as I look forward to a new calendar year, to see what it holds for me (and all of you)
I guess I will post it as a blog, too...heh heh heh...
Here's to a safe and joyous night tonight, however you spend it.
Now, in addition to all of that, I have MORE gratitudes
* For ALL you wonderful friends. Those of you who have faithfully stopped by, read my blog, made comments, provided support during some tough times, and encouraged me always. I haven't always been there for YOU...at least in terms of writing anything or acknowledging you here. BUT, you have been acknowledged and held in my heart. I truly support and appreciate each and every one of you. I SO thank you for sharing your dreams, your goals, and your trials.
* My weight loss. Who knew I really had it in me? I have (with this month as a pre planned exception) lost a solid 55 pounds. I am going strong with my eating plan, and hope to be close to goal by the time we leave for Europe at the end of May.
* My family. How blessed I am to still have my family of origin intact. Even though we are totally dysfunctional, we still "function", and still gather to celebrate from time to time. I love my hubby, my son and his wife, my grandkids, and every day, thank God, for our good health, good jobs, good minds, and the love we share.
* My dear body. The one that has known me since I was in my mother's womb. The one who has faithfully carried me through this life. The one who has graciously forgiven me for mistreating it over these years. The one who has complained, and not been listened to. The one who is now becoming a little tired, and who hopefully, will endure now that I have FINALLY told it how much I truly love and appreciate it, for being what it is...
Friday, December 24, 2010
Let me start by saying I believe in Christmas magic (derived from the Greek word magus, same root as Magi)
But this season, starting before Thanksgiving has been just plain weird. Depressing. Stressful. Lonely. Quiet. Unusual for me. VERY unusual.
Almost two weeks ago, Santa came to our house (see last blog) and restored my faith in magic, which had been missing this year. I held on to that while I cried at my girlfriend's burial, while I worked til the wee hours to finish a project, while I struggled to sleep, while I was home for a full week, too sick to even get dressed...and when I had to cancel our trip to spend Christmas with our family. Today it hit. I cried and I cried. I felt empty, fat, unloved...I did some heavy venting (thank you hubby for pretending to listen) and came to resolution about some things, and then declared I am still waiting for the REAL magic...even though it seems like we will be alone for Christmas, I know that God has always provided for me and has met my every need. I NEED to be with people, friends and family, during this special season. I have given up every social event due to honoring unpleasant commitments or secondary to illness...
So today, it happened. Out of nowhere...Christmas Eve, midnight mass with next door neighbors. Christmas midday, open house with other neighbors, Christmas dinner with son and his family.
The magic happened.
And the upside of all this alone time? NO temptations to eat off plan. (Except for the night I sent my hubby out to Trader Joes for their dark chocolate coated caramels...the BEST) Weight is still coming off, IN DECEMBER despite inactivity.
More upside? I read Lynn's blog today (Thanks, Maha) and it touched me SO deeply. Restored my hope, the magic in my life. Make sure you read it.
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